Author: joell55

  • YOURSKY, Chapter 5

    YOURSKY, Chapter 5

       YOURSKY, Chapter 5

    In this universe, how many people can make our hearts race?

    “…”

    If I had to count right now, there’s one person…

    “Your cheeks aren’t red anymore…”

    And that one person in this universe is Muenfah.

    If he could turn back time, Theerak would absolutely refuse to drink that glass of liquor, even if it meant getting punched by Phii Oh. Because that glass of liquor is the reason his heart still flutters to this day.

    But no matter how hard his heart beats, Theerak has to force himself to wrap everything up.

    “I want to thank you, Phii Fah, for helping me that day.”

    “…”

    “…And I also want to apologize for almost getting you in trouble. If Phii

    Oh had pressed charges, the one who caused you trouble would’ve been me,

    Rak.”

    “Anything else you want to say?”

    “Are you in a hurry, Phii Fah?…”

    “…”

    “Uh, I’m not trying to bother you, Phii Fah. I asked that because your question made me feel like you have to rush off to do something else.” Theerak waved both hands frantically, trying to explain his true intentions to the other party.

    At first, he’d asked without thinking, but upon reflection, he wanted to slap himself. That question didn’t sound cute at all—it was more like he was trying to provoke Muenfah.

    Theerak couldn’t read the other’s mind because Muenfah rarely showed emotions on his face. His handsome features were usually calm and lifeless. He smiled occasionally, but those smiles were so faint that if you didn’t pay close attention, you wouldn’t even notice. Theerak thought that if it weren’t for Muenfah’s perfectly sculpted face, many girls would’ve stopped swooning over him and turned to someone more playful and charming— someone who could make their hearts flutter more easily.

    Muenfah didn’t respond. He simply glanced at the watch on his wrist before looking up at Theerak again. At that moment, Theerak realized he didn’t have much time left. He was about to invite Muenfah to dinner at his house as per his father’s request, but Muenfah cut in first.

    “I have one hour of personal time left before the restaurant opens…”

    “I know you have work to do, Phii Fah…”

    “That one hour I have left… do you want all of it, Rak?”

    “…”

    Muenfah probably didn’t realize that his question had mercilessly yanked Theerak’s soul out of his body. Right now, Theerak was just an empty shell. It wouldn’t be surprising if he answered slowly—or not at all.

    “So, what do you say… If you don’t want to stay and talk for the hour, I can drop you off at home. How’s that?”

    “Uh…” He really wanted to answer Muenfah, but his brain wasn’t cooperating at all.

    “…”

    “Actually, staying here for an hour is fine with me, since I have to wait for

    Phii Babe to pick me up anyway.”

    Muenfah nodded in acknowledgment. He pulled out his wallet and placed it on the table alongside his phone, making it clear to Theerak that he was prepared to spend the remaining hour with him.

    “When I asked if there was anything else you wanted to say, it’s because I also have something to talk about. I’d like us to finish one at a time so we can clear things up properly, step by step.”

    “So that’s how it is…”

    “So, does you have anything else to say?”

    “Actually, yes… my dad wants to invite you to have dinner at our house.

    He said he’d like to thank you in person.”

    “It’s just a small thing, no need for thanks. But since he’s inviting me like this, I won’t refuse. Plus, I was already planning to thank him myself for not pressing charges against Phii Oh, worried that I’d get dragged into trouble too…”

    “…”

    “When?”

    “Tomorrow. Because Dad’s off work only until tomorrow. It’d probably be in the afternoon. Is that okay with you, Phii Fah?”

    “Sure, I’ll come by tomorrow then.”

    “…” Theerak nodded slightly, staring at Muenfah—someone many described as intimidating. In truth, this Muenfah, who belonged to everyone, was so kind and polite that he didn’t dare act stubborn with him anymore.

    “Where’d that stubborn kid from earlier go?”

    “The stubborn kid can’t handle cool air, you see. Once he gets some AC, the stubbornness disappears.”

    Theerak’s reply made the usually expressionless face react. The corners of Muenfah’s mouth lifted slightly into a faint smile. Did Muenfah even realize that his barely noticeable smile could draw one from him too?

    I made Phii Fah smile, huh.

    “I am done with my part. It’s your turn now, Phii Fah.”

    Muenfah nodded before speaking. “As for the thanks, I’ll personally thank your dad myself since I’ll have the chance. But there are two other things I wanted to talk to you about.”

    “…”

    “First… I don’t know if Dom already told you about this before you came here, but I’m guessing he didn’t, since he said it’d be better for me to clear it up with you myself. My business partner lied to the customers in the shop that day, saying we were a couple. And one of them was a friend from my group who misunderstood too. My friends will probably ask or tease you about it when they see you at university. So, I wanted to apologize because it might make things awkward for you.”

    “…”

    “But don’t worry too much. Most of the customers who heard about it that day aren’t university kids we know—they’re all working adults. As for Phii Oh’s friends, Real said they didn’t hear it. It’s just Tim, a friend from my group, who believes we’re secretly dating, and maybe a few others since Tim told them. But I’ve already denied it, saying it’s not true. They’ll lose interest soon enough.”

    “Yes.”

    “I am sorry, okay? I’m also apologizing on behalf of Real. He said those things because he wanted people to think I was protecting my partner, so it wouldn’t look too bad. But no matter how we try to explain it, that day I really was out of line, and I admit it.”

    Did Muenfah realize how adorably he spoke? Theerak was now convinced that someone already so good-looking—beyond what he thought possible— could make themselves exponentially more charming with the sweet, carefully chosen words he used for each person he talked to.

    Theerak didn’t know how childish or innocent he seemed in Muenfah’s eyes for the older man to use such gentle words, as if speaking to a threeyear-old.

    But in reality, Muenfah had beaten up Phii Oh so badly his teeth broke. When Theerak first saw Phii Oh at his house, he was shocked and thought it wasn’t surprising that Phii Oh’s father was furious. Before coming here,

    Theerak had secretly thought Muenfah might be some kind of violent thug.

    But from what he’d experienced today that line— “That day, I was really out of line, and I admit it”—made him seem like a delinquent who deserved forgiveness.

    “I understand everything now, including Phii Real. At first, I heard about this from Phii Tim, and I was a little upset with Phii Real for telling people like that. But now I’m not mad at anyone anymore… I understand you too,

    Phii Fah.”

    “You heard it from Tim?”

    Theerak nodded before saying, “Yes, I found out from Phii Tim, not from Phii Dom. Phii Tim misunderstood that we were together, so he came to ask me to help…”

    “Help hold the cake at the birthday party, right?”

    “Yes.”

    Muenfah sighed, glancing at his phone buzzing with constant message notifications. Someone sending those texts was annoying him right now. Then he turned his attention back to the person in front of him. “The last thing I wants to say to you is… I want you to take good care of yourself.

    Don’t trust people too easily.”

    “Y-Yes, Phii Fah.”

    “And from now on, if anyone asks you to do something for them, think it over carefully first. Don’t agree right away—especially if it’s someone asking you to talk to me on their behalf like this again.”

    “Even though I nodded to Phii Tim, I never planned to come ask you, Phii Fah. It’s not something I should do. I know that… And I also know you already turned Phii Tim down. How could I ask you to do something you don’t want to? If I did that, I’d be way too cruel.”

    Muenfah sighed again as he watched the smaller figure explain in a rush without pausing for breath. Those almond-shaped eyes, which had once met his gaze confidently, were now lowered to the dark brown table, seemingly out of fear. “Am I scaring you right now?”

    “Well… a little, yes. Because just now, your voice got stern, and your eyes started looking strict too.”

    The owner of those chubby-cheeks admitted it, and his avoidance of eye contact confirmed he was genuinely starting to feel scared.

    “I am sorry, okay? I was upset with Tim for using you… Stop being scared and look at me, please.”

    Muenfah gave a faint smile when those eyes finally met his again.

    “From now on, I will be more careful, think things through, and not agree to things so easily. And Phii Fah, you’re not allowed to scold me like you did earlier, okay?”

    “Yes, I won’t scold.”

    “…” Muenfah’s reply made Theerak grin so wide his eyes squinted.

    “Whatever you want me to do, if it’s really what you want, I; Phii Fah will do it.”

    Muenfah knew he wasn’t great at indulging people—most of the time, he’d choose to say no. But when it came to Theerak, he suddenly became someone who couldn’t refuse and found himself wanting to indulge him instead.

    But only with this one person.

    “When you get stern, it’s scary, but yours is kind of cute.”

    Muenfah raised an eyebrow in curiosity. “Someone like me can be cute?”

    “Of course! In my eyes, you Phii Fah have a cute side.”

    “Panli said his chubby-cheeked friend is a total flatterer… seems like it’s true.”

    “Li’s such a gossip.”

    The smaller guy spoke softly, wrinkling his nose in mild annoyance. Muenfah wanted to reach out and pinch that little nose off, but he could only keep his hands resting on his thighs as usual, letting his thoughts flow with his true feelings.

    What kind of person is this… so small like a puppy, but as cute as the whole world?

    Theerak knew that both he and Muenfah had run out of things to talk about. Everything had been cleared up and settled in just a few minutes. And because the creeping silence in the glass room kept nudging him to think of new conversation topics, Theerak decided to pull out a simple, unintentional question that popped into his head to ask the other.

    “Phii Fah, Is that all you wanted to talk to me about?”

    “Yes, that’s it…”

    “…”

    Muenfah answered with simple words. He seemed like he wanted to say something more but stayed quiet, which caused our conversation to be replaced by silence once again.

    It was strange how only silence could wedge itself between our exchanges. Even though it made the conversation feel a bit disjointed, Theerak still felt he could keep going with Muenfah. Yet the awkwardness that should’ve come from two strangers talking one-on-one for the first time, so closely, couldn’t seep in at all.

    But whether it was silence or awkwardness Neither was welcomed in this moment.

    “Normally, Phii Fah isn’t great at talking.”

    But Theerak would welcome the silence caused by someone who wasn’t much of a talker himself,

    At first, Theerak welcomed this person who didn’t talk much but could explain things clearly and gently with a smile. Theerak grinned widely, his eyes squinting in that signature chubby-cheeked way his friends always found especially endearing.

    Then he said something he thought might make the other feel good.

    “I will start the conversation with you myself… since you have already given all his time to me, right?”

    “The remaining forty-five minutes are mine, right?”

    Theerak nodded. Truthfully, being the one constantly asking questions wasn’t easy. And since they weren’t close, some questions might feel too intrusive. So, Theerak had to think carefully before asking, even if it was difficult and required a lot of thought. But for the sake of those forty-five minutes Theerak believed he could do it.

    “What did you have with your rice this morning, Phii Fah?” A basic question like this was the safest bet.

    “I just had coffee, Phii Fah.”

    “No food?” Maybe it was the puzzled look on his face, because Muenfah gave a faint smile.

    “No, just coffee, then I came straight to the restaurant.”

    “Huh? Why didn’t you eat? It’s getting late—aren’t you hungry, Phii Fah?” “It depends on the day. Some days, coffee alone keeps me full all day.

    Other days, I get hungry.”

    “You can’t just eat based on your mood, Phii Fah. What if you get a stomach ulcer?”

    “Well, if that happens, would you take me to the doctor?”

    “…” Wait… wasn’t he supposed to be the one asking questions? Why was Muenfah suddenly turning it back on him?

    And that question from Muenfah… it made his stomach churn as if he were the one with an ulcer.

    Theerak lowered his eyes, the embarrassment he’d shaken off earlier creeping back to greet him again. He guessed Muenfah was a quiet type who loved to tease, because the guy just couldn’t stop messing with him. Like right now—his face was burning up because he’d caught a glimpse of someone faintly smiling, staring right at him.

    It felt like deliberate teasing to make him even more flustered…

    “That question from you might be too hard. Can we switch to a new one?”

    Theerak looked up at the other, saying, “I haven’t given you permission to start asking questions yet, Phii Fah.”

    “I forgot that for these remaining forty-five minutes, you’re the boss.”

    He was definitely teasing on purpose…

    Theerak didn’t understand himself at all—really didn’t get it. Why did this guy make him feel all fluttery, his heart race, and so shy? But it was happening, and Theerak had to admit that Muenfah was ridiculously good at making him feel this way.

    “Do you want to be the one asking questions now, Phii Fah?” He forced the words out, even though his cheeks were so hot they might explode.

    “I don’t really want to be the one asking, but there’s something I’m curious about that’s forcing me to.”

    “Out of respect for your curiosity, I’ll let you ask one question, Phii Fah.”

    “Have you eaten yet?”

    Even a simple “Have you eaten?” could make him shy. Muenfah was really good at this. “I ate this morning.”

    “Can I ask another?”

    “Fine, fine, one more question.”

    “Wanna grab some food together?”

    Ohhh! Theerak wanted to wail out loud so Muenfah could hear how much his questions were torturing him. Muenfah was asking basic questions too, but why did they feel so special and different? Theerak didn’t understand himself again—really didn’t get it. It was just an invitation to eat; why was he so flustered? He wasn’t usually this shy. Normally, he was more stubborn and playful, but around Muenfah, he turned into a blushing mess.

    “…”

    “Take some time to think… I will step out to smoke and wait.”

    “…”

    Theerak didn’t look up at the other person, only nodding in response. The sound of a creak, like a door opening, made him quietly sigh before lifting his gaze to the empty chair across from him, where the tall figure was no longer sitting. However, the phone and burnt-brown wallet were still in their original spots, along with a pack of cigarettes he hadn’t noticed the owner place there earlier.

    He really wanted to pick up his phone and call someone—anyone—to rant about how Muenfah kept teasing him into embarrassment over and over. But a knock on the glass from outside caught his attention, making him turn to look.

    The tall figure with the usual calm, expressionless face was standing outside, staring at him. One hand, holding a cigarette, hung loosely by his side, drawing Theerak’s eyes to the Chinese character tattoo he knew the meaning of well. Muenfah raised his free hand, rubbing circles on his stomach, before mouthing something…

    And though Theerak couldn’t hear his voice at all he could still read his lips.

    Muenfah was saying…

    ‘I’m hungry.’

    Theerak didn’t reply. He was still stunned by the unexpectedly cute gesture from the other. Muenfah’s sulky expression, in his own unique style, was ridiculously adorable T___T. Theerak’s heart melted into a puddle.

    When they first met, he must’ve been too nervous to notice, but today Muenfah looked especially good. Sure, he always looked good, but today he managed to look even better. The tall, usually stoic-faced man—who was now slightly sulky—wore a black Hawaiian shirt with white leaf patterns scattered across it, paired with ripped black jeans, black Vans sneakers, and, of course, that pricey branded watch he never went without.

    Theerak wanted to give him the nickname “Minimal Pieces, Million-Level

    Looks.”

    So handsome it’s exhausting… exhausting because he knew a chubby puppy like himself couldn’t even come close to half of Muenfah’s charm.

    And because Theerak had his head down, lost in self-pity over his own lack of looks, the tall guy demanded his attention again by knocking on the glass once more. Theerak looked up to see Muenfah exhaling white smoke into the air. As the smoke dissipated, his face became clearer. The one vying for his attention didn’t say a word, but suddenly, he smiled.

    A smile Theerak had never seen before and one he was sure very few ever got to witness.

    …Not a wide grin, not a bright smile but a smile like the gentle morning sunlight.

    And it was the next thing Muenfah tried to communicate through the glass that made it even more special:

    ‘Are you okay?’

    That gentle morning sunlight felt warmer than ever that day.

    #However Many Thousand Skies

    … I don’t know if it’s because he couldn’t stand seeing Muenfah’s whining face or because he was hungry himself, but Theerak ended up agreeing to eat together, even though he didn’t really want to. Despite his excellent people skills, eating with someone he wasn’t close to wasn’t easy at all. Theerak had to be cautious about everything, maintaining proper manners while dining together, which made him feel somewhat uncomfortable.

    But it was probably that smile, wasn’t it, that stirred his stomach and made him say yes?

    “What does Rak want to eat?” Muenfah asked while waving to the staff standing outside.  Phii Fah, is your restaurant super expensive or what… I only brought three hundred baht.” Theerak said. He wasn’t expecting to be treated; he was ready to pay for himself. But Muenfah’s place looked so fancy that he had to check his wallet to see if he had enough.

    “I’ll treat you. you probably won’t eat until I go broke, right?”

    “You’re underestimating me too much. I could eat the entire your restaurant!”

    “If you can eat that much, why don’t you eat the owner too?”.

    Theerak was starting to have doubts about Muenfah. Was Muenfah really bad at talking, or did he just want to see Theerak turn into a chatterbox? The one who should be blushing and shy was supposed to be the quiet Muenfah, but instead, Muenfah kept making him blush nonstop. He couldn’t entirely blame Muenfah, though—he had to blame himself too for having such low immunity. Everything the other guy said made him flustered.

    “No, I won’t eat you. you’re not tasty.”

    “But the people who’ve tried him say he’s delicious. Between those who’ve tried and those who haven’t, who should we believe?”

    Theerak froze, speechless, and chose to look away again. He wasn’t exactly thrilled about constantly avoiding eye contact and turning into a coward like this. But anyone who saw the shift in Muenfah’s gaze would’ve done the same. That look in Muenfah’s eyes was deep, cunning, and almost predatory when he said that line.

    And it was that low, throaty chuckle from someone that made Theerak even less willing to meet his gaze. Deep down, though, the coward who’d been teased nonstop since arriving at the restaurant was starting to feel like fighting back. Otherwise, he’d just keep losing to Muenfah every time.  “So, you’re not good at talking, huh? I don’t see any sign of that. Plus, your words sound like something a flirt would say.” Theerak said, aware that his voice was so soft it sounded more like a mumble than a proper retort. It was because his heart was pounding—that’s why he didn’t dare speak louder, afraid his voice would tremble along with it.

    “I’m really not good at talking. But you are trying to talk more because if I have to keep talking and asking all the time while you don’t respond at all— like you do with others—Phii Fah you know that eventually, you’d just end up being boring.”

    Theerak looked up to meet Muenfah’s eyes and suddenly felt guilty for misjudging him.

    “But the flirt thing, I admit… though only in the past. I quit that a long time ago.”

    “…”

    So he hadn’t misjudged him after all… That look in Muenfah’s eyes was totally that of a sly tiger.

    -___-

    Crack!

    The sound of the door opening made both of them turn to look. A smiling waitress walked into the glass-walled room and handed them the menu. Theerak flipped through just one page and immediately knew his budget wouldn’t cut it. He’d have to order something simple—the cheapest thing— and it happened to be his go-to comfort food from his university days.

    “Do you have crispy pork basil rice?” Theerak asked.

    Before the staff could even respond, the shop owner, who had been looking down at the menu, interjected, “Order whatever you want. The chef can make anything.”

    Uh, oh… then I will have crispy pork basil over rice.”

    “Okay.”

    Theerak handed the menu back to the staff. She took it and flashed him a pretty smile. Theerak smiled back politely, but someone who had just looked up from the menu glared at him so intensely that he quickly shut his mouth. He hadn’t expected Muenfah to be so protective of the staff. Though, it made sense—she was really cute, and her face reminded him of his ex.

    “Want a fried egg with that?”

    “Uh, sure, I’ll take it.” Theerak stammered in response because Muenfah’s unusually calm tone threw him off. It felt like Muenfah was mad at him, and some kind of vibe radiating from him made Theerak’s throat go dry. The female staff member also seemed flustered, like she’d just done something wrong.

    “I’ll have fish porridge…”

    “Y-Yes.”

    “Two glasses of water… and a small bowl of ketchup on the side for Rak.”

    “Okay.”

    As soon as the staff member left, silence blanketed the entire glass room. Muenfah, who usually liked staring into his eyes, chose to avoid his gaze this time and focused on his phone instead. Theerak didn’t know if Muenfah was upset about him smiling at the staff or something else, but he didn’t like this atmosphere at all.

    …He didn’t know how many minutes were left but he wouldn’t let even a single second pass with this kind of silence between them.

    “Phii Fah…”

    “Yes.” Muenfah answered, but he still wouldn’t look up, just like before.

    “Is something wrong with you, Phii Fah?”

    “Nothing…”

    “There is… I can tell.” Theerak knew it was odd to act like he could read Muenfah’s mind when they weren’t even that close. A conversation lasting less than an hour couldn’t possibly let him understand Muenfah that well. But something told him Muenfah was feeling uneasy.

    “I am hungry.”

    “Phii Fah… look at me right now.” He knew he couldn’t order him around, but he still wanted Muenfah to listen. And when those sharp eyes finally lifted from the phone screen and met his again, Theerak felt a little relieved that Muenfah was willing to hear him out. “Did I accidentally do something to upset you?”

    “No…”

    “Is it because I smiled at that staff member? I wasn’t trying to flirt with the staff at your shop, okay? Don’t misunderstand, Phii Fah.”

    “She’s cute, like Mew. It wouldn’t be strange if you wanted to look at her.”

    “Huh… Phii Fah you know Mew too?”

    “I’ve just seen her face a few times. Mew was a junior of my ex.”

    “…” The world sure is small—our exes know each other too.

    “So, your type is like this? Small and cute?”

    “I don’t really have a type… If I feel something, I feel it. If I don’t, no matter what, I just don’t.” Just like with Mew—she tried everything, but he felt nothing.

    You seem hard to love.”

    “I don’t know. I’m not someone who craves romantic relationships all that much. It’s more like, if it happens, great; if not, that’s fine too. So I’m not sure how hard I am to love. Mew was my first girlfriend, but we didn’t last long before breaking up.”

    “If I asked why you broke up, that’d probably be inappropriate…”

    Theerak smiled. Even though Muenfah’s face remained expressionless as usual, oddly enough, Theerak could tell he was curious about him. “You can ask. Even though it’s a pretty sensitive topic. Normally, I don’t talk about it much because it makes me feel guilty and sad again. But it’s been over a year now, and I can handle it.”

    “Then you don’t have to talk about it.”

    “But I want to. Maybe today that lump of guilt might finally come loose.” Theerak gave a small laugh, though inside he didn’t feel as light as he appeared. “Mew was a friend from a different department. We met on orientation day. Back then, I wasn’t close with Panli, Joy, or Type yet. Firstyears tend to stick together in big groups, and we had a lot of faculty-wide classes, so I got closest to Mew. But I had no idea she secretly liked me until one day she confessed. She said she liked how kind Theerak was, always helping her and being gentle.”

    “…”

    “But the bad part was that I didn’t feel that way about her. And it got worse because she chose to confess on a friend’s birthday, with more than ten people overhearing what she said. Then she asked me to date her. I was shocked and flustered. I’d been confessed to a lot in high school, but never asked out in such a crowded place like that. And because there were so many people, I didn’t have the heart to reject her. In the end, I agreed to date Mew.”

    It wasn’t that you didn’t have the heart… it was that you were respecting

    Mew.”

    “Maybe that’s true. I was afraid she’d be hurt if I rejected her. But I should’ve been more honest about my feelings toward her. Mew was an amazing girl—she tried so hard to make me smile and always cared for me.

    But it was me who couldn’t feel anything more for her beyond friendship.”

    “…”

    “And in the end, I made someone as good as Mew cry. I decided to break up with her, and it just so happened to be exactly two months since we started dating. I forgot. If I’d remembered even a little… I wouldn’t have said those words, wouldn’t have done that, Phii Fah…”

    “…”

    “That time was awful for me. I wanted Mew to know I wasn’t any less upset than she was. I still wanted to be her friend like before, but I understood it’d be hard for her. So I chose to study alone and let her stay with that big group of friends. Then, in the second semester, I got close with Panli, and later Joy and Type joined in. That’s when I started feeling a lot better and became the chubby-cheeked friend of the group. That’s me…” Theerak ended his story with the brightest tone he could muster, hoping Muenfah wouldn’t feel bad about it. He just wanted to share his story.

    A story he only shared with a select few… and now, one of those people included Muenfah.

    Throughout the time Theerak was telling his story, Muenfah could sense the overwhelming guilt the other still carried. Even though Theerak said he could handle it, Muenfah knew he wasn’t managing it well enough—his eyes were watering more than usual. One particular sentence hit Muenfah hard, as it felt like the smaller person was pleading for him to pull him out of the spiral of guilt.

    If I could remember even a little… I wouldn’t have said that sentence at all, wouldn’t have done that at all, Phii Fah…”

    The distance between Muenfah and Theerak was significant, but not enough to stop his effort. Muenfah stretched his arm as far as it could go to gently pat the messy head.

    “You did well, you’re really amazing…” Seeing the other smile, he pulled his hand back.

    “…” Theerak had received comfort about this from Phii Babe, Phii Dom, Panli, Joy, and Type, and he thought no one else would offer it again. But today, he received it from Muenfah too.

    “It’s okay to feel guilty, because I know you can’t stop it. Just try to feel it a little less.”

    “…”

    “And one day, Rak you will be able to forgive himself.”

    “Thank you, Phii Fah.”

    “I should be thanking you more for trusting me and sharing something so personal.”

    “I don’t know, I’m still surprised at myself for telling you this, Phii Fah.”

    “Maybe because you feel a connection with me…”

    It was the first time Theerak saw Muenfah smirk faintly…

    “More like I don’t talk much, so I probably won’t go spreading it to anyone.”

    Muenfah held back a smile as he saw the smaller one scrunch his nose in displeasure again.

    I won’t tell anyone. I will keep it to myself.”

    Muenfah gazed at the smaller person, thinking that Theerak was just as he’d imagined. Theerak was gentle, kind-hearted, bad at saying no, and always considerate of others’ feelings. He feared upsetting people, sometimes to the point of causing himself distress. All of this made Theerak seem soft and naive, easily yielding to others. But people aren’t one-dimensional. Muenfah saw determination and honesty in him, and he believed those were the foundations of strength.

    If Theerak were truly weak and overly sensitive, he wouldn’t have ended things with that woman. He wouldn’t have dared to fight for his freedom, which had been temporarily borrowed, or chosen to stay true to his own feelings.

    No matter how others saw Theerak as weak, to him… this was already proof of incredible strength.

    He was amazing, just as he’d told him.

    Muenfah wasn’t just saying it to make him feel better—he genuinely thought Theerak was amazing.

    He could tell Theerak had grown up well in a warm family, surrounded by overflowing love from everyone, even his friends. It wasn’t surprising that he didn’t think I’ll of anyone and always saw the good in things. But the world can be cruel, with countless people ready to take advantage of or hurt someone like Theerak. Still, Muenfah believed he could face whatever life threw at him on his own, given a little time to learn. No one is born skilled, no strong person has never shed tears, and Theerak was one of those who had to grow through experience. The small person in front of him still had many more stories to face.

    But believe me, Theerak will grow and learn everything with a smile. A steady and strong smile.

    A smile that even countless skies would have to surrender to.

    TBC

     

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  • YOURSKY, Chapter 4

    YOURSKY, Chapter 4

       YOURSKY, Chapter 4

    “What time did he call to pick up the puppy you adopted?”

    “Around 7 p.m. After I’m done talking to Fah, we’ll head out. I’ll bring

    Rak along in the car.”

    “Okay.”

    The small person sitting in the back seat was listening to the conversation between the stoic couple. Today was Sunday, his day off. But Theerak had been woken up early to go to the police station with his dad. After returning, he’d hoped to take a nap, only to find Phii Oh and his father waiting at the house. It took quite a while to apologize and sort things out. Truthfully, it couldn’t really be called sorting things out—more like his dad drawing a line in the sand for the other side.

    “If you mess with my son again, I won’t let it slide this time… no matter what.”

    The car moved at a steady pace without slowing down, as the roads this Sunday evening were surprisingly empty. On any other day, Theerak might have piped up to ask his two older siblings why the traffic was so clear.

    But right now, he was being dragged to the slaughter. A chubby puppy with no way to escape had to face the tall shop owner—Your, Sky. His heart felt more withered and anxious than usual. Even now, Theerak couldn’t come up with a greeting for the other person. Starting a conversation with strangers or anyone had never been hard for him. Theerak could speak fluently and get along with people quickly—so much so that sometimes he surprised himself with how good his people skills were.

    But with Muenfah, it might be an exception…

    The round head, now heavier than usual from overthinking, leaned against the glass. Almond-shaped eyes stared out the window. At that moment, the large, reddish-orange sun was about to dip below Fah’s horizon. Theerak genuinely wished he could disappear along with that sun.

    “Hello…”

    Theerak shifted his gaze from the sun to peek through the tiny gap by the door, trying to see who his sister was talking to. If he had to guess, he’d say it was a delivery person, since Phii Babe loved online shopping.

    “Oh, you’re done already?”

    “… “

    …It probably wasn’t a delivery person, then…

    “So, when are you heading back to the countryside?”

    “…”

    As he kept listening to his sister’s conversation with this mystery person, Theerak started worrying that all his plans would need tweaking—especially the timing—because that’s how it always went.

    Call it perpetual bad luck… he never got to live life according to a proper plan like everyone else.

    “Then can you wait for me a little while? It won’t take long—I’ll hurry to pick up the little one.”

    Your real little sibling is sitting right here, wide-eyed and innocent in the back of the car! Who’s this other “little one” from outside the family you’re abandoning me to pick up?!

    When Theerak saw his sister lower her phone, he didn’t hesitate. He quickly bobbed his head forward, sticking his face through the gap between the front seats. Phii Babe and Dom turned to look at each other without saying a word first, as if they’d both thought and decided the same thing simultaneously.

    Theerak broke into a wide grin—the widest of his life, his mouth stretching ear to ear—because he’d finally found a way to avoid facing Muenfah. “Are they telling us to hurry and pick up a puppy, Phii Babe? Then let’s go now, or we’ll be late!”

    …Though he didn’t turn to look at the driver, Theerak caught the sound of Dom chuckling in his throat. He wondered what could possibly amuse someone as deadpan and emotionless as Dom.

    “I’m definitely hurrying to pick up the pup. As for you, go handle your own business… I can’t stick around with you anymore. Behave yourself, Rak,” Phii Babe said.

    “What do you mean, Phii Babe?”

    “She means Babe is dropping you off at Fah’s shop first and will come back for you later…” Dom, who knew his girlfriend’s dislike for long explanations, elaborated on her behalf.

    “No, no way… Rak doesn’t know anyone there!”

    “Fah, duh… After all that head-sniffing and carrying you into the house, how could you not know him?”

    “Phii Babe!!”

    “No need to be shy—Dom already knows everything. And he also knows that Real, Fah’s business partner, lied to people saying you and Fah were secretly dating. I only found out this morning that my own little brother was secretly with the hotshot Muenfah.”

    “Dating what, Phii Babe? Stop making stuff up!!”

    “Let’s just say we shouldn’t break our promise to Fah. Either way, you’re going to have to face him… alone.”

    “No way!!”

    “Theerak!!! You’re not a kid anymore! Is breaking promises such a great thing? Especially breaking a promise with someone who’s busy all the time— that’s even worse!”

    “…” Theerak lowered his head, his neck drooping because this time his older sister was genuinely scolding him. Both the expression and tone of Phii Babe made it clear she was starting to get annoyed with his stubbornness.

    “I’ll hurry back to pick you up as fast as I can, won’t make you wait long…

    Do you understand what I’m saying?”

    “…”

    The one being questioned didn’t respond, stepping back from the gap in the middle with a sad, dejected look before leaning against the seat as before. This made his sister, sitting in the front, glance at him through the rearview mirror. Phii Babe’s loud sigh prompted Theerak to lift his eyes toward the front seat.

    “Do you understand, Rak?”

    “Yes… I understand.”

    Babe sighed again before breaking into a smile. No matter how stubborn Theerak was, he never defied anyone to the point of ignoring them completely. If his resistance didn’t lead to anything good, he’d stop immediately. That’s why she didn’t worry too much when he acted stubborn—she knew he was the kind of rebellious kid who still listened to reason, not someone who acted recklessly without considering what was appropriate.

    Theerak, forced to give in, could only mutter encouragements to himself that everything would turn out fine. But the more he thought about it, the heavier his round head felt. He rested it against the window again, and then his grandfather’s words popped into his mind:

       ‘When you face something tough to avoid, you have to prepare to deal with it. Never run from your problems.’

    His grandfather’s advice made him quickly fish his black phone out of his pants pocket. Without hesitation, Theerak opened the LINE app and sent a private message to Panli. Asking in the group chat would be pointless— others would just bombard him with off-topic questions nonstop.

    This time, he needed to gather info to prepare properly, and the person who likely knew Muenfah’s personality best was undoubtedly Panli.

    Theerak: Li, can I ask you something…Panli: Give me 5 minutes. Stuck at a red light.

    Theerak: You’re driving?Panli: Yeah. Uncle made me deliver stuff to Aunt in Bangna.

    Theerak: Oh, okay, then I’ll ask now. P. Panli: Go ahead!

    Theerak: Your brother… Is he really strict?Panli: He’s strict, yeah. Probably even in bed too, 10/10.

    Theerak: Ughhh… You dog-faced jerk!!! Is this the time to be crude!!! P. Panli: LOLOLOL. You worried?

    Theerak: Yeah. I’m on my way to see Phii Fah, that’s why I messaged you privately—to prepare myself properly.Panli: He’s strict, for sure. Even I, his little brother, get scolded. His ex, who used to be his super close friend and knew him inside out, still got scolded by Phii Fah.

    Theerak: Then a chubby puppy like me will probably get scolded so bad I’ll roll out of the shop before I know it, T___T.Panli: LOL, so cute, don’t worry too much, dude. You didn’t do anything wrong, so what would Phii Fah scold you for?

    Theerak: I don’t know, man. I just feel like there’s gotta be something he’ll chew me out over, but I don’t know what yet.Panli: Don’t overthink it, don’t stress too much. If anything happens, call and rant to me.

    Theerak: Is Phii Fah scared of you or something?Panli: Nah, Phii Fah’s never been scared of anyone, LOLOL.

    Theerak: What the heck!!! Then why’d you get my hopes up? I thought I’d have someone to back me up, T___T.Panli: I’m confident those chubby-cheeks of yours will save your life.

    Theerak: T___TPanli: Come on, he might not even scold you. Or he might not say anything to you at all. If that happens, don’t come crying to me later about how my bro ignored you. I’ve already had a bunch of people whining to me about how being ignored by Phii Fah made them feel like air.

    Theerak: Let him ignore me for real. I’d even skip meals for three days.Panli: Say something you can actually pull off, dude. Skipping meals? No way that’s happening.

    Theerak: Heh heh, how about running laps around the faculty building?Panli: Yeah, that’s more doable.

    Theerak: Whoa, do you really see me as some fat kid obsessed with food?Panli: Yup, look at those cheeks, man. You’ve eaten so much they’re drooping to the floor.

    Theerak bantered with Panli for a bit until he felt the car slowing down. He quickly said goodbye to his close friend in the chat and stuffed his phone back into his pants pocket as usual. Curious, Theerak craned his neck to look ahead. He couldn’t believe they’d reached Muenfah’s place this fast. He’d just gotten fresh info about the guy and hadn’t even figured out how to deal with Muenfah’s sternness yet.

    Guess this chubby pup’s really getting slaughtered this time…

    And there it was—the shop, Your Sky—right in front of him, confirming they’d arrived. Theerak swallowed hard with a loud gulp when he spotted the black Benz sports car parked out front. Maybe it was that sound that made his older sister turn to look at him from the back seat with a worried expression.

    “Say thank you and apologize to him sincerely, Nong Rak. Don’t accidentally make a goofy face at him, okay?”

    “Geez, Phii Babe, I’m so scared I might wet myself. How could I possibly make a face like that at Phii Fah?”

    “…” Dom held back a smile while listening to the siblings’ exchange. It seemed they were each worried about different things. The older sister feared her brother would be too playful and miss the mark on timing, while the younger one was more scared of failing to build a good rapport with Muenfah. Their thoughts were so opposite it was almost headache-inducing. Dom shook his head lightly before saying, “Don’t be scared, Nong Rak. I already warned him not to mess with us. That Fah wouldn’t dare.”

    “…Uh, does Phii Fah usually like to tease people, Phii Dom?”

    “Honestly, not really. He doesn’t even joke around with people much. I just said it as a precaution, in case he suddenly feels like messing with us.”

    “…Before I thank Phii Fah, let me thank you first, Phii Dom. Thanks, handsome Phii Dom!”

    “You’re welcome.”

    “You

    Theerak burst out laughing because it was rare to see his older sister tease her boyfriend with such an annoyed expression and tone. But his laughter didn’t last long—he quickly shut his mouth when he caught a glimpse of a tall, incredibly good-looking guy stepping out of a sporty Benz and entering the shop.

    “Hey, Fah just got to the restaurant right on time. I thought he was already inside.”

    “Then hurry up and go see Fah, Rak…”

    “Y-Yes, okay!”

    The one being rushed quickly opened the car door and got out. It was as if Theerak’s senses had fallen away the moment his feet hit the ground—he stood there waving goodbye to his two siblings without a single word to stop them, even though deep down he wanted to beg Phii Babe to walk him into the shop. Now, all he could do was watch the BMW drive off into the distance until it disappeared from sight.

    Theerak stopped in front of the shop with a trembling heart. One slender hand automatically rose to rub the back of his neck. Though he hadn’t seen the other person’s face yet, just knowing he was stepping into Muenfah’s territory triggered a wave of shyness he’d never felt before… and had never experienced with anyone else.

    “The restaurant isn’t open yet…”

    And perhaps because Theerak was too busy staring off into the distance, combined with his scattered state of mind, he didn’t notice someone approaching him. Theerak flinched and stepped back in surprise, then slightly bowed his head as an apology. Even after doing so, he still thought he should say sorry out loud.

    “Sorry, sir, I…”

    “Or are you here to apply for a job?”

    “…”

    It was at that moment that the tall, imposing shop owner came down from the second floor. Muenfah didn’t glance his way even once. He briskly walked toward the liquor bar not too far off, and Theerak peeked at the other’s stern face while he gave orders to the staff.

    What P. Panli had said probably wasn’t an exaggeration—Muenfah looked ready to snap at anyone he wasn’t pleased with…

    But suddenly, those sharp eyes turned toward him. In all his life, Theerak had never avoided anyone’s gaze. He was always ready to meet eyes head-on, believing that making eye contact wasn’t something so hard he couldn’t force himself to do. Yet this time, Theerak chose to look away without even trying to hold his ground. He searched for a safe place to rest his eyes, eventually settling on the tips of his own feet. Staring at his white sneakers, faintly grayed with dust, might help his heartbeat return to normal and, hopefully, cool down the rising heat in his body too.

    Theerak only just realized that Muenfah’s gaze turned him into a coward…

    and it was stirring up a storm in his stomach too.

    “Been here long?”

    That deep, low voice—one he’d only heard a few times but somehow felt so familiar, as if he heard it ten times a day—caused him to look up. And, of course, the person in front of him was Muenfah, the one who made him lose all sense of himself.

    “Phii Fah.”

    “Yes.”

    …He didn’t know when it started, but the word “Yes” was suddenly enough to make his heart race so fast it felt like it might burst out of his chest.

    Theerak had heard that word since he could remember—countless people had responded to him with “Yes.” too many to count on his fingers. But if he had to find someone whose “Yes” affected his heartbeat like this It’d probably only be Muenfah—this one guy, and no one else…didn’t even deny it, huh…

    Admitting you’re handsome, eh…”

    “Uh, I just got here…”

    “Oh, you’re Fah’s guest?…I thought he was here to apply for a job. Sorry about that.”

    “It’s fine, go back to work. I’ll take care of him myself.”

    “Yes, yes, if you need anything, just call me, Fah.”

    Theerak stood stiffly, watching Muenfah nod in response to the employee. The moment the tall figure turned his attention back to him, the coward’s almond-shaped eyes quickly dropped to the floor.

    “What’s wrong?”

    “…” I don’t know what’s wrong… with you, Phii Fah.

    “Head down, avoiding eye contact… doing this again. Want me to kiss your head or something?”

    Theerak snapped his head up instantly. That sentence left him stunned for a moment before a wave of heat spread through his body, jolting him back to his senses. He furrowed his brows slightly and snapped in a stern tone, “Phii

    Fah!”

    “Yes?” Phii Fah raised an eyebrow as if questioning him.

    “Hmph!!!!”

    Theerak, embarrassed to the point of exploding, could only huff in frustration. Instead of Muenfah feeling awkward about what happened and avoiding bringing it up again, he casually mentioned it like it was nothing. Theerak was a smart kid—averaging over a 3.0 GPA his whole life—and he could tell Muenfah was deliberately teasing him to make him flustered.

    “Once you figure it out, you get mad…”

    “Phii Fah! That’s not it at all!”

    “Then what is it? Why are you avoiding my eyes?”

    “…” How could I say it!!! How could I admit that looking into your eyes makes my heart race, T___T

    “No answer, so no head-sniffing. But even if you did answer, I still wouldn’t—don’t want to kiss a stinky head.”

    “…” My head isn’t stinky, T___T. And besides, I washed my hair already! “If you don’t want to kiss it, then don’t! I just came to thank you, that’s all— no, wait, to apologize too. That’s it, really, and then I’m leaving!”

    Just now, Theerak had emphasized the words “leaving” as clearly as possible. But thinking back on it, he could only let tears stream down his face—in his mind, as usual—because he’d accidentally blurted out something he shouldn’t have.

    Namely… “If you don’t want to kiss it, then don’t!” It somehow made him feel even more embarrassed, T___T.

    Ugh, you chubby dog…

    “Such a sulker.”

    T___T Mom, I hate Phii Fah. Hates anyone named Muenfah. Didn’t Panli say he was strict? Didn’t Phii Dom say he wasn’t a teaser? Then what’s this? What am I, Theerak, facing right now? He’s not strict, which is great for me, but teasing and poking fun until I want to crawl into a hole? That’s too much!

    “Let’s get to the point…”

    “It’s hot out here… let’s talk inside.”

    “No, no, I will finish talking right here, Phii Fah. Just listen to me carefully, okay?” Theerak raised a hand to stop him as he saw the tall figure about to lead the way somewhere. His other slender hand wiped the sweat beading on his face before he continued, “Rak wanted to come…”

    “You’re so hot your cheeks are all red… let’s go inside.”

    “Ugh… Phii Fah, listen to me first! Then I can hurry back home to sleep with the AC on.”

    “There’s AC in the restaurant too. Why don’t you come inside to talk…

    Does being stubborn make the heat go away?”

    Muenfah stood watching the smaller person, who was pouting with dissatisfaction. If this were a contest of expressing emotions through facial expressions, he figured Theerak would win hands down. While the other shifted through a range of looks—shock, surprise, shyness, all the way to irritation—Muenfah maintained just one: calm and indifferent.

    When Dom said his girlfriend’s little brother was only a little stubborn,

    Muenfah thought his friend must’ve gotten it wrong. From what he could see, Theerak’s stubbornness far exceeded his small size—so stubborn that he wanted to grab a pen and write “Super Stubborn” in big letters across the other’s forehead for everyone to know just how defiant he was. Stubborn and sulky. He’d never met anyone like this before, and now Muenfah had to think hard about how to handle this kid.

    But amid that stubbornness, Muenfah couldn’t deny that this junior was incredibly endearing. Theerak had fair, slightly pinkish skin like a baby’s, looking delicate and in need of care. If you grabbed him too hard, that fair skin would surely turn red with handprints. Though his complexion was evenly pale all over, there was one part of his body that always carried a faint reddish tint.

    And that was… his chubby, chubby-cheeks.

    They were red all the time…

    “Fine, I’ll go in… But if Rak weren’t worried about not having enough taxi money, Rak wouldn’t step inside.”

    Muenfah nodded in understanding before leading the way. As they entered the shop, he could hear the smaller person trailing behind, muttering complaints nonstop. When he glanced back, he saw the stubborn kid walking with his head down, his small mouth working overtime, twitching and mumbling constantly.

    Seeing that, Muenfah felt a twinge of annoyance and abruptly stopped walking, hoping the little complainer would bump into his solid back as a small punishment. And just as he’d predicted, the round head of the everwhiny smaller guy crashed right into his back with a loud thud.

    “Ow… Phii Fah!!! That hurt!”

    Muenfah smirked faintly before turning around to face the voice behind him. Theerak was rubbing his forehead lightly, shooting him an angry glare as if he were too mad to forgive.

    “Did your brakes fail or something?”

    “It’s your fault, Phii Fah… Why’d you stop so suddenly?”

    “Does it hurt a lot… Let me see.” Muenfah said as he reached out toward him, but the sulky little guy stepped back, refusing to let him get close.

    “No way, you’re not looking!”

    The smaller one spoke with an irritated tone, his narrow eyes glaring at him accusingly. Muenfah knew he hadn’t played too rough—just a little teasing. If it were anyone else getting mad at him over something this small, he’d chew them out and not care at all.

    But with this junior… Fah didn’t really want him to be upset with him.

    Muenfah started to wonder what made Theerak so endearing. Sure, his wide smile and chubby, chubby-cheeks were a big part of why so many people adored him and wanted to claim him. But that alone couldn’t account for this level of charm, could it?

    However, there was no need to overthink and strain his brain. Muenfah quickly realized what made Theerak so endearing. The smaller figure placed a hand on his own forehead, slightly bowing his head, before using the other hand to rub his eyes because his jet-black hair, brushed slightly away from his brows, had fallen and poked his eyes when the wind blew past.

    What made Theerak endearing… it wasn’t just his bright smile, chubbycheeks, or hair long enough to poke his eyes.

    It was probably because… it was Theerak himself who made everyone feel fond of him.

    “Sorry… Does it still hurt?”

    “No, just walk ahead… If you stop suddenly again this time, I’m gonna punch your back hard, Phii Fah.”

    Muenfah only now realized how hard it was to hold back a smile. “You’ve been all feisty since we got here. What’s up with that?”

    “It’s because of you, Phii Fah… Why are you like this? I; Nong Rak never imagined you’d be this kind of person.”

    “I keep hearing ‘Phii Fah this, Phii Fah that’ all the time… What kind of person am I?”

    “The teasing kind, that’s what! I spent all night worrying because everyone said you were quiet and strict. I even asked Panli about it, and he guaranteed you were strict for real… But meeting you in person, you’re not like that at all. You’re a tease! Way more than that…”

    “Do you want me to be strict instead?”

    “Being strict would be better than teasing… When you tease me, I get annoyed. Like right now, I’m starting to get fed up with you, Phii Fah…”

    Muenfah chuckled before asking something he was curious about. “You’re really fed up?…When you say you’re fed up, how fed up are we talking?” “I’m starting to get really fed up, so what! You don’t get it at all, Phii Fah.”

    “Oh, good to know.”

    The restaurant manager, who was about to hand over the key to the glasshouse room to his boss—having been instructed the night before to prepare it for an important guest—froze in shock. He couldn’t believe this important guest was standing there bickering with his boss, even calling him clueless. He could think of two things Muenfah might do next:

    One, punch the kid until his lip split.

    Two, have staff drag the loudmouth out of the restaurant.

    But it seemed, for this guest, there might be a third option: being an exception to the boss. No matter how much the other party argued or showed irritation, Muenfah just stood there quietly, hands in his pockets, gazing at the kid with a gentleness in his eyes that the manager had never seen before.

    The manager, a close confidant of Muenfah, shook his head lightly in disbelief, silently scolding himself for turning into a nosy bystander. He pulled himself together and walked toward his boss, who was now at the glasshouse entrance with the important guest.

    “Fah, sir… Here’s the key to the glasshouse.”

    “Thanks.”

    Theerak looked up at the glasshouse as Muenfah unlocked it. It was a large glass room opposite the VIP zone, but he didn’t think it was just any glass room. The curved, tiled glass roof made it resemble a small single-story house more than anything. It seemed like a space reserved for highly private events, perhaps only for very important people, because if it were open to regular customers daily, the glasshouse wouldn’t be locked up so tightly like this.

    He followed Muenfah inside. Since the room was surrounded by clear glass, the interior decor was visible from the outside. But once he stepped in and experienced it for real, the feeling was different from what he’d initially thought.

    Theerak felt warmth, calm, and relaxation from the faint fragrance of fresh flowers arranged in a vase on a long dining table that could seat ten people. The evening sunlight streaming through the glass ceiling made the atmosphere even cozier. At first, Theerak had wondered where the light would come from at night when there was no natural sunlight to brighten the room. But when he looked up, the white chandelier hanging from the center of the ceiling answered his curiosity.

    Theerak scanned the entire room with his eyes before plopping down onto a wooden chair. Muenfah, who had stepped outside while he was busy admiring the glass room, had just returned. The tall man sat across from him with a calm expression, pulled out his phone, and started tapping away without paying him any attention. Then he casually crossed his legs, looking completely at ease.

    “…” At this point, Theerak didn’t know how to adjust his emotions anymore. One moment Muenfah was playful, the next he was cold and aloof. It was all so confusing. But this indifference was probably for the best—it’d let him quickly say his thanks and apologies and get it over with.

    “So… what do you want to say?”

    Theerak stared at the man in front of him who initiated the conversation first. But the one asking didn’t even bother looking up, just kept his head down, focused on his phone. Theerak quietly sighed, thinking… this aloofness was good—it’d make it easier to speak smoothly without his heart overworking itself again.

    “…”

    “Go ahead and say it…”

    “…” Theerak took a deep breath, trying to come up with the most sincere words he could muster.

    “This Phii is waiting to hear it…”

    But the heartfelt, eloquent sentence he’d prepared was effortlessly shattered by Muenfah with just one phrase: “Phii Fah.” In an instant, Theerak’s mind went blank, leaving no trace of the polished words he’d rehearsed.

    What did Phii Fah just call himself?

    “Uh…”

    “…”

    “Well…”

    He must’ve misheard…

    Muenfah set his phone down on the table as soon as he finished discussing work with his friends in the group chat, then said, “Just now, I was talking about work. Sorry for not listening properly.”

    He referred to himself as “Phii Fah”?

    Theerak choked on his words, unable to speak. And when their eyes met up close like this, his composure scattered beyond control. Right now, he couldn’t hear Muenfah’s voice at all—just the sound…

    Thump, thump, thump, thump.

    It echoed so loudly it shook his whole body. Theerak didn’t want to admit that he’d let his heart race for this guy multiple times already, ever since that day.

    The truth was, it might not have been accidental… because he was fully aware of every beat of his heart.

    But it’s not like Theerak didn’t try to stop himself—he had. He told his heart not to beat so hard, not to make a big deal out of it. But it just wouldn’t listen.

    Theerak couldn’t let his heart race for Muenfah, someone who belonged to everyone else… No way, T___T.

    TBC

     

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  • YOURSKY, Chapter 3

    YOURSKY, Chapter 3

       YOURSKY, Chapter 3 

    The slender figure behind the steering wheel stared blankly at the large, round red traffic light ahead, feeling bored and frustrated. Nearly two hours had been wasted sitting idly in the car due to Bangkok’s traffic. Apart from the soft music playing in the background to chase away the silence in this confined space, there was nothing or no one to keep him company and alleviate his loneliness.

    On any other day, he might have picked up his phone and scrolled through social media to pass the time. But right now, his mind was cluttered with a million thoughts.

    He didn’t know how much longer he’d be stuck on this road filled with hundreds of cars. No matter where he looked, all he saw were engines and plumes of dust and smoke swirling in the air. The vibrant evening sky, transitioning beautifully from deep red to soft orange, still managed to offer some comfort. But now, that vast expanse of sky had been transformed by time, shedding its colorful beauty and leaving behind only a dark, unappealing void.

    In the past… he used to love gazing at sky at night.

    But as he grew older, the tiny stars seemed to dwindle more and more.

    And because of that… he no longer enjoyed looking at sky at night.

    A sky without the light of stars felt too quiet and lonely…

    And because Theerak had absentmindedly stared at the sky he no longer liked for too long past 7 p.m., a silence began to settle within his heart. It might be good that nature can sometimes heal the mind from chaos and bring us back to ourselves, free from scattered thoughts for a brief moment. However, Theerak also realized the downside of a heart that was too calm and quiet.

    That inner stillness made the voices of certain people and memories he had tried to shake off or forget become even clearer…

    Like right now, when Muenfah’s deep voice echoed in his head, stirring the lump of flesh on his left side—previously lying dormant—into a frenzied dance. It irritated him that he couldn’t control himself.

    “Wash your hair… it’s starting to smell.”

    He hadn’t verbally agreed to rush home and wash his hair until it smelled fresh for three or seven days. Yet it seemed some part of his body stubbornly responded to Muenfah’s command, despite his own reluctance.

    Thump, thump, thump, thump.

    Yes… some organ in his body was overstepping its role, pounding loudly as if it wanted to shout for the tall figure to hear, even though he had no intention of following those orders.

    “So stubborn.” he muttered. It was rare for Theerak to scold himself; he usually preferred giving himself encouragement. But now, he was starting to get annoyed with that red lump of flesh.

    Rrrrrr.

    Before he could get too upset with his foolish heart, which kept racing just from hearing Muenfah’s voice, his black phone vibrated with a notification, snapping him out of his irritation. Theerak glanced at the name on the screen before picking it up to answer.

    “Hey, Phii Babe… I am on my way home. The traffic’s insane.”

    [Are you almost home yet?]

    “Not even halfway there…”

    [Well, when you get back, you’ll be in for a big surprise.]

    “…Huh? Another surprise? Rak can’t handle this anymore. Surprises all day long—I’m about to lose it…”

    [Dad’s coming home today!]

    “Huh?”

    [Dad called me and said he’s on his way back home. He left in the evening, so he’ll probably be here soon…]

    “B-but didn’t Dad say this week he’s too busy with work to come back? And…”

    [Dad knows about you getting drunk with that guy Oh.]

    “S-seriously?”

    [Seriously… Dad said we’ll talk about it at home. You’d better prepare yourself.]

    “Is this going to turn into a big deal? I don’t like trouble, and Phii Babe knows that… Can Phii Babe tell Dad that I’m fine now and to let it go? Tell him it’s over and that guy won’t bother me anymore.”

    [You’re talking like you don’t know your own dad. Saying that will just get you chewed out. You know how he is—no one messes with his family…]

    “What am I supposed to do now?”

    [You’re the one who understands Dad best after Mom. Figure out how to talk to him to calm him down. I’m just calling to warn you, that’s all…]

    “…I’ll head back right away.”

    [Mm…] 

    As soon as he hung up, the silver pickup truck in front of him started to move, as if the traffic officer in the control box pressing the signal button knew how anxious he was. Theerak pressed the accelerator to move his car toward the red-light intersection ahead—not the shortcut home, but a turn that, after driving a bit further, would lead to Dad’s favorite congee shop in front of an old building.

    It might take a little extra time, but it could be worth it if Dad saw his favorite food brought home for him…

    In just a moment, after escaping the hellish traffic that had held him up for nearly two hours, Theerak arrived at the congee shop quickly. His pearl-white sedan pulled into the wide parking area before the shop. The small-framed man hurriedly grabbed his wallet and strode quickly toward the shop.

    “One pork congee with everything, extra liver, extra ginger, no egg, in a bag, please.”

    The middle-aged man who owned the congee shop, who looked only a few years younger than his father, turned and gave him a familiar smile before speaking in a friendly tone, “For the Sergeant, right?”

    And “Sergeant” was the nickname the shop owner liked to call his father, derived from “Police Sergeant.” his father’s current rank.

    “Yes, Dad’s coming home today.”

    “Then I’ll make it extra special. It feels like he hasn’t been back to eat my congee in a while.”

    “He’s been busy with work lately.” he said with a smile to the uncle who was scooping congee for customers with practiced ease. He recalled the past, back when his father hadn’t yet been transferred to work in another province. Whenever Dad finished work early, he’d pick him and Grandpa up to eat congee at this shop regularly.

    Memories from just over a year ago still felt sweet and vivid in his mind. Thinking back on it, Theerak couldn’t help but smile. His almond-shaped eyes watched the steam rising from the pot of thick, white rice porridge, and the fragrant aroma of jasmine rice being cooked into congee made his stomach growl loudly.

    “Uncle, add one more bag of pork-only congee… Actually, make it two.

    But add liver to the second one, please.”

    “Haha, hungry, huh, kid? Alright, alright, I will pack an extra special portion for you.”

    It was probably only him, his dad, and his granddad who were obsessed with the smell and taste of the congee from this shop. While Theerak was busy chatting and boasting with the shop owner, someone taller came to stand beside him, also ordering congee to go. However, Theerak didn’t turn to look. The shorter guy kept rambling on until the new customer had to lightly tap his arm to get his attention.

    “Huh? Oh, Phii Tim!” His narrow, almond-shaped eyes, which usually squinted when he smiled, widened in surprise. The person in front of him looked at him and chuckled softly before reaching out to ruffle his hair, leaving Theerak guessing that his hair was probably a mess now.

    The good-looking person standing there, smiling at him, was a fourth-year senior who regularly gave advice about work to juniors from all years in the group LINE chat. In the graphic design department, there was a LINE group that included students from the first to the fourth year. It might seem strange, and Theerak believed no other faculty or department created a LINE group that gathered students from all four years together. However, the professors in his faculty had suggested the seniors do this to help the juniors. The coursework and workload in his department were notoriously tough, and importantly, many students became discouraged and dropped out in significant numbers. This had been the case for several batches, so the professors decided that the best solution to help most students graduate together was to encourage mutual support and ensure no one felt like they were struggling alone, which could easily lead to giving up.

    Even so, only a few chose to stay in this department. Even with all four years combined, the LINE group only had a little over 200 members, and there might even be some who weren’t in it.

    The person who most frequently responded and gave advice to the juniors was none other than Phii Tim, this very guy.

    And if you were to ask about someone who was in the LINE group but barely seemed to be there, it would be Muenfah, that guy…

    Yes, Phii Fah, who studied in the same faculty and department as him… along with Phii Babe and Phii Dom.

    You could call it the graphic design gang… but who would want to be in the same gang as Muenfah? -___-

    “Here to eat congee?”

    “Buying it for my dad.”

    Come to think of it, Theerak wasn’t too surprised to run into his senior here. This congee shop was somewhat famous and wasn’t far from the university. Once you got past that hellish intersection with the traffic lights, you’d arrive. University students often came here to eat.

    “Came alone? Where’s Fah?”

    Huh… What did that mean? Seeing him and immediately asking about Muenfah…

    “Phii Fah is at his house, Phii Tim. How could he be here?”

    Theerak furrowed his brows, staring at the other person who was faintly smiling, as if trying to suppress a bigger grin. It made Theerak feel a bit uneasy, like his senior was finding something amusing. The reason Theerak could talk so comfortably and without suspicion with this senior was that Phii Tim was a decent guy. He had a good personality, was polite to juniors, and was consistently like this. Theerak enjoyed chatting with him because of it.

    But now, he was starting to feel like he didn’t want to be so close anymore, especially since he’d heard that Phii Tim was quite close with Phii Fah…

    “Ohhh… I see.”

    “Phii Tim… Is something up?”

    “Are you waiting for your congee?”

    “Yeah…” Theerak replied before glancing at the uncle who was repeatedly scooping congee into light pink bowls, realizing it would still be a while before it was his turn.

    “Then let’s sit at a table first. I have something to talk to you about…”

    “Sure, sure.”

    A small person followed their senior into a crowded shop. A slender hand grabbed a blue plastic chair before sitting down opposite the senior. Phii Tim nodded in thanks to the girl who brought water to serve them. Theerak stared at the other person with a trembling heart. It had been a while since they last talked face-to-face, and there was also a strange premonition nagging at him that… trouble was coming, Rak.

    “Seriously, this is almost impossible, but I thought asking for your help wouldn’t hurt. I was going to call you privately on LINE, but I happened to run into you here.”

    “Help with what, Phii?”

    “Help convince Fah to bring a cake to the birthday person…”

    “What?!”

    If he had been drinking water or eating something liquid, he might have accidentally spat it out onto the other person’s face in a lapse of manners.

    “The birthday person is a junior from high school. To put it simply, I’ll confess, she’s my ex-girlfriend… but we really don’t have feelings for each other anymore, I swear. She’s a big fan of Fah because she saw him at the restaurant. As her ex, I wanted to do something to make her birthday memorable before she goes abroad to study… but everyone knows Fah doesn’t really care about anyone.”

    “Then why would she involve me?! Phii Tim, you’ve got the wrong person…”

    “Even though I’m close to him, I already tried asking him once, and he refused…”

    “Oh man… then you shouldn’t expect anything from me at all. Before I even open my mouth, Phii Fah would probably throw me out of the shop.” But what I saw that day… he practically carried you out of the shop.”

    “Huh? Which day, Phii?”

    “The day Fah had an issue with that Oh guy… I was drinking at his shop too, in the VIP area like you. But I didn’t know the loud table was Oh’s until the trouble started.”

    What kind of karma was this for Theerak? It seemed everyone had witnessed that incident, even Phii Tim knew about it. Only a fool like him was completely clueless. T___T

    “This matter, I, I think…”

    “Among friends, everyone knows that when Fah has a faen, he listens to them a lot and gives them whatever they ask for.”

    “Then Phii Tim should go ask his girlfriend…”

    Oh!! Phii Tim was a strange one, wasn’t he? He knew Fah’s weakness but didn’t ask the right person. Why was he asking a kid like him for help?

    “Hey! I’m asking him right now, aren’t I?”

    “Wait, wait, Phii, did you misunderstand something… I, uh…”

    “Fah’s business partner named Real told me everything. He said Fah is secretly dating Rak…”

    “That’s crazy, Phii!” Really crazy. Why would that Real guy tell Phii Tim something so untrue? Theerak waved his hands frantically to deny it. “No, no, it’s not true, Phii Tim. I’m not dating Phii Fah. We’re not even close. I am only close to Panli, Phii Fah’s younger brother.”

    Thapthim narrowed his eyes at the chubby-cheeked boy whose cheeks were now flushed red, resembling tomatoes. “I won’t tell anyone. If you and Fah aren’t ready for others to know right now, that’s fine. Fah even keeps it from his group of friends… I think he must have his reasons. When he’s ready, he’ll tell us himself.”

    “Phii ~ It’s not true at all, please listen to me first!”

    No matter how much he denied it, no matter how much he cried and clung to his senior’s leg begging him to believe him, it seemed Phii Tim wasn’t going to easily trust what he said. He didn’t know what that guy named Real had said to plant ideas in Phii Tim’s head, but Phii Tim was completely convinced that he was really dating Muenfah.

    “Hey, kid, your congee is ready,” the voice of the shop owner uncle called out. Theerak turned and gave a small nod before turning back to lock eyes with his senior again.

    “Please, Rak… help me out. The birthday party is at Fah’s place… tomorrow night.” “Well, Phii…” Rrrrrr.

    Theerak, half-shocked and half-confused by the person in front of him, still had enough presence of mind to realize someone was calling him. His slender hand reached into his pants pocket to pull out his phone, and his eyes widened in shock when he saw the name displayed on the screen.

    “D-Dad,” he stammered anxiously. He had completely forgotten that his dad was coming home. At first, the most nerve-wracking thing was his dad rushing back because he found out about him being drugged with alcohol. But there was something even more unsettling that had made him forget about his dad entirely—the fake rumor about his relationship with Muenfah.

    “Then take the call first…”

    Theerak nodded and raised the phone to his ear.

    Yes, Dad?”

    [Where are you, Rak…?]

    “Haha ~ You must miss me so much you couldn’t wait, huh… That’s why you’re calling like this.”

    Thapthim secretly laughed at his cheeky junior, who made a panicked face as if his dad was some cruel giant he was terrified of. But it seemed the junior wasn’t actually scared, since he dared to tease his guardian like that.

    [I didn’t miss you. I’m already home, but my good son still isn’t back, so I’m annoyed.]

    “Oops… I’m almost home, Dad.”

    [Almost home, my foot. I can hear cars rushing around like crazy.

    Where did you sneak off to this time, Rak? It’s already so late.]

    “No, no, Dad… I am preparing a surprise for you. You’ll never guess what I bought for you.”

    [Congee.]

    “Ugh… Can’t you pretend not to know for once?” Theerak said in a soft voice. He felt a bit relieved hearing his dad’s low chuckle.

    [Hurry back. I have a lot to talk to you about.]

    “Y-Yes, Dad,” he forced himself to reply cheerfully, wondering whether his dad’s last sentence was meant to call him home or make him want to run away.

    The moment he hung up, his senior immediately asked “Was that your dad calling for you?”

    “Yes… I have to head back now, Phii Tim.”

    “Okay… but don’t forget about that thing, alright? The birthday party is at

    Fah’s place tomorrow night.”

    “…” Theerak looked at the other person who was staring back at him. No matter how much he explained until his mouth tore, Phii Tim would still choose to believe what he wanted. So, Theerak just nodded casually in response, knowing deep down that it was impossible.

    “Thanks a lot, little bro.”

    “Y-yes, sir.”

    How could he possibly order around everyone’s Muenfah? Phii Tim was setting himself up for disappointment.

     

    #However Many Thousand Skies

    The bag of congee in his hand felt like a lucky charm. Theerak thought he might have some luck on his side—Dad might be less annoyed because of his favorite food. But after carefully calculating everything, he could only let out a big sigh in front of the gate.

    All the events he’d been through—if it weren’t for his own carelessness and bad luck, would things have gotten this chaotic?

    For someone else, the series of incidents might seem like small matters, easily dealt with as simply as peeling a banana. But for a kid like him, who had never strayed from the straight and narrow, it wasn’t that simple. He rarely made his father angry or annoyed, so he couldn’t help but feel anxious.

    Knowing how terrifying his father could be when furious, Theerak grew even more worried. His father had never scolded or hit him, not even once, but what was frightening was his fear that anyone with ill intentions might end up being killed and dismembered by his father. When his Dad got really mad, it was hard to stop him, and things always escalated into something big…

    But in the end, he had to muster up the courage to enter the house. Before he could even take a full breath after opening the gate, he saw his father playing chess with Grandpa at the marble table in front of the house.

    The moment those almond-shaped eyes, so similar to his own, glanced at him with a mix of emotions he couldn’t decipher, Theerak swallowed the lump of nervousness stuck in his throat. Then it hit him—his father always softened up for his “chubby puppy” no matter how upset he was.

    “Dad ~ Your chubby puppy is back!” he said in a cheerful tone, walking quickly toward his father.

    Theerak sat down on an empty marble chair and held up the bag of congee to show the police officer in front of him. He heard a soft chuckle from someone. If he had to guess who was laughing at his childhood act of playing cute, which he’d dug up to survive this situation, it was probably Grandpa, who was moving a horse-shaped chess piece to a new position on the board.

    “That chubby puppy disappeared back in 9th grade. So why is it that today, the handsome Theerak is willing to turn back into a chubby puppy again?” his father asked, staring intently at the chessboard with a serious expression.

    “Well, lately this Rak has seen how tired Dad is… so I’m being the chubby puppy to cheer you up!”

    “Is that so?”

    “…Just believe the kid a little.” the hoarse, dry voice of the elderly man made Theerak even more anxious.

    It wasn’t just Dad who knew about it now, was it? Was Grandpa angry at him too?

    “…D-Does everyone know about it already?” Thud!

    The sound of a chess piece hitting the wooden board with force rang out. Theerak was certain it was his father’s piece. He lowered his eyes to the black-and-white checkered board in front of him, and suddenly, tiny beads of sweat began to form all over his forehead.

    “So, why don’t you tell me what happened?”

    “Uh…”

    Both his father and grandfather paused their favorite leisure activities, their gentle gazes turning toward him without a hint of sternness. Even so, Theerak still felt pressured.

    “Did that kid do something to you again… besides getting you drunk?”

    “No, no, Dad. Someone came to help me… so I’m safe.”

    “Was it the deputy commander’s nephew who helped you?”

    “Probably… his last name is Pisut.”

    “Hmm, that’s right. Same last name as the deputy commander.”

    “I’m sorry, Dad…” Theerak raised his hands in a wai at chest level, then turned to his grandfather. “Grandpa too, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to lie… I just didn’t want you both to worry, so I kept it under wraps for a bit.”

    “You were afraid it’d become a big deal, huh? When will you stop being afraid of getting into trouble? You should know by now how ready I am to take on anyone who dares to harm my family… Ugh! If my kid was the troublemaker who liked picking fights, I wouldn’t say a word. But this? My kid’s never been a troublemaker, yet he gets bullied by others and still doesn’t have the guts to hold them accountable… It’s so frustrating.”

    I figured since I wasn’t hurt anymore… it’s better to just let it go. If we pursued it, it’d only burden you and Mom for no reason.”

    “Look at my grandson and think for a second… He didn’t get a single strand of hair from me, or his mother either. This calm, easygoing nature— who did he get it from…?” His father spoke to his grandfather with a tone tinged with frustration, but Grandpa just chuckled softly and reached out to pat his grandson’s head.

    “Me, of course… This chubby little pup takes after his grandpa.”

    “I thought so too… Just like you, Dad, no mistake about it. All my fiery temper and refusal to back down, along with my wife’s, went straight to his older sister. That’s why Babe turned out to be such a fighter.”

    Theerak gave his grandfather a smile before turning to ask his father something that had been nagging at him. “So, what are you going to do, Dad?

    Are you going to go after Phii Oh?”

    “When I first heard about it, I was planning to go smack him upside the head at his house before filing a police report. But that was just a thought… Given my position and job, how could I do that? And then there were a bunch of other reasons why I couldn’t pursue it…”

    “Because Phii Oh’s father has a rank…”

    “Don’t even mention rank or titles, you chubby little pup. If someone comes to harm my family, I won’t stand for it… But the reason I had to let it go is, one, out of respect for the deputy commander and his grandson who helped us, and two, because your grandfather asked me to let it end here. If I pushed it to the limit, Grandpa was worried that a filthy-minded person like that might turn around and stab us in the back later.”

    “…”

    After it happened… the deputy commander called me at 4 a.m., explaining everything in detail. The only person completely at fault here is that kid. If his nephew hadn’t gone and attacked the other side, the blame would’ve fallen on him too, and it would’ve turned into a mutual brawl. The father of that Oh kid is a precinct chief outside the deputy’s jurisdiction. The deputy said it was tough talking to them at first—they were hot-headed, didn’t care about anything, and were dead-set on going after his nephew to the fullest. But once they found out their own son had spiked someone’s drink, they toned it down a bit. The deputy said wrong is wrong… If they wanted to press charges against his nephew, they were welcome to, but he’d have to inform me about it too. And he figured I’d probably go after their son just as hard… So, we’d just have to fight it out through the legal process.”

    “You sound like you know the deputy commander, Dad…”

    “It’s too much of a coincidence, Rak. My old boss who passed away last year was a close junior of the deputy chief. I’ve met the deputy several times and even talked with him a bit. When his nephew told me the whole story and said that if you were to file a complaint, I should ask the deputy to take care of it, the deputy asked for my full name. When he heard the family name

    ‘Niran,’ he wondered if it could be me… He asked if I had a son named Rak Niran. After that, he explained everything to me.”

    “It’s so coincidental it’s like a drama, Dad…”

    “Still joking around, huh…”

    Theerak tightly shut his eyes and shrank his neck like a scared little turtle when he saw his father raising his large hand, preparing to strike him. Seeing his son’s frightened expression, the father burst into laughter. Even though his son knew full well he’d never actually be hit, he always made this face whenever threatened with a raised hand.

    “…Hehe, you wouldn’t hit me, right?”

    You know I’d never actually hit you… you chubby little pup…”

    “So what happened next, Dad? Just knowing that you’re not pursuing that side makes me feel a bit relieved.”

    “Relieved for you, but it’s troubling for me…” His father sighed before continuing, “The deputy said he’d given my number to that police superintendent. He suggested we talk it out to find a solution that would satisfy everyone without escalating things, since we’re all police. But he also whispered to me to bring up that matter. When the other side called, they didn’t waste time and begged me not to file a complaint. They said they’d bring their son to apologize at our house in person. The kid’s about to graduate and they don’t want a big mess. I think the deputy must’ve told them I don’t back down easily, so they came to me politely, pleading earnestly… But then again, when they saw I was firm and angry and wouldn’t budge, they made an offer. They said if we don’t press charges against their son, they’d let the deputy’s nephew off too. They wouldn’t file a complaint either, call it even, and cover all medical expenses themselves. They admitted their son was reckless and did something wrong… But if I still insisted on making it a case, they’d have to pursue the deputy’s nephew as well.”

    “It’s like… I understand why you’re troubled about this, Dad.”

    Exactly… With his father’s unyielding nature, especially when his own son was treated like this, Theerak guessed that without this compromise, his father would never have given in to the other side.

    “I’m really troubled… We didn’t do anything wrong, not even a little. We’re completely innocent, yet we have to let them off the hook. But for the deputy’s sake, and for his nephew who stepped in to help—and even punched the guy for me—I don’t want the nephew to get into legal trouble. If it becomes a case, there’ll be investigations, witness searches, and requests for CCTV footage from the shop. The nephew’s restaurant would lose its reputation and credibility… I think that’s worth sympathizing with. In the end, I accepted their offer, but I had my own condition. I said I wouldn’t file a formal complaint about this, but I’d go file a report first as evidence that my son had a conflict with their son. If something bad happens to us… the superintendent’s son would be a suspect.”

    “…”

    “They know that filing a report as evidence isn’t the same as opening a case… It only becomes a case if something happens later. Plus, even if we’re harmed, it’s not guaranteed their son would be the culprit. The authorities would still have to investigate further to identify the suspect. Their son isn’t fully targeted, so they had to agree because I’d already conceded as much as I could. In the end, we’re not pursuing it… Tomorrow morning, the superintendent and his son will come to our house to apologize.”

    “…And what about Phii Fah?”

    “He didn’t get reported or charged either. As for how many people witnessed the incident that night, I don’t know… but the deputy chief is really kind. He told me not to worry about him or his nephew, and to do whatever I

    think is right. If I want to press charges, I should go ahead. But it’s precisely because he’s so kind that I feel I have to sympathize with him a lot.”

    “…” Oh thought… both the uncle and nephew are truly good people.

    “Consider it a lesson learned, Rak… From now on, be more careful,” Grandpa said in a gentle tone.

    “People these days are getting stranger every day… Even among men, there are those with filthy thoughts who want to possess and violate others. It really makes me angry. If Babe didn’t have Dom looking after her, I can’t imagine how worried I’d be.”

    …Even though Dad had always known that his son often caught the attention of other men more than women, it seemed that Dad, a traditional man from an older generation, wasn’t accustomed to the increasingly complex forms of love and sexual desire in today’s world—like love between men or love between women.

    But even if he didn’t fully understand it, Dad never once spoke disparagingly or showed any disgust toward Theerak or others of the same gender. He had only ever said that he found it hard to believe such relationships could last until old age, that they might not endure long enough to share life’s joys and sorrows together, and that they were more likely to part ways eventually. Theerak didn’t know why Dad thought same-sex relationships couldn’t last as long as heterosexual ones, especially when nowadays, plenty of heterosexual couples also divorce and separate.

    But regardless… in the end, Theerak believed that his father would always respect everyone’s true identity with sincerity, as he always had.

    “If anything happens in the future, tell Dad, Rak. I’ll always be by your side.”

    “Yes, Dad.”

     

    #However Many Thousand Skies

    Dinner tonight seemed especially enjoyable for everyone since they were all together, so much so that they completely forgot about their favorite congee. It had been weeks since Dad had been tied up with important work and couldn’t come home on weekends. But his return this time reaffirmed for the millionth time to everyone in the house that…

    Dad was still the head of the family who never considered anything more important than his own family…

    …Just knowing someone in the house had been mistreated, Dad dropped everything to come back immediately.

    And this was why Theerak wanted to become stronger than he was now…

    so Dad wouldn’t have to worry anymore.

    “More rice, Rak?”

    “He is good, Mom. You’ve fed him so much his cheeks are sagging to the floor,” his older sister said.

    But the chubby little puppy, as he was, didn’t care about his sister’s teasing one bit. Theerak lifted his ceramic plate with both hands, passing it in front of his sister to ask for more hot steamed rice from Mom.

    The food Mom made today was absolutely delicious!

    This chubby little puppy was going to eat every last bite!

    “Here, here, eat slowly, my dear. I saved another bowl of bitter melon soup for you. I’ll heat it up for you tomorrow.”

    “Thank you, Mom.”

    “Oh… I am taking leave until Monday. Do we both have classes on

    Monday?”

    “I don’t… and if I remember correctly, my little bro doesn’t either,” his sister answered for him.

    Since her response was correct, Theerak didn’t say anything more and lowered his head to slurp the bitter melon soup with relish.

    “So, should we invite the deputy commander’s nephew to have a meal with us as a thank you? Dad wants to meet him and thank him in person.”

    “Cough cough” Theerak choked on the bitter, moderately hot soup, his face turning red and black. Phii Babe, though complaining that he wasn’t careful, kindly reached out to gently rub his back.

    “Rak, you haven’t gone to thank Fah in person yet, have you? Then go invite him yourself.”

    “Phii Babe!!!” The one who had just been coughing until his throat burned now spoke loudly and clearly, eyes widening at his older sister.

    “What? Is it true? You haven’t thanked or apologized to Fah yet, have you?

    Too busy hanging out with Panli?”

    Unable to deny it, he averted his gaze instead. “Well… Phii Fah has been busy, so, uh, Rak hasn’t had the chance to see him.”

    “Excuses… Who’s Panli? Is he Fah’s younger sibling or something? Why can’t you bring him along?”

    “Um, then why haven’t you gone to thank him for helping you yet, Rak? You could just call him, you know…” his mother chimed in.

    Oh no… the chubby little pup was suddenly ganged up on. “Fine, fine, I’ll go apologize to him…”

    “If you want to make it in time for Monday… you need to thank him, apologize, and invite him to dinner tomorrow… got it?”

    “Hmph…” Theerak shook his head until his cheeks jiggled.

    He had to do so many things all at once in front of Muenfah? That meant his sister had no idea how hard it was for him to breathe when he was around that tall guy. Just facing him for three minutes felt like his body would explode—now he had to talk, thank him, apologize, and invite him to dinner at home? This chubby little pup might die first.

    “Invite your friends too… Dad can get to know everyone at once. Invite

    Dom too, Babe—I haven’t seen him in a while.”

    “Yes, Dad.”

    “Rak, don’t forget to invite your friends too, including Muenfah’s younger sibling.”

    “Okay, yes.”

    After agreeing to his father’s orders, Theerak felt his appetite wane. His stomach churned with anxiety, causing his previously bloated belly to visibly flatten.

    Wow… overthinking so much he burned that much energy…

    As time passed, every dish on the table was polished off. Theerak and his sister helped wash the dishes before joining their parents and grandfather in the living room to watch the evening drama until late.

    When it was time, everyone went to bed. It was then that Theerak quietly crept downstairs to the storage room under the stairs. The small figure stood blinking rapidly, gathering his composure and praying everything would go smoothly.

    His slender hand reached out to turn the doorknob gently, afraid that his grandfather, sleeping in the room downstairs, might wake up from the sound. But he managed to slip into the cramped room undetected. His almondshaped eyes stared at the old computer in front of him.

    It was a computer connected to the home’s front-door CCTV system. Everything the camera recorded was sent straight to this machine. Theerak plopped down onto the wooden chair, his heart pounding wildly. His palms were sweaty and hot, and tiny beads of sweat began to dot his face.

    It felt like he was a spy sneaking into a big organization to steal critical information…

    When in reality, it was something trivial—like whether someone had kissed his head or not. That’s all it was.

    But his heart was racing so fast and hard right now that it annoyed him.

    And Theerak decided to move his hand to grab the mouse and select a date and time close to when the incident occurred. His sticky saliva was swallowed down his throat once again when he saw Muenfah’s black sports Benz parked in front of the house. Not long after, a tall, incredibly goodlooking figure from that day stepped out of the car. He couldn’t believe that the CCTV brand his father was so proud of choosing himself could be this clear—clear enough to make him fear his heart might beat even faster. If what he suspected turned out to be true…

    “Uh, I…”

    Theerak stammered, calling his own name, feeling both shy and confused as he saw himself tightly hugging the other person. His face suddenly flushed with heat as the lingering sensation was confirmed by the moving images.

    That touch… it was him who had hugged Muenfah. T___T

    “No, don’t ~…” His thin lips parted as he stared at the screen. Both slender hands reached up to ruffle his own hair until it was a complete mess—messy enough to match his feelings. And the image that made Theerak lose his composure, enough to yank at his own hair, was the moment Muenfah leaned down and actually kissed the top of his head. “Ugh ~ Why did he kiss me!!!! If I’d just kicked him away, it’d be over. No one takes a drunk guy getting kicked seriously…”

    In the stuffy, cramped room, the sound of someone whimpering echoed nonstop. Yet, despite the groans and cries, not a single tear fell. The smallframed person felt like crying wouldn’t come—it was so suffocating that he could only let out sounds instead of tears.

    It was at that moment that a LINE notification pinged. Theerak grabbed his phone in a daze. Though he’d mentally prepared himself before entering this room, his heart couldn’t handle it in the end.

    Theerak swiped his finger across the screen to read the messages. His friends in the group chat bombarded him with questions about this, as if they were secretly watching him nearby.  P. Panli: How’s it going, dude?

    Joyyy: Have you watched it yet?

    T: I bet he doesn’t even dare to look. 

    The owner of the chubby-cheeks that everyone loved to pinch shook his head back and forth, silently denying all his friends’ questions. Theerak had no energy left to type replies. He truly felt like he’d lost his mind, so he plugged the USB cable into his phone, connected it to the computer, transferred the video from that moment onto his phone, and uploaded it to the group for his friends to see for themselves.

    He knew them too well… Even if he typed out that it was real, confirmed it with words and voice, they’d still pester him to show the moving footage. So, might as well send it and get it over with.

    This would be the clearest answer…

    Theerak: send video 

    And when that video appeared, the “read” notification popped up too. Theerak wanted to cry a eulogy for himself for having such nosy friends— especially Type and Joy. If he didn’t love them so much, he’d have let out a string of curses to vent his embarrassment.  P. Panli: This is world-shocking.

    Joyyy: Wah ~ I’m so embarrassedddd.

    Theerak: What’s there to be embarrassed about, Joy… Isn’t it more humiliating?

    T: Rak… I captured it and zoomed in. Phii Fah’s nose is so sharp, but it’s buried in your head, lolololol.

    Theerak: T___T I hate you so much, Type.

    1. Panli: My bro is such a tiger hiding its claws.

    Theerak: Right now, I just want to be a turtle hiding its head, no one needs to see my face at all, just retracting into my shell is enough.

    Joyyy: LOLOLOLOL, I kinda feel bad for you, I get that you’re really embarrassed.

    Theerak: It’s not embarrassment, its shame, got it, Joy? Shame from getting drunk and messing with him. 

    While chatting with his friends, Theerak heard the sound of heavy footsteps from someone walking toward him. If he had to guess, only one person stomps their feet like that.

    Creak…

    “Uh, Phii Babe.”

    And it really was his older sister. Phii Babe opened the door with a calm expression before immediately locking it behind her, as if she too had planned to sneak into this room.

    “What are you doing here, Nong Rak?”

    “And what are you doing here, Phii Babe?”

    Her answer didn’t come from words spoken aloud but from a glance directed behind him. Theerak quickly shut off the video recording, though he figured it was already too late.

    Phii Babe had seen everything T___T. The life of this chubby little pup was over.

    “I was going to delete that video from earlier…”

    “W-What? Phii Babe, you knew about this?”

    “I just found out this evening while you and Dad weren’t home yet… I had a weird feeling that something must’ve happened when Fah dropped you off, so I checked it out…” Phii Babe, who usually wasn’t shy about these things, avoided his gaze and spoke haltingly, “I saw you kissing Fah.”

    “…”

    “At first, I was going to delete it right away because I was afraid Dad would come check things over. You know how he always reviews the security cameras every time he gets back… But then Dad came home early, so I had to rush out to distract him and keep him from thinking about this room.”

    Right then, he wanted to crawl over and bow at his sister’s lap, but there was something he wanted to know more, so he asked, “Were you planning to tell me, Phii Babe? If I’d come down later, I might not have learned the truth.”

    “Of course I was going to tell you, but only after you went to thank Fah. If

    I told you first, a shy guy like you would never dare face him again.”

    “I already don’t want to go as it is…”

    “So why did you open it up again?”

    “Well, that day my friends called right when Theerak… when Theerak was flirting with Phii Fah… They wanted to know if Phii Fah… really kissed me or not.”

    “Great, just great. None of you thought about dealing with that jerk Oh.

    Instead, you all focused on this kind of thing.” Phii Babe shook her head in exasperation before walking to the computer, moving the mouse, and clicking a few times. “Deleted.”

    “Phii Babe… thank you so much for saving me in every way.”

    “I didn’t save you; I saved the situation at home instead. If Dad saw this, he’d probably freak out and the house would explode because his son got treated like this in front of the house… but who would’ve thought that the precious son himself was the one forcing someone’s heart?”

    “Hey ~ Phii Babe!! Take that back right now, forcing what heart… I love myself as much as a puppy. If they weren’t willing, would I kiss them?!”

    What did you just say, you lovesick dog… it’s pure embarrassment, so…

    “Wow… you’re pretty full of yourself, huh? Thinking you’re so cute that

    Muenfah would let you kiss them?”

    T___T, I never thought Phii Babe could be this savage, savage enough to make him feel both embarrassed and annoyed at the same time.

    “I’m not talking to Phii Babe anymore…”

    Theerak brushed it off, preparing to get up and escape his older sister before he showed even more embarrassment in front of Phii Babe. But Phii Babe held him back with a calm, steady voice “Tomorrow, come with me and the others to see Fah. Dom will call to set it up with Fah. If we wait for you to go meet him yourself, it’ll probably take three years before Fah hears a thank you… and Dad won’t get to meet Fah anytime soon either, for sure.”

    “But tomorrow, Dad said he’s taking me to file a police report as evidence first, and also, that Phii Oh guy is coming to apologize at the house too… I think tomorrow’s going to be a busy day.”

    “Excuses… are you going to be at the police station all day or what? And that Oh guy isn’t staying all day either, so don’t make excuses.”

    “…”

    Theerak let out a big sigh instead of a reply, before leaving the room. As his small feet climbed each step of the stairs, his mind, filled with memories and various stories, raced uncontrollably. If he had to compare the chaos in his head, Theerak thought it was like boiling water bubbling in a pot, with no room left for calm or silence, only turmoil that made him feel restless.

    When he entered his bedroom, the safest place for him, Theerak collapsed onto the bed, exhausted, before pulling out his phone that wouldn’t stop buzzing with notifications. He didn’t need to guess—it was his friends, messaging nonstop to tease him.

    But the latest message from P. Panli made him blurt out the crudest word of his life…

    “Sh*t!!”

    His wide, almond-shaped eyes stared in disbelief.

    1. Panli: I sent the video to Phii Fah, and he read it but didn’t reply.

    Joyyy: You idiot, why’d you send it?! Ugh. I’ve got a headache for chubby-cheeks over here. How’s he supposed to face him now? He’ll die of embarrassment.

    For the first time, he felt like giving Joy a big kiss, rewarding her for saying exactly what he felt.

    1. Panli: I just wanted to know what Phii Fah would say, what he was thinking when he kissed my friend’s head. Can’t trust my big bro, huh.

    T: LOL. If I had a sibling like you, I’d die of stress, you idiot. You defend your friend but trash your own brother.

    Theerak: T___T, and now I have to face him tomorrow! Why’d you send it, you dog-faced P. Panli!!!

    Joyyy: Chubby-cheeks can’t even curse properly, but right now he probably wants to rip into you hard. The worst he can come up with is ‘dog-face,’ lol. I’m dying.

    1. Panli: Why are you going to see my bro?

    Theerak: Phii Babe told me to go thank him and apologize, and also invite him to eat at our house. You guys are invited too. Come over on Monday, my dad wants to meet everyone. You all have to come, I’m begging.

    T: If you don’t come, Rak will have to handle Phii Fah all by himself, for sure.

    Theerak: More accurate than a fortune teller, huh, Type.

    1. Panli: I’m going, just to see my brother’s reaction. Is he having secret relations with my friend or what?

    Joyyy: Panli, you’re really Phii Fah’s little brother, right? LOL, you damn rebel.

    Theerak put his phone down beside him. He didn’t want to deal with anything anymore and chose to ignore the rest of his friends’ conversation. His mind wandered far, imagining how the tall guy would feel after having his memory jogged by that video. Maybe Muenfah wanted to forget that day entirely, but Panli had gone and sent it as a reminder. And of course, Muenfah would easily guess the video came from him.

    Theerak didn’t know why Muenfah had decided to go along with the request of a drunk person like him. Maybe it was out of annoyance or a momentary lapse in judgment, but whatever the reason…

    Right now, Theerak figured there were two possible things Muenfah might feel.

    One… he’d be furious because Theerak had sent that video to his friends, treating it like some kind of joke… when it was more embarrassing than anything.

    Two… he’d let it slide, not think much of it, and see it as normal.

    And of course, after carefully processing everything in his head, the second option was quickly discarded.

    “Will you even sleep tonight, Rak…” he muttered before letting out a sigh. In all his life, Theerak had never encountered a mess that spiraled out of control this fast.

    Maybe it was all because he hadn’t thought things through enough…

     

    #However Many Thousand Skies

    A pair of sharp eyes stared at the video his younger brother had sent via private LINE chat. Muenfah watched it to the end without showing any expression. He turned it off and tossed his phone onto the glass table in front of him, glancing at his close friend from a different university—someone he’d known since high school and a key business partner at the shop.

    He had just come up to rest on the second-floor terrace of Fah’s restaurant, a private area, after hours of checking on things and feeling exhausted. Not long after, his close friend followed him up.

    “You got something going on, Real?”

    Muenfah asked while tapping a cigarette out of the pack, casting a sidelong glance at the other, who was sitting across from him. Real looked flustered, like someone who’d just done something wrong. Having been friends with Real since their third year of high school, Muenfah could tell instantly when something was even slightly off. Dude, don’t yell at me…”

    “If you don’t talk, I’ll yell…”

    The white cigarette rested between his full lips as Muenfah waited for his friend’s confession, lighting the tip of the paper roll. This time, though, Real seemed to take longer to think it over before opening his mouth.

    The red flame flared and burned nearly half the cigarette before long fingers plucked it from his lips. Muenfah shifted his gaze away from his friend to ease the tension. White smoke slowly drifted out from both his nose and mouth. He watched the toxic cloud he’d created linger in the air before fading away.

    Muenfah liked comparing human emotions to cigarette smoke…

    It’s intense and vivid at first, but as time passes, it gets diluted by time, fading until it vanishes without a trace…

    “That day you punched Oh… a lot of the VIP zone customers saw it. They came asking what happened after you left.”

    Muenfah turned his attention back to the person trying to tell him the truth. “Hmm…”

    “Honestly, I lied to you. I didn’t just tell the customer that you were upset because Oh spoke rudely and that’s why you punched him… I added a little something to make it sound more substantial… so you wouldn’t look too bad for hitting a customer just because you couldn’t stand his insults.”

    “Straight up, no sugarcoating…” Muenfah knew he often spoke in a calm, cold tone like this—it had become a habit. Real was used to his detached, indifferent demeanor, but this time it seemed to make Real even more anxious than usual.

    I told the customer that… you got mad because Oh harassed your boyfriend… and that’s why you lost it and punched him.”

    The moment Real laid all his confessions out in front of him, he visibly relaxed and sighed in relief. In contrast, the listener slowly lowered his head, closed his eyes, and raised a hand to rub his temple.

    Real took a deep breath before continuing, “I’m sorry… I really couldn’t think of an excuse for you fast enough. It was total chaos back then… Think about it, man—the restaurant owner punching a customer? Even if the customer was drunk and out of control, cursing you like crazy, it’s still not okay for you to physically hurt him. Couldn’t even handle a few insults… So I thought if I threw this into the mix, it might make it a bit more understandable, you know? That you lost your cool and hit the customer because of that.”

    “No matter what’s involved, I’m still in the wrong. It doesn’t erase it or make people sympathize with me. I hurt him physically, and I’m the shop owner—it’s not okay, like you said… You know me well, Real. Whatever I do, it means I’ve already decided it’s worth it, even if it’s something I shouldn’t have done. As long as we tell the truth, I don’t care what anyone thinks. I’m always ready to face the consequences.”

    Real swallowed hard. In all the time they’d known each other, Muenfah had never explained himself at length with such a calm gaze and tone before. That instantly told him the other wasn’t angry or holding a grudge.

    “I was just worried people would see you in a bad light… Even though, yeah, you did something bad, it was because you were helping that kid.

    You’re not some hotheaded thug who acts without reason.”

    Muenfah nodded, understanding the concern his friend had for him. This mistake wasn’t so terrible that it couldn’t be forgiven, as Real had initially feared. To reassure Real that he truly wasn’t upset, he handed over the cigarette in his hand. Real let out a small smile and took it to smoke.

    Share it, so we can die together. I don’t want to be lonely in hell by myself.”

    Real laughed, then paused his amusement as something occurred to him.

    “There’s one more thing, Fah, that I haven’t told you.”

    “What now? Can’t you just give me all the headaches at once…”

    “…So, that day, one of your friends was drinking with us, but he was at a table further inside. I don’t know his name, can’t remember… He didn’t believe you were dating that kid. He argued with me in front of other customers, saying there’s no way it could be true…” Real spoke with an annoyed tone and expression, as if picturing that person’s face. “So I told him… you two were secretly dating. How would anyone else know? Only I do. That shut him up. He was so damn annoying, arguing with me in front of everyone, acting like he wanted to call me out or something… Good thing I didn’t slip up.”

    “I figured.”

    “Why’s that?”

    “After it happened, my friends kept messaging me on LINE, asking if I’ve been into anyone lately or if I’m dating some kid… They think I’m hiding something.”

    “Uh… I’m sorry, man… I dragged you into a mess.” Real knew full well that the thing that annoyed Muenfah the most was answering questions about relationships. And since Muenfah didn’t like revealing personal matters much, it was why he broke up with his long-term ex after many years. Real also knew that ex of Muenfah quite well.

    “Forget it… Not many people know, they’ll forget soon enough.”

    “…”

    But will Nong Rak get screwed over something else?”

    “Why’s that?”

    “Well, people will ask questions, and they’ll pile on requests for help and stuff.”

    “I can dodge the questions, but the requests… I’m confused, man.”

    “If others really believe I’m dating Nong Rak, they’ll try to squeeze stuff out of me through him instead.” Muenfah could see the future clearly.

    “You don’t care about anyone anyway… Plus, Nong Rak probably won’t ask you for anything. Even if she does, you can just say no and that’s that.”

    “If I could say no that easily, that’d be great…” Muenfah sighed, snatching the cigarette from the other’s hand, bringing it to his lips, and taking a deep drag fueled by emotion while thinking, ‘Even when she asked me to kiss her forehead, I gave in. What’s a few small favors she might ask for… This one’s damn hard to refuse.’

    “You even turned down Yam.” Real flinched as his friend shot him a sharp glare. He shouldn’t have compared the ex his friend was so hung up on to anyone else.

    “That was Yam… This is Nong Rak, different people.”

    “B-But that was your ex, and this kid isn’t even anything to you…”

    “Yeah, we’re not anything… but I can’t really say no.”

    Real furrowed his brow, puzzled by what his friend said. Muenfah’s answer was clear, yet it felt so vague it left him utterly confused. Normally, Muenfah wouldn’t give in to anyone easily. If it wasn’t a friend or family, there was no way he’d agree to a request. Sometimes, he could refuse people without a shred of remorse, not caring how the other party felt. If he wasn’t comfortable doing something, he’d never promise to do it.  Unless… that chubby-cheeked kid was an exception…

    Real held back a grin as a thought popped into his head, ‘Have I just found the future owner of this Fah guy’s heart or what?’

    “I’m heading downstairs to check the shop… You go check the VIP zone too.”

    Real was yanked out of his thoughts and nodded, “Yeah, yeah.”

    Muenfah, crushing the last bit of the cigarette into a white ceramic cup to put it out, glanced at his vibrating black phone. The caller was another close friend from their group, a favorite because they shared similar personalities and lifestyles.

    As in, not fussy, not talkative…

    His thick hand pressed down repeatedly until the red ember died out, then he grabbed the phone to answer.

    “What’s up, dude?”

    [What time are you free tomorrow? Someone wants to meet you…]

    “Who?”

    [Nong Rak.]

    “Is something wrong with him? That jerk Oh won’t quit, huh?”

    [No, I heard from Babe that he wants to thank you.]

    “Honestly, you don’t have to go through the trouble. I’m not overthinking it.”

    [He told me to come set a time with you?]

    “Tomorrow evening works, before the shop opens.”

    [Okay, I’ll bring the little one to see you.]

    “Hmm.”

    [Uh… some other friends messaged me asking if you’re secretly dating someone? What’s that about… did they see you with someone?]

    Muenfah quietly sighed. His other nosy friends wouldn’t stop prying, insisting on knowing even though he didn’t want to tell them. But at least he still felt a bit relieved to have a friend like Dom, who never meddled in anyone’s business. Like right now, when his friend asked directly, it showed he didn’t know as much as the others despite being in the same group.

    “After I close the restaurant, I’ll call you and tell you about it… Are you going to bed soon?”

    [There’s a football match tonight, so I’ll sleep late… You can call me.]

    “Hmm.”

    [Okay, that’s it then.]

    The tall guy shook his head slightly, feeling exasperated, before tossing his phone back to its usual spot. He stood up to his full height and walked downstairs without bringing anything with him—not even the cigarette pack he usually kept in his pocket. Real’s voice called out, reminding him to take his phone, trailing after him. But Muenfah pretended not to hear and headed straight to the front of the pup instead.

    Because right now, his mind was overflowing with so many things… carrying anything else would just weigh his head down for no reason.

    But if he really thought about it, the overwhelming weight in his mind was all about that kid…

    TBC

     

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  • YOURSKY, Chapter 2

    YOURSKY, Chapter 2

       YOURSKY, Chapter 2

    Babe, meaning Loved One (Theerak)

    The name comes from “Babe.” a term often used by Westerners to refer to a loved one. Dad intended that if he had a first child, he’d name her Babe. It stemmed from a romantic Western movie he watched with Mom, where the male lead called the female lead “Babe” once they became a couple. The origin of the name was rooted in the youthful dreams of their father.

    And when the first child arrived, a second followed…

    Mom and Dad tried to find a name for the second child that carried a meaning as close as possible to the first, even if they didn’t rhyme. As long as the siblings’ names shared a similar sentiment, that was enough.

    Thus, this name was proposed…

    Theerak, meaning “The Beloved One.”

    That was the true meaning Grandpa intended. However, others could interpret “Theerak” in various ways. But in the end, it was enough that the owner of the name was the beloved of everyone.

    A petite woman with shoulder-length brown hair sat gazing at her younger brother, who was fast asleep on the living room sofa since last night. The one whose name shared a meaning with hers had been swarmed with love, just as Grandpa had hoped, and was still knocked out from the alcoholic “love” forced on him by that lecherous senior.

    Her slender hand roughly brushed her own bangs aside as her eyes scanned her brother’s body to check him over once more. Though she’d already confirmed last night that he hadn’t been violated by the senior, she couldn’t help but worry and double-check.

    Aside from their polar-opposite personalities, their looks were vastly different too—except for their similarly small, slim builds. Her brother, though, was nearly twenty centimeters taller than her.

    Her features mostly took after Mom, especially inheriting Mom’s big, round eyes. People often said she looked adorably cute, which clashed hilariously with her personality.

    Theerak, on the other hand, was a mix of both the Dad and the Mom, but the result was so striking that even she felt a twinge of jealousy. That delicate face was full of tiny, perfect details.

    If she had to pick what made him explosively cute, Babe would say it was those almond-shaped eyes, brimming with mischief—though right now, they were hidden beneath egg-yolk-colored eyelids. She could still vividly recall his gaze. Or maybe it was his thin, bright red lips. Or perhaps that sharp, stubborn nose Mom had passed down to both of them. Or it could be those chubby, chubby-cheeks—where he got those from, she had no idea, but they were plentiful.

    But when it came down to it, she couldn’t really choose. All she could do was look at them collectively and secretly feel annoyed at her little brother.

    Anything related to Theerak—people always ended up falling for him, didn’t they?

    When her brother’s phone, resting beside him, buzzed with a notification, her inner admiration for him came to an abrupt halt. Her wide, round eyes glanced down at the vibrating phone, and she let out a soft sigh before deciding to answer it for him.

    [Hey, Rak, how you holding up?… Took you long enough to pick up.]

    “It’s me, Li. Rak’s still asleep.”

    [Oh, whoa… For real, Phii Babe? Is he okay?]

    “No idea. When he wakes up, I don’t know if he’ll be hungover or not…

    He’s not much of a drinker.”

    [Now I feel bad hearing that. Sorry, Phii Babe.]

    “The one who should apologize is that jerk Oh, not you… But we owe Fah big time. If it weren’t for him, who knows what would’ve happened to Rak by now.”

    [This morning, I saw Uncle come to Phii Fah’s house. I bet Oh went and filed a complaint or something…] 

    Babe let out another quiet sigh upon hearing that. She knew a bit about how Muenfah’s uncle was a high-ranking police officer who looked after the safety of Muenfah’s bar. If he came to the house, it had to be something serious. After all, Oh’s dad was also a big-shot cop, which explained why that senior acted so arrogantly and pulled all those stunts.

    Sure, her own dad was a cop too, but he was just a non-commissioned officer—subordinate to both Muenfah’s uncle and Oh’s dad. Though he wasn’t directly under their command since he was stationed in a different area, he still had to show respect based on rank and seniority. But Babe knew her dad well—ranks and titles meant nothing to him. If his kids were being messed with, he’d kick anyone’s face in, no matter how big they were, without a second thought.

    So, she decided to keep this to herself for now…

    “He has caused Fah so much trouble. I’ll call him later to apologize myself, and once Rak wakes up, I’ll make him go apologize in person too.”

    [Don’t stress about it, Phii Babe. Phii Fah doesn’t care—it’s no big deal to him. But last night, when my friend called and told me Phii Fah punched Phii Oh right in the middle of the bar, I couldn’t believe it.] “When Dom called this morning to tell me, I didn’t believe it either. Normally, Fah’s so calm and quiet. I mean, I know he can get hot-headed easily, but he keeps it under control. I’ve never seen him curse at anyone or anything. Dom said he doesn’t even gossip about people.”

    [That’s true. Phii Fah doesn’t bother with anyone, Phii Babe… Unless it’s family or friends, he doesn’t care at all. Maybe he’s fallen for Rak’s chubby-cheeks or something, haha!]

    “If Fah hears you say that, will you survive, Li?”

    [Oh come on, don’t tell him! I’m just teasing my own brother… Oh, I got carried away chatting. I called to remind Rak that he’s got a *Typography project due this afternoon with Professor Ji.] 

    The moment she heard the name of that notoriously strict professor, Babe felt a shiver run down her spine. She’d been through it herself and hoped her little brother and his friends would survive that core course too.

    “Then I guess I’ll have to wake him up…”

    [Honestly, I’d rather let him rest, but this assignment has to be presented to the professor in person… and it just happens to be Professor

    Ji’s class. You know how strict she is, right?]

    “Hmm, I know all too well. Guess we’ll have to wake him up… I’ll have

    Rak call Lai back later.”

    [Okay, okay.]

    Babe hung up the call with her younger brother’s close friend before reaching out to gently nudge the arm of the sleeping figure while calling his name. However, after doing this for a while, the person who seemed to be sleeping like the dead didn’t even open his eyes, not even a slight flutter.

    “Rak… still not awake?”

    The shoulder-length brown-haired woman shifted her gaze from the person in front of her to the hoarse voice of someone who had just entered the house. Grandpa, with his head full of snowy white hair, stepped toward his favorite grandson with a smile. Babe guessed he’d been out strolling in the garden before intentionally coming to see Theerak. Normally, around this time before noon, her younger brother would be chatting with Grandpa in the backyard garden almost every day.

    The elderly man, roughly in his eighties, whose body had weakened with age, slowly lowered himself to sit on the floor in front of his grandson. Seeing this, Babe quickly jumped off the sofa to sit beside Grandpa.

    “Grandpa, help me wake Rak up. He needs to submit his assignment.”

    The listener smiled warmly and nodded. “Hmm… I’ll wake him up for you.”

    “…”

    “Rak, my boy… time to wake up, son. Grandpa has no one to eat snacks with.” As he spoke, he gently touched the rosy cheek—red like a tomato— with his rough hand. The wrinkled face of the old man furrowed slightly, wondering if his grandson might be unwell. The usually smooth, fair cheeks he was accustomed to seeing were now as red as a tomato. Out of concern, he asked his granddaughter instead, “Is Rak sick? His cheeks are so red.”

    Babe swallowed hard, her eyes darting left and right as she pondered how to explain this to Grandpa. Last night, when her brother came home, Grandpa was already asleep and had no idea that Theerak was heavily drunk.

    She believed Grandpa wouldn’t mind if a young man drank some alcohol, but drinking to the point of losing all sense like this? Telling him would only make him worry for no reason.

    “…Uh…”

    “Mmm…”

    As if the heavens didn’t want her to sin by lying to Grandpa, her dear little brother finally stirred awake. The small figure lying on the sofa let out a groggy groan from his throat, occasionally mumbling fragmented sentences that sounded like, “my head is about to split open.” But because Theerak’s voice was too slurred and faint, it was impossible to catch the full meaning of his words. Babe guessed he was still hungover, judging by his abnormal behavior.

    Theerak pried his eyes open with great difficulty, feeling as though his brain had gained an extra two kilograms. He wanted to lift his head, but it kept sinking back into the pillow, and his entire body ached terribly. Theerak didn’t know what to call these symptoms, but he was certain they were caused by alcohol.

    He decided to call it… a pre-disaster condition, for now.

    “You awake, son?”

    Theerak rubbed his eyes with his hand before focusing on the source of the voice sitting in front of him. As his vision gradually adjusted and everything became clear, he saw the warm smile spread across Grandpa’s face, contrasted by the calm yet slightly displeased expression on his older sister’s face.

    If he wanted to feel at ease and be comforted without being bombarded with headache-inducing questions, Theerak thought whining to Grandpa would be the best option. But if he wanted to jog his memory and face the harsh truth about last night—which he suspected was an utter disaster—he’d have to trade that for getting chewed out by Phii Babe.

    Chewed out hard.

    Three days and three nights, nonstop.

    “Grandpa…”

    And yes… his body wasn’t ready yet, so going to Grandpa first was the better move.

    “Is you feeling unwell, dear?”

    “Well, I…”

    “Rak… Li called back about something—urgently.”

    Theerak shifted his gaze from Grandpa to his sister, who shot up suddenly. Phii Babe stepped back to stand behind Grandpa, who was still seated, and mouthed something to him, signaling to keep the drinking a secret for now.

    “I just have a headache, Grandpa. It’s not a big deal.”

    “How about some hot Ovaltine? You like drinking Ovaltine around this time, don’t you? I’ll go make some for you…”

    Theerak lay on his side, sending a smile to Grandpa. Even though he knew right now he couldn’t stomach anything—everything he swallowed threatened to come rushing back up due to the constant nausea—he still nodded at the offer. He figured it was a hangover, like the ones Panli used to get.

    But even so, he agreed. If he refused, Grandpa would go out of his way to dig up all his favorite dishes until he said yes. Food was a big deal to Grandpa when it came to him.

    “Then I’ll be right back… Babe, want some too? I’ll make extra.”

    “No thanks, Grandpa.”

    The moment Grandpa left, his smaller-framed big sister plopped down at the foot of the bed and reached out to help prop him up into a sitting position. “Ow… Phii Babe, the room’s spinning…” Theerak groaned, pointing at their mom’s porcelain display cabinet. “Is Mom’s favorite cup gonna fall and break? The cabinet’s wobbling like crazy.”

    “It’s your brain doing that, Rak. The cabinet’s not moving… You really only had one drink? I’m pretty sure it wasn’t just one.”

    “As far as I can remember, just one…” Theerak replied before grabbing a nearby pillow to hug. Right now, he couldn’t find any sense of balance—his body was swaying as much as the cabinet in front of him seemed to be.

    While sitting there trying to steady himself and his wrecked body, Theerak attempted to recall last night’s events. The images in his head flickered in and out, all jumbled up. He closed his eyes to think it over carefully.

    First image… Phii Oh… sitting there with that smile.

    Then… an image… no, not an image… a feeling of fear. And he was crying. An image of Type getting up to come over…

    Theerak was about to lift his heavy eyelids, which felt as weighed down as his head, when another image overlapped in his mind just before he opened his eyes. But when he closed them again, that image was gone.

    It felt like he could only remember a sensation…

    A hug?

    Probably a hug… because it was warm.

    One pale, slender hand rose to rub their face wearily. She never knew that dredging up hangover memories could drain so much energy.

    “I don’t even know how to scold you… Thinking about it just pisses me off.”

    “Ouch ~ Don’t be mean to your little bro…”

    Just hearing Phii Babe’s reprimand stung his heart, and then she sent a small but ridiculously heavy palm to shove his already messed-up head.

    Her big, round eyes watched the fluffy head bounce to one side from her push, only for it to bounce back and plop onto her shoulder in a clingy, pleading manner.

    “No acting cute with me. I’m not Grandpa.”

    “Sorry, I’m sorry, Phii Babe… I won’t let something like this happen again.

    I’ll be more careful, won’t trust people so easily, just like you told me.”

    “Well, if Fah hadn’t stepped in… would you even be sitting here apologizing to me? Thinking about it makes me mad… Mom still doesn’t know what happened. I told her you accidentally drank too much and got so wasted that Fah had to bring you home. If I’d said you got drugged… Dad would’ve sped over to kill that Oh for sure.”

    Wait a sec…

    Dad speeding over to kill Phii Oh? Oh, absolutely.

    “Who brought me home, Phii Babe?”

    But the name of the person who dropped him off… he didn’t quite catch it clearly.

    “Fah… Muenfah, duh.”

    “…”

    Oh… so it was Muenfah—everyone’s Muenfah—who brought a drunken mess like him home.

    But honestly… T___T, no way, not Phii Fah, please. Everyone knows he’s scary as hell.

    Theerak sat quietly, staring at Mom’s display cabinet, which was swaying less now, before asking, “Who brought me home again?”

    “Are you so drunk you’ve lost it? I said Fah brought you back!”

    Theerak nodded absently, sitting cross-legged and burying his face in the pillow he was clutching. He closed his eyes to try recalling something again, but suddenly, he felt that the sensation of hugging the pillow seemed oddly familiar… like it had happened recently… maybe even last night.

    No matter how hard he tried, he couldn’t dig up those fresh memories. The warm feeling, like an embrace, lingered in his senses even now.

    “Fah carried you on his back all the way to the sofa… and he even stayed to help me wipe you down for a bit before leaving.”

    It was then that Theerak felt embarrassed around another guy for the first time, his face heating up. He couldn’t explain this strange shyness—it was something he’d never felt before, not even with his cute ex-girlfriend from freshman year.

    If he had to compare this feeling to a situation, Theerak thought it was like someone who’d been out in the rain all day, then ran into a freezing airconditioned room without showering or changing, only to spike a fever that kept climbing. His internal temperature shot up like a rocket, uncontrollable even by a doctor. That’s exactly what it felt like.

    “Phii Babe you could’ve wiped me down alone, right? You did it yourself, didn’t you?” He asked teasingly for confirmation, though he was a million percent sure his fierce big sister wouldn’t let anyone else take on that job.

    “Yeah… I wiped you down.”

    Sighhh… Relief

    Theerak flashed a relieved smile as he rested his round head on his older sister’s small shoulder. No one could touch him—not as long as Phii Babe was still alive.

    “But I only wiped your face and then went upstairs to find you some clothes to change into… Fah helped with the rest.”

    “Huh…”

    His heavy head shot up instantly, forgetting his own condition. Theerak ignored the spinning room and his sister swaying like a display cabinet. He stared deep into her eyes, pressing for the truth…

    Even though he knew his sister didn’t like lying.

    And she wasn’t one to joke around either.

    “Why are you making that goofy face?”

    “I always makes this face when I don’t understand or believe something…”

    Phii Babe dubbed this funny expression the “goofy face” because it was odd and always made her laugh whenever she saw it. She wasn’t sure what emotion it conveyed, but he often pulled this face when he thought she was teasing him to catch him off guard. Plus, the word “goofy” fit someone clueless and oblivious like Theerak perfectly. Naming this quirky, signature expression “goofy face” was spot-on.

    And the “goofy face” he loved to make involved slightly raising one eyebrow—just a tiny bit—widening his almond-shaped eyes like someone suspicious yet confused, his nostrils flaring a little, and finally, his thin lips parted so wide a fly could build a nest inside.

    “So what don’t you understand? I’ve already explained everything clearly.”

    “I understand everything, but I just can’t believe Phii Babe would let… let…”

    “Let what?”

    Suddenly, the sentence he was about to blurt out turned into a lump stuck in his throat, refusing to come out. But because his sister was far too sharp, she guessed what that lump in his throat was. Phii Babe decided to finish it for him.

    “Let Fah change my clothes for me, huh?”

    …No, wait—the lump in his throat was actually the phrase wipe you down.

    “Change my clothes too?”

    “Well, yeah! Rak… you might be smaller than most boys, but to me, you’re still big, okay? I couldn’t manage it myself. Plus, I didn’t want to see your little worm anyway—even if I’ve seen it since you were a kid.”

    T___T After hearing that, Theerak could only let tears stream down his face—but just in his mind, of course.

    “So Phii Babe you let someone else see… see that part of me?”

    “What’s the big deal? Fah has a little brother too, doesn’t he? And that little brother is your best friend. Besides, I know Fah wouldn’t waste his time teasing about something so trivial.”

    “Wait, wait—what’s this ‘something trivial’ nonsense, Phii Babe? You’re getting cheeky now!”

    “I know you’re shy. You’re this wild kid who gets super embarrassed sometimes. But this time, I was really out of options, so I had to let someone else wipe you down… Let’s just say I’m sorry for letting Fah see your little worm.”

    “Oh my gosh… Phii Babe, stop talking! I don’t want to hear this anymore…”

    Deep down, Theerak wanted to know more details—far more than this. He wanted his older sister to recount every step, from taking off his clothes to putting new ones on him. But he also knew he wouldn’t be able to handle the embarrassment of hearing it all. If he listened while imagining every step in vivid detail, his entire being would probably explode into smithereens, leaving nothing intact…

    “…I believe Fah wouldn’t do this for just anyone. I don’t know if it’s because he considers me, his best friend’s partner, that he agreed to help…

    Knowing this, go apologize to him, and thank him for helping too.”

    “…”

    “The reason I’m telling you to apologize is that Fah must have gotten into trouble because of you.”

    Theerak blinked rapidly, staring at his sister with confusion. Besides being blackout drunk, what else had he done? “What did I do again, Phii Babe?”

    “Fah punched that jerk Oh, and Li said this morning his Uncle came to the house. Dom once mentioned that Fah’s uncle is a deputy police commander in the metropolitan area and helps look after his nephew’s shop… If he came in person like that, I think that Oh probably filed a complaint. His dad’s a cop too, from what I’ve heard, though I don’t know his rank. I’m not sure if Fah got scolded or not.”

    Theerak’s almond-shaped eyes dropped with guilt. They weren’t even close, yet Fah had gotten into trouble because of him.

    “Do you think Fah punching Oh last night will affect the reputation of his restaurant?”

    It was the first time his sister had asked for his opinion. Normally, Phii Babe would think things through on her own, rarely consulting her goofy little brother like him. The last time she’d asked for his input, Theerak remembered it was when Phii Babe was in 10th grade, and it was about something much simpler, like, “Do you think I act too tough for a girl?”

    …Not a question that required analyzing various external factors like this one. Theerak thought this question was too hard for someone like him, who didn’t overthink and always saw the bright side of things.

    The embarrassment that showed no signs of fading was now diluted by worry, allowing Theerak to regain some clarity to reflect. Even so, he still couldn’t predict the outcome.

    “I don’t know… Is Phii Fah’s restaurant really famous, Phii Babe?”

    “It’s fairly well-known… If you’re out in that area and have to pick a place, the first one everyone chooses would probably be Your Sky.”

    “Wow… And it could lose its reputation just because of me in one incident?”

    Babe burst out laughing at her brother’s words before saying, “Alright, alright, either way, go apologize to Fah. Have Li take you to him.”

    “…”

    “Oh… and call Li back too.”

    “Mmm…”

    “I’ll go call Dom first. He’s coming to pick me up for lunch… Wanna come along?”

    “Heh, nah, I’ll pass.”

    “Okay… You can use the car, though. The keys are in the room. I won’t need it since Dom’s picking me up.”

    Theerak nodded, watching his sister disappear upstairs. It was as if Grandpa knew their serious talk was over, because he then walked in holding a ceramic mug with steam rising from it. The white mug, decorated with an image of Charlie Brown hugging Snoopy, was handed to him.

    Grandpa’s memory was still sharp, unlike most elderly people. He could remember everything Theerak liked, no matter how small the detail—like his favorite cup that always paired with his favorite drink.

    The brown teacup with hot Ovaltine.

    “Drink your Ovaltine first, Rak. It’ll make you feel better.”

    “Yes, Grandpa…” A slender hand took the beloved cup. Theerak lowered his eyes to the dark brown liquid inside. Normally, he’d flash a big grin and gulp down his favorite drink in less than five minutes. But right now, all he could manage was a faint, awkward smile for Grandpa before lifting the cup to sip the warm, sweet drink that usually warmed his heart.

    “Does it taste the same, dear?”

    “Yes, Grandpa…” The flavor was as delicious as ever—everything was the same, except for him.

    As the Ovaltine slid past his throat and into his stomach, it was like something in his gut was staging a violent rebellion against his body. From what he could recall, he hadn’t eaten anything to line his stomach before leaving the house yesterday. The last meal he’d had was a ham and cheese sandwich at the university, and that was at 3 PM the day before.

    …He wasn’t sure how much of that sandwich was still lingering in there, but something rising up into his mouth forced him to swallow it back down, even though he desperately wanted to let it burst out.

    “Grandpa… I’ll step out to call a friend about some work stuff, okay?”

    “Go ahead. Don’t worry about me—I’ll go rest in my room for a bit.”

    “Okay. Walk carefully, Grandpa.”

    As soon as he finished speaking, Theerak shot up and dashed up the stairs, still holding the Ovaltine cup. His free hand hurriedly pushed open the large white wooden door. The room’s owner rushed inside, darting to the private bathroom. He set the ceramic cup on the sink counter before letting the churning contents of his stomach spew into the toilet.

    It burned his throat and stung his nose, but there was nothing he could do except let his body punish itself. There wasn’t a scrap of food left in him— just liquid pouring out.

    Flush ~

    Theerak reached over to flush the toilet, clearing away the mess his body had expelled, then stumbled out to sit at his desk, drained of energy. His slender hand dug into his pants pocket—when he’d stuffed his phone in there, he couldn’t even remember—and pulled it out to call his close friend.

    [What’s up ~ You finally awake, huh?]

    “Mhm… cough cough.” His throat was still raw from heaving so hard, and not having rinsed it with water made him cough from the irritation.

    [Wow, you sound rough. You holding up okay, buddy?]

    “Rough for real…”

    [Today’s the deadline for the project with Professor Ji, dude… Did you forget?]

    Theerak let out a heavy sigh and closed his eyes to calm himself. He really had forgotten. If he hadn’t gotten smashed last night, he wouldn’t have blanked out this completely.

    “Yeah… I totally forgot.”

    [Even if you say you forgot, I’m not as worried about you as the others. You’ve probably already finished the work. But if it were Type or Joy saying they forgot? That’d be a disaster—they’d actually forget, like, no project to submit at all…]

    “Mhm, the work’s ready. But my body… it’s not ready at all.”

    [Ready or not, you’ve gotta be, Rak. Professor Ji’s waiting to hand out

    Fs to anyone who doesn’t submit.]

    “What time’s the section again?”

    Normally, Theerak had an excellent memory for these things—so much so that his friends nicknamed him the group’s walking class schedule. He could accurately recall which days they had classes, make-up sessions, or even offschedule assignment deadlines.

    But now… that white liquid had wiped the timetable in his head clean.

    [Afternoon, 3 PM]

    “There’s still time… so let’s meet at the university then.”

    [Okay, okay… uh, but do you want me to pick you up?]

    “No need. Today, Phii Babe went with Phii Dom, so she left the car for me to use.”

    “Okay ~”

    After hanging up with his friend, Theerak dragged his wrecked body to the bathroom. The small figure slowly stripped off his clothes in front of the mirror. As his thin white T-shirt slipped over his neck, the face of Muenfah— whom he’d seen when the guy came to find Panli in class—flashed into his mind.

    The churning in his stomach, already bad enough, doubled in intensity. His slender hand rose to rub his flat tummy, soothing it, before tossing the shirt into the wicker basket on the floor.

    What parts did Phii Fah see…?

    Did he… see the fat on my belly too?

    Theerak shook his head vigorously, making his chubby-cheeks wobble. He raised both slender hands and slapped his face hard to snap himself out of it and ditch the spiraling thoughts.

    But…

    Even after cold water… hot water… he couldn’t wash away this embarrassment.

    #However Many Thousand Skies 

    The pearl-white sedan—a popular model from last year—moved slowly as the person behind the wheel scanned for a parking spot. Today, Theerak didn’t have to take the van to the university since he drove himself.

    Truth be told, this car belonged to Phii Babe. Theerak didn’t have his own car because he didn’t want to burden his parents. Three cars at home were enough: Dad’s, which he used out of town; Mom’s; and Phii Babe’s. But his sister was kind enough to lend hers often. On days when their schedules didn’t align and Phii Babe had Phii Dom to pick her up and drop her off, the car was his for the day—like today.

    Once he found a parking spot, Theerak hurriedly grabbed the critically important A5-sized art paper and got out of the car. He rushed to the elevator, the digital clock on his phone screen urging him to find the fastest way to the presentation room.

    I’m going to be late, late, late…

    Theerak shifted his target from the two elevators in front of him to the escalator instead. The small figure half-walked, half-ran toward it. Even though the escalator moved at a pace that wasn’t too fast or too slow, his anxious heart pushed him to rudely say something to the person standing ahead of him.

    “Excuse me… could you let me through, please?”

    “Sure, sure.”

    The moment the pretty woman stepped aside, Theerak leapt over the steps without a care, focused solely on reaching the presentation room in time.

    Whether others understood his frantic behavior…

    If you’ve ever stood blinking rapidly in front of a classroom because the professor locked the door and wouldn’t let you in just for being three minutes late… well, it’s only this particular professor who does that.

    “Rak!”

    The owner of the name suddenly halted his steps. The presentation room was just a few steps away, but that soft, familiar voice forced Theerak to stop and glance toward its source.

    “Oh, Mew.”

    Who would’ve thought that on a rushed day like this, he’d bump into his ex-girlfriend from his first year, someone he hadn’t seen in ages since their breakup?

    “Here for class?”

    “I’m here to present a project… What about you, Mew? Just arriving for class or just finished?”

    “I just got here for class…”

    The petite girl stared at her ex-boyfriend without breaking eye contact. To her, Theerak was still as adorable as ever, from the first time they met until now. She couldn’t help but smile faintly as she noticed his jet-black hair falling over his forehead, almost poking his eyebrows. It was slightly damp with sweat. And the person in front of her looked even more charming with those round glasses that suited him perfectly. Theerak still liked wearing oversized student uniform shirts, leaving the top two buttons undone as always, paired with those black skinny jeans.

    Still as cute and charming as ever…

    “Um, Mew, I’ve got to go… I’m in a hurry.” “Oh, sure, go ahead. Good luck with everything!”

    And then…

    “Thanks.”

    And he still didn’t feel anything deep for her, just like before, unchanged…

    The large door was pushed open by second-year Digital Media students who now looked as exhausted as one another. Three hours of presenting in that room felt like time dragged on endlessly, as if the clock hands refused to move, even though time was passing normally.

    “Damn it, someone tell me we were just presenting a project, not running a marathon… Why is my heart still racing like this?”

    “Type, you idiot, you just got scolded by the professor, not ran a marathon.”

    Theerak gave a small smile as he listened to his two friends bicker. Though he hadn’t been criticized or scolded by the professor like Type, he barely survived the presentation, feeling queasy the entire time he was on that small stage.

    “Who could be as good as our eternal Rak? Not only did he escape the scolding, but he got praised so much he was practically grinning ear to ear.” Panli teased.

    “There were two options, Li… Either I smiled at the professor, or I let myself puke right there. And if it was the latter, no matter how good my work was, I’m pretty sure the professor would’ve handed me an F.”

    “Yeah, true, haha!”

    While Panli laughed, Joy and Type simultaneously recalled something they’d been curious about since the previous night. They exchanged a knowing glance, as if they were the same person. Joy slowed her pace slightly behind Theerak and Panli, then pulled Type to walk beside her.

    “Type, you ask him.”

    “No way… If you’re so nosy, ask him yourself.”

    “No… I want to know, but you’re the one asking… you’re the one who heard it, you bastard Type.”

    “No…”

    “What’s going on with you two?”

    “…”

    The hellish twins with different parents, Type and Joy, both shut their mouths, not daring to speak under the piercing gaze of Panli.

    “What’s the secret? If you don’t talk, I’m not treating you to shabu next week.”

    And for someone like Type, who can’t resist free stuff, what was he waiting for?

    “Well, Joy wanted to know if Phii Fah really kissed your head.”

    “0___0”

    Theerak’s eyes widened in shock. Dropping him off at home, giving him a piggyback ride, wiping him down, changing his clothes—that was already a lot, but it peaked at… smelling his head?

    “What did you say, Type?” Panli asked again.

    “Joy, you say something too.”

    “Well, when Type called Rak… actually, we were just worried and wanted to know if Rak had gotten home yet, but Phii Fah answered instead… and

    Type heard Rak say…”

    “What did he say, Joy? Just give me the meat of it, no fluff.” Panli urged.

    “He heard… ‘Kiss my head a little.’”

    “Kill me now… Just let me die.” Theerak muttered, even though he knew this wasn’t something an optimist like him should say. Thinking of escaping his problems by dying wasn’t him at all.

    But with what he’d just learned, Theerak thought disappearing from the world might be the best option. Right now, he just wanted to be a dumb speck of dust floating in the air.

    It wouldn’t have been this embarrassing. If his friends hadn’t found out so much, and if the person he’d clung to while drunk wasn’t his best friend’s older brother.

    And if that person wasn’t Muenfah, the handsome guy everyone adored…

    It really wouldn’t have been embarrassing at all…

    “So, did he really kiss you?” Panli turned to the small figure standing silently beside him.

    “I didn’t smell him…”

    “Oh… your voice is high—any higher and it’d be Doi Inthanon.”

    “How about this… what did you know about last night?” Panli pressed.

    “Li… my stomach’s all messed up. Take me to the doctor.”

    “Don’t change the subject… Did you cling to my brother last night?”

    “Ughhh… I don’t know…” Cornered and out of excuses, Theerak let out a whiny cry, hoping the other would take pity and stop pressing him. No matter how much they interrogated him, he had no answers because he genuinely didn’t know what happened last night. T___T

    “And my brother didn’t tell me anything either…”

    “Did he really kiss his head?” Joy chimed in, asking Panli, who was starting to furrow his brows in thought.

    “How would I know…”

    “Just guessing… what do you think?” Type is as nosy as Joy.

    “Ouch… I’m still standing right here, have some pity on me. I don’t even know where to hide my face anymore ~”

    “Phii Fah kissing your head—what’s so embarrassing about that, youchubby-cheeks? A kiss from Phii Fah is super rare,” Joy said.

    “Your brother… is he good with words or what, Li?”

    “What do you mean, Rak?”

    “I mean, is he going to take the story of me flirting with him and tease me about it with friends? Like that time in freshman year when I got drunk at the freshman party and got teased by seniors until I swore it off…”

    “Not just tease? Kissing you is already impossible… no way. If you said my brother smacked your head while you were begging for a kiss, that’d be more believable.”

    “Really… so I can rest easy then, right?”

    “Well, yeah… I’m pretty sure of that, but for extra certainty, go ask him yourself.”

    “Hey! No way!”

    “What are you scared of, chubby-cheeks?” Joy said.

    …It’s not fear… but he’s just nervous, nervous that it might actually be true. If some sensation resembling a hug didn’t linger in his feelings, Theerak wouldn’t hesitate and would choose to believe there’s no way Muenfah would kiss him.

    But it’s precisely because that sensation still lingers in his feelings… that he’s not so sure anymore.

    #However Many Thousand Skies

    “Walk faster, chubby-cheeks, you can’t drag your feet like someone about to die.”

    Theerak took slow steps while glancing at Joy, who told him to speed up. Who would want to face Phii Fah, Joy’s handsome guy, anyway? The reason he’s walking so slowly is because he doesn’t want to see the other person at all.

    But thanks to the nosiness of both his friends, plus a thousand reasons to want to know for sure, Theerak got dragged to the parking lot—the meeting spot to hand over Muenfah’s condo keycard, which he forgot at home. His brother had asked him to bring it to the university, and because of Muenfah’s forgetfulness, Theerak had to drag himself here to face him when his heart wasn’t ready to accept any truth at all.

    “Phii Fah…”

    The delicate face, now sadder than usual, looked up ahead after walking with his head down the whole way.

    It was at that moment Theerak saw a tall, broad-shouldered figure leaning into a sports car, seemingly searching for something.

    But he didn’t get to see the back for long before the tall figure slowly stepped back from the car and closed the driver’s side door, which he had left open earlier.

    “Where’s the keycard?”

    Just hearing that deep, low voice made Theerak feel a flush of heat all over his body. Joy tried to yank him closer to where the two Pisut siblings were standing, so Theerak avoided confrontation by turning his face away instead.

    “Here, the keycard.”

    “Hmm…”

    He stood silently listening to the conversation, secretly praying that Panli would forget about it and quickly say goodbye to his older brother. Theerak knew this was a good opportunity to apologize and thank Muenfah as Phii Babe had suggested, but he wasn’t truly ready. He couldn’t face it…

    “Phii Fah… last night, did that Rak ask you to kiss his head or something?”

    T___T, ugh… Panli, can’t you just forget it? We’re friends, aren’t we? Can’t you spare me just this once? How straightforward can you be?! Save that blunt, axe-like honesty for something else!

    He could only complain about his friend in his mind, not daring to say a word. Theerak tried to stay as quiet as possible to become invisible in this place, but because the person being questioned left too long a pause, silence intervened. The conversation between the two siblings came to a halt.

    The silence, where even the sound of the wind could be heard, was pressuring Theerak to reveal himself. He turned to look at Panli and the tall figure. It was the first time Theerak had seen Muenfah clearly and fully.

    Muenfah, who was admired by so many, was this handsome… anyone who didn’t like him should know better.

    Theerak wasn’t used to complimenting other men, so his words felt a bit awkward. The last person he had praised as being very handsome was Panli, until now, when he thought there was someone just as handsome as Panli.

    It was the older brother of the Pisut family…

    … Though they were good-looking in different ways, both were undeniably very handsome.

    But all his thoughts stopped when those sharp eyes locked onto him.

    Muenfah scanned him from head to toe, and Theerak, the owner of the body being stared at, couldn’t resist at all.

    Theerak swallowed hard, the sound audible, before raising one hand to fasten the second button from the top to cover himself more fully. Even as a man, he had to love and protect himself. He wasn’t about to let just anyone think inappropriate thoughts about him.

    He wanted the other person to feel as uncomfortable as he did under that gaze. Even though keeping his composure was difficult right now, he wanted to get back at him. So, Theerak retaliated by staring at the tall figure from head to toe.

    It seemed Muenfah was either very open or perhaps just someone who got hot easily. The top three buttons of his oversized short-sleeved student uniform shirt were undone, revealing a black English tattoo in cursive on his chest. However, since only parts of the words peeked out from the fabric, Theerak couldn’t tell what the English sentence on the other’s body meant.

    He had to admit that the other person was indeed very good-looking. With just a few pieces of clothing on his tall frame, he still looked this appealing. Muenfah’s handsomeness was no ordinary thing.

    How many people could look this good just by wearing an oversized shortsleeved student uniform shirt over faded jeans, paired with white branded sneakers and an expensive silver watch with an emerald green face? That’s it, really—just four items—but he looked good enough to score a hundred.

    And that didn’t even include his devilishly handsome face. If he had to say it, all Theerak felt was envy rising in his heart. Even so, he couldn’t help but repeat to himself that Muenfah was truly flawless. Those sharp, captivating eyes when they met his, the perfectly sculpted nose that seemed handcrafted, the naturally full lips, and the chocolate-brown hair left unstyled and natural, with an undercut on the sides adding to his coolness.

    He was the kind of handsome that could steal the hearts of women everywhere…

    As Theerak’s eyes scanned the tall figure from head to toe, he couldn’t help but sigh, feeling a pang of envy that he wasn’t even half as handsome as the other person. Not to mention those enviable muscular arms. Theerak couldn’t see Muenfah’s muscles in detail, but judging from the bulging veins on his arms and the back of his hands, it was clear that Muenfah must enjoy working out and likely had an enviable physique. His height alone was already something to be jealous of.

    “So, what do you say, Phii Fah?”

    The question from his friend snapped him back to reality.

    Enough, Panli… if you still want to be my friend, that is.

    “What did he say?”

    Muenfah’s counter-question made Theerak’s stomach churn even more. If the other person said anything else, he might just end up vomiting right in Joy’s face.

    “He said he doesn’t know…”

    “…”

    Muenfah’s silent, non-responsive reaction made Panli fairly certain that the matter in question wasn’t true. His older brother didn’t like answering questions much, nor did he enjoy explaining himself. Muenfah often said that if someone had already misunderstood something, no amount of explanation would change their mind. People who chose to believe falsehoods from the start would stick to their beliefs regardless. As long as you knew the truth about yourself, there was no need to over-explain—eventually, everyone would forget about it on their own.

    But if his older brother had actually done something, Panli was equally certain that Phii Fah would admit it immediately, as he always did.

    Panli turned to look at his small friend standing behind him, displaying a worried expression, before saying, “I told you, Rak, there’s no way it’s true.

    This is just Type and Joy making up stories again. This time, you can stop feeling embarrassed and worried. My brother didn’t sniff your head or anything.”

    The listener gave a faint smile and nodded in relief. But the weight that had just been lifted from his chest didn’t stay gone for even a fraction of a second before crashing back down, heavier than before. Theerak caught sight of the tall figure letting out a faint smile, which made him feel uneasy. When Muenfah noticed Theerak staring, the faint smile on his face vanished instantly.

    Panli, who was busy turning around to encourage his close friend, didn’t see his brother’s smile. But Theerak was certain that Joy and Type had noticed it.

    “Well, I’ll head out then…”

    “Okay…” Panli responded to his brother.

    Theerak watched the tall, pale-skinned figure open the car door, preparing to leave. However, Muenfah turned back to them once more.

    “Wash your hair… it’s starting to smell.”

    And with that, Muenfah—everyone’s Muenfah—got into his car, driving off in his luxurious black Benz sports car, speeding out of the parking lot. He left the four second-year students standing there, dumbfounded in the middle of the university grounds. Even Panli widened his eyes and came over to shake Theerak.

    “Did my brother really kiss your head…?”

    “N-No, it’s not true. Does your brother like messing with people or something? Maybe he saw me standing there with a dumb look on my face and wanted to tease me…”

    Joy smacked Type’s shoulder with a loud slap before saying with satisfaction, “I knew it!”

    “I think we’re all getting a bit blurry… Should we take a break?” Theerak suggested.

    “Not blurry, one hundred percent sure because I heard it with both ears.

    Your voice was so whiny, and if Phii Fah didn’t give in, I’d be shocked.”

    “Yeah, and Phii Fah’s smile just now too.” Joy added, backing up Type.

    “But my brother…” Panli wanted to insist that his brother was tough as nails and would never do something like that. Even with Phii Fah’s ex, whom he dated for so long, his brother rarely indulged her. But the words his brother said earlier kept swirling in his head, and Panli no longer dared to confirm anything.

    “…I don’t know about my brother anymore… Damn it, I don’t know what’s going on. My head hurts, I can’t figure it out!”

    “No way. I say it’s not true.”

    “Rak… you look like you’ve lost your mind right now.” Joy said.

    “If my brother really kissed him, that’d be way too weird… Phii Fah doesn’t like guys, and… and, and there’s no way it could happen, right?” But if his brother did start liking guys, Panli wouldn’t judge him. It’s just that right now, it was hard to believe.

    “I think so too, Li… Phii Fah is definitely messing with us.” Theerak said, forcing a smile for his friend.

    “Yeah!!…Hey, Rak, you have security cameras at your house, right? Check them now!”

    “…”

    Wow… How tough did Panli think he was, expecting him to watch it all play out on video?

    Theerak shook his head until his cheeks jiggled. He didn’t even understand why he was so afraid of just checking the security footage to confirm the truth.

    “You’ve got to toughen up, Rak. Go back and check it. Otherwise, I’ll die of a heart attack from Phii Fah’s vague words… Even if I ask him again, he won’t tell the truth. Rak… you have to go see if you really got your head kissed or not.”

    “Ugh… If it really happened, I wouldn’t mind, but please don’t make me check…”

    At this point, he didn’t want anything more. Please, enough already. His body was so hot it felt like he’d explode right there in the parking lot. T___T

    “Then how about you come with me to confront Phii Fah at the bar again?

    I want to know for sure. Let’s go now, or I definitely won’t sleep tonight.”

    “Li… I’m begging you…”

    “Come on, Joy, Type, you coming?”

    Panli, listen for once, you hothead. If he got pushed one more time, he might actually explode for real.

    “We’ll go too.”

    “Ugh… Fine, I’ll go check the security footage then… I don’t want to face

    Phii Fah right now… because I don’t know what I did to him last night.”

    He’d go back and check the footage to get it over with. Better to be embarrassed alone than to face Muenfah and be humiliated in person.

    Theerak… don’t ever touch alcohol again, got it!! Burn it into that round head of yours! T___T

    *[1] Typography is a subject that teaches the arrangement and design of letters for communication, or the design of typefaces and the arrangement of fonts to suit empty spaces and various elements beautifully in communication design work.

    TBC

     

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    YOURSKY, Chapter 1

       YOURSKY, Chapter  1

    Every Friday evening, the indigo-ceilinged bedroom would serve as a peaceful retreat. But right now, the relentless clacking of fingers pounding on a keyboard was driving the silence out of this beloved bedroom.

    He was rushing to finish an English assignment his professor had given that morning. Though the deadline was next week, he was the type who hated leaving things unfinished. If he had enough free time, he’d clear it as soon as possible.

    Theerak had been glued to his laptop since returning from university. Finally, one slender hand moved away from the keyboard to grab the mouse and close the Word program. A bright smile spread across his face from the relief of finishing.

    Done at last… I thought I wouldn’t make it today. 

    Rrrrr

    The buzzing vibration of the phone lying nearby caught his attention perfectly. Theerak chuckled softly when he saw the name on the screen before picking up the call.

    “Hey, what’s up, Khun Panli? ~” he greeted cheerfully. The person on the other end must’ve guessed he was in a good mood, letting out a little “heh” laugh in response.

    In such a good mood, huh? I bet you’ve finished all your work.] 

    “No one’s as sharp as you.”

    [Of course. No one’s as diligent as my buddy.] 

    “I don’t like leaving things hanging—you know that.”

    [Total opposite of me… If I don’t have pending work, I’d probably die.] 

    “Haha!” Theerak laughed heartily, his eyes squinting as he used his other hand to take off his glasses and place them on the desk.

    [By the way, did you forget about tonight? Or you don’t have to go if you don’t want to. We can cover for you.] 

    “Honestly, I don’t really want to go. I’d rather rest. Mom’s worried too. But Phii Oh has been nagging me so many times—you saw it, right? Last week, I didn’t get a single moment of peace. If I don’t go, I think starting tomorrow, my life’s going to be a mess because of him.” he said with a sigh. His close friend sighed back, both of them equally fed up with this senior.

    [That damn jerk. Too bad he was born with such a cute face, so people keep chasing after him like this.] 

    “Are you complimenting or insulting him?”

    [Complimenting, complimenting… Oh, and did you tell your mom I’m going too? So she won’t worry as much?] 

    “I told her. That’s why she let me go.”

    [What about your dad? Does he know?] 

    “He knows ~”

    He’s not gonna send his subordinates to raid my brother’s place, is he?!] 

    “Are you crazy? My dad’s stationed in Nakhon Pathom. How could he even get there?”

    [Who knows? When it comes to cops, they’re all protective of their kids.] 

    “You’re overthinking it… So what time are you heading to the event? I’ll probably have to go earlier. If I leave any later, my mom might change her mind and make it complicated.” Theerak said with a laugh.

    [Probably around 10 p.m. I’m getting ready to leave Rayong now.]

    “Okay ~ see you later.” He was about to hang up with his close friend, but the voice on the other end stopped him with a stern tone.

    [You chubby-cheeks, do you remember what I told you or not?]

    And “chubby-cheeks” was the nickname Panli liked to use instead of his real name.

    “What’s that?”

    [You, Rak!!]

    The prankster burst out laughing, having successfully riled up his friend.

    “No drinking until you get to the place.”

    [Yeah, keep it in mind… don’t let your ‘drunk and clingy’ nickname from sophomore year make a comeback. I remember how in freshman year the seniors teased you so much you practically wanted to crawl into the ground.]

    “Don’t dig up the past! Are you good at excavating or something?”

    Haha, Joy always says I’m the son of a master digger.]

    “That’s true… alright, see you later. I’ve got to shower and get ready.”

    [Okay.]

    As soon as he hung up, Theerak looked up at the clock on the wall to calculate the time. The hands pointed to five minutes before 7 p.m. He only had an hour to shower and get dressed since he wanted to arrive at the senior’s birthday party by 9 p.m., so he could sneak out early.

    But when his eyes caught sight of a navy-blue shirt still in its clear plastic bag, not yet packed into a box or wrapped with a bow as a gift for the host, the petite guy raised both arms high above his head, twisting his body left and right to shake off his laziness.

    …No time left, Rak… hurry up and shower so you can finish wrapping the gift.

    Theerak mentally scolded himself. He quickly stood up from the chair and headed to the balcony clothes rack to grab a towel before going into the bathroom.

    Not long after, the slim figure with a height of 171 cm emerged, surrounded by a pleasant fragrance. Theerak pulled a long-sleeved red T-shirt from the wardrobe. He had the shirt sorted—now he just needed to pick pants that matched it.

    Knock, knock.

    Someone outside was asking for permission to enter his room. The sound of the knock couldn’t pull his attention away from the clothes in the wardrobe, so Theerak responded while still staring at the row of pants hanging in front of him.

    “Come in, it’s not locked…”

    “Want me to drop you off?”

    A small, calm voice paired with heavy footsteps echoed in the room, instantly letting him know who the visitor was without needing to turn around.

    “No worries, I’ll go by myself.”

    “No way, you’re too clumsy. I wouldn’t dare let you travel alone at night. I’ll take you.”

    “If you’re worried, just say you’re worried ~ Still so stubborn with your little brother.” he teased the other person. After that, Theerak grabbed a pair of long black jeans—ones his dad had bought him as a birthday gift—from the wardrobe. “Phii Babe, do you think these pants look good on me?”

    “You’re really going to Oh’s birthday party?” Instead of answering the question, she fired one back at him.

    If Phii Oh heard a third-year junior from his department—a small girl, no less—talk about him without any respect like this, he’d think that the senior nicknamed “Oh, the Real Deal” would be pretty pissed off. But right now, it was just him hearing it, so the words became more amusing than an insult to a senior’s dignity.

    Babe sat with her arms crossed, watching her younger brother pull off the towel wrapped around his lower half once he’d finished putting on his shirt and pants. Theerak responded to her with a smile and a laugh, which only irritated her more. She couldn’t figure out where he’d picked up this overly optimistic outlook from—especially since she’d been drilling into him since forever that it’s hard to find trustworthy people in this world. But it seemed her polar-opposite little brother didn’t care at all, always looking at the bright side and bumbling through life.

     

     

    Normally, she didn’t like meddling in other people’s business, even family matters. But this time, she had to step in because Oh’s reputation was no joke. Her boyfriend had told her that this senior liked to toy with juniors—hooking up with them and then dumping them once he’d had his fun. Babe couldn’t believe creeps like that still existed, and she especially couldn’t believe that the latest target Oh had his eyes on was her own brother.

    “Rak, come back early… don’t drink too much. And anyway, Li’s going too, so don’t worry.”

    “I heard Li has to drive in from Rayong, right? He won’t be with you the whole time—how am I not supposed to worry?”

    “I’m glad Phii Babe cares about me.”

    “Well, you’re my little brother, aren’t you?”

    Babe replied before letting out a huff. She sat there watching the skinny guy in the long-sleeved red shirt—a color she’d helped pick out when they bought it together—walk over to grab various items, preparing to wrap a gift for that pot-faced host. Theerak plopped down on the floor, sacrificing his comfort so she could sit comfortably at the table without him claiming any ownership of the room.

    Floral-patterned frosted wrapping paper was spread out to its full width by his slender hands before a brown rectangular box was placed on it to measure the fit. Her brother glanced up at her every now and then, occasionally flashing a sweet smile to butter her up. She was tough as nails—stone-cold, even—but whenever she saw that smile of his, no matter how annoyed or angry she was, she’d melt every time.

    Our personalities are as different as the sky and the abyss.

    She’s hot-headed, brash, and rough around the edges—like a guy.

    But I… I’m clingy, gentle, and ridiculously cheerful.

    Sometimes even Mom and Dad think we should’ve swapped bodies…

    “No need to worry, Phii Babe. Rak will be careful, okay?”

    “…” If what is said about Oh was true, she figured going to his birthday party this time would be worth it—it’d keep him from messing with her brother again. But if he didn’t keep his promise… she exhaled sharply once more at the thought. “If that bastard doesn’t leave you alone, I’ll go punch him in the face.”

    “Haha, Phii Babe, you’re a girl—how are you going to punch a guy? Let me handle it myself. You don’t need to get involved. Just sit pretty at home and wait for your Phii Dom—that’s better.”

    “Girls can punch too, idiot… Why wouldn’t I be able to? And as for sitting around looking pretty—forget it. Since when has your big sister ever had that kind of vibe?”

    Theerak laughed heartily before nodding in agreement. His older sister was different from most women—she never showed a sweet or gentle side, not even to her own boyfriend, always acting tough and standoffish. But the fact that Phii Dom had been with her for three whole years probably stemmed from this very difference. Even though Phii Babe acted cold, sharp-tongued, and emotionless, deep down she had a soft and vulnerable side. She just didn’t let others see it—only those closest to her could sense it. And maybe because someone like her rarely said words like “love” or “I’m jealous.” it made people like him and Phii Dom feel especially touched when she did.

    It’s what you’d call the charm of a tsundere… acting like she doesn’t care…

    when in reality, she loves and worries to death.

    “Hurry up and finish wrapping it. I’ll wait downstairs.”

    “Alright, I will hurry down in a sec.”

    The sharp scissors carefully cut along the marked straight line. As the shiny metal sliced the paper into two, Theerak silently prayed in his heart that no trouble would come to him and his friends. Whether that wish would come true or not, well, that was up to the mercy of the sacred powers.

    #However Many Thousand Skies

    Before stepping out of the house, Theerak had already asked for blessings from the household’s sacred figures—his mom and grandpa. As for his dad, who was out of town, he could only call to say he’d hurry back so they wouldn’t worry too much. Leaving the house after sunset was, for Theerak, harder than a prisoner breaking out of jail. For anyone else, it might feel stifling and frustrating, but not for him. He understood it all came from his parents’ deep love and concern. It might seem odd that, at his age and as a guy, his parents still treated him like a precious daughter.

    Theerak wanted to say… no matter how grown up the kids in this house got, whether they were girls or boys, they were all guarded more fiercely than eggs in a stone nest, regardless of gender or age…

    Theerak arrived at the meeting spot a little past 8 PM because of traffic. He turned into the wide parking lot behind the shop. As soon as the car stopped, he reached to turn on the interior light to search for the gift box in the back. The constant ping of LINE notifications made him start to panic. He guessed his group of friends were bombarding him with messages, probably thinking he’d ditch Phii Oh’s birthday party.

    “Rak, what are you looking for?”

    “The gift box, Phii Babe.”

    “I’ll smack your head in a second. You gave it to me to hold—why are you looking in the back?”

    “Oh! Really? I thought I tossed it in the backseat.” Theerak quickly turned to the seat beside the driver. His sister raised the box high, looking ready to chuck it at his head like she’d threatened. Day by day, he was proving her right about being a total airhead.

    “You okay, Rak? You sure you’ll make it back home today?”

    “I’m fine, I’m fine. I’ll head in first, Phii Babe. My friends won’t stop messaging me…”

    “Seatbelt, seatbelt… Oh my God, Rak, what’s wrong with you?!” Babe yelled when she saw her little brother open the door to get out without unbuckling his seatbelt. At first, she thought he was joking, but someone like Theerak was probably just that clueless.

    “Oh, right, forgot, heh.” The scolded one flashed a sheepish grin, quickly unbuckling his seatbelt before getting out. The small figure was about to bolt into the shop, but a car horn stopped him mid-step, nearly making him faceplant.

    Theerak whipped around to look at his sister’s car. The darkly tinted window slowly rolled down, revealing the person behind the wheel. By now, Phii Babe had switched to the driver’s side. Her slender hand waved him over, and the fierce look in her eyes told him… the full-on ferocious big sister mode was back in action.

    The small figure walked back to the car at his older sister’s call. Phii Babe bent down, rummaging for something, before handing him a gray banknote. Theerak paused silently before shaking his head in refusal.

    “No need, Phii Babe. I got some money on me.”

    “How much?”

    “A little over a thousand baht. I haven’t spent anything. Phii Oh’s covering this event, so you don’t need to chip in.”

    “Take it just in case. If you don’t use it, you can give it back.”

    “It’s really fine.”

    “Rak, just take it already. Stop arguing with me, will you? Here, take it!” Phii Babe quickly stuffed the money into his hand, then pointed a slender finger at his face.

    “Don’t come back wasted, got it? If you know you can’t handle it, stop.”

    “Uh-huh.”

    “Even if the seniors pressure you to drink, just take what you can manage…”

    “Uh-huh.”

    “And if you really can’t make it back, stay at the bar and call me. I’ll come pick you up. Tell Li too—no driving back if he’s drunk… though I guess Li could crash here, right? It’s his brother’s place.”

    “Yeah, yeah.”

    “Right, and one more thing… if something happens—”

    Theerak burst out laughing at his sister’s overthinking. Phii Babe wasn’t much different from their mom, really. But he quickly shut his mouth and listened attentively when she glared at him.

    “It’s not funny, Rak. Stuff like this can happen anytime. If you get into a fight, how am I supposed to get there in time to help?”

    “Phii Babe, you’re a woman. If something really goes down, you wouldn’t be able to help anyway.”

    “A woman, not a baby. Don’t underestimate me too much… Back to the point—if something happens, go find a guy named Fah, got it?”

    “Fah?”

    “Yeah, Muenfah. Panli’s older brother.”

    “Oh, so this bar belongs to Phii Muenfah?”

    “Oh my… Theerak, what kind of person are you? What do you even know besides the size of your own underwear?”

    “No, no, I really didn’t know this! I swear! Li once said the owner of a bar around Lat Phrao was his cousin. He never said it was his actual brother. I just assumed it was some relative’s place. That Li guy never explains things properly!”

    “Not only does he not explain, but you never bother to question him either… His cousin does own a bar around here, sure, but this one belongs to Fah… Turns out I know more than you do. What kind of friendship is this?”

    Theerak laughed heartily. He admitted he didn’t know much about his friend. All he knew was that Panli had an older brother named Muenfah, that his parents were rarely in Thailand because they mostly did business in Hong Kong, and that he often stayed home alone since his brother preferred sleeping at his condo. Every time he was alone, he’d call to complain to him. Oh, and he knew their family was filthy rich, but Panli never bragged about it—he always acted pretty down-to-earth. After a year of friendship, that was about it.

    He didn’t like prying, anyway… If people didn’t tell him, he didn’t ask.

    “Okay, okay. I won’t drink so much I get wasted. And if something happens, I’ll go find Fah. Happy now, Phii Babe?”

    “Hmm, go inside the bar already.”

    “Mm-hmm.”

    As soon as Theerak turned and stepped away from his sister’s car, his friends seemed to know instantly, bombarding him with LINE messages nonstop until the notification sounds echoed loudly. But he didn’t pull out his phone to check—he wanted to tease them, make them worry that he’d bailed on the plans.

    He stopped in the middle of the venue, scanning the area for familiar faces. In the meantime, Theerak took in the atmosphere of the place. It couldn’t quite be called a restaurant in the full sense—there weren’t crowds of people crammed together, no sharp cigarette smoke stinging his nose, and it wasn’t pitch-black to the point of blindness. Plus, the live music playing right now wasn’t loud enough to make his chest thump along with the beat.

    The place had properly arranged tables for customers, mostly in an outdoor zone that took up nearly the entire venue, with no roof blocking the dullcolored sky at night. This kept the interior neither too dark nor overly bright, allowing a clear view of the surroundings without effort. There was also a liquor bar where lone customers could sit, sip beer, and enjoy the live music casually.

    I really like this vibe…

    Before he could get too attached to it, he decided to find his friends’ table first. His narrow eyes squinted to focus on the distance.

    Yes… he’s nearsighted, but he forgot his glasses. -_-

    But the long arms of someone waving frantically in the air reassured him. Even though he couldn’t see their face clearly, Theerak was certain it had to be one of his friends.

    “Rak… over here, dude!”

    Type’s shout, loud enough to compete with the music, made him grin so wide his cheeks nearly split. His slim legs moved quickly, heading straight for the inner VIP section reserved for special customers. The moment he arrived, several fourth-year seniors—some he knew, some he didn’t—turned to stare at him in unison. Type, sitting nearby, asked in a hushed tone:

    “Rak, turn your face this way. Is something stuck on it or what?”

    Before he could face Type, Joy cut in with a concerned voice, “What’s on your face? Come here, let me get it off… Why are all these seniors staring at your chubby-cheeks like this?”

    Theerak blinked rapidly. Instead of turning to his friends, he felt like a freak and lowered his head to check for anything unusual on himself, running a hand over his face. But nothing seemed out of place… so why were all the seniors staring at him like that?

    Thankfully, Phii Oh, the birthday boy, stood up and broke the awkward atmosphere before it got worse. If they’d kept staring any longer, Theerak thought he might’ve bolted out of the place.

    “Theerak… I thought you weren’t coming.”

    “Here… a gift for you, Phii Oh.”

    “Thanks! Next time, you don’t have to bring anything. Just showing up makes me happy enough.”

    “Y-Yes, sure.”

    Theerak gave a dry smile to the fourth-year senior he wasn’t particularly close to. Phii Oh took the gift box and stepped closer, leaning his handsome face in to whisper softly by his ear:

    “The most valuable gift for my birthday this year is you coming to see me, Theerak.”

    The smaller guy stepped back, putting more distance between them. Phii

    Oh’s words sent shivers down his spine—more than when he’d gone into a haunted house. It wasn’t because they were the same gender that he felt awkward; Theerak had been hit on by guys since high school and was used to it, never feeling any disgust toward people of the same sex. But it was the phrasing and Phii Oh’s raspy tone that made his hair stand on end.

    “Um, excuse me, I’ll go sit with my friends first, okay?”

    “Why don’t you sit with me at the head of the table? It’ll be fun.”

    “No, thanks, I’d rather not.” Theerak gave a polite smile, though inside he desperately wanted to bolt home. If it weren’t for his desire to get this scary senior out of his life, he’d never have dragged himself to a place like this.

    The small-framed boy plopped down in the middle between Type and Joy, while Phii Oh returned to the head of the table, a fair distance away. His sharp eyes scanned the room once, and it was clear that they were the only juniors there. Out of the twenty-something people at the table, everyone else was a senior. Phii Oh had told him he’d invited almost all the second-year juniors, so why was it just their little group that showed up? Even though he was a bit naive and didn’t overthink things, as Phii Babe often said, this time it felt too strange to ignore.

    “Me and Joy called and messaged you like crazy—what the hell, why didn’t you read or pick up?”

    Before he could even gather his thoughts, Type launched into a rant.

    “Aw, come on… I just wanted to mess with you guys and make you worry.

    I thought it’d be funny if you thought I was gonna ditch and not show up.” “Oh my god, my chubby-cheeked buddy is way too innocent…”

    Joy chimed in, reaching over to pinch the soft, plump cheeks of her skinny friend. Theerak felt the sting and could barely take it, but because he adored Joy so much, he let her tug at his cheeks every day.

    “If you’d just checked your messages, Rak, you’d know we were actually hoping you’d ditch for real.” Type said.

    “Wait, seriously? Guess I messed up then.”

    Joy smiled wryly before leaning in close, whispering softly in his ear,

    “Yep, chubby-cheeks, we’ve already fallen into Phii Oh’s trap.”

    Type stared at the smaller boy, who sat frozen as if his soul had left his body, while Joy patted his narrow shoulder lightly to comfort him.

    Theerak couldn’t believe he’d actually fallen for Phii Oh’s trick. He’d only dared to come today because he thought tons of his fellow juniors would be here—no one would dare refuse Phii Oh’s invitation, right? But it turned out it was all just a lie from the senior.

    Phii Oh was ridiculously cunning…

    “Me and Joy were gonna let you ditch so we could sit here and drink for free a bit longer. But now we’re stuck sipping sour faces instead, because once you showed up, Li ordered us not to drink at all.”

    “Huh, why not?”

    “Because there’d be no one sober enough to look after you.” Joy explained on Type’s behalf.

    “I say we don’t wait for Li to get here—let’s just leave now. This whole thing feels off. Even the part about inviting or not inviting juniors—Phii Oh lied to me. I’m starting to think that promise he made about leaving you alone isn’t real either.”

    Right now, Theerak felt a mix of worry and frustration. He wanted to march over and smack the senior hard on the head for daring to use his trust as bait to lure him out here, making him look like a fool in the process. No wonder Phii Oh was hated by almost every junior in the faculty. Theerak had been one of the few without any prejudice against him, but now he was starting to feel the same way as everyone else.

    “Then I’ll call Li and tell him not to come to the restaurant.”

    “Mhm… Joy, step out somewhere quiet and call Li. That way he can drive slowly and not rush over.”

    “Okay.” Joy nodded in response to her chubby-cheeked friend’s words before getting up from the table.

    Type swept his gaze around the room and froze when he caught the sly look in Phii Oh’s eyes as he stared at Theerak. That pervert was eyeing his friend like he wanted to swallow him whole. Sensing trouble, Type cleared his throat loudly to snap the target of that creepy gaze out of it. But Theerak, being far too naive, didn’t pick up on the warning signal and instead handed him a glass of water, thinking his throat was dry, before going back to tapping away at his phone.

    Ugh… that chubby-cheeked idiot really doesn’t get anything.

    “Rak!” Type didn’t give up, gritting his teeth as he called out to his friend again.

    “What’s up, Type? Just say it. I’m texting Phii Babe to let her know I’m heading back.”

    “Look up at me, you broken spear!”

    A face too delicate to belong to a guy looked up and met his eyes. In that moment, Type wasn’t surprised at all that Phii Oh was so obsessed with his friend. The guy was crazy about him—openly declaring to all the juniors across three years that he liked Theerak and was pursuing him, not caring what anyone thought, not even bothering to check if his friend would accept the confession.

    Probably because this chubby-cheeked darling of everyone’s is just that cute… it’s only natural Theerak gets swarmed with love.

    “Looked up, now what? What’s your deal, Type?”

    “That jerk Oh is staring at you so hard he might get you pregnant.”

    Those almond-shaped eyes slowly flicked toward the head of the table, observing as his friend had pointed out. Sure enough, someone’s gaze from that direction was indeed locked onto him. Theerak swallowed hard, a nervous lump in his throat, feeling an uneasy churn in his stomach. He nodded as a signal to his friend before standing up from the table.

    I can’t stay here any longer…

    “Let’s go find Joy.”

    “Yeah, sure.” Whoosh!!

    But just as he and Type were getting up from the table, an arm grabbed his. Theerak flinched in shock before turning to see who was gripping his arm so tightly.

    “Uh, Phii Oh…”

    “Leaving already? Theerak you haven’t even had a drink yet. You’ve only been here a minute… Plus, I haven’t gotten to talk to you yet.”

    “Well… we already talked, didn’t we? When I gave you the gift.”

    “That’s it?…Friends, I want to talk to him too, right, guys?…” Phii Oh said, turning to his group of friends.

    All the seniors chimed in enthusiastically, begging him to stay. But when he refused, they booed loudly in disapproval. Type, however, ignored the clamor around them, grabbing his friend’s other arm and pulling lightly to break him free from Phii Oh’s hold.

    “His sister’s calling him back, Phii Oh. Let him go home for now. If you want to talk, do it tomorrow.”

    “Yeah, Phii Babe’s already called for Rak.”

    “Then, Nong Rak, finish this glass of vodka first. I’ll let you go after that.

    Consider it giving some respect to the birthday boy.”

    Theerak watched as a thick hand grabbed a small shot glass from someone and offered it to him. He lowered his eyes to the clear liquid with a sharp smell in front of him. Theerak had a good idea of how potent it was—after all, even someone with a copper throat like Panli had passed out in the middle of a drinking session from just one bottle of vodka. There was no need to mention someone like him, who didn’t drink and had an extremely low tolerance.

    Just one shot… would I wake up tomorrow?

    “I’ll drink it for him. This guy, Rak, doesn’t do alcohol.” Type interjected.

    “Mind your own business, Type…” Phii Oh said with a laugh, though if you listened closely, you could sense the irritation in his tone. When Theerak glanced up at him, it was clear the senior was angry—his fierce glare was fixed on his friend.

    “Well, I have to butt in, don’t I? He’s my friend.” Type shot back.

    “Then I guess my friends want to butt in too…”

    As soon as Phii Oh finished speaking, several fourth-year seniors rose from their seats and gathered behind Type. Theerak saw one of Phii Oh’s friends reach out to pat Type’s shoulder, signaling him to sit down. Sensing trouble, he yanked his arm free from the senior with force.

    “I’m not okay with this… I’m leaving. Tell your friends to back off from mine too.”

    “Guys, back off… give Nong Type some space. Theerak doesn’t like it…

    But, Theerak, could you stay and chat with me a bit longer?” Phii Oh asked.

    He was about to refuse, but before he could say anything, Phii Oh took the liberty of dragging him to sit at the head of the table. When Phii Oh held the vodka shot to his lips and said Type would be safe if he drank it, Theerak reluctantly downed the glass. He only agreed to buy time until Panli could arrive—it was better than letting Type get dragged off somewhere.

    If I still have any leftover luck, my friend might get here in time to help.

    The bitterness burned his throat, but Phii Oh didn’t offer him water. Instead, he handed over a cloudy, slightly sweet drink. Theerak forced himself to take a sip to rinse his throat, but it didn’t help much—turns out, this colorful concoction had alcohol in it too.

    During that moment, the words of Phii Babe and Panli kept swirling in his head. He felt both scared and guilty at the same time. Soon enough, his brain started to fog from the alcohol’s effects. He saw Type trying to get up and reach him, but Phii Oh’s friends surrounded him, keeping him pinned.

    Theerak scrambled to think of a way out every second. Phii Oh kept whispering something in his ear, disrupting his focus. From what he could catch, Phii Oh was rambling on about love, trying to lean his face closer—too close to his cheek. Theerak raised a slender hand to push the senior’s nose away and shifted his chair to put more distance between them.

    It was like he’d lost his senses when he was dragged over. Only now did his mind start racing with wild thoughts—imagining his friend getting beaten up for helping him. His brain conjured up all sorts of scenarios, each one worse than the last. He’d never thought so negatively before, and it only fueled his growing fear.

    Theerak couldn’t stop the flood of frantic imaginings in his head. He even started blaming himself—that his friends were in trouble and at risk because of his naivety and overly optimistic outlook. Who would’ve thought Phii Oh could be this cunning?

    Lost in unstoppable thoughts, his imagination soaring to the edge of the sky, clear teardrops suddenly fell onto the chubby-cheeks his friends loved to tease out of fear. Theerak smacked his own head hard to snap himself back to reality, because it felt like his sanity was slipping away fast.

    The last image Theerak could clearly recall when he was still somewhat lucid was… the wicked smile of Phii Oh.

    Type could only sit and watch his friend lose it under the influence of alcohol. Theerak sat sobbing uncontrollably while Phii Oh hugged him to console him. No matter how drunk he was, losing all sense of himself, it must’ve been some deep subconscious hatred for the senior that made him reject every touch from the other party.

    “Hey, hey!! Phii Oh, don’t do that! He’s drunk—are you seriously going to molest him?” Type didn’t care about the bigger seniors surrounding him. He pointed a finger at Phii Oh’s face as soon as he saw him kiss his friend’s cheek with a loud smack.

    “Mind your own business, you jerk Type. I’ve been annoyed with you for a while now. That other punk too—wait till he gets here, I’ll beat him up right in the middle of his brother’s place.”

    “Shut your mouth if you don’t want a kick. My friend’s having a good time.”

    “I’m not stopping. I’m taking my friend home.” Smack!

    A thick hand slammed down hard on his head. Type shot up, his patience gone. The seniors who’d attacked him stood up too. Type raised his fist to strike back, but his eyes caught Joy standing at a distance. She shook her head and waved her phone, signaling him. Joy was probably figuring out a way to help them. Knowing this, Type calmed himself and sat back down, buying time to keep Theerak from being violated any further.

    It might seem strange that they had to look after and be so protective of Theerak as if he were a girl, but anyone who loved him would know how much he deserved to be shielded from people like this.

    Theerak was never quick on the uptake, always saw the world through rose-colored glasses, never thought ill of anyone, and often got taken advantage of. He was too innocent to let Phii Oh have his way with him…

    even just molesting him was unacceptable.

    …Whether it’s a woman or a man… no one wants to be violated.

    See? Even blackout drunk, he’s still trying to resist Phii Oh…

    Joy, who’d called Panli less than an hour ago and had snuck off to take selfies in the bathroom, came back to find her two friends in a tough spot. She panicked, trembling all over. She fumbled for her phone in her sling bag, her hands shaking as she dialed a friend, praying Type could hold it together a little longer.

    And praying that chubby-cheeks could hold onto his senses too…

    “Pick up the phone, Li, please, I’m begging you.”

    [Hey.]

    “You jerk, took you long enough to answer.”

    [What’s up? You’re just cursing me.]

    “Uh, Type—earlier he almost punched Phii Oh’s buddies.”

    [Trouble already? What about Rak?]

    “I saw Rak crying with Phii Oh… sob, don’t be mad at me, okay? I just went to take pics in the bathroom.”

    [Go find a staff member, tell them to call Phii Fah… hurry!]

    “What!! Call Phii Fah? I’m scared—I don’t dare order someone to get him.”

    [Joy! Pull yourself together, go get my brother now… I just called him, and he didn’t pick up. You have to go get him yourself!] 

    “Alright, stay on the line with me for now, okay?”

    [Yeah]

    Joy lowered her hand, keeping the phone close to her side, scanning the restaurant for a staff member. Maybe it was the worried look on her face or something else, but a male employee approached her without her even calling out.

    “Miss, is there anything I can assist you with?”

    “Can you talk to Panli for me?”

    “Oh, sure.” Joy handed the phone to the employee while glancing back at her friends’ table. Type was still in his seat, but Theerak looked worse for wear—his head drooping, practically collapsing.

    “Please talk quickly—my friend’s about to get eaten alive, big bro.”

    “Yes, yes. Hello, Panli?”

    “…”

    “Uh, Fah hasn’t come in yet. It’s just Real here.”

    “…” Joy stood still, listening intently to the conversation.

    “Got it, got it. I’ll go tell Real right now… Miss, Panli want to talk to you.”

    Joy quickly took the phone back and pressed it to her ear, watching the employee dash up the stairs to the second floor. She stammered anxiously to her friend still on the line, “Phii Fah’s not here, huh? Can this Real guy help? That jerk Oh brought a whole pack of friends—tons of them!”

    “Phii Real’s a business partner of Phii Fah. He should be able to help. He’s pretty decisive too.”

    “Then where’s your brother? I’m so scared I might crap myself, Li!”

    “Who’d have thought that bastard would lie? I asked around, and others said Oh invited them too. I figured the other second-years would show up. If

    I’d known it was just our group, I wouldn’t have let you guys go.”

    “It’s not your fault…” Joy sighed before her eyes widened—she spotted the real owner of the place stepping into the restaurant.

    Muenfah—or Phii Fah, as Li and the others at uni called him—walked in with a calm, neutral expression, nodding slightly to the staff who bowed to him. Joy took a deep breath to steady herself. What people said about him…

    Muenfah, so hot it’s sinful—it must be true.

    This was the first time she’d seen Phii Fah, a senior from her faculty, up close and personal, and not in the usual student uniform she’d glimpsed before. It wasn’t a sight you’d catch easily. Phii Fah didn’t show himself around much, and running into someone as good-looking as him by chance was next to impossible. Joy had only seen him once before when he came to find Panli in class. Others who got a look at his handsome face probably had to stalk him to manage it.

    And today, Joy thought Phii Fah was insanely good-looking. Maybe it was the oversized navy short-sleeve shirt tucked into long black slacks that made the senior look even sharper. The Chinese character tattoo under his right forearm added an extra edge of toughness. Thanks to her nosiness, Joy zeroed in on that tattoo as the tall figure approached, realizing…

    The character was 爱—ài—meaning love.

    “Okay.” Joy nodded as her chubby-cheeked friend instructed, then stood up from the table.

    Type scanned the room and froze when he caught the cunning glint in Phii Oh’s eyes as he stared at Theerak. That creep was looking at his friend like he wanted to devour him whole. Sensing trouble, Type coughed loudly to jolt the target of that leering gaze into awareness. But Theerak, too innocent for his own good, didn’t catch the warning and instead offered him a glass of water, thinking he was parched, before resuming his phone tapping.

    Ugh… that chubby-cheeked fool really doesn’t get it.

    “Rak!” Type didn’t relent, his voice straining through gritted teeth as he called out again.

    “What’s up, Type? Spit it out. I’m texting Phii Babe to say I’m heading back.”

    “Look up at me, you dimwit!”

    A face too pretty to belong to a guy met his gaze. In that moment, Type wasn’t surprised at all that Phii Oh was so infatuated with his friend. The guy was obsessed—boldly announcing to juniors across three years that he liked Theerak and was courting him, heedless of anyone’s opinions or whether his friend even reciprocated.

    Probably because this chubby-cheeked darling is just that adorable… it’s no wonder Theerak gets smothered with affection.

    “Looked up, now what? What’s your point, Type?”

    “That jerk Oh is staring at you so hard he might knock you up.”

    Those slender eyes slowly shifted toward the head of the table, observing as his friend had said. Sure enough, someone’s gaze from there was locked onto him. Theerak swallowed hard, an uneasy feeling churning in his gut. He nodded to signal his friend before standing up.

    I can’t stay here anymore…

    “Let’s go find Joy.”

    “Yeah, sure.” Whoosh!!

    But as he and Type were getting up, an arm grabbed him. Theerak flinched in shock before turning to see who was clutching his arm.

    “Uh, Phii Oh…”

    “Leaving already? Theerak hasn’t even had a drink yet. You’ve barely been here… Plus, I haven’t talked to Rak yet.”

    “Well… we already talked, didn’t we? When I gave you the gift.”

    “That’s it?…Friends, I want to talk to Rak too, right, guys?…” Phii Oh said, turning to his buddies.

    The seniors all chimed in enthusiastically, begging him to stay. When he refused, they booed loudly in protest. But Type ignored the uproar, grabbing his friend’s other arm and tugging lightly to free him from Phii Oh’s grip.

    “His sister’s calling him, Phii Oh. Let him go home. If you want to talk, do it tomorrow.”

    “Yeah, Phii Babe’s already called for Rak.”

    “Then, Nong Rak, finish this vodka shot first. I’ll let you go after that.

    Consider it respecting the birthday boy.”

    As the tall figure stopped in front of her, Joy quietly swallowed a big gulp, then looked up at his handsome face. She secretly gauged his height with her eyes—Phii Fah was probably around 185 cm.

    But now wasn’t the time to admire her friend’s brother. Joy needed to muster the courage to ask Phii Fah for help. She was about to voice her plea, but he beat her to it, starting the conversation himself.

    “Li told me to come find you, Joy… Is something up?”

    “Uh, yes… It’s a big deal too.”

    “No!!!! Sob, I want to go home!!”

    The sound of someone wailing and shouting grabbed the tall guy’s attention perfectly. Muenfah shifted his gaze from his brother’s friend to the source of the noise. At the VIP table in the corner of the shop, things looked chaotic. He spotted a fourth-year senior from his faculty yanking someone around.

    And the one crying out was probably… Theerak.

    “Is it about Phii Oh’s table?”

    “Yes, it’s that… uh, Phii Oh. He likes Rak and…”

    “Joy, wait here… I’ll be back.”

    “Okay, okay.” Joy could only nod, watching the broad back stride toward the VIP customers’ table. Three staff members followed their boss without a word. Joy shook her head, hand on her chest, thinking… this is going to be a mess.

    The moment Muenfah reached the table, the senior—a regular at the shop—turned to him with a grin, greeting him casually in a way he shouldn’t have.

    “Hey, Fah, here to join my birthday party? Come on, sit down. But I’ll have to excuse myself soon—my ‘boyfriend’ wants to head home.”

    “Your boyfriend, my ass!!” Type blurted out.

    “You little shit!!”

    Muenfah glanced at the other senior raising a hand to strike Type. Whether it was his stare or the fear of getting kicked out of the place, the guy lowered his hand and resorted to cursing instead of hitting.

    Muenfah didn’t care about anyone’s glares or words. He stepped forward, closing in on the smaller, drunken figure who was out of it. His large hand grabbed the free, pale arm and pulled the slight frame toward himself. He was sure the other guy hadn’t meant to let this junior end up in his arms, but Phii Oh probably didn’t expect him to do this and had let his guard down, leaving the small guy standing there unrestrained.

    “What the hell are you doing, Fah?”

    “This time, I’ll admit I’m being rude to you, senior… Today, drinks for you and your friends at this table are on me.”

    “I don’t want it. I drink at your place all the time. I can pay—how else would I be a VIP here?…Don’t mess with my kid either.”

    Muenfah stayed silent, watching the senior rant loudly, then lowered his eyes to the small figure in his arms. The drunk guy wrapped both arms tightly around his waist, eyes fluttering shut as he prepared to drift off.

    “Give me back Theerak, Fah!” Slap!!

    “0_0”

    “0_0”

    Everyone at the table widened their eyes in shock at the bar owner’s behavior toward a VIP customer. Type saw Phii Fah slap Phii Oh’s hand away with such force that it made a loud smack, and he knew Phii Oh must have felt a stinging, itching sensation on his skin.

    “You want a piece of me, huh, Fah?!”

    “I’ll take the kid home myself.”

    “No way… That’s my boyfriend. I can handle him myself.”

    “Type… Is Theerak really Phii Oh’s boyfriend?”

    Type stammered as he quickly answered the calm-faced man, “No, Phii

    Fah… Rak’s drunk. He probably agreed without realizing it.”

    “Don’t mess around, Type. Theerak already agreed to be my boyfriend, and he knows it.” Phii Oh snapped.

    “Then ask him again when he’s sober. For now, I’m taking him home.” Muenfah replied coolly.

    “What right do you have, Fah? Think you can do whatever you want just because you own this place? Everyone, look at this—the owner’s acting all high and mighty, bullying customers, doing whatever he pleases!”

    Muenfah showed no expression as he watched the senior rant and slander him. This guy’s behavior was pushing his patience to the limit. Silently, Muenfah counted to ten in his head, promising himself that if the shouting didn’t stop, he’d knock him out cold right there.

    “At uni, he acts so damn cool, handsome and famous everywhere… Who knew he was this full of himself?”

    His sharp eyes caught sight of a junior named Joy stepping into the circle just in time. He gently disentangled the small arm from his waist and entrusted the drunken figure to her. Meanwhile, Type—Panli’ friend he’d often chatted with—rushed over to help Joy support him.  “And now look at this, everyone! He’s trying to steal—”

    Pow!

    “Asshole!!”

    Type and Joy gasped in unison as they saw Phii Fah land a full-force punch square on Phii Oh’s face, sending him crashing to the floor. For good measure, he followed up with a kick to the creep’s chin, knocking him out cold.

    Truly knocked out at his feet…

    Phii Oh’s so-called tough friends, who’d been so bold earlier, now stood silent and still, not daring to move as they stared at their unconscious buddy on the ground. Type let out a quiet chuckle, thinking to himself, A guy like Oh doesn’t have real friends—just drinking buddies.

    “A little gift from the bar owner.” Muenfah said to the motionless senior before turning to the manager standing nearby. “Remove him from the VIP list too. He’s not welcome here anymore.”

    “Uh, yes, sir, Fah… So, uh, what do we do with the other customers who… saw this?”

    “I will let Real handle it. I’ve got something to take care of. Please handle things here.”

    “Uh, yes, sir. Real’s just coming down now.”

    Muenfah walked over to the two juniors supporting the drunk figure. He nodded as if asking to take over caring for Theerak. They let go easily—not out of fear, but because Type and Joy trusted him more.

    “Phii Fah, you’re taking Rak home, right?”

    “Yeah, Li already sent me Rak’s home location.”

    “At first, Li said he couldn’t get through to you…” Joy added.

    “Calling like that… I guess I have to pick up.”

    “Well then, Phii Fah, hurry up and go.”

    Muenfah nodded in acknowledgment, dragging the drunk person out of the shop under the gaze of dozens of eyes. If he were the type to care about others’ opinions, that shocking incident wouldn’t have happened earlier. Whatever Muenfah decided to do, he was confident he’d made the right choice.

    And helping a drunk person escape from that disgusting creep… he’d made the right choice there too.

    #However Many Thousand Skies

    A black Benz sports car pulled up in front of a single-story house, matching the location his younger brother had sent. Muenfah turned off the engine and unbuckled his seatbelt before turning to look at the smaller figure sleeping soundly beside him.

    “Rak…”

    “…”

    “Rak… we’re home.”

    “…”

    Muenfah let out a tired sigh. It seemed his junior wasn’t going to wake up easily. With that thought, his sharp eyes glanced at the watch on his wrist.

    Midnight…

    At this hour, the restaurant would be especially busy with customers. If he took his time gently waking Theerak like this, he could imagine Real cursing him down to his ancestors for being left to run the restaurant alone. So, Muenfah decided to get out of the car, walk around to the other side, and carry the unconscious drunk into the house.

    But then, the car door was opened from the inside. Theerak swung one leg out onto the ground, preparing to step out, only to be held back by the seatbelt. He started fussing, struggling to pull it off.

    “Wait, I’ll do it…” Muenfah said softly, leaning down to unbuckle the belt for the smaller man. After that, he let Theerak get out of the car on his own.

    He spread his arms wide, ready to support the unsteady, wobbling figure from a distance without touching him. Muenfah watched as Theerak stumbled forward, laughing and smiling like a child.

    Maybe it was that smile… that made everyone fall for him.

    That’s probably why Li said he’d rather have Theerak as a son than a friend…

    But suddenly, Theerak stopped in his tracks, refusing to take another step. He looked down at his pants pocket, fished out his phone, and handed it to him.

    “What?”

    “Heh ~”

    A bright smile, untouched by the effects of alcohol, was directed at him.

    His teary, almond-shaped eyes from crying made him look like a puppy.

    Muenfah took the phone from Theerak, and then something unexpected happened.

    Thud!!

    Two slender arms wrapped tightly around his waist. Muenfah was both confused and startled. No one had ever done this to him before, and he didn’t like being ambushed with physical contact like this either. The phone in his hand vibrated urgently, demanding to be answered, causing his ability to make decisions to falter.

    Muenfah decided to answer the phone first, then used his free hand to gently pry the slender arm clinging to him off.

    [Hello, Rak, where are you? Rak?]

    “I’ve brought Rak home already.”

    [Huh? Oh, Phii Fah? Sorry… I thought Rak had sobered up and picked up himself.]

    “It’s fine…”

    [I just talked to Li—he said he kept calling you, but you didn’t answer.]

    “I was driving.”

    [How’s Rak doing now?]

    That question made Muenfah lower his eyes to look at the small figure hugging him. A cute little face was rubbing against his shirt, and those chubby-cheeks—his little brother’s absolute favorite—were pressed right up against his chest.

    “Rak…”

    “Kiss my head…”

    [Huh? What was that, Phii Fah?]

    Muenfah couldn’t hear it clearly either, just like the junior on the phone. He furrowed his brows slightly, stopped resisting the hug from the small figure, and asked again “What did you say?”

    “Kiss my head…”

    “…”

    Both he and the person on the other end fell silent. That request was too awkward to fulfill, so Muenfah decided to end the call with the junior to deal with the drunk person first.

    “Let go already—I’ll take you inside.”

    “Then kiss my head first!! Or I won’t let go.”

    “Why are you being so stubborn now…”

    “Wah… You don’t love me anymore, do you? You only love Phii Babe…

    You won’t even kiss my head, wah…”

    The whining and crying grew louder by the second. Afraid it might carry all the way to the guard post, Muenfah pretended to give in with a light tap on his mouth.

    “Fine, fine.”

    “…”

    Muenfah brushed the back of his hand gently against the jet-black hair, trying to mimic a kiss as best he could. With someone this drunk and out of control, how could they possibly distinguish between a nose’s touch and a hand’s?

    “That’s not a kiss… Wah ~ Liar!”

    But Theerak could tell the difference…

    “I kissed you… How is that not a kiss?”

    “It’s not a kiss! Kiss me here… Wah, kiss me here…” A slender hand lifted, pointing right at the crown of his head while his face stayed buried in Muenfah’s chest.

    Muenfah was starting to suspect this kid. Was Theerak actually drunk, or just messing with him? He could distinguish the touch and even point precisely at the top of his head.

    “I kissed you already. You got an inch and now you want a mile, huh?”

    “Mom!!! Theerak got tricked, sob, Mom!!!”

    “Hey!! Why are you calling for Mom…”

    “I told you to kiss me!!”

    “So demanding! Fine, I’ll kiss…” Muenfah let out a huff, staring at the jetblack hair while inwardly questioning why he was agreeing to something so ridiculous.

    He leaned down slightly… pressing the tip of his nose into the soft strands. A faint, pleasant scent—though he couldn’t quite place what it was—filled his nostrils. Muenfah felt almost as intoxicated as the smaller person in his arms. At first, he’d only meant to lightly brush his nose against the hair…

    But before he knew it… his nose was buried deep in that fluffy head.

    TBC

    #However Many Thousand Skies 

     

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  • Story of Yanxi Palace, Side Story Chapter 4: Her Secret [Part 2]

       Story of Yanxi Palace, Side Story Chapter 4: Her Secret [Part 2]

       “…Where is this?” Zhaohua opened her eyes. “Why am I here?”

    Before her was not her own bedchamber, but an abandoned, long-neglected loft.

    Spiderwebs covered the corners, one of them trapping a snow-white moth. The moth desperately fluttered its wings but could not break free from the delicate threads.

    “This is Chengqian Palace,” she suddenly lost control of her own mouth. Another voice emerged from within—cold, deep, hissing like a snake. “The place where the late Empress was confined.”

    Zhaohua was startled. She forced herself up from the floor and took a few steps. Suddenly, she heard voices coming from outside.

    “Zhaohua has already been missing for a day,” Fukang’an’s voice carried a trace of anxiety. “Are you really sure she’s here?”

    “Jiangxue Pavilion, Yuhua Pavilion, Yinghua Hall… haven’t you already searched all those places?” Siwan’s laughter rang out. “Relax. I know Zhaohua better than you do. I know exactly where she hides when she has an episode.”

    “Episode?” Lawanduorji’s voice was extremely cold. “What do you mean?”

    What do I mean? The corners of Zhaohua’s lips curved into a cruel arc—an expression that had never appeared on her face before. It belonged completely to someone else.

       Even the way she walked had changed. One leg dragged slightly, as though an old injury to the knee still pained her, yet it did not slow her down. In fact, she moved lighter and faster than the three people outside—silent and practiced, like a eunuch long trained to walk without sound.

       She knew the layout of Chengqian Palace better than any of them. In just a few moments, she circled behind the trio and noiselessly locked the door—clang.

    “Ah!!” Siwan’s scream pierced the air. “What—what was that sound? Ah!! Who locked the door? Let me out! Let me out!”

    “Is that you, Zhaohua?!”

    “You two stay here. I’ll go find her!”

    Chaos erupted, and the three became separated.

    “No—don’t!” Siwan, leaning on her crutch, cried and chased after the other two. “Don’t leave me here alone!”

    “Don’t worry.” A pair of ice-cold hands reached from behind and closed around her neck. “I’ll stay with you.”

    Siwan fainted from fright on the spot.

    When she slowly came to, she found herself seated in a chair, a black cloth blindfolding her eyes, her hands bound to the armrests.

    “Do you still remember, Siwan?” Zhaohua’s voice came from in front of her. “When you were eleven, Fifth Brother fell ill. You tricked me into going to Yinghua Hall to pray for him, saying it would save him. I went—and that person captured me.”

    Siwan shuddered violently.

    “He ran away, so he broke my legs and threw me into a narrow little room, surrounded by filthy sewage—dirty and stinking.” Zhaohua murmured, “Several times he pressed my face into the sewage, trying to drown me. But every time I cried and called for my mother, he would let me go. Later he started telling me stories. Do you know what story he told me?”

    “No… no…” Siwan trembled even more violently. “I don’t want to hear it.”

    “I told her, my name is Yuan Chunwang.” Suddenly Zhaohua’s voice changed—dark, terrifying, carrying a resentment too heavy for any living person to bear. “The first day I entered the palace, I was tied to a door panel. The moment I made a sound, someone next to me would shove a scalding-hot boiled egg down my throat. When the castration began, every single bone in my body hurt…”

    He recounted his entire life sentence by sentence—from the agony of being deceived into the palace, to the brief spring-like warmth and blooming flowers when he met Wei Yingluo, only for her to betray and abandon him in the next moment, filling him with rage…

    “Who am I? Zhaohua? Yuan Chunwang?” Zhaohua asked herself, then let out a strange, giggling laugh. “I am Yuan Chunwang… You have such great audacity to torment me. Let me show you what I’m capable of.”

    Siwan suddenly felt a chill at her wrist. Drip, drip—liquid began trickling down her arm. Her face turned deathly pale. “You… what did you do to me?”

    “I made a cut on your wrist,” Zhaohua said with a smile. “You won’t die right away. Listen—drip, drip—your blood will keep flowing. Once the very last drop leaves your body, you’ll die.”

    “You lunatic! Lunatic!!” Siwan struggled desperately. “Let me go! Let me go! Help! Help! Lawanduorji, save me! Fukang’an, save me!”

    “…Zhaohua.” A young man’s voice came from behind her—extremely complicated and full of pity. “Stop.”

    “You’re Fukang’an?” Zhaohua slowly stood up, turned to face him, her eyes brimming with mockery. “I remember now. You’re the son of Fucha Fuheng.”

    Her face looked so utterly unfamiliar that Fukang’an instinctively took a step back.

    Zhaohua toyed with the blood-stained dagger in her hand and gave an eerie smile. “Just like your foolish father, you fell in love with a woman you shouldn’t have. Wei Yingluo, Zhaohua—they’re all cold and heartless at their core. They only think of themselves. The moment you become useless to them, they discard you like worn-out shoes. Can’t the fate of Fucha Fuheng serve as a warning to you?”

    “Shut up!” Fukang’an gritted his teeth. “Who the hell are you?”

    “I am Yuan Chunwang—the chief eunuch by the side of the late Empress, the mastermind behind the Jiangnan rebellion case!” The “Zhaohua” in front of him burst into loud, wild laughter. “I’ve killed many people—my own younger brother, my master, Jinxiu, a prince consort… and now it’s your turn!”

    She lunged toward Fukang’an.

    Not only had her voice and demeanor become completely like a man’s, even her strength had become that of a man’s. With a knife in her hand, she was actually able to fight Fukang’an on roughly even terms. In contrast, facing the woman he loved, Fukang’an held back, reluctant to use real force against her. In the end, he was caught off guard and knocked to the ground.

    Zhaohua straddled his waist, raising the dagger high, about to plunge it into his chest—yet tears were already streaming down her face first.

    “Am I having another episode?” she murmured.

    “Zhaohua?” Fukang’an struggled to sit up. “Is that you?”

    Zhaohua nodded, lowered the dagger, and said, “You should go quickly—while I can still control myself.”

    “Zhaohua…” Fukang’an hesitated, words caught in his throat.

    “You’ve seen it for yourself. I’m sick,” Zhaohua sobbed once. “Ever since I was kidnapped at eleven years old, I’ve been ill. Although that eunuch named Yuan Chunwang was soon captured and beheaded, I know… he’s still alive. He lives inside my body.”

    Those seven unbearable days worse than death, and during those seven days, the words Yuan Chunwang poured into her ears without pause—about his past, his joys, angers, sorrows, and pleasures—had taken deep root in her young body, gradually giving birth to a second personality: one named Yuan Chunwang.

    Once an episode struck, she would instantly transform from the innocent, willful Princess-Zhaohua into that man as sinister as a serpent. Within the entire Forbidden City, no one except Wei Yingluo could subdue her.

    This was her secret—and the greatest secret of the Forbidden City.

    “Yes, I’m still alive.” “Zhaohua” suddenly changed expression, letting out a sinister giggle. “But you are about to die. Tell me—tomorrow, when everyone opens the doors of Chengqian Palace and finds that Princess-Zhaohua has slaughtered everyone, including Princess-Siwan, a Mongolian prince, and you, the last surviving seedling of the Fucha family… won’t the scene be especially spectacular? I can hardly wait to see Yingluo’s expression. Hahahahaha!”

    She laughed so maniacally that even Princess-Siwan stopped screaming, trembling and unable to speak.

    But one hand gently caressed her cheek.

    “Zhaohua, don’t kill them.” Fukang’an looked at her with both pity and guilt, speaking softly, “Just kill me. That’s enough.”

    “Zhaohua” froze at his words.

    “I have wronged you.” Fukang’an closed his eyes and guided the hand holding the dagger toward his own throat. “I’m a coward. I didn’t have the courage to take revenge on the Noble Consort, so I took it out on you… and in the end, I couldn’t bear to do it. I couldn’t avenge my mother, yet I also couldn’t bring myself to hurt you. I’m incapable of anything—I’m nothing but trash.”

    “Why?” “Zhaohua” asked in a low, heavy voice. “That day in the ruined temple—why did you come out?”

    If he hadn’t appeared, after suffering such humiliation at the hands of so many beggars, Princess-Zhaohua would surely have died. Even if she hadn’t died miserably beneath them, she would have taken her own life upon returning.

    Wei Yingluo’s health was frail, and she doted on this daughter above all others. If Princess-Zhaohua died, at the very least Wei Yingluo would fall gravely ill. Wouldn’t that have achieved exactly what he wanted?

    Why, after taking ninety-nine steps forward, did he give up at the very last one?

    “Speak!” “Zhaohua” pressed the dagger harder against his throat, leaning her upper body down and snarling, “Why?”

    Fukang’an let out a soft sigh. Slowly, he stretched out both arms and wrapped them around her back. Ignoring the sharp blade in her hand, he pulled her into an embrace and gently called out one word:

    “…Little sister.”

    “Zhaohua” trembled violently from head to toe.

    It seemed as though a very, very long time ago—almost a lifetime ago—he had once cherished a woman in exactly this way: personally brewing medicine for her, sitting on the cold bench in the Imperial Garden for her sake, giving up everything for her, and then pursuing everything again for her…

    “Yingluo.” Tears suddenly welled up in the cold, ruthless eyes of “Zhaohua.” She murmured, “My… little sister…”

    All at once her body went limp and she collapsed into Fukang’an’s arms.

    Behind them stood Lawanduorji, panting heavily… and the Noble Consort, Wei Yingluo.

    “Yuan Chunwang is my sworn brother.” Wei Yingluo bent down, lifted Princess-Zhaohua into her arms, and said calmly, “He was implicated in a case of plotting rebellion and should have been executed by lingchi. But I begged the Emperor to spare his life and had him confined in Yinghua Hall. Who could have known he would successfully manipulate Princess-Siwan into luring Zhaohua there…”

    “It was him!” Fukang’an finally remembered who the man was.

    A man who was obsessed with exterminating every last member of the Aisin Gioro clan—yet he himself carried Aisin Gioro blood. The greatest secret of the Aisin Gioro family.

    “From the look on your face, you must have remembered who he is. He did so many foolish things because he believed himself to be the Emperor’s son.” Wei Yingluo’s tone shifted, her words carrying a pointed implication as she asked, “And you, Fukang’an? Do you also believe you are the Emperor’s son?”

    Fukang’an shuddered violently from head to foot.

       His secret.

       On the day of the grand wedding.

       Before the phoenix palanquin, Lawanduorji supported Zhaohua as she stepped up into the sedan.

    The swaying red veil adorned with dangling pearls concealed Zhaohua’s expression. Only her vermilion lips hesitated for a moment before she let out a soft sigh:

    “Lawanduorji, you have already seen what I look like when I have an episode. Why do you still dare to marry me?”

    Lawanduorji’s voice was steady as a rock: “Because I love you.”

    Zhaohua stared at him for a long moment, then lowered her head. Her voice sounded half like crying, half like laughing: “You… really are a fool.”

    “I know you don’t love me, but that’s all right.” Lawanduorji was not a man skilled in sweet words, and precisely because of that, the vows that came from his mouth carried an even deeper moving power. “We still have a long time ahead of us. I will wait patiently—wait until you fall in love with me.”

    If there was still anyone in the world who, after knowing her secret, could accept her completely and without reservation…

    “Let’s go.” Lawanduorji glanced behind her and suddenly urged.

    Zhaohua nodded, took his hand, and stepped into the sedan chair. The moment the curtain fell, she heard an anxious voice calling her name: “Zhaohua, wait for me!”

    Her shoulders trembled slightly. Then she heard Lawanduorji’s voice ring out outside: “Lift the sedan!”

    The bearers raised the phoenix sedan and set off toward the Shenwu Gate.

    Guards stood solemnly along the entire route. No one—not even Fukang’an, the young master of the Fucha family—could break through at this moment.

    And no one could stop this wedding, whose outcome had already been set in stone.

    Lawanduorji sat astride a tall horse. He turned back once to look at the other man. In his ears echoed the words Wei Yingluo had once spoken.

    “Fukang’an, hasn’t someone always been telling you that you are the Emperor’s son? And that if you want revenge, the best way is to make Zhaohua fall in love with you?” Wei Yingluo had smiled. “But are you really the Emperor’s son?”

       No wall in the world is completely airtight. What has been done will eventually come to light.

       The mastermind who had incited Fukang’an to seek revenge was soon exposed under thorough investigation. The man who had once held little Fukang’an’s hand and forced him to remember his dead mother’s appearance was Fucha Fuheng’s half-brother by a concubine.

       At the same time, he was also Erqing’s secret lover—and Fukang’an’s true biological father.

       How absurd it all was. Because of Erqing’s pregnancy, so many people had been forced to their deaths, implicated, or ruined—yet in the end, the child in her belly still bore the Fucha surname.

       “Zhaohua… she is not my sister.” Fukang’an’s eyes held both sorrow and joy, confusion and hope. “Not my sister…”

       But so what?

       Zhaohua didn’t know this.

       “This matter concerns the Fucha family’s reputation, so I have already dealt with everyone who knew the truth. Now only three people know: you, me, and Fukang’an.” Wei Yingluo’s voice echoed in Lawanduorji’s ears. “I will not tell Zhaohua the truth. What about you?”

       The corner of Lawanduorji’s lips curved upward.

    The phoenix sedan finally passed through the Shenwu Gate. The brilliant sunset fell upon the chair, like amber descending from the heavens, fixing everything within it—forever, for a thousand years, ten thousand years.

    “…This is my secret,” Lawanduorji said in his heart. “Even if my bones turn to dust after a thousand years or ten thousand years, I will never tell her the truth.”

    THE END

     

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  • Story of Yanxi Palace, Side Story Chapter 3: Her Secret [Part 1]

       Story of Yanxi Palace, Side Story Chapter 3: Her Secret [Part 1]

       Prologue: Her Secret

       She has a secret.

    This secret has made her increasingly withdrawn, increasingly distant from other people…

    “How pitiful.” A gentle voice sounded behind her. “Everyone says Princess Zhaohua is willful, domineering, heartless, and cold-blooded. Turns out she’s not incapable of crying—she just likes to hide and cry alone.”

    Princess Zhaohua whipped her head around and stared coldly at the other person:

    “Who are you?”

    As the eldest daughter of Wei Yingluo, Princess-Zhaohua inherited her mother’s stunning beauty, but her temperament was far more like her father’s—arrogant and overbearing, as though she were born the master of the world and everyone else should naturally prostrate themselves at her feet.

    If she were a prince, such an attitude might be acceptable, but as a princess, as a woman, this manner came across as excessively haughty.

    “If I were Lawanduorji, I wouldn’t choose a woman who looks down at me through her nostrils as my wife either.” The other person laughed. He was a young man dressed in a guard’s uniform, strikingly handsome, with a somewhat roguish, carefree smile. He gave a rather informal salute by patting his chest. “My name is Fukang’an. I’ve come to help you.”

    “Help me?” Princess-Zhaohua raised an eyebrow. “And what exactly can you help me with?”

    “Help you win Lawanduorji’s heart, of course.” Fukang’an replied with a sly grin.

    “…And why would you want to help me?” Princess-Zhaohua looked at him with even deeper suspicion.

    In the palace, she had never been particularly well-liked.

    Apart from her father the prince, her mother the consort, and the two elder siblings she grew up with, everyone else either feared her or disliked her. Unless she gave a direct order, no one would ever take the initiative to help her with anything.

    Suddenly a finger reached across from the opposite side and gently scraped across her cheek.

    Princess-Zhaohua startled backward several steps, exploding in fury: “How dare you! What are you doing?!”

    Fukang’an brought the finger—now moist with her tears—to his lips and lightly licked it, as though savoring the blend of sour, sweet, bitter, and spicy that was her. His extremely beautiful peach-blossom eyes gazed at her, shimmering like spring water reflecting pear blossoms. “I have no choice… of course I have to help you. The way you’re crying is melting my heart.”

    Everyone said Princess-Zhaohua had everything, but that wasn’t entirely true.

    Whenever she had something she liked, Princess-Siwan would always find a way to snatch it away. Princess-Siwan was the granddaughter of Prince He; after Prince He died suddenly in his prime and his mansion rapidly declined, her background was truly pitiful. So everyone always told Princess-Zhaohua to yield to her.

    Yield the delicious pastries, yield the beautiful clothes, yield the snow-white kitten with soft fur… and in the end, even her fiancé, the valiant and heroic Prince Lawanduorji, was to be yielded to her.

    This was truly intolerable.

    Princess-Zhaohua did not love Lawanduorji, but she absolutely could not allow what belonged to her to be taken away again and again. So she gritted her teeth and accepted Fukang’an’s proposal.

    “Very well, my beautiful princess.” Fukang’an plucked a peony blossom, tucked it gently behind her ear, and said tenderly, “Let me teach you how to plunder a man’s heart.”

    Fukang’an was a man with an infamous reputation. He was known for seducing women—there were even rumors that he had gotten a palace maid pregnant. Yet surprisingly, when it came to teaching how to seduce a man, he was quite accomplished.

    Lawanduorji was a renowned general: ruthless toward enemies on the battlefield, and equally ruthless toward women he did not like once he returned to the Forbidden City. He even dared, under the combined pressure of Hongli and Wei Yingluo, to propose breaking off the engagement.

    But even such a man could not escape Fukang’an’s calculations.

    “Why deliberately spread false rumors that the Empress Dowager is choosing a new consort for you?” Fukang’an laughed. “Taking the initiative to break an engagement and being the one rejected are two completely different things. No matter how aloof Lawanduorji is, he is still a man. He may be willing to forgo the position of Seventh Imperial Son-in-law, but he cannot tolerate having something taken from him. That is human nature—he will come looking for you soon, my princess.”

    Just as Fukang’an had predicted, Lawanduorji—who had always shown no warmth toward Princess-Zhaohua—actually took the initiative to seek her out.

    “Occasionally let him see you cry, my princess. Your tears are far more powerful than any sword you hold in your hand.”

    Princess-Zhaohua had never cried in front of others—she considered it too humiliating. But she tried it skeptically, and the result was astonishingly effective. She said the exact same words as before, yet the last time Lawanduorji wouldn’t listen to a single sentence. This time, speaking through tears, not only did he listen—he believed every word.

    Are tears really so powerful?

    “The tears themselves aren’t that powerful. It’s just that Lawanduorji has already begun to fall for you.” Fukang’an always planned one step ahead. “The time has come, my princess. Now you should be jealous…”

    While the two were secretly plotting this relationship, Siwan was also vying for Lawanduorji’s attention. She even deliberately injured herself, then, covered in blood, cried out to Lawanduorji for help. Left with no choice, Lawanduorji had to carry her back to the guard station right in front of Zhaohua.

    Zhaohua had originally thought Fukang’an would tell her to endure it. Instead, Fukang’an said there was no need—not only no need, but she should take this opportunity to vent everything.

    Of all his plans, this was the only one that truly suited Zhaohua’s wishes. She let out a sharp laugh and almost impatiently rushed to the guard station. Not only did she mock and ridicule Siwan mercilessly, she even dragged up old matters from years ago—

    Both princesses had been raised in front of the Empress Dowager, but the younger one had always been more favored. After Zhaohua was born, she naturally took a share of the Empress Dowager’s affection. It was only human for Princess Siwan to feel jealous. But snatching clothes and toys from Zhaohua wasn’t enough for her—she wanted Zhaohua’s life.

    “When Princess Siwan went outside the palace to visit her brother who had smallpox, she came back and passed the pox to me. I struggled on my sickbed for several months before I survived. How do you expect me to like her? How do you expect me to show her a pleasant face?” Zhaohua’s eyes reddened as she questioned Lawanduorji. “You… never mind. I’ll return the tapestry to you.”

    Lawanduorji didn’t want the tapestry, nor did he want the delicate, pitiful, yet charming and seductive Princess Siwan lying on the bed.

    He chased after her in a few strides, not even avoiding the eyes and ears around them, and spoke to Zhaohua with complete sincerity:

    “I’m not blind to Princess Siwan deliberately approaching me again and again. I only refrained from harsh words out of consideration for both our faces, not wanting to humiliate her. But since you dislike it, from now on I won’t pay her any attention at all!”

    Yet Zhaohua’s gaze passed over his shoulder, landing on the figure leaning against a red pillar in the long corridor of the guard station. That handsome face always seemed to carry a roguish, mocking smile no matter the moment.

    The corners of her mouth involuntarily curved upward. Zhaohua’s already beautiful features became even more breathtaking with that smile:

    “What does it have to do with me? There’s no need to explain yourself to me!”

    Lawanduorji looked at her steadily:

    “Of course I have to explain. Zhaohua, there is only you in my heart. How could I let you misunderstand?”

    At the same moment, the corners of both conspirators’ lips lifted in a silent, mutual victory.

    Tap, tap, tap—the sound of footsteps approached from afar. Siwan, leaning on a crutch, laboriously walked out from inside, her face full of unwillingness.

    “Zhaohua, if you were truly open and aboveboard, why don’t you tell him about that matter? Or are you afraid—afraid that once Lawanduorji knows the truth, he will never see you as a normal person again!”

    The depth of the rift between the two was not merely because of smallpox—there was an even deeper, more terrifying secret hidden in both their hearts.

    Although Princess Siwan ultimately did not speak that secret aloud, merely mentioning it had already greatly violated Zhaohua’s taboo. But before dealing with her, Zhaohua had something more important to do.

    “I’m giving them to you.” Zhaohua pointed to the mother and child beside her. “I know you’ve been begging Father for them and took quite a few beatings for it. Now I’ve helped you get them.”

    It was a mother and son who had just come out of the Cleansing Division. The woman was about the same age as Zhaohua; the childishness had not yet fully left her own face, yet she was already nursing a child.

    Fukang’an said nothing.

    But the woman, clutching the tattered swaddling cloth, suddenly knelt before Zhaohua with a thud:

    “He is not my husband—he is the benefactor of our entire family!”

    Zhaohua was stunned.

    The child’s father was not Fukang’an, but an ordinary guard from the guard station. In order to win honor and advancement, he died on the battlefield and was posthumously awarded the title of Baturu, becoming a hero of the family.

    But if word spread that he had been involved with a palace maid, he would instantly go from hero to criminal.

    So Fukang’an had shouldered the entire matter himself. He saved the guard’s reputation and saved the lives of the mother and child—at the cost of his own future prospects.

    “Is this your secret?” Zhaohua asked.

    Fukang’an looked at her with a complicated expression and remained silent for a long time.

    “…Don’t worry. Your secret is my secret. I won’t tell anyone.” Zhaohua blinked, giving him a meaningful look. “Besides… your future isn’t completely hopeless yet.”

     

    She left happily, skipping along. Not long after, word spread that Princess Siwan’s cat had died. A few days later, the maidservant by Princess Siwan’s side also died. Finally… Princess Siwan herself hanged herself.

    Although she was fortunately saved and did not die, the rumors had already spread throughout the Forbidden City. Everyone was saying that it was Princess Zhaohua who killed the cat, killed the maidservant, and step by step terrorized Princess Siwan, forcing her toward death.

    The rumors were told with such vivid detail and conviction that they finally reached the ears of the Imperial Clan Court.

    The Director of the Imperial Clan Court personally came before Hongli, demanding severe punishment for Zhaohua. In the middle of the heated argument, the door of Yangxin Hall suddenly burst open. Zhaohua rushed in from outside and knelt with a thud before Hongli:

    “Royal Father, I am willing to yield the marriage to Siwan, to fulfill her infatuation.”

    Everyone present was stunned.

    The Director of the Imperial Clan Court said, “Seventh Princess, what do you mean by this?”

    “Does the Director of the Imperial Clan Court not know? Siwan harbors deep affection for Lawanduorji. For his sake she has repeatedly created friction with me, damaging the bond of many years of companionship, and even went so far as to threaten suicide.” Zhaohua cast him a glance, then turned back to Hongli and said, word by word, reaffirming her decision: “Since Siwan is so devoted, to prevent her from harming herself again, I am willing to give the marriage to her!”

    As soon as these words were spoken, the entire hall was shocked into silence.

    “Do you know what you’re doing?” Afterward, Wei Yingluo summoned Zhaohua to Yanxi Palace and scolded her sharply.

    “I know,” Zhaohua replied, appearing extremely calm.

    Wei Yingluo: “…Is it because of Fukang’an?”

    Zhaohua was silent for a moment, then nodded.

    She did not love Lawanduorji. Approaching him had only been an act of spite—or perhaps part of a scheme. Her heart had long been captured by another man. She had never spoken of it because of that persistent rumor—he had been involved with a palace maid, and the two of them had even borne a son.

    Now that misunderstanding had been cleared up. The only knot in her heart was gone. What else could possibly stop her from running to his side?

       Zhaohua had always been impulsive and fiery. As soon as the thought crossed her mind, she acted on it. Leaving the palace maids and eunuchs behind, she lifted her skirt and practically ran all the way to the Imperial Guard station, wanting to be the first to share this wonderful news with him.

       But what did she hear?

       “You clearly said that Zhaohua’s reputation would be completely ruined. That’s why I killed my beloved cat, killed my maidservant, and nearly killed myself. But look at what she’s done!” Princess Siwan’s voice came from inside the room. “Now everyone in the palace is saying that I ruined the Seventh Princess’s reputation just to get Prince Lawanduorji. Is this your so-called perfect plan?”

    The sound of a teacup lid scraping across the rim of the cup.

    Fukang’an’s voice drifted out, leisurely and fragrant like tea: “Do you not want Lawanduorji?”

    Princess Siwan snapped angrily, “Not like this!”

    Fukang’an chuckled softly. “To completely destroy Zhaohua while still coming out with a good reputation—you really are greedy.”

    “Fukang’an!”

    “Why get so angry?” Fukang’an said slowly and deliberately. “Do you really care what Lawanduorji thinks of you? No. You don’t love him. What you love… is seeing Zhaohua go mad, go insane.”

    Bang—

    The door was violently pushed open.

    Zhaohua stood at the threshold, her face ashen. She shouted fiercely at Princess Siwan:

    “Get out!”

    After driving Princess Siwan away, the two of them faced each other.

    “…Why?” Zhaohua’s eyes were slightly red. “Why did you help Princess Siwan frame me?”

    “What if I said it was for your sake?” Fukang’an smiled.

    Zhaohua froze upon hearing this.

    “I reckon that in a few days, your Imperial Father will bring up today’s matter with him and ask whether he’s willing to switch to a different princess. But do you think he’ll agree?” Fukang’an gently wiped her tears for her. “Bet on it with me, my princess.”

    Zhaohua: “And if I win?”

    Fukang’an: “Then you’ll have Lawanduorji.”

    Zhaohua: “But what if I lose?”

    “Then…” Fukang’an thought for a moment, pressing one finger to his own lips as though sharing a secret meant only for the two of them, “…then on that day, accompany me out of the palace to watch a temple fair.”

    With that, he lowered the finger and, in the palm of Zhaohua’s hand, lingeringly traced a date.

    Lawanduorji did not agree.

    He knelt before Hongli, just as he had once knelt to beg for the dissolution of the engagement—but this time, he asked for Zhaohua alone.

    Zhaohua had won. She looked down at her own palm and suddenly said, “The time has come. I should go.”

    She secretly changed into the clothes of a little eunuch and slipped out of the palace together with the group of eunuchs who were leaving on errands. A carriage was already waiting not far from the gate. Once inside, she happily changed again into the commoner girl’s attire that had been prepared in advance. Lifting a corner of the carriage curtain to look outside, she was stunned. “Where is this?”

    “The young master is waiting for you inside,” the coachman declared confidently.

    Zhaohua jumped down from the carriage. All she saw was overgrown weeds swaying in the wind, bent low enough to reveal an old, dilapidated temple behind them. No matter how she looked left or right, this place did not resemble anywhere a temple fair could possibly be held.

    Filled with suspicion, Zhaohua walked inside.

    As soon as she entered, countless gazes fell upon her.

    They belonged to a group of filthy beggars—some lying down, some sitting, others walking straight toward her—with extremely lewd grins on their faces.

    “Where did such a pretty little girl come from, running to such a desolate place?”

    “Get away!” Zhaohua dodged the man’s dirty hand.

    “Get away? Hahaha, did you all hear that? She’s telling me to get away?” The beggar flashed a mouthful of yellow teeth; his gaze suddenly turned vicious. “Too late, sweetheart. Your beloved has already handed you over to us!”

    Zhaohua flew into a rage. “You’re lying!”

    “Silly girl, do you even know where this is?” Another beggar approached with a sinister chuckle. “The most rundown beggars’ den in the eastern part of the city. If it weren’t deliberate deception, why would anyone choose a place like this for a rendezvous?”

    One by one the beggars closed in, forming an impenetrable wall of suspicion that trapped Zhaohua tightly in the center. Dirty hands reached for her—tugging at her clothes, groping her face, mocking her, humiliating her.

    “Stop acting already. Would a proper young lady from a good family come running off to meet a man so shamelessly?”

    “She’s just born low and filthy—pretending to be some chaste martyr!”

    “Tell us—which brothel did you sneak out of?”

    “Ah! She bit me!”

    Several sharp slaps rang out, followed by Zhaohua’s frenzied, blood-curdling screams.

    After struggling at the doorway for a long time, Fukang’an could bear it no longer. He rushed inside and shouted, “Stop!”

    Seeing the beggars completely ignore him, he drew his sword with a sharp shing. A few swift strokes later, cries of pain filled the air. One beggar clutched his arm and staggered back, trembling as he stammered,

    “Young Master Fu… but… but this was all your idea—you told us to do it!”

    Fukang’an froze for a moment. Reflexively, he turned his face and looked toward Zhaohua.

    Zhaohua, with disheveled hair, curled up in the corner, staring at him with a pair of extremely cold eyes.

    The wheels rolled, yellow dust rose in clouds. The same carriage that had brought her here now carried her back. On the return journey, Zhaohua shrank into the farthest corner of the carriage, keeping as much distance from him as possible.

    “My full name is Fucha Fukang’an,” Fukang’an said calmly. “Your mother ordered the death of my mother…”

    The son of Fucha Fuheng had finally grown into adulthood this year, yet even now, he could not forget that childhood memory: a gloomy, rainy day when he held that person’s hand and walked into the room where the coffin was placed.

    “Look,” that person said, lifting the coffin lid and pointing at the corpse inside, whose eyes remained wide open in death. “Your mother didn’t die of natural causes. She was poisoned with poisoned wine by that wretch Consort Ling. You must remember her face, remember her suffering, Fukang’an… When you grow up, you must avenge her.”

     

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  • Story of Yanxi Palace, Side Story Chapter 2: Record of the Detached Soul

       Story of Yanxi Palace, Side Story Chapter 2: Record of the Detached Soul

       Not only Li Yu, but even the Empress was stunned by the words.

       Hongli slowly picked up a green plaque—it belonged to Consort Chun. He said indifferently: “The two of them were sitting together. How is it that the one who met with disaster was the Empress and not her?”

       He picked up another green plaque—Noble Consort Hui: “Among all the women in the rear palace, she is the most arrogant and domineering. If anything happened, nine times out of ten it would be her doing. In the past I could forgive her, but if this time it really was her, I will not spare her.”

       Finally he took Consort Xian’s green plaque. Even this woman whom everyone praised as both virtuous and kind, he did not exempt. In a cold voice he said: “When the Empress met with misfortune, everyone suspected Noble Consort Hui. How is it that no one suspected her? Remember—the ultimate winner would be her…”

       He tossed the green plaque back into the box with a crisp clack. Hongli leaned back into his chair, one hand covering his eyes, and gave a low, bitter laugh:

       “Except for the Empress… not a single woman in this entire rear palace can be trusted…”

       “Your Majesty…” Seeing the profound loneliness radiating from him, the Empress felt a pang of pity. She walked over and gently wrapped her arms around him.

       “Sometimes I really wish I could be a tyrant,” Hongli murmured. “Kill everyone I dislike. Those who failed to help her, those who failed to cure her, those who dared to dream of replacing her—leave not one alive…”

       “You could never do it.” Even knowing he could not hear her, the Empress could not help but speak softly to comfort him. “I know you. You are a wise ruler. You could never slaughter the innocent.”

       “I’m not a good Emperor.” Hongli’s voice gradually grew hoarse. “To have had such thoughts.”

       “It’s not your fault.” Tears slowly welled up in the Empress’s eyes. “You were simply too exhausted, that’s why such thoughts came to you. But you would never actually do it.”

       “I… am not a good husband either.” Hongli covered his eyes with one hand, his voice catching with a slight sob. “Get out!”

       Li Yu hurriedly led all the other eunuchs out in retreat.

       With no one else present, Hongli finally allowed his tears to fall.

       “Empress…” he said through his tears, “I’m sorry…”

       “Your Majesty.” The Empress embraced him from behind and spoke softly. “I… have never blamed you.”

       Ever since you ascended the throne and I became Empress, so many things in our lives have become beyond our control.

       We cannot cry loudly, cannot laugh loudly, cannot even say “I’m sorry” with complete frankness. These heavy burdens are like chains wrapped around us. Wearing these chains as we move forward, the Empress often found it hard to breathe, yet she endured it all. With her translucent hands, she gently wrapped her arms around the man in her embrace and said to him:

       “Don’t cry. Don’t be sad. I’m with you. I will always, always be with you…”

       And so she stayed by Hongli’s side.

       She accompanied him while he read, while he wrote, while he frowned, while he laughed. Gradually, the Empress grew accustomed to her current state—even began to feel that perhaps it would be fine to go on like this forever.

       She had never asked for much. Simply being able to remain by his side was enough. Power, status, rank—they were like sand slipping through her fingers.

       Until a voice sounded in her ear.

       It seemed both far and near, intermittent and broken. The Empress couldn’t help tilting her head to listen. She heard him sobbing:

       “…Can you hear me speaking? Sister!”

    It was Fuheng’s voice!

    The Empress froze for a moment. She looked at Hongli, then in the direction of Changchun Palace.

    “Sister, Mother cries every day because of your illness. Now one of her eyes can no longer see. Father sighs all day long, has no heart for official duties. And Wei Yingluo…” Fuheng’s voice was filled with extreme grief. “The Wei Yingluo you cherished most…”

    “Yingluo?” The Empress was stunned. “What happened to Yingluo?”

    “She went to take revenge for you.” Fuheng choked out. “She went to kill for you. Now she is on the brink of death. Can’t you wake up? Can’t you go help her?”

    The Empress remained silent for a long time.

    This out-of-body dream had lasted too long, and it had been too sweet. In the dream, she was merely Hongli’s wife—and she had forgotten that she was also a daughter of the Fucha family, Fuheng’s older sister, the one person Yingluo could truly rely on.

    “Sister! Please, wake up, wake up! Only you can help her. Only you can save her…”

    “You want to save Wei Yingluo?” This time it was Erqing’s voice. She laughed—a laugh that carried a hint of malice. “If the Empress cannot wake up, there won’t be enough time. If you want to save Wei Yingluo, there is only one way… It’s very simple. Let me tell you.”

    The Empress was silent for a long moment. Then suddenly she hurried toward the door. Just as she passed through the threshold, Wei Yingluo was being escorted inside under guard. The two brushed past each other. The Empress said to her:

    “Hold on, Yingluo.”

    Then she began to run.

    After becoming Empress, she had never run so wildly again—casting aside all etiquette, all grace. Sweat poured down like rain, her posture awkward and unrefined, all for the sake of saving one person—or rather, several people’s lives…

    “I’m not important?” she asked herself in her heart. “No, I am important. If I live, the Emperor will not weep every night. If I live, Fuheng will not make such a wrong decision. If I live… Yingluo can live…”

    It has to be you.

    You are not merely “Her Ladyship.” No one else can replace you. Even if you sleep, you continue to live in everyone’s hearts. Someone lives because of you; someone dies for you. You need not worry about your place in this world.

     

    “I can’t sleep anymore.”

    The Empress rushed into the Changchun Palace and looked at her own body still lying asleep on the bed. Without any more hesitation, she plunged straight in.

    “I must wake up!!”

    Night passed, dawn arrived. A ray of morning light swept away all the gloom.

    Thump——

    Inside the bedchamber of Changchun Palace, a figure struggled to climb down from the bed. But she had been lying motionless for too long, her limbs weak and numb, and she immediately fell to the floor in a sitting position.

    Hearing the noise, Ming Yu entered holding a candlestick. She froze for a moment, then cried out in joyful surprise:

    “Your Ladyship!”

    She rushed over to support her, and urgently called for the imperial physicians to be summoned.

    “No!” The Empress tightly gripped Ming Yu’s hand and said with all her strength, “Call Fuheng. I want to see Fuheng.”

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  • Story of Yanxi Palace, Side Story Chapter 1: The Brother-Obsessed One in the Well

       Story of Yanxi Palace, Side Story Chapter 1: The Brother-Obsessed One in the Well

    In the mountains, there are no days or months—let alone in the depths of a well.

    A skeleton gazed upward at the well’s mouth. Jinxiu thought to herself: How many days has it been since I was murdered?

    The murderer was Yuan Chunwang. After killing her to silence her, he had used his authority to find an excuse to seal the well opening. Day after day she looked up and saw no sky—only darkness… Huh? Who moved the well cover?

    Splash—

    A body fell into the well with a loud thud, sending water splashing everywhere.

    It was a palace maid whose face was somewhat unfamiliar. Jinxiu had never seen her before. Either she was a newcomer punished into the Cleansing Division after Jinxiu’s death, or she came from outside Yong Alley.

    —Either way, she was now someone on the verge of death.

    The body floated on the water’s surface. A flower of blood bloomed on her chest, gurgling and bubbling as blood poured out. The scene… and especially the location of the wound… looked strangely familiar. Jinxiu couldn’t help but ask, “Excuse me… was the person who killed you Yuan Chunwang?”

    The body turned its head and spoke the last words she had uttered while still alive in the mortal world: “How did you know?”

    The well mouth was sealed again. Another skeleton now lay in the well.

    Whether one had been an emperor or a general, man or woman—after death, everyone was the same: two hundred and six bones, and a pair of empty, pitch-black eye sockets.

    “My name is Jinxiu. I was originally an embroiderer in the embroidery workshop, but later I was implicated by someone and punished by being sent to the Cleansing Division.” Jinxiu introduced herself. “By chance, I discovered a secret… Wei Yingluo is actually the true culprit who killed Noble Consort Hui! Before I could pass the information on, I fell victim to Yuan Chunwang’s poison.”

    Perhaps because they shared the same misfortune, or perhaps because there was no one else in the well to talk to, the palace maid gave her a deep look and finally spoke slowly: “I am one of Her Ladyship Consort Chun’s people. My surname is Rong. I was sent by Her Ladyship to the Cleansing Division to find fault with Wei Yingluo…”

    Fuheng had gotten married, and Consort Chun was furious.

    Since she couldn’t vent her anger on Fuheng or Erqing, she turned her wrath on Wei Yingluo instead.

    How best to deal with her? Consort Chun chose Palace Maid Rong.

    Palace Maid Rong appeared ordinary, but she had one exceptional skill: she was an expert with needles—not for embroidery, but for stabbing people… With just a single needle, no matter how stubborn or unruly a palace maid was, she could teach her a lesson in manners.

    “I don’t know how that little palace maid offended Her Ladyship Consort Chun, but Her Ladyship specially had someone administer ninety-nine and eighty-one needles to me.” Palace Maid Rong patted the bulging pouch at her waist; inside were bundles of silver needles. “She ordered me to use every single one on her, without leaving a single one behind.”

    “And then?” Jinxiu asked excitedly.

    Palace Maid Rong: “And then… I ended up here…”

    Jinxiu: “…”

    Was it simply bad luck, or was Yuan Chunwang simply too good at disguise?

    As soon as Palace Maid Rong entered Yong Alley, she ran into Yuan Chunwang. Her face flushed, and she lowered her head slightly, thinking to herself how handsome this little eunuch was—wondering what his surname and given name were, how old he was, and whether he already had someone special…

    “I heard that you are looking for Wei Yingluo?” His voice was gentle and pleasant, almost like sweet nothings. “I’ll take you to find her.”

    From the entrance of Yong Alley to the side of the well was only a short distance, yet in that time Palace Maid Rong had already thought up names for their future children.

    “I’ll just adopt one from my cousin,” she thought dreamily as she gazed at his profile. “His family is poor and he has many children—he surely won’t refuse. Why not adopt two? One can take his surname, and one can take mine…”

    Her beautiful fantasy ended with the thrust of a dagger.

    Palace Maid Rong looked down at her chest, then up at his face.

    The man she had just silently confessed her love to smiled tenderly at her: “You like me so much… Would you be willing to die for me?”

    Yuan Chunwang reached out. The hand she had wanted to hold for a lifetime gently pushed against her chest.

    Splash—

    A sudden rush of love, a sudden first love, shattered into countless pieces along with the moon’s reflection in the well.

    “Ah…” Palace Maid Rong and Jinxiu sighed in unison. Having suffered similar fates, they suddenly found each other much more agreeable. Just as they were about to comfort one another, light suddenly appeared above their heads.

    Both of them looked up at the same time—only to see that the well cover had somehow been moved aside again.

    Splash—

    Together they watched as a new person fell to the bottom of the well.

    It was a young palace maid whose face looked half familiar. After thinking for a moment, Jinxiu finally remembered who she was: “You’re… Hetao Girl from Changchun Palace?”

    There was a bloody hole in Hetao’s chest, blood bubbling out in gurgles. She opened her mouth, but well water mixed with blood poured in, and she couldn’t manage a single coherent sentence.

    Looking at that all-too-familiar wound, Jinxiu couldn’t help but sigh: “No need to say it. The one who killed you… was it Yuan Chunwang?”

    Hetao looked at her and uttered the very last words she would ever speak in this world: “How did you know?”

    Another corpse had appeared in the well.

    Compared to Jinxiu and Palace Maid Rong, Hetao was much younger and had far less resilience. For half a day she refused to accept the fact that she was already dead, crying without stop until her tears ran dry and not a single drop more could come from her hollow eyes. Only then did she choke out:

    “Erqing killed me!”

    “The important palace maids by the Empress’s side are all named after precious stones—such as Ming Yu, Zhenzhu, Hupo, and so on,” Palace Maid Rong whispered into Jinxiu’s ear.

    The implication was clear: a maid named Hetao… could only be a lowly, unimportant little palace girl.

    “Exactly,” Hetao said with a sigh, having caught the meaning in her words. “I was just an errand-runner. In ordinary times I couldn’t even catch a glimpse of the Empress’s face. The one who always gave me orders was Erqing.”

    Later, after Erqing married out of the palace, Hetao got a new superior.

    She had thought she would never see her again in this lifetime, yet a few days ago Erqing suddenly entered the palace. On the surface she came to reminisce with the Empress, but in reality she came looking for Hetao.

    “Erqing found me,” Hetao said through gritted teeth. “She wanted me to come to the Cleansing Division and do something for her…”

    Jinxiu and Palace Maid Rong exchanged a glance and spoke in unison:

    “She wanted you to harm Wei Yingluo?”

    “How did you know?” Hetao looked at them in surprise.

    As people who had already been through it, Jinxiu and Palace Maid Rong merely smiled without answering, gesturing for her to continue.

    “There were rumors that Wei Yingluo had a ‘food-and-sleep eunuch companion’ in the Cleansing Division. Erqing told me to come here and find out who that person was.” Since she was already dead, there was no longer any need for secrecy. Hetao spoke frankly: “And she said… if I couldn’t find anyone, just frame someone at random.”

    After marrying into the Fucha family, Erqing’s days were far from enviable.

    On the surface everyone envied her, but the bitterness within was known only to her, the one living it.

    …Fuheng never shared her bed.

    Only on their wedding night had the two of them lain together on the same bed. Though they were side by side, Fuheng had not touched her. No matter how Erqing tried to seduce him, he remained like a block of wood—completely unresponsive.

    If he had truly been an impotent cripple, Erqing might have forced herself to accept her fate. But he was not. She had personally seen him blush, seen his heart stir, seen the tender, longing look in his eyes when he gazed at a certain woman…

    That woman’s name was Wei Yingluo.

    So Erqing sought out Hetao, handed her a hairpin made of pure gold, and quietly instructed her to do one thing: “I hear Wei Yingluo has a lover who is a eunuch. Find that person for me, and I will reward you handsomely—”

     

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  • Story of Yanxi Palace, Chapter 200: A Vow for the Next Life, a Promise in This One

       Story of Yanxi Palace, Chapter 200: A Vow for the Next Life, a Promise in This One

       The imperial physicians gathered in Yanxi Palace.

    The result… was far from satisfactory.

    In the end, even Ye Tianshi declared there was nothing more he could do. With no other choice, Hongli placed all remaining hope on Fuheng, who was far away in Burma. He kept pressing Li Yu: “Has Fuheng replied yet? Any news about the venomous insect?”

    Li Yu: “Your Majesty, there has been no word yet…”

    Hongli: “Get out!”

    After driving everyone away, Hongli sat down beside the bed and took Wei Yingluo’s hand in his.

    “Your Majesty.” Wei Yingluo turned her head and gave him a pale smile. “Your hand is trembling.”

    Hongli stubbornly replied: “It’s not.”

    “Don’t be afraid.” Wei Yingluo comforted him gently. “I’m fine—really. It’s not as serious as they say…”

    “What would I be afraid of?” But Hongli could no longer keep up the pretense. His voice softened, carrying a trace of vulnerability: “You’re fine now, and you have to stay fine in the future too. I don’t ask you to be some virtuous, gentle woman—just be a disaster, all right? Only disasters last a thousand years…”

    “Your Majesty.” Though reluctant, Li Yu had no choice but to slip back in once more. “There is urgent military news from Burma.”

    Hongli had been about to shout at him to leave, but the words made him hesitate, torn.

    “Your Majesty, go take care of it.” Wei Yingluo closed her eyes, her expression calm and composed. “I’ll rest here for a little while. I’ll be waiting when you come back.”

    Hongli looked at her with deep reluctance: “Wait for me.”

    Wei Yingluo kept listening to the sound of his footsteps until they faded completely. Only then did she cough up the mouthful of blood she had been holding back in her throat.

    “Your Ladyship!” Xiaoquanzi and Zhenzhu immediately rushed over.

    “Don’t cry.” Wei Yingluo forced a smile. “Xiaoquanzi, if those three children ever ask about me in the future, just tell them I went traveling to enjoy the mountains and rivers—I didn’t want to bring them along because they’d be too much trouble. Do you understand?”

    Seeing that she was already giving final instructions, Xiaoquanzi held back tears and said: “This servant is slow-witted and doesn’t understand. This servant will go fetch Physician Ye right now!”

    He rushed out to find Ye Tianshi. But Wei Yingluo could wait no longer. Amid Zhenzhu’s sobs, she sank into a drowsy, heavy sleep.

    It was truly a beautiful dream.

    In the dream, there were no worries, only endless laughter and joy.

    The one laughing was her—and the one making her laugh… was Fuheng.

    He had become the young man he once was again: a refined and gentle nobleman, as warm as jade. Though he was born with those captivating peach-blossom eyes, he had little experience with women and was always teased and spun around by her—only to turn the tables and tease her back.

    “Fuheng.” She suddenly asked, “Where are you going?”

    He suddenly walked away from her. After a few steps, he abruptly turned back. Amid the crowd, he looked at her for a long, long time—as if trying to engrave her appearance deep into his heart, so deeply that even Meng Po’s soup of oblivion could not wash it away.

    “Lord Soulun!”

    Wei Yingluo was startled awake by the cry. She looked around and saw that the sleeping chamber was filled with people, some standing, some sitting: Xiaoquanzi, Zhenzhu, and also Hailancha.

    Who had just shouted? And why had they called out Fuheng’s name?

    “Noble Consort Ling.” Hailancha hesitated, as though he wanted to speak but could not bring himself to do so.

    Wei Yingluo looked at him. He was not one of her palace servants—he was a male outer-court official. Without urgent business, he would never dare, nor be permitted, to set foot in the inner palace. She quickly borrowed Zhenzhu’s arm to sit up. “Weren’t you with Fuheng on the campaign in Burma? Why are you…”

    Hailancha replied calmly, “Our army repeatedly defeated the Burmese forces. The Burmese sent envoys to sue for peace, so I was ordered to deliver the memorial back to the Forbidden City.”

    It was less calm than numb. Wei Yingluo’s heart pounded like a drum. “Is that so… we won… Then what about Fuheng? Has he returned?”

    Hailancha remained silent. But Zhenzhu spoke joyfully: “Of course he has! Your Ladyship, Lord Soulun brought back the antidote pill. If not for that, you would not have awakened!”

    Wei Yingluo echoed, “Antidote pill?”

    Hailancha slowly explained: “It is a divine medicine made from the Sacred Heart Grass of Burma. The Sacred Heart Grass grows in the miasma-filled swamps. It can neutralize the poison of corpse insects, preserve one’s appearance unchanged, and keep youth forever—so it is also called the Pearl of Fixed Beauty.”

    Zhenzhu wept with joy. “Your Ladyship, you have truly turned misfortune into fortune!”

    In contrast, Hailancha’s expression was utterly bleak. A growing sense of foreboding rose in Wei Yingluo’s heart. She asked, “Where is Fuheng?”

    After repeated urging, Hailancha finally answered helplessly: “To gather the Sacred Heart Grass, he entered the miasma. He insisted on directing the battle even while ill and refused to leave the front lines. I tried to persuade him many times, but he was so stubborn…”

    At this point, his voice began to choke. “…His body has already been transported back to the Forbidden City.”

    Wei Yingluo sat motionless on the bed, speechless.

       Was there really such a foolish person in the world?

       Yes—there was exactly one such foolish person in the world: someone who would risk his own life to gather the medicine for her sake, and who would risk death without hesitation to win victory for Hongli.

       That person’s name was Fucha Fuheng.

       Hailancha choked for a moment, then took a deep breath and spoke regardless: “Noble Consort Ling, there is one sentence Fuheng entrusted me to ask you.”

    Wei Yingluo’s voice was dry. “Speak.”

    “Wei Yingluo.” Hailancha looked at her earnestly, as though Fuheng were sitting beside her, speaking through his mouth. “In this life I have guarded you long enough. In the next life… could it be your turn to guard me?”

    Zhenzhu paled in shock at the words. But Wei Yingluo seemed neither to have heard nor registered them; she simply sat on the bed, lost in thought.

    After waiting a long time without receiving any reply, Hailancha said in disappointment, “This servant has been presumptuous. I wish Noble Consort Ling a speedy recovery. This servant—takes his leave.”

    He rose to go. At the doorway, he hesitated, unable to take the final step. At last he turned back and asked, “Noble Consort Ling, I know you are the person His Majesty loves most, and the most powerful woman in the Forbidden City. But… can you not give him even the slightest hope?”

    He looked at Wei Yingluo full of hope, yet that hope slowly drained from his eyes.

    In the end, he left.

    “Zhenzhu.” Only now did Wei Yingluo speak. “I want to lie down alone for a while. You may go first.”

    Zhenzhu also left. The room was empty except for her.

    She leaned against the pillow, gazing at the vast, vacant hall. After a long while, she softly said one word:

    “Yes. I promise you.”

    The army returned in triumph. The funeral rites were held. Condolences and pensions were arranged. Days passed in a flurry of activity. During this time Hongli was so busy his feet barely touched the ground. He would hurry in to see her, then hurry away again. Each time he left, his expression looked a little better—which also meant that Wei Yingluo’s illness had improved a little more.

    That day, she was finally able to get out of bed and walk on her own.

    “Come on.” Wei Yingluo supported Zhenzhu by the hand. “Let’s go to Chengqian Palace.”

    Chengqian Palace was still occupied by the Step-Empress, but it was no longer the Empress’s palace. Hongli had dismissed her palace attendants, taken away her imperial seal and treasure, stripped her of her empress title—leaving her with nothing but an empty, desolate palace, like an exquisite large birdcage.

    The Step-Empress had already shaved her head. When Wei Yingluo arrived, she was kneeling on a meditation cushion, striking a wooden fish.

    “Noble Consort Ling.” The sound of the wooden fish stopped. The Step-Empress opened her eyes and looked at her, as if she had been waiting for her all along, as if she had long prepared this question. “You knew early on that Yuan Chunwang was going to make his move, didn’t you?”

    Wei Yingluo remained silent.

    “All these days, I’ve thought it over and over. You allowed him to act step by step for only one purpose—to draw out Prince He.” The Step-Empress laughed. “Noble Consort Ling, twenty-four years—twenty-four years. You have never forgotten your sister’s death for a single day! What you wanted all along was Hongzhou’s life!”

    Now she had finally gotten her wish. No matter how much Hongli still cherished brotherly affection, he could no longer tolerate someone who had plotted rebellion.

    Not long after returning from the southern tour, Hongzhou was confined within his princely mansion. Soon after, he “died of illness.”

    But how could Wei Yingluo admit it? She only smiled. “Empress, you’re overthinking it.”

    Yet her smile had already said everything. The Step-Empress looked deeply at her and sighed. “So it really is true. You truly hold grudges. The only unexpected thing was probably that Yuan Chunwang wanted to drag you down to Hell with him. Unfortunately for him, he failed too.”

    After leaving Chengqian Palace, Wei Yingluo made another stop at Yong Alley to see Yuan Chunwang.

    He had truly gone mad.

    There were too many people in the palace who flattered the high and trampled the low. Now, a whole room was filled with night-soil buckets, and he was the only one scrubbing them.

    “Fake, hehe, you’re fake, you’re fake too.” Yuan Chunwang muttered to himself while scrubbing the chamber pots. “I’m the real one…”

    “He’s gone completely mad, but the Empress Dowager just won’t allow him to be killed—no one knows why.” Zhenzhu said in a low voice. “He keeps saying he’s of imperial blood. Your Ladyship, is that true?”

    “Whether it’s true or false doesn’t matter anymore.” Wei Yingluo smiled slightly, turned, and left Yong Alley. “Coming from somewhere and returning to that same place—isn’t that quite fitting?”

    Zhenzhu followed behind her. Just as they were about to leave Yong Alley, she glanced back once.

    Yong Alley was like a huge dividing line, separating their worlds.

    Yuan Chunwang remained inside, keeping company with the night-soil buckets, while Wei Yingluo walked step by step back to Yanxi Palace. Inside the palace, Li Yu had already been waiting for her, ready to deliver good news.

    After she changed into new attire and emerged, the assembled consorts and concubines curtsied to her: “This concubine respectfully greets Her Highness the Imperial Noble Consort. May Your Highness enjoy boundless fortune and peace!”

    “Look at you.” After the consorts withdrew, Hongli walked over and said, “You’re practically writing ‘smug’ across your face.”

    Wei Yingluo glanced at him and smiled even more smugly.

    “Well?” Hongli asked. “Don’t you have anything to say to the man who bestowed this honor upon you?”

    Wei Yingluo continued to lower her head, admiring the bracelet on her wrist. “Nothing to say.”

    Hongli frowned. “You heartless thing!”

    If he got angry—whether real or feigned—other concubines would immediately soften their attitudes and become cautious and pleasing. But not Wei Yingluo. She rolled her eyes. “Your Majesty, if I’m so heartless, how come you still dote on me?”

    Hongli: “I have no choice.”

    Wei Yingluo, however, laughed and mercilessly pierced through his thoughts: “Just admit it. You’ve wasted far too much time on me, and you’re unwilling to walk away empty-handed—that’s why you’ve sunk deeper and deeper.”

    Hongli’s face turned cold. “Even when you were gravely ill, I still put state affairs first—because I am the Emperor. I don’t understand what love is. Don’t flatter yourself!”

    Wei Yingluo replied, “It seems we’re exactly the same.”

    Hongli’s expression darkened. He wrapped an arm around Yingluo’s waist. “Answer my question again. If you dare spout any more nonsense, I’ll have your head chopped off!”

    Wei Yingluo said, “You put the empire first, yet you demand that I love you above all else. How tyrannical!”

    “Wei Yingluo!”

    Seeing that he was truly angry, she laughed softly, her gaze bright and captivating. “The question you asked earlier… I still don’t have an answer for it right now. But I will use the rest of my life to answer you. Are you ready to listen?”

    They gazed at each other for a long moment, each seeing clearly into the other’s heart. Then, at the same instant, they both burst into laughter.

    Some rise high, some fall low; some leave, some stay; some live, some die. This is the harem—it has its cruel side, but it also has its tender, affectionate side.

       “Enough. Stop fiddling with all that stuff on you.” Hongli pretended to look disgusted and held out his hand. “Come here.”

    Wei Yingluo ignored him again and continued adjusting the ornate robes of an Imperial Noble Consort on her body. In the end, Hongli walked over himself, turned her face toward him, and said, “What’s so interesting about looking at yourself? Look at the flowers.”

    He had brought in several rare gardenia plants and transplanted them into Yanxi Palace. No one knew whether it was the special quality of the soil and water here or something else, but the gardenias always bloomed especially vigorously in her presence.

    Wei Yingluo turned her face away in feigned annoyance. “Am I prettier, or are the flowers prettier?”

    Hongli laughed. “The flowers are prettier.”

    Wei Yingluo pretended to be furious and made to walk away, but he pulled her back into his arms and laughed heartily. “Year after year the flowers remain the same; year after year the person stays the same. Yingluo, at this time next year, I will still be here with you, admiring the flowers.”

    “And the year after that?”

    “The year after that will be the same.” Surrounded by the courtyard full of gardenias, Hongli lowered his head to look only at her. “For this lifetime, I will accompany you to admire the flowers.”

     

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