Author: joell55

  • KHEMJIRA, Chapter 4:

    KHEMJIRA, Chapter 4:

    KHEMJIRA, Chapter 4:

      In the silence of the night, inside the monk’s quarters of Phra Pinto, in his dream, there appeared the figure of a young woman wearing a white blouse and a traditional Thai skirt, sitting with her hands clasped in prayer at the foot of the stairs to his hut. Phra Pinto stood at the top, looking down at her.

    “It’s been a long time since we last met, Mae Khae.” Phra Pinto spoke, and the woman bowed three times before looking up with a faint smile, her once beautiful eyes now showing signs of fatigue and sorrow.

      “Paying respects, reverend brother.” Said “Khae.” or “Khaekhai.” Phra

    Pinto’s deceased wife who had passed away over seven years ago. Yet she still lingered by their child out of concern, occasionally entering dreams to convey messages.

      “What brings you here this time?”

      “Reverend brother, please prevent Khem from returning here.”

      “Why?” asked Phra Pinto, and Khae Khai proceeded to explain what had happened to Khem.

      “The protective powers in the amulet blessed by the master have faded. Khem’s luck has started to wane, and he’s been having accidents frequently. But after meeting a friend, he has found something to protect him, keeping spirits at bay…including myself.” She added in a quiet voice at the end. She, too, was considered a spirit.

      “…”

      “The boy’s name is Jett, he’s a disciple of a master, with a much stronger spirit than Khem’s, and he’s been helping him all along.”

      “…”

      “If Khem is away from Jett during this break, I fear that this time, they might really take our son away.” Khae Khai said with tears before bowing again to the ground.

      “…”

      “Please help our child once more.” After that, everything in the dream slowly faded, and Phra Pinto woke up.

      After Khem had the handkerchief with the talisman from Pharan, Jett’s master, things returned to normal for him. Accidents, whether small or large, ceased to occur frequently. And the recurring dreams of the old Thai house from two different eras no longer came.

    As for seeing spirits, Khem still had the ability, but because they weren’t aggressive towards him, and with the monk’s talisman on him, he wasn’t as scared anymore.

    However, since that day, Khem hadn’t dared to draw his mother’s portrait again.   Now, nearly six months have passed.

    The old portrait, which Jett had crumpled and discarded, was taken by Khem to be burned at the temple, where he then offered merit to appease the spirits as suggested by Monk Pharan.

    This period was the time for final exams, and soon Khem’s university would be closing for the term.

    While Khem was hanging out laundry on the balcony, his phone rang. Without needing to look at the screen, he knew who it was.

    “What’s up, Jett?”

    [Khem, got any plans for the term break?]

      “Well, my abbot is unwell. I was planning to go visit him. Why?”

    [I wanted to invite you to join our volunteer camp. At first, the seniors planned to go to Ubon Ratchathani, which is my hometown. I suggested we go to the village where my monk lives, there’s a lot of development needed there.

    Plus, you’ll get activity credits, and I figured it’s a chance to take you to see the monk.]

      The club Khem and Jett were part of was a volunteer club. Usually, every year they held camps in nearby provinces, but this year the university had provided a larger budget, allowing them to go as far as Ubon Ratchathani.

    For Jett, he had initially planned to bring Khem to see the monk during the term break. But since the club was organizing a volunteer camp in his hometown area, it was a perfect opportunity to do some good deeds together. He proposed they go to Monk Pharan’s rather remote village, which would allow him to bring Khem directly to the monk.

    At first, there were objections because people were worried it would be too tough, but Jett convinced his father to sponsor the event, and the seniors agreed to it.

    [So, what do you say? Want to join? I really want you to come.] Jett asked, and Khem hesitated for a moment before responding.

    “Let me call and ask the abbot first.”

    [Okay, let me know.]

      “Alright.” After Jett hung up, it wasn’t long before the abbot, Khem’s father, called. Khem hadn’t even had the chance to call him yet.

    “Paying respects, father abbot. How are you feeling?” Khem asked first, then furrowed his brow slightly when the abbot replied:

    [I am well. No need for concern. During the break, you don’t need to come back to visit.]

      “Oh, is that so?”

    [Yes, if there’s somewhere else for you to go, go there. It might be for the better.] Khem’s heart skipped a beat.

    “father abbot, do you know where I plan to go?”

    [I’m just saying, follow your heart. Take care of yourself while you’re away.] Khem bit his lip gently before nodding and responding, agreeing to whatever the abbot suggested.

    “Alright, father abbot. Please take care of your health too.”

    That night, Khem called Jett back to confirm and asked him to sign up with the club on his behalf. The travel was set for the following week after the exams, with a mix of excitement and apprehension.

    Before the departure day, Jett stayed over at Khem’s place. They planned to go to the university together to catch the bus the next day.

    “Khem, pack more clothes.” Jett said, lying on the bed, watching Khem pack.

    “Why? It’s just a four-day trip, isn’t it? I’ve already packed two extra sets.” Khem replied without turning around.

    “I don’t know, you might end up staying with the master until the term starts.”

    “What? Are you crazy?”

    “Not crazy, I just don’t want you to come back and be alone. I might have to stay home to help with family business during the whole break.” Khem considered this, wanting to reassure Jett not to worry, but honestly, he was scared too about being alone, so he asked:

    “Then…can’t I just stay at Jett’s house?”

    “It’s possible, but how can I help you there? Being with the master is the safest place for you.”

    Khem’s face showed concern.

    “Will it bother the monk…?” Khem felt hesitant; after all, Monk Pharan didn’t even know him, unlike Jett who was his friend.

    “You don’t have to worry about that. The monk’s house is as big as a temple, a small guy like you won’t take up much space.”

    “But I feel bad about imposing, and besides, the monk already said he doesn’t want to get involved with my issues.” Jett slapped the bed with a loud thud, making Khem jump.

    “This! This is the face! Remember this expression, when you see the monk, just make this face, guaranteed to soften his heart a hundred percent!” Khem’s eyebrows twitched, almost throwing his deodorant at Jett, “You talk too much, how do you know the monk will soften up?” Jett shook his head, recalling his days from when he first became the monk’s disciple up until now, then he gave a sly smile and answered.

    “You’re exactly his type.”

    “Cough!” Khem choked on his own saliva, then grabbed something to throw at Jett, who easily dodged it.

    “What are you talking about? That’s a monk master.”

    “My master, not yours. Trust me. If you want to save your little life, do what I say.”

    Khem glared at him, “If I do what you say and it still doesn’t work. I’ll be the first ghost to haunt you, Jett.”   Jett laughed heartily.

    “Yeah, I’ll even tear up the monk’s talisman and throw it away for you.”

    When it was time for bed, Jett laid out a mattress on the floor next to Khem’s bed, just like he always did when staying over here because his sleeping habits were like clockwork, always waking up with his head at the foot of the bed, fearing that one good night he might accidentally kick his small friend off.

    “Sweet dreams, Khem.”

    “Sweet dreams, Jett.” Jett chuckled at Khem’s sarcastic reply; his friend’s reactions were what made him enjoy teasing him.

    After turning off the light, silence enveloped the room, and soon both Jett and Khem fell into a deep sleep.

    Khem was dreaming again…

      He dreamed of an old, large Thai-style house by the river. Khem saw the lifestyle of the people in the house, a young girl of about eight or nine playing mischievously with the servants, and a noblewoman in traditional Thai attire, weaving flower garlands. This time, the dream seemed clearer than before. Khem looked at the face of the young woman and softly exclaimed,

      “Mother?” The young woman had pricked her finger with the needle while stringing flowers. The maid, who was sitting and weaving garlands below, quickly crawled over to check her wound. Khem, with concern, intended to go to her, but as if pulled back by an unseen force, he was transported to the eggshell-colored house from a different era.

      As always, when Khem dreamt of the ancient Thai house, he would be brought here without much chance to observe or do anything more than watch, looking through the windows from outside.

      Khem often saw a couple, though he could never clearly discern their faces.

    Sometimes, he would see only a woman, looking forlorn, eating alone in the house.

      And there would always be a chilling male voice from behind asking if he wanted to stay here, but Khem never responded. Not long after, he would wake up.

    Lately, he had become somewhat numb to it, until receiving the talisman from Jett’s master, after which he stopped having these dreams until now.

      This time, the atmosphere felt strange.

      Khem saw no one, not even the lady of the house at the dining table…

      A cold shiver ran down Khem’s back again, making him straighten up. He felt someone standing behind him but, as usual, couldn’t turn around to look.

      Khem was certain it must be the owner of the mysterious voice that always asked if he wanted to stay, but this time, the other party remained silent, no matter how long he waited.

      Usually, Khem would wake up after the voice spoke, but several minutes had passed, and he was still here.

      Khem began to feel anxious, to the point where he spoke first.

      “Why aren’t you speaking?”

      The ruler of this dream dimension was overjoyed to hear a response from Khem for the first time, but it couldn’t voice out to send him back to reality because another malevolent spirit’s pale hands covered its mouth from behind, while its legs wrapped around and tightly clenched its waist, causing pain.

      How did it get in here? That was the question echoing in its mind now.

      Normally, it was already difficult to deal with this evil spirit. This time, it seemed like its power had grown even stronger than before, to the extent that it could encroach upon others’ territories, which was very dangerous…

      Khem didn’t get an answer, even though he could still feel the presence of the mysterious voice behind him, but instead, he heard another voice that felt very familiar.

      Khem…

      “Mother? Is that you?” Khem’s body trembled with urgency, it was the first time he had heard his mother’s voice so clearly.

      ‘Help me, I’m in so much pain.’

      “Mother, where are you!” Khem shouted in panic upon hearing his mother’s voice in pain, and without thinking about looking back, he rushed out to find her.

      The mysterious man who owned this dimension was now wide-eyed, yelling out loud,

      ‘Don’t go!’

      Khem returned to the first Thai house, still hearing his mother’s cries for help in his ears.

      “Mother! Where are you!” Khem cried. He ran around the house, now seemingly abandoned, as if it had turned into a desolate place. Then Khem heard another woman’s voice he had never heard before.

      ‘Come to the pier,’ the voice was slow and cold, showing no emotion, but Khem felt that the speaker was smiling…

      He didn’t have time to care, knowing where the pier was, Khem ran out of one of the bedrooms directly to his destination.

      Outside, it was pouring heavily like a storm. Khem saw his mother’s figure clinging tightly to the edge of a mooring post on the bridge, her lower half submerged in the swift current.

      ‘Khem, help me, help me!’ Khem heard his mother’s voice even though he was still far from the spot, and then his eyes widened in horror as his mother could no longer hold onto the post.

      She disappeared from sight as if she had never been there.

      “Mother!” Khem’s heart was torn in that instant; he shouted for his mother amidst the raging storm, rushing forward intending to jump into the river to save her.

      Jett was in deep sleep when suddenly the voice of a woman shouted into his ear:

      “Jett!”

      Gasp!

    Startled awake, he sat up abruptly, pulling off his cartoon-patterned sleep mask. The first thing he saw was the balcony with the light still on, and he noticed his small friend, who should have been asleep on the bed, was up to something.

    “Hey, Khem!”

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  • KHEMJIRA, Chapter 3:

    KHEMJIRA, Chapter 3:

    KHEMJIRA, Chapter 3:

      Khem’s legs were shaking so much he collapsed onto the floor. Just then, his phone vibrated, so he pulled it out of his trouser pocket and answered without waiting for the other person to finish speaking.

    [Khem, you…]

      “Jett! Jett, help me!”

    [What’s wrong? What happened?]

      “Please, come over, Jett, hic, sob.”

    At that moment, Jett, who was drying his hair, widened his eyes in shock, threw aside the towel, grabbed his motorcycle key, and rushed out of the room.

    “I’m on my way. Stay calm and don’t hang up!”

    Jett arrived at Khem’s apartment in less than ten minutes on his motorcycle. After parking, he ran up to Khem’s room and started knocking. However, after a long time of knocking, nobody opened the door.

    “Khem, it’s me, Jett. Can you hear me?” The knocking turned into pounding, and he tried twisting the doorknob frantically.

    Click

    Suddenly, the door, which was locked from the inside, opened. Jett didn’t hesitate and immediately pushed it open.

    “Damn it, Khem!” Jett found his friend passed out on the floor, with an easel set up in front of him.

    “Shit…” The terrifying face of a woman in the painting gave Jett goosebumps, prompting him to quickly walk over, tear it off the easel, and crumple it up.

    Jett tried to wake Khem a few times, but he wouldn’t stir, so he had no choice but to carry him out of the room, intending to take him back to his own place for the night.

    Jett lived in a condominium that his mother had bought as a gift for him. His family was quite wealthy; both his parents held high-ranking government positions.

    That night, Khem ended up with such a high fever that he couldn’t go to class, so

    Jett had to attend alone to take notes for him. At noon, he came back to check on Khem, ensuring he ate and took his medicine before heading back for the afternoon session.

    “Khem, I’m going home tonight. You stay here for now.” Jett told Khem, who was lying on the bed with a cooling gel pack. In truth, he wanted to take him along, but he was afraid Khem might collapse on the way.

    “When will you be back?” Khem asked with a hoarse voice.

    “I’ll be back on Sunday.” Jett answered.

    “Don’t worry, I’ll take care of him.” Said Jane, or “Sis.” Jett’s older sister, with a sweet smile as she leaned against the door frame watching them.

    Jane was an office lady, five years older than Jett, and she occasionally stayed over here. This time, Jett called her to look after Khem over the weekend while he was away visiting his family in another province. Of course, nothing in life comes for free; Jett had to pay for her new lipstick, which cost several thousand baht, as her fee.

    “Thanks, sis.” Jane, whose salary was still intact, replied with a sweet smile.

    “Sure thing.”

    Jett took a flight back to Ubon Ratchathani, spending over two hours traveling in the morning of the next day. He went to see “Pharan.” The shaman he respected as his master. The master lived in a large traditional Thai house at the end of the village, quite a distance from the other villagers, almost into the forest.

    It was well known in the village that Pharan was skilled in exorcism and treating various ailments. He had many disciples and now mostly waited for people to come to him. Most of his clients had bad luck, were cursed, or were being harassed by spirits to the point of despair. In his spare time, he made and sold amulets to make a living.

    There were two things Pharan would not do: cast spells to harm others or interfere with karmic debts.

    A man in his early thirties walked out from a corner inside the house and sat down at his usual spot covered with a dark carpet. Behind him was an altar with a Buddha statue, surrounded by traditional offerings like silver and gold umbrellas, similar to other spirit mediums’ settings, but since Pharan practiced white magic, there were only Buddhist images on his altar, no spirits.

    Jett gave a flattering smile and quickly raised his hands in a respectful wai, but before he could speak, Pharan interjected in a stern voice,

    “Jett, what have you brought into my house this time?” Jett, who was clasping his hands in prayer, felt a chill run through him before forcing a nervous smile.

    “Haha, just as expected from the monk I respect.” Jett quickly took out Khem’s handkerchief from his pocket and placed it on the golden tray beside him, along with a piece of paper containing Khem’s real name, surname, and date of birth, then set it in front of the monk.

    “Master, could you please see if there’s anything you can do to help?” After that, Jett recounted Khem’s situation to the monk.

    Pharan felt like kicking the troublemaker out of the room, but the faint pleasant scent from the handkerchief drew his attention, making him bend down to examine it closely.

    The scent was nice, but sometimes it was mixed with the stench of spirits, more than one, and one of them was quite powerful…

    Pharan placed it back and pulled out the paper with someone’s name and birthdate written on it to read.

    ‘Khemjira, Jantrapisut’ The young man furrowed his brow.

    Khemjira?

    Strange. He felt oddly familiar with that name, though he couldn’t recall where he had heard it, so he stopped trying to remember, read the birthdate, then took out his own notebook and pen, writing down the numbers and calculating.

    Several minutes passed before he finished, the result being quite alarming.

    “Who is this?” Pharan asked while still reviewing the numbers in his notebook.

    “He’s my friend, Monk. How is it looking?”

    “Tell your friend to do whatever he wants to do quickly. He’s definitely going to die within this year.”

    Jett turned pale, spoke urgently,

    “Ca-can’t you help, Monk?”

    “I’ve told you, I don’t interfere with karmic debts.” Jett clenched his jaw, looking at the monk with reluctance because if the monk said this, it meant he could help but chose not to…

    “Oh, please, even just a little would help, Master, have some sympathy. Khem is a good person, he wouldn’t even dare swat a fly or step on an ant, right?” He hadn’t even finished speaking when the monk raised a finger to shush him, causing Jett to pull back his neck in embarrassment.

    “Jett, other people’s karmic debts are not something you should meddle with.

    Just because someone is good in this life doesn’t mean they were good in past lives. You yourself should be careful, don’t think just because you’ve got strong luck nothing will happen to you.”

    Jett’s face fell immediately, knowing that the master was firm and spoke decisively, never changing his mind easily, but he couldn’t help but argue.

    “Khem is so pitiful, Master. His mother died, his father became a monk for life when he was young, his maternal relatives wouldn’t take him in, and his paternal relatives abandoned him, taking his money with them. During high school, no one would befriend him because they feared the curse. It’s only me who dared to be his friend…”

    While he was looking down, still grumbling, Jett didn’t notice that Pharan was writing a protective talisman on a piece of cloth, which he then tossed in front of him.

    “Take this, that’s all I can do.”

    Normally, one of Pharan’s ghost-repelling talismans would cost five to six thousand baht and was very effective, as confirmed by actual users like Jett. No spirit could enter Jett’s room.

    Jett didn’t know if it was given out of annoyance or pity for Khem, but he was so happy he almost jumped to hug the master, though he only thought about it because if he actually did it, the spirits in the house might break his neck.

    “Thank you so much, Master!”

    Jett flew back from Ubon Ratchathani early on Sunday morning, and upon arriving in Bangkok, he quickly took a taxi back to the condo, finding Khem had recovered from his illness.

    “I’m leaving now.” Jane said, shouldering her bag before leaving, not forgetting to add a last remark,

    “Jett, be careful, his ghost is strong. Last night they were all over the balcony.” She said with a somewhat fearful expression before rushing out of the room.

    Soon after, Khem came out of the bathroom.

    “Oh, has Sis Jane left already?” Khem blinked and asked.

    “Yeah, her boyfriend was waiting for her downstairs so she left in a hurry.” Khem looked disappointed upon hearing this.

    “I haven’t even properly thanked her.” Over the past two nights, Jae Jane had stayed awake to watch over him. Khem didn’t quite understand why she was so dedicated, but she had told him one thing, “I’m too scared to sleep, Khem.” At that time, Khem had a terrible headache, so he didn’t press her to sleep.

    Jett ruffled Khem’s hair affectionately, deciding not to tell him what Jae had said, thinking it would only make him worry needlessly.

    “Yeah, sis will come over again next time, we can thank her then.” Seeing Khem nod, Jett pulled him over to sit on the sofa and handed him back his handkerchief, which now had white inscriptions on it.

    “Thanks, oh, there’s a talisman too.” Jett nodded.

    “…”

    “Yeah, keep it with you. The monk’s talisman can ward off spirits, but it might only work for a certain distance.” Khem quickly tucked it into his shirt pocket, feeling strangely comforted.

    “And what did your monk say about my situation?” He looked up, eager to know.

    Over the past two days, if it hadn’t been for Jane’s companionship, Khem would have probably been driven to madness or shock from his recent experiences. He was dying to know if Jett’s monk would agree to help, but the area had poor phone reception, so they hadn’t been able to communicate.

    Khem didn’t want to go through something like that again.

    “Sorry, I tried. But the monk doesn’t really want to get involved with karmic debts.”

    Karmic debts, huh…That’s worse than your average ghost story, right?

      Khem bit his lip, his spirits sinking.

      “Hmm. It’s okay. I understand.” Jett, seeing his friend’s dejected look, felt a surge of determination.

    “You don’t have to worry. I won’t let you die easily. I’ll find another way myself.” Hearing this, Khem’s hope was reignited.

    “Is there another way?” Jett shrugged.

    “Nah. Same old way, but this time I’m taking you with me.”

    “Huh?”

    “Even I soften up when I see your face. Let’s see if the monk can stay hardhearted then.”

    Khem stood there with his mouth open, the logic baffling him.

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  • KHEMJIRA, Chapter 2:

    KHEMJIRA, Chapter 2:

    KHEMJIRA, Chapter 2:

      Finally, the university term started.

    Khem looked at himself in the freshman uniform with a proud expression in front of the mirror, then slung his cloth bag over his shoulder and stepped out of his room.

    It took Khem exactly one hour to walk from his apartment to the university. Tired from the walk, he stopped to buy some water from a stall near the lecture building, still having plenty of time before his class.

    “I don’t need a straw, please.” Khem told the vendor who was offering him a plastic straw. If it wasn’t a biodegradable straw, Khem would rarely use one, showing he was quite environmentally conscious.

    As he moved to stand by the stall, in the moment he was about to drink, his eyes caught sight of a flower pot that was about to fall.

    ‘Oh no!’

      “Watch out!”

    Khem heard someone shout a warning, but even though he wanted to dodge, his body wouldn’t move, as if it was pinned in place. Just as the pot was about to smash into his head, someone rushed in, colliding with him, and they both tumbled to the ground.   Crash!

    “Scream!!”

    The sound of the flower pot shattering was followed by screams of shock.

    “Are you okay!?” The man who rushed in to help Khem exclaimed, his face full of concern. The man had honey-colored skin, bleached blond hair, and wore a small black headband.

    Khem turned his pale face towards the flowerpot that had almost hit him.

    “Uh, thanks for helping.” He managed to say once his shock subsided, then let out a small yelp as he was pulled along.

    “Hey, where are you taking me?” Khem asked in surprise. The other turned back with a serious expression, and intimidated, Khem followed without protest until they stopped under a frangipani tree behind the academic building where it was relatively deserted.

    The man looked around before turning back to Khem and said,

    “Dude, you’re being followed by a ghost.”

    “…”

    “If you don’t do anything about it, you’re going to die.”

    Khem stood there, mouth agape, shocked by a stranger’s sudden proclamation.

    With a furrowed brow, he asked,

    “How do you know?”

    “Just now, when the flowerpot fell, I saw it on the third floor. That was the ghost doing it.” Khem was still reluctant to believe, though part of him already accepted it.

    Look at all the strange things he’d encountered since he got here.

    “It’s okay if you don’t believe me. I just wanted to warn you to be careful.”   Khem hesitated for a moment before letting out a sigh.

    “No, it’s not that I don’t believe you. I just don’t want to accept it.” The last sentence seemed more like Khem was talking to himself, “But thanks anyway. If you hadn’t come to help, I would’ve definitely gotten hurt.”   The other shrugged.

    “No worries. I’m Jett, that’s my real name. And you?”

    “My name is Khem…Khemjira.” Khem introduced himself. When Jett heard his name, he blinked, then looked him over more closely…

    Khem gave a strained smile.

    “My mom named me like a girl’s name to ward off bad luck.” Jett looked surprised and then scratched his head awkwardly.

    “Sorry, I thought you were a girl because of your delicate features.”

    “It’s okay, when I was younger, I looked more like one.”

    Jett nodded as if to say, “I thought so.” Then asked, “So, which faculty are you in?”

    “Fine Arts.” Khem replied.

    “Whoa, same here, first year, right?”

    Khem’s eyes widened, and he quickly nodded.

    “Yeah, that’s right.” Jett laughed at our coincidence.

    “Cool, let’s be friends. First, can I have your LINE?” Khem was excited and happy, quickly pulling out his phone to add each other as friends.

    “Let’s go to class first, we can talk about your stuff later.” Khem bit his lip and then nodded slightly.

    They had classes until three in the afternoon. After class, Jett led Khem to sit at a marble table behind the building, the same spot where they had talked that morning.

    “Okay, so, do you realize you’re being followed by a whole bunch of spirits like this?” Jett said bluntly without giving Khem time to brace himself. Earlier, Jett had talked to him using the formal thai pronouns instead, but now was using casual pronouns because it felt more natural, and casual pronouns seemed more intimate to say. For friends, people prefer mung and Ku rather than naai and chan, which Khem agreed with, preferring using ‘rao’ for himself due to habit.

    Khem hesitated before answering.

    “Not really…But there have been many times I felt like I wasn’t alone.”

    “…”

    “Plus, lately when I go places, I often see strange things.”

    “Ghosts?” Khem was taken aback by Jett’s directness, then nodded in acknowledgment, causing Jett to raise an eyebrow.

    “So, you see ghosts elsewhere, but you don’t see the ones close to you?”   Khem’s eyes widened in surprise.

    “You can see them, Jett?”

    “I see them, but not clearly. Sometimes it’s like grey smoke, other times black shadows.”

    “…”

    “Like when I first saw you, there was both smoke and dark shadows, swarming all over your back.”

    “I’m seriously asking, what did you do to deserve this?” Khem swallowed hard. If he said he hadn’t done anything, it wouldn’t be entirely truthful, so he decided to tell Jett about the family curse. Upon hearing it, Jett fell silent, which made Khem feel down.

    “Sorry for not telling you from the start.”

    “…”

    “If you want to stop being friends because of this, that’s okay, ouch!” Khem clutched his head after getting a light tap, looking bewildered.

    “That’s ridiculous. Who would stop being friends for such a silly reason?” Jett said with a furrowed brow. Khem thought about his high school friends who had distanced themselves from him, but he kept quiet.

    Khem smiled.

    “Thanks, Jett.”

    “If I didn’t want to be your friend, I’d have no friends at all.”

    “Psh, Jett, you almost made me tear up.”

    “Haha, your face is hilarious.” Khem’s expression turned sour.

    “Can we continue?”

    “You’re the one who led us off-topic. Anyway, there are many ghosts following you.”

    Khem felt a chill again.

    “Right now too?”

    Jett scanned the area.

    “Yeah, but they’re keeping their distance.” Khem bit his lip, feeling more anxious.

    “It seems like you’ve got something powerful with you, or something’s protecting you. That’s why they can’t do much.” Khem undid a button and loosened his tie slightly, pulling out a sacred thread to show.

    “I have this, I’ve worn it since I was a kid.” Jett leaned in to look closer, showing great interest but not reaching out to touch.

    “Nice item, but its power has faded.”

    “What?” Khem was stunned. “How do you know?”

    “I just know. I’ve dealt with stuff like this a lot.” Hearing Jett’s words made Khem even more stressed because if the sacred thread’s power had diminished, it might explain why he was encountering more strange things lately.

    “So, what should I do?”

    “Take it easy, don’t stress. Just give me your real name, surname, date of birth, and something you use regularly.”

    “Anything, right?”

    “Except your underwear.” Khem blushed, but seeing Jett’s serious face, he realized he wasn’t joking.

    Khem took out a notebook and pen to write down what Jett asked for, along with a white handkerchief embroidered with his name, which his mother had made for him before she passed away.

    “Okay, oh, and in the future, don’t give something like this to anyone easily.” Jett said seriously, causing Khem to furrow his brows.

    “Didn’t you ask for it?”

    “How can you be sure I won’t use it for something bad?”

    “Oh.”

    “I’m just playing a scenario. You can trust me, but you can’t trust others, I just want to warn you so you don’t get hexed.” Khem turned pale and quickly nodded in acknowledgment.

    “Good, I’m heading back to my hometown this weekend. I’ll consult with a monk about your situation to see if he can help.”

    “Thanks, Jett.”

    “Yeah. If you die, I won’t have a friend to hang out with.” Khem wanted to throw something at him.

    “You’re so annoying, Jett, you’ve been at it for a while now.”

    “Haha, damn, you’re even swearing at me now!” Jett grimaced.

    “You’re such a pain, especially when someone’s stressed.”

    “Alright, alright, come on, I’ll treat you to some cold bread, I heard the shop in front of the uni is good.”

    Khem reluctantly agreed, following Jett like a chick following its mother, still a bit sulky but slightly confused about whether they were becoming friends too quickly.

    Even though they had only known each other for less than a day, it felt like they had been friends for a long time.

    Khem now fully believed that he was being followed by spirits.

    Because Jett had told him that when he was around, the ghosts wouldn’t approach Khem, thanks to Jett’s protective amulets. Since then, Khem stuck close to Jett, going everywhere together except when they had to return to their respective dorms, and nothing major seemed to happen during those times.

    There were still some minor disturbances though, like catching glimpses of things moving in his peripheral vision, hearing odd knocking sounds or objects falling, but nothing too severe.

    Khem tried to keep himself busy, watching movies or reading books.

    Today, after finishing his reading around 11 PM, he moved his chair to face an easel with a sketching board. The next class would assess their skills, judged by a sketch on any topic they were good at, whether it be landscapes, people, animals, or objects.

    Khem was skilled at drawing people, and he planned to sketch his mother, thinking it was what he was best at.

    His slender hand gripped a 2B pencil, aligning it perpendicular to the paper, squinting to gauge the distance before starting to sketch the initial outlines of a face.

    Khem had practiced drawing his mother’s face frequently. The memories they shared were etched in his heart, always bringing warmth whenever he thought of her. This enabled him to draw her face from memory without needing a reference. “Miss you so much.” Khem smiled and muttered softly at the image of his mother’s smiling face as he worked on the details, but suddenly he felt overwhelmingly sleepy, yawning despite himself.

    Ugh, not now, just a little more and it would be done.

    Khem told himself, trying to keep his eyes open, but the sleepiness was overpowering his mind until his hand began to droop, and he eventually gave in.

    Khem fell asleep right there.

    He woke up with a start, glancing at the wall clock to find it was past 2 AM.

    Shaking his head at himself, he decided to put away the easel.

    “Damn!” Khem jumped up from his chair and backed away so fast that his hips hit the table behind.

    The sketch of his mother, which was smiling, had transformed into a woman with only black, soulless eyes, and her smile had stretched grotesquely wide to her ears.

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  • KHEMJIRA, Chapter 1:

    KHEMJIRA, Chapter 1:

    KHEMJIRA, Chapter 1

      As the new semester approached, Khem moved his belongings into an apartment that was incredibly affordable, though it was quite a distance from the university. But that wasn’t an issue for Khem, who preferred walking over driving or taking public transport, unless the distance was too far to walk. For classes, he just needed to wake up early to allow for the walk.

    You might wonder if he came to study in Bangkok alone, without any friends joining him.

    The answer is that Khem never had any friends because of the family curse known to everyone in his rural village. No one dared to get close to him for fear of bad luck.

    Khem understood this well. Everyone loves their own life, and if it were him, he’d probably do the same.

    But there wasn’t any bullying or boycotting. They talked normally; just not close enough to call each other friends.

    One of the reasons Khem wanted to study in Bangkok was to make friends and have a new social circle.

    After settling in, he went downstairs to find something to eat. This apartment not only had good rent but was also near a market. No worries about going hungry here. Ah, this Pad Thai stand smells good.

    Khem stopped abruptly when the aroma of Pad Thai hit him, changing his mind from passing by to ordering instantly.

    “One order of Pad Thai, please, Auntie.”

    “Just one wrap?”

    “Yes.”

    “Doesn’t the other person want one?” Khem paused, slowly looked around before asking,

    “Who do you mean?”

    Thud!

    The Pad Thai vendor accidentally dropped her spatula, her face paled before she gave a strained smile.

    “Oh, sorry, my eyes are bad, dear. Here, forty baht.” Khem took it, paid, still somewhat confused.

    While crossing the road, Khem accidentally stepped on his own shoelace, tripping and nearly falling onto the street before quickly retreating back. He intended to bend down and tie his shoelace.

    Screech   Bam!!

    Before he could even crouch down, Khem heard a loud noise nearby, causing him to hastily look up. His light brown eyes widened when he saw a speeding big bike just under a bus that was stopping to pick up passengers…

    …right in front of him.

      Everything happened in a split second. If he hadn’t stepped back to tie his shoelace…

    Khem thought about the family curse, then shook his head, trying to think positively to comfort himself.

    It was just a coincidence, after all, nothing unusual had happened before.

    Not knowing when he had instinctively grabbed the amulet around his neck, Khem backed away from the chaos and ran straight back to his room.

    The next day, the incident from the previous evening had made it to the news. As Khem was about to pass through the lobby to head back to his room, he stopped in his tracks, looking up at the TV in the common area broadcasting the scene of the accident.

    “Last night, a tragic incident occurred. The driver of the big bike with license plate number กข XXX, crashed into the rear of a bus that was stationary and picking up passengers, resulting in immediate death.”

      At the scene…preliminary reports indicate the deceased was a final-year university student…who had just returned from a celebration with friends.

    Khem’s heart sank upon hearing that the other person had died on the spot. His arms hugged the water bottle he had just fetched tightly, as if it were a source of emotional support. He couldn’t help but think that if his shoelace hadn’t come undone at that moment, this incident might have resulted in more than one casualty…

    There was just over a week left before classes started. After that day, Khem tried to live his life normally. Although the memory of that life-or-death moment haunted him, he knew that if he kept worrying, he wouldn’t be able to do anything.

    Khem only thought that from now on, he would need to be more mindful and cautious than ever before.

    “Done.” Khem said to himself. After buying second-hand items to decorate his new room to make it look more organized and inviting, most of which were unwanted by others.

    He wiped his sweat once, the wall clock showing almost 10 PM, “Time to study.” Khem thought to himself before quickly sweeping up the trash into a black bag to take downstairs.

    The trash bin was located in a quiet alley next to his apartment, with only the flickering light from a street lamp in the middle of the alley providing any illumination…

    Like a scene from a ghost movie.

    This somewhat eerie atmosphere made Khem look left and right cautiously before he hurriedly threw the bag of trash into the bin. But as he was about to turn and leave, something caught his eye, making him stop dead in his tracks, his brain trying hard to process what it was.

    Curiosity got the better of him, and Khem glanced back to see what appeared to be a child, unidentifiable as either male or female, wearing a dirty white shirt, squatting and looking at the ground beside the large trash bin…

    Khem was certain it wasn’t a living person because when he first approached, there was no one there.

    The hairs on his body stood up.

    What kind of person would sit by a trash bin in such a dark, secluded alley at this late hour!

    “Gulp.” The young man swallowed hard before tearing his gaze away, his legs moving forward in hurried steps, almost running.

    Was that a ghost? In his nineteen years, Khem had just seen his first ghost.

      As Khem half-walked, half-ran away, the child’s ghost slowly raised its head.

      Its lips slowly curled into a smile before its skinny figure stood up and began to stagger after the young man.

      Since that day, Khem started encountering more strange things.

    First, he had three accidents within a week, which had never happened before, like tripping over nothing while walking, and nearly falling down twenty steps of stairs. Luckily, he managed to grab the railing that day. Otherwise, it would have been disastrous.

    Second, Khem began to see spirits more frequently…

    Like now…

    Khem took a deep breath, pretending not to see the faint ghost of a woman in an office outfit standing with her head bowed in front of the door next to his room.

    She had been standing there for three days now.

    The room next to Khem’s was occupied by a working man and his young son, just the two of them.

    When he first saw her, Khem almost called out to ask if she needed help, wondering why she wouldn’t go inside, but then he noticed she had no feet…So, he quickly opened his own door and went inside.

    Khem thought she might be the wife of the room’s occupant, probably still worried about something and not ready to move on…

    “Don’t…my…son…”

      The voice, though faint and faltering, was chillingly cold, making Khem’s heart sink. His hands shook as he tried to unlock his door, and by the time he got inside, he was almost relieved.

    The young man’s legs gave out, and he sat down on the floor, his eyes burning.

    Did she just say, “Don’t hurt my son”?

      Or had something happened to her son?

      That night, Khem could hardly sleep, thinking about what the female spirit had said. Part of him didn’t want to get involved because he had his own issues to deal with, but another part was concerned, fearing something bad might happen to the child.

    The next morning, around eight, after the man next door had left for work,

    Khem stood in front of their door. After much hesitation, he decided to knock.

    The ghost of the office woman was still there, standing so close that their shoulders almost touched.

    The door slowly opened, revealing a little boy, about six or seven years old, but because of a chain lock, it only opened slightly, just enough to see the boy’s face.

    “Hello.” Khem smiled and crouched down to be at eye level with the child. “My name is Khem, I just moved in next door.”

    The little boy didn’t reply but nodded in acknowledgment.

    Khem peered through the gap unceremoniously, seeing several beer bottles lined up, and the place was cluttered and disorganized.

    What’s going on here?

    “Have you eaten yet?” This time, the boy shook his head, causing Khem’s eyelids to twitch in surprise.

    The father went out to work without even feeding his child…

    At the same time, Khem felt a chill run down his spine, a sense of pressure enveloping him.

    “Would you like to have dinner with me? I’ll treat you, and I’ll bring you back after.”

    The boy shook his head more vigorously.

    It was then that Khem noticed a small chain tightly wrapped around the boy’s ankle, leaving a terrifying bruise on his pale skin.

    Khem slowly smiled and said to the boy,

    “Then wait here for me for a moment.”

    Khem went downstairs, bought some congee, water, and snacks for the boy to eat.

    The boy hesitated but seemed unable to resist his hunger and finally extended his hand to accept.

    “Don’t tell my dad that I ate your food, please.” The boy pleaded with a hopeful look, making Khem feel both heartbroken and angry, but he nodded in agreement.

    “Okay, I won’t tell.”

    That evening, after Khem reported to the landlord, the police raided the room next door, arresting the man who was drunk and beating his son right there.

    Upon interrogation, it was revealed that the boy was the child of his deceased girlfriend who had died in an accident last month. Currently, the man was deeply in debt; with his girlfriend gone, there was no one to help pay it off, leaving him with the burden, which led to his stress and subsequent violence towards the boy.

    Khem didn’t know what punishment the man received, only that the boy was now under the care of his maternal relatives.

    Hopefully, he’ll have a happier life from now on.

      Just as Khem was about to drift off to sleep, he heard a whisper by his ear, but being too sleepy, he didn’t open his eyes.

      “Thank you.”

      “…”

      “Be careful.”

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  • KHEMJIRA, Prologue Chapter

    KHEMJIRA, Prologue Chapter

    KHEMJIRA, Prologue Chapter

      One late night in a small house located in an overcrowded community, the slender figure of Khem, an eighteen-year-old high school senior, was staring intently at the screen of an old computer. He was downloading university entrance exam results with an expression of tense anticipation.

    To his left was a desk clock showing exactly midnight, and to his right, a small cake with candles providing the only light in the dark room.

    The sound of ‘tick, tick, tick’ from the clock’s hands moving forward played in his head, adding more stress and pressure on Khem until he clenched his jaw tightly.

    Finally, the results were out, indicating he had been accepted into the university and faculty of his choice.

    “Yessss!” Khem exclaimed with joy, clasping his hands in prayer for a smooth university life, then leaned down to blow out the candle.

    Yes, today was Khem’s nineteenth birthday.

    In the dimly lit room with only the computer screen for light, the young man ate his cake while simultaneously exploring pictures of different areas of the university he had just been accepted into. Eating, looking, and smiling with happiness, until he glanced at the clock and jumped in surprise.

    “Two in the morning already?”

    Tomorrow, Khem needs to hurry to the temple to inform the abbot about this good news. With that thought, he quickly finished his meal, shut down his computer, washed the dishes, brushed his teeth, and went to bed.

    In his deep sleep, Khem dreamed of something he had never seen before.

      In the dream, it seemed like an old film being projected, depicting an old Thai house from the era when slavery still existed.

      Khem saw a little girl playing in the house, with several servants chasing after her, but they could never catch her. The girl laughed joyfully, looking mischievous and having fun.

      Then, the scene shifted to an eggshell-colored wooden house from the time when cars were common in Thailand, the atmosphere reminiscent of the 1980s.

      Khem was standing in front of this wooden house, looking inside through the window in a rather impolite manner.

      He saw a couple, a man and a woman, dining together at the table, smiling at each other with happiness. Khem furrowed his brows at the sight, feeling his heart squeeze gently, prompting him to clutch his shirt over his chest.

      “What are you looking at?” a cold, stern voice came from behind him.

      Khem’s heart pounded heavily with shock, his body stiffened as he felt the breath of someone who had appeared right behind him.

      Khem tried to turn around to look, but his body wouldn’t move. The warm atmosphere around him gradually grew cold, making his hair stand on end. The eggshell-colored house before him transformed into an abandoned, desolatelooking dwelling.

      Khem gritted his teeth, trying to wake himself up.

      This is crazy, wake up Khem, wake up!

      “Do you want to stay here with me?”

      Khem jolted when he felt a gentle breath move closer, fear overwhelming him to the point his body began to tremble. 

      “Stay together, just the two of us.”

      “…”

      “Do you want it?” For a split second, Khem considered agreeing just to escape this discomfort, but then he heard someone’s voice in his ear.

      “Khem, it’s time to wake up, son.”

    Gasp!

    Khem jolted up into a sitting position on his bed, looking around his bedroom with alarm, checking if anyone else was there. Then, out of the corner of his eye, he noticed something had fallen nearby.

    A tiger skin amulet necklace, which Khem had worn since he could remember.

    When did it come off…

    This amulet necklace was a sacred item, blessed by a monk long ago with powers to protect from unseen dangers. Khem’s mother had insisted he wear it at all times.

    Even on the last day of her life, his mother had emphasized that he must never take it off.

    The thing is, Khem was born into a cursed family, specifically related to giving birth to children.

    If the child was a daughter, she would be safe.

    But if it was a son, he would die before turning twenty.

    So, his mother named him “Khemjira.” a name typically for a girl to ward off the curse, meaning “safe forever.”

    Although Khem wasn’t particularly fond of the necklace’s design, he never disobeyed his mother. Whatever she said, Khem followed. After she passed away from illness seven years ago, he continued to wear it, seeing it as a keepsake from her.

    Over the past eighteen years, Khem had gone through life relatively unharmed, with only minor accidents typical for someone a bit clumsy, but nothing serious.

    Everything had been going normally until last night.

    Since his birth, this was the first time Khem had dreamed, and it was a strange, frightening dream he couldn’t quite describe.

    Khem tried to calm himself down. Although still unnerved by the vivid feeling from before, once he regained his composure, he picked up the amulet and put it back around his neck. Then he got up to shower and get dressed to visit the temple and see the abbot.

    Khem took a bus taxi to the temple in the district where Abbot Pinto, his real father, was a monk. After his mother’s death about three years prior, his father decided to ordain for life. At that time, Khem was exactly fifteen years old.

    Everything had been set even before Khem understood much about life; the master who had blessed him with sacred items instructed that his father should find an auspicious time to ordain for life to transfer merit to the family’s karmic debt, hoping it would extend Khem’s life. This was the reason his father gave him, and Khem remembered crying in refusal back then.

    Khem only thought that losing one parent was enough. He didn’t want to lose his father too, whether by separation or death.

    But ultimately, he couldn’t defy his father’s and relatives’ intentions. He stood there crying, watching his father shave his head and don the saffron robes, reluctantly walking into the temple’s ordination hall.

    After that day, Khem went to live with his paternal relatives, as his mother’s side of the family refused to take him in, fearing he might carry the family curse.

    Outsiders might think it was superstition, but everyone in the family and the village firmly believed because no male from his mother’s lineage had ever lived past twenty.

    The relatives who volunteered to look after Khem were his uncle and aunt. They took the money provided by Khem’s father for his upbringing and his mother’s health insurance, using it to live comfortably abroad from the very first day they took him in, leaving him with just a few thousand baht in cash and an old house.

    Khem didn’t want to worry his father just days after his ordination, so he kept quiet. Even though his father found out later, there was nothing to be done.

    He lived alone in that house. Fortunately, the neighbors were kind, regularly bringing him food, and whenever he visited the abbot at the temple, he’d return with plenty to eat.

    Moreover, Khem’s academic performance was quite good, so he received scholarships from the fourth year of secondary school through to the sixth year.

    Thus, life during his high school years wasn’t particularly hard.

    Oh, and for university, Khem also got in by competing for a scholarship.

    “Paying respects, father abbot.” Khem said after entering the abbot’s quarters. He bowed three times to the ground before looking up with a faint smile, which the abbot returned with a gentle gaze.

    “Hmm, the exam results are out, aren’t they?” Khem scratched his cheek awkwardly with one hand, while the other remained in a praying position.

    “How did you know, father abbot? I was planning to surprise you.” Khem said. The abbot gave a small, fond smile.

    “Yesterday, two novice monks left for their studies. They told me that the university term has begun.”

    “Ahaha, well, I got into the Faculty of Fine Arts at a university in Bangkok…” Khem’s voice trailed off to barely a whisper, his hands still clasped in prayer, eyes sneaking a peek at the abbot.

    “You have to go all the way to Bangkok, do you?” The abbot asked, his demeanor composed but his eyes showing concern.

    Khem shrank a little, knowing how worried the abbot was about his safety, not just because of the lingering curse, but also because he would be alone without adult supervision.

    But Khem dreamed of becoming an artist. He had been earning extra money by drawing all this time and had saved enough to afford his school supplies and rent a modest dorm room.

    Khem wanted to excel in this profession; if he were to die tomorrow, he wanted to have lived his life as he desired at least once.

    “The program I want to study isn’t offered here.” Khem stated truthfully, also wanting to affirm his stance.

    Seeing his son’s determination, Phra Pinto, who had been a monk for many years, understood the truth about life, aging, sickness, and death – these were all natural to humans. He had done everything a father could do; the rest was up to fate.

    “Hmm. Well then, study hard. Whatever you do, do it with mindfulness and caution, don’t be careless.” Khem’s smile grew when his father gave his blessing, and he quickly nodded in response.

    “Yes, father abbot.”

    They spoke a little more, then Khem paid his respects and left to finish some pending work.

      At that moment, Phra Phinto sat in meditation, watching his son’s receding back, along with the fading shadows of more than one mysterious spirit…

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  • WHYARU, Special Chapter 3: END

    WHYARU, Special Chapter 3: END

       WHYARU, Special Chapter 3: END

    The compact room on the third floor of the house was Tutor’s personal space. Though it was the smallest of all the bedrooms, its size didn’t make it any less appealing. Perhaps it was the minimalist design that made the room feel cozier than expected.

    A five-foot mattress with plain white bedding, no bed frame, sat in the center, perfectly matching the beige wooden wardrobe and the nearby Japanese-style table. A white rug at the foot of the bed contrasted nicely with a sleek black fan, and in one corner, a large potted plant stood—Tutor had mentioned it was a house-friendly plant. Everything fit together, even the single framed picture on the wall.

    What made the room even more inviting was the wooden balcony on the left, with a screened door to keep out mosquitoes. The natural breeze still flowed in, gently swaying the white curtains.

    “Fat Cup, don’t bother him,” Tutor’s voice scolded.

    “…”

    “Did you hear me, Fat Cup? Get off his back, you naughty thing!” The familiar voice wasn’t far from Fighter’s ear. The man lying face-down shifted slightly, feeling soft fur brushing against him. “Get down now, or Phii Fai will spank you!”

    Who’s spanking who?

       Fighter, who’d been asleep for over half the day, squinted at the backlit figure on the left side of the bed. At first, he couldn’t make out who it was, but upon closer inspection, he realized it was Tutor.

    The younger man wore an oversized white t-shirt and boxer shorts that, whenever he propped up his knees, made Fighter’s heart skip a beat.

    Meow.

    What stood out most was the new gray furry friend in front of him, just as clingy as the person holding it.

    The sight before him was too captivating for Fighter, lying in bed, to resist grabbing his camera from the bag and snapping a shot of Tutor. It was both beautiful and subtly erotic. Tutor was playing with a cat, and it took him a moment to notice he was being secretly photographed. He turned, knitting his brows with a slightly puzzled look, but Fighter still took a couple more shots before setting the camera down on the bed.

    “Whose cat is that?” Fighter asked groggily, shifting to press himself against Tutor’s back. He rested his chin on the pale shoulder peeking out from the loose, stretched-out T-shirt that hung off Tutor’s frame. “Mmm, Phii Fai.”

    A soft, muffled moan escaped as Fighter lightly pressed his lips to the smooth shoulder. He slowly trailed cool kisses along the slope of Tutor’s shoulder and up to his ear. Tutor tilted away as if to dodge, but his stern glance didn’t quite match the gesture.

    “Stop it, Phii Fai.”

    “Alright, stopped,” the taller man said, planting one last kiss before ceasing. He settled for resting his chin on Tutor’s shoulder instead. “So, whose cat is it?”

    “The neighbor’s.”

    “Oh.”

    “Its name is Fat Cup.”

    “Tasty name,” Fighter replied, eyeing the cheeky cat staring back at him. “How’d it end up in your room all of a sudden?”

    “It usually jumps back and forth between its house and this one. I saw it when I woke up, so I picked it up to play with.”

    “You like cats?”

    “Not exactly, but it’s pretty cute.”

    “Not as cute as you, though,” Fighter said with a sly grin, directed at the boy playing with the cat. Tutor shook his head, sometimes used to Fighter’s cheesy lines, but other times still caught off guard.

    “Wanna hold it, Phii Fai?”

    “Nah.”

    “Why? Scared?”

    “Not scared. I’m just not good with animals like this.”

    “Allergic to pet fur?”

    “Nope.”

    “Then why not hold it?”

    “…”

    “Little Fat Cup wants to take a picture with Phii Fai,” Tutor said, puffing out his cheeks. “Right, Fat Cup? You want a photo with Phii Fai, don’t you?”

    “No thanks.”

    “Come on, hold him! I really want a picture of you with Fluffy Cup,” Tutor turned fully toward him, passing the cheeky cat with wide, pleading eyes. “Please, Phii.”

    “Alright, fine, I’ll hold him,” Fighter took the cat from Tutor awkwardly. It wasn’t that he disliked pets; he just wasn’t fond of these creatures, probably because he didn’t like the hassle. He’d never paid much attention to or gotten close to anything like this.

    “Perfect,” Tutor said, grabbing the camera to snap a photo of him. At first, Fighter looked stiff, but as time went on, Fluffy Cup’s cuteness and clinginess won him over easily. “Told you he’s adorable.”

    “Yeah, he’s cute,” Fighter admitted, lying back down. Tutor lay beside him, with Fluffy Cup nestled between them.

    “Why’re you staring?” Tutor asked, noticing Fighter gazing at him while petting the chubby cat.

    “Your parents know about us, huh?”

    I think so.”

    “…”

    “Phii Tong probably told them.”

    “That’s nice,” Fighter said with a smile tinged with envy. His mind drifted to his own father, who no longer forced him to do things with someone named Fang or anyone else, but still never mentioned Tutor. He wished his dad could see who Tutor really was, how truly lovable he was.

    “Why the face?”

    “Nothing.”

    “Phii Fai.”

    “I just wish my dad was more like your parents.”

    “Didn’t you say it takes time?”

    “Yeah, it takes time,” Fighter leaned in, pressing a long, warm kiss to Tutor’s lips, as if sealing their feelings for each other.

    “Don’t overthink it, Phii Fai.”

    “Nah, I still believe, Tor, that in the end, my dad will understand. Understand us for who we really are.”

    Bzzz, bzzz

    Fighter’s phone, lying nearby, vibrated. He reached for it and saw it was his dad calling.

    Fighter planted a kiss on Tutor’s forehead before answering the call.

    “Yes, Dad.”

    (Where’s you?)

    “Chiang Khan.”

    (What are you doing there?)

    “I’m at Tor’s place.”

    ()

    “…” Seeing Fighter go quiet, the smaller figure sitting across from him looked uneasy. But Tutor managed a faint smile, reaching out to gently squeeze Fighter’s hand, as if reassuring him that he was still there. No matter what happened, he wasn’t going anywhere—he’d stay right here, holding his hand.

    (The vibe’s nice, isn’t it? I went there once before I married your mom.)

    “Yeah, the atmosphere’s great. The people here are nice too. Tor’s parents are so sweet—they’re open to everything their son loves.”

    (Fai… it’s not that I’m not open. I’m trying in my own way. I want to open my heart to Tor, to get to know him the way you described.)    “Dad…”

    (You’re my only son, Fai. I’ve thought about it over and over—your words, and what Tor asked me that day, whether what I’m doing is really for your happiness. Even now, I keep wondering if it’s truly the right thing. Because what’s happened hasn’t made me happy, Fai. We pass by each other, say hello, but it’s like we’ve never truly opened up to one another. I keep thinking about where we went wrong. Was it because I was too focused on work? Because I didn’t know you well enough? Or because I never understood what makes you happy?)

    “…”

    (I’ve missed out on so much of your happiness, Fai. When you were in fourth grade and ran to show me your good grades, I set them aside and never even looked at them. After that, you never showed me your grades again. You stopped telling me about school. When you got into fights, I sent the driver to be your guardian instead. The gap between us grew too wide, and I, who thought I knew you, realized I never truly knew you at all.)

    “…”

    (I don’t know if I’m asking too much, but can we get to know each other again, son? Can I get to know the real you, the you who loves Tor, the you who wants me to love the person you love? I’ll try to open my heart to you and Tor… Can you open yours to let me learn about both of you?)

    “…”

    (Can you give me a chance, son?)

    Tutor had no idea what Fighter was discussing with his dad, but the sudden flood of tears streaming down his senior’s face, like a dam breaking, left him at a loss. He squeezed Fighter’s hand tightly, letting him know he was still right there.

    SobHic…”

    Hearing Fighter’s sobs, Tutor couldn’t help but feel the weight of it after he put down the phone. He got up and hugged Fighter tightly, as if to comfort him, murmuring, “I’m here, Tor’s here,” over and over again.

    When the crying finally quieted, Fighter wiped his tears and managed a smile.

    “Tor.”

    “Yes?”

    “Dad called me.”

    “Mm.”

    “He said he wants to get to know you.”

    “…”

    “He wants to know the you that I love and care for. He said he’s ready to open his heart. Not fully yet, but he’ll try.”

    “…”

    “And I believe it’ll get better—better than it is now, for sure.” “Mm,” Tutor nodded, pressing his lips tightly together. He was trying to hold back a mix of relief and gratitude, not wanting Fighter to see.

    It wasn’t that Tutor hadn’t felt hopeful before. All along, he’d believed it could work out, that things could get better. If Phii

    Fai said holding on tighter would make it better, Tutor trusted it would. But…

    There was always something nagging at him. He’d tried to bury it deep, to focus only on Fighter, but that feeling never left. Now, hearing Phii Fai say his dad was willing to try opening his heart—even just a little—it was like a gift that unlocked Tutor’s emotions, easing his mind. The small, dark shadow that had clung to his heart was almost entirely swept away.

    This was so good. Really, truly good.

    “I’m so glad I met you, Tor,” Fighter said.

    “Mm. I’m glad I met you too, Phii,” Tutor replied. Fighter looked at him, one hand gently cupping his smooth cheek, thinking back on everything they’d been through.

    “You’re the best thing in my life, Tor.”

    “You filled the empty parts of me until they overflowed. You taught me what real love is. I love you so much, Tor. Phii really loves Tor so much.”

    Neither knew where this love would lead, whether it would end in separation or if they’d walk on together. But even if it came to that, they’d never regret loving each other.

       “Tor loves you too, Phii. Loves you… the most.”

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  • WHYARU, Special Chapter 2:

    WHYARU, Special Chapter 2:

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    “Phii Fai, besides the stuff on this list, could you grab some rice too?” Tutor handed the shopping list to Fighter, who stood at the door. “Sorry, Phii Fai, for making you drive back to get it again.”

    “It’s fine, I can go. You sure you don’t need anything else?”

    “Nope, just this. Thanks, Phii Fai.” Fighter nodded and closed the door. Tutor waited a bit, and when it seemed like no one was coming back in, he quickly grabbed a cake from the fridge and set it on the low Japanese table. Two candles, marking Fighter’s age, were placed on the cake. Then, Tutor grabbed a lighter he’d prepared and turned off the lights, waiting for someone to return.

    Tutor was excited—admittedly, it was his first time doing something like this.

    Even when he’d surprised his parents, Phii Tongtaa, or Hwahwa for their birthdays, he hadn’t felt this thrilled.

    Tutor had known it was Phii Fai’s birthday since they got back from Krabi. He’d planned for a while how to surprise him. Initially, when he heard Fighter was celebrating at a restaurant with friends, Tutor thought he’d bring the cake there.

    But when Fighter canceled those plans, Tutor had to switch things up, as evident now.

    The cake was made yesterday. Tutor had spent the afternoon preparing it for Phii Fai.

    They both made time and space for each other as usual. Tutor and Fighter didn’t meddle much in each other’s lives during school hours. At lunchtime, Tutor would eat with Saifah and Day, sometimes joined by Hwahwa. Fighter, too, rarely interfered when Tutor was with his friends.

    They gave each other space and respected it. They weren’t overly clingy to the point of being stifling and only hung out when heading home together, which worked perfectly for both of them.

    And that’s how it went. As Tutor said, he spent the afternoon sneaking off to make a cake at Phii Kae’s shop, then hurriedly stashed it in the dorm fridge that day. Good thing Fighter wasn’t the type to notice what’s in the fridge—once it was hidden behind something, he wouldn’t see it. Now, all Tutor had to do was take a deep breath, close his eyes tightly, and wait for someone to come back.

    Tutor sat waiting for Fighter in the dark, fiddling with his phone. Then he saw a shadow at the doorframe. The sound of the lock jangling told Tutor that Phii had arrived. He quickly lit the candles and walked over with the cake, timing it so Fighter would see it the moment he opened the door.

    Creak

    “Why’s the light off—”

    “Happy Birthday to You, Happy Birthday to You, ♬ Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday…” The clear voice singing from those small lips left the person who’d just walked in a few seconds ago overwhelmed with emotion, unable to speak. Fighter hadn’t expected Tutor to know it was his birthday, but seeing this, he was so overjoyed he almost wanted to cry.

    “Happy Birthday to You, ♬”

    “…”

    “Happy Birthday, Phii Fai. Wishing you good health and endless happiness, this year and every year. From now on, Tor’s sticking with you, okay? Happy Birthday, my boyfriend.”

    Fighter looked straight into Tutor’s eyes, the shimmering spark in them making it clear just how happy Phii was. In the end, Tutor could only flash a wide grin.

    “Hurry up and make a wish, then blow out the candles, Fai.” “Mm.” Fighter’s silent wish was for them to hold hands like this until the very end, to overcome any obstacles together, for someone to understand him, and for that someone to love Tutor as much as he did.

    Fighter slowly blew out the candle flames, then leaned in to kiss Tutor’s eyelids gently, lingering.

    It was a kiss that sealed his wish, passing it on to the younger one too.

    “Thank you, Tutor.”

    “Mm.”

    “Thank you, really,” Fighter said. Tutor nodded a couple of times before pulling away.

    “Let’s turn on the light and eat the cake,” the younger said cheerfully, walking over to flip the switch. He set the cake on the low Japanese table, then grabbed a knife and plates. Meanwhile, Fighter followed, setting down the stuff he’d just bought from 7-Eleven nearby. Once done, he picked up his phone to snap a picture of the cake in front of him, beaming with joy. “Are you even gonna get to eat this?”

    Tutor sat down beside him, teasing with a playful tone as he watched Fighter take photos.

    “Come on, let me have this. My boyfriend made me a birthday cake, after all.”

    “You’re so extra,” Tutor laughed.

    “No exaggeration, you have no idea how cute my boyfriend is,” Fighter said, winking and raising an eyebrow at the person in front of him. He then picked up the cake on the table and handed it to Tutor. “Hold this for a sec. I’m gonna take a picture.”

    “You’re milking it.”

    “How can I not? My boyfriend made this cake for me.”

    “Such a show-off.”

    “Why, jealous that my boyfriend’s so cute?”

    Phii Fai was being an absolute tease.

    “Yeah, jealous. Wonder if my boyfriend’s as cute as yours,” Tutor played along with his senior’s joke.

    “Not cute, but super handsome. And such a good kisser, he makes some people melt.”

    “Self-praise much?”

    “Wait, are you my boyfriend?”

    “Maybe not.”

    “No wonder you’re this cute.”

    “…”

    “Haha, gotcha!” Fighter ruffled his junior’s hair playfully before scooting closer to the cake-holding Tutor. “Can I take a pic with my boyfriend?”

    What if I say no?”

    “Come on, please? Your big bro wants it,” Fighter said, lightly nibbling Tutor’s ear, making him swat at Fighter’s arm. They took photos together for a while before finally digging into the cake.

    “How does it taste?” Tutor asked.

    “Delicious.”

    “For real?”

    “Yup, super delicious. Thanks, Tor.” Tutor nodded at Fighter’s words and gave a faint smile. He pulled out his phone, snapping a pic of the cake with just Fighter’s hand and lips visible, posting it on Facebook with a simple caption: Happy Birthday. That alone was enough to get a ton of likes and comments asking who was in the photo. Some correctly guessed it was Phii Fai, knowing it was his birthday, while others speculated it was Saifah, Day, or even Phii Tum.

    When Fighter posted his own photo of the cake, it was like everyone instantly connected the dots about who it belonged to.

    His caption made it clear it was Fighter’s—not just the cake, but the person who made it too.

    ‘Mine’

       “Jealous much?” Tutor knew Fighter rushed to post the photo because he saw Phii Tum liking his post. Normally, Fighter would’ve posted stuff like this on his private Instagram instead.

    I admit it,” Fighter shrugged lightly, unbothered. He didn’t mind, just found the older guy’s jealousy amusing.

    “But I already told Phii Tum I have a boyfriend,” Tutor said.

    “I know.”

    “How’d you know?”

    “Dew video-called me right when you were telling that Tum guy.”

    “And you pretended not to know?” Tutor teased.

    “…”

    “You’re getting way too sneaky, Fighter.”

    “I wasn’t pretending,” Fighter chuckled. “I just hadn’t had the chance to tell you that I know my boyfriend loves me like crazy.”

    “Enough already,” Tutor wrinkled his nose and shook his head at the older guy. Fighter grinned and took another bite of cake.

    “Oh, Phii Fai,” Tutor suddenly remembered something.

    “Yeah?”

    “Next week’s a four-day holiday. I’m thinking of going back to my hometown.”

    “Nice, go visit your parents. They must miss you like crazy.”

    “But I was thinking of inviting you along.”

    “…”

    Wanna come to my hometown?”

     

       7:20 AM

       So damn exhausting.

       Fighter grumbled to himself. It was his first time on a longdistance bus, and the journey was grueling. He couldn’t sleep at all on the bus—his back ached, and it was uncomfortable. But he didn’t want Tutor to worry about his discomfort during the trip to his hometown.

    Still, eight hours was too much. For the return trip, he was thinking of suggesting to Tutor that they fly back instead. He’d checked online earlier and saw there were flights from Chiang Khan to Bangkok.

    Yes, Tutor’s hometown was Chiang Khan, a misty land beloved by tourists.

    It was Fighter’s first time here. The place felt much quieter compared to Bangkok at the same hour.

    “You okay, Fai?” Tutor turned to him with a small smile as they boarded a songthaew to head into Chiang Khan’s town center.

    “I’ll manage.”

    “Don’t make that face. Come on, show some spirit.”

    Alright, I’m trying,” Tutor said, giving Fighter a thumbs-up with a faint smile. Fighter couldn’t help but wonder if Tutor was teasing him, though he doubted it. This was just Tutor’s way of life, and Fighter was simply stepping into it.

    It took nearly an hour and a half to drive from the city to

    Chiang Khan. The atmosphere here was calm and unhurried. Honestly, Fighter was starting to fall in love with the place. As they walked along the street named after Chiang Khan, he could feel a culture absent in Bangkok—both in the way of life and the people. Every time he raised his camera to snap a photo, his affection for Chiang Khan grew.

    Some shots even captured kids playfully photobombed his frame, as if it were a game.

    “Almost there, Phii Fai.”

    “Really?” Fighter tried to keep his voice from sounding too excited, but he couldn’t help it. His heart pounded like a drum. This was his first time meeting Tutor’s parents. Though he’d met Phii Tongtaa, who was kind and easygoing, he still felt nervous.

    “Yeah, up ahead. See that sign for the made-to-order food place?”

    “I see it.”

    “That’s my house.”

    “…”

    “Don’t be so nervous, babe,” Tutor teased, playfully patting Fighter’s shoulder.

    “How can I not be nervous? I’m about to meet your mom and dad, man.”

    “My parents are nice and pretty open-minded.”

    “Yeah, I know.” From their son and daughter, Fighter could already guess what they’d be like.

    Tutor led Fighter to a wooden house down one of the alleys. It was a modest three-story building. The ground floor was a made-to-order food shop, likely not open yet. The second and third floors were living spaces, with a cozy balcony overlooking the street.

    The atmosphere was so pleasant that Fighter couldn’t resist taking another photo.

    What made him love this place even more was the absence of fences between the houses. It spoke to the Chiang Khan way of life—or rural life in general. The whole village probably knew and was close with each other, as he’d heard, unlike Bangkok, where neighbors sharing a wall might argue over parking or street space.

    “Dad, Mom, Tor’s back!” Tutor shouted into the house, making the people preparing things turn to look. A middle-aged woman rushed out and threw her arms around Tutor, as if afraid he’d vanish. Meanwhile, a middle-aged man stepped forward, placing a hand on his son’s head. Fighter watched the scene with a warm feeling—Tutor’s parents really were as kind as he’d described.

    “How was it, Tor? Tired, son?”

    “Not at all, Mom. And…” Tutor paused for a moment before reaching out to pull Fighter, who was standing awkwardly nearby, closer. “This is Phii Fai.”

    “Hey, Dad, Mom.”

    “Hey, son. How was the trip, Fai? All good?”

    “Yeah, it was fine, just a bit tiring.”

    “Hm? Tired? How’d you guys get here? Didn’t you fly?”

    “No,” Fighter replied. “We took a bus last night. Got here just in time.”

    “You came by bus?” Dad asked.

    “Yeah.”

    “Nong Tor!” Mom shouted her son’s name loudly, while

    Tutor, who’d gone to pour himself some water, turned back. “Why didn’t you bring him by plane? These days, plane tickets and bus fares are about the same!”

    “Well, I…”

    “Don’t mumble! Just because you’re stingy doesn’t mean you have to make him suffer too.”

    “I’m not stingy!”

    “You can use the money in your account sometimes, you know. Your dad and I aren’t struggling like before. Phii Tong sends money regularly now—it’s enough for the whole family,” Mom scolded her sulky son. Tutor knew their family’s situation had improved, but he was still frugal and saved because they’d struggled with money before. Things only got better just before Phii Tong left for Germany. Mom said Phii Tong got a hefty bonus from her company, which cleared some debts, fixed up the shop, and left some savings for emergencies.

    “I wasn’t planning to make Phii Fai take the bus forever, Mom,” Tutor said with a pout, making Fighter raise an eyebrow in curiosity.

    “So you were messing with him?”

    “No way!”

    “Then why’d you make him take the bus?”

    “I just wanted Phii Fai to see how I live, how I travel,” Tutor said, pressing his lips tightly and glancing at Fighter. Mom, watching, could only shake her head with a sigh.

    “Alright, alright. For the return trip, book a flight back to Bangkok. Not sure if there’ll be seats left if you book lastminute,” Dad chimed in, breaking the silence.

    “I already done that.”

    “See, I told you Tor was teasing him,” his mom said.

    “I’m not teasing.”

    “Come on, let’s eat. You two haven’t eaten yet, right?” Tutor’s dad turned to Fighter with a smile.

    “Not yet.”

    “Come, come. I’ll whip up some spicy stir-fried sea bass for you. Five minutes, and it’ll be delicious, guaranteed.” Fighter nodded and stepped into the restaurant. After setting down his things and bag, he wandered around, inspecting the house turned-eatery with curiosity.

    The restaurant had a distinct Chiang Khan vibe but still felt modern. The atmosphere was inviting, and the prices were reasonable. No wonder it was doing well.

    “Phii Fai, what’re you looking at?” Tutor asked as Fighter was flipping through the menu.

    “Just checking things out. The place looks really nice.”

    “Right? Phii Tong designed it. It was her first project after graduating.”

    “For real?”

    “Yup. Must’ve been five or six years ago. Back then, Dad hadn’t gone bankrupt yet, so he hired Tongtaa to design this place as a birthday gift for his older sister, my aunt. But the restaurant wasn’t used for anything—no rentals, no sales, just left empty. Then our family hit hard times, Dad went bankrupt, and we moved here and opened this restaurant as you see it now,” Tutor shared his life story without hesitation, like he was opening up about how it all began. “It was tough at first, probably because Dad refused to ask for help from my aunt, even though she offered a lot of support.”

    “Wanted to make it on his own first, huh?”

    “Exactly like that.”

    “Sounds like someone I know around here.”

    “Yeah,” Tutor admitted that his stubborn, self-reliant personality came from his dad.

    “And this thing about booking a bus ticket to Chiang Khan… was it so I’d see what your life’s like?”

    “…”

    “You wanted me to understand how tough it’s been for you, to see if I could handle it, right?” Fighter voiced his thoughts. He’d figured it out when Tutor told his mom. The reason behind it was clear, and it felt good—Tutor was opening up his world, letting him learn more about his life and what it was like.

    “Yeah, pretty much.”

    “You’ve let me into your world, Tor. Now you’ve gotta open your heart and step into mine too.”

    “I’m already open.”

    “Just open up more,” Fighter turned to look at the younger man standing beside him. “I know you, you know me. Let’s slowly get to know each other’s true selves like this, okay?” “Okay,” Tutor smiled, and Fighter couldn’t help but ruffle his hair affectionately.

    “You two, food’s ready! Come eat so you can rest afterward,” Mom called out to them.

    “Mom, don’t you want me to help serve the food?” Tutor asked.

    “I’ve got Joi and Tan helping already. Tor, take your friend upstairs to rest. He looks like his back’s killing him, and his face screams ‘no sleep.’ I feel bad for Fai,” Mom nagged until Tutor pouted slightly.

    “I’m fine, Mom,” Fighter said with a smile, though truthfully, he was exactly as she described—sleepless and exhausted. Meanwhile, the smaller guy beside him had been comfortably leaning on his shoulder the whole way.

    “Fine or not, I don’t care. Eat, then go shower and sleep properly. You can help out after you’re rested,” Mom insisted.

    “Okay,” both of them agreed with Mom and Dad, then started eating together. The atmosphere at the table was so warm that Fighter felt it too. Mom and Dad never cut him out of the conversation, making him feel like part of the family.

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  • WHYARU, Special Chapter 1:

    WHYARU, Special Chapter 1:

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    “What’s with the sour face?” Dew plopped down beside Fighter, following his friend’s gaze, which was fixed on something. “Oh, that’s Tor. Not gonna go say hi?”

    “He told me to sit here.”

    “Why’s that?”

    “He said I was disturbing his work. Probably rushing to finish translating a journal for that honest Tum guy. Said he’s coming to pick up the file today.”

    “Can’t he just email it?”

    “Right? That’s what I thought. What era is this? Why’s he still using a flash drive to pick up files in person?”

    “Or maybe there’s something more to it.”

    “Jerk!” Fighter snapped, smacking Dew on the head.

    “Hey! How would I know? I’m just guessing,” Dew rubbed his head sheepishly, glancing at Tutor, who was typing away with a serious expression.

    “But that assumption is nonsense, because my boyfriend would never think anything of someone named Tum. That jerk, though, I bet he’s got something going on and wants to have something too.” Thinking about it gave him a headache. The past few weeks, when he and Tutor had issues, so many things had piled up.

    Other stuff, like Tutor helping out at Phii Kae’s shop or taking on extra translation work, he could understand.

    But this Tum guy sniffing around? That, he was not okay with.

    “Whoa, look at you, throwing around the word ‘boyfriend’ so confidently now, Fai. What’s gotten into you?” Dew teased. “The guy sitting three tables away from us,” Fighter said, his eyes fixed on Tutor, who was typing with intense focus. Those red lips were bitten absentmindedly whenever Tutor was stressed. It made Fighter want to kiss him again, to remind him to look only at him. Could he not turn those adorable eyes toward anyone else?

    He’d admit it—he was head over heels for Tutor. Maybe it was the time they’d spent apart that sparked this intensity, but he never wanted to go through that again. That’s why, at the beach, he asked Tutor to be his boyfriend, promising they’d talk things out if anything came up.

    He didn’t expect it to last forever. As Tutor said during their first beach trip, no one knows what the future holds. But right now, in this moment, he loved him, wanted to care for him, wanted to build something stable together. Like Tutor said, focus on making the present good, and a better future would follow.

    “So, about tonight’s meetup—is he coming?” Dew asked, curiosity in his voice.

    It was Fighter’s birthday today. Normally, for someone’s birthday in their high school friend group, they’d meet at the usual spot. Fighter had never brought anyone to these birthday gatherings with his close friends—not even Hwahwa.

    As for Tutor… Dew wasn’t sure if Fighter would bring him along.

    “No clue,” Fighter replied, sounding dejected. “Honestly, I don’t even know if he knows it’s my birthday today.”

    Fighter hadn’t told Tutor his birth date. Even during the Krabi trip, which was supposedly for his birthday, it wasn’t actually on his birthday. Tutor knew the trip wasn’t on the exact day, but Fighter wasn’t sure if he knew it was today.

    From the moment he woke up until now, Tutor hadn’t mentioned his birthday once.

    “I bet he knows,” Dew said, as if to reassure him, before his eyes caught someone entering the library. “Fai, that jerk’s here.”

    Fighter looked up at the person Dew was referring to. The guy walked straight toward Tutor with a grin that screamed how thrilled he was to approach him. It irritated Fighter to no end, but there was nothing he could do.

    “Gonna go stake your claim?” Dew teased.

    “Nah,” Fighter replied. He was mature enough not to do something petty like that, even if he hated it deep down.

    He looked ahead, watching Tutor’s cute smile as he talked with Tum. When Tutor mentioned that a work file was nearly done, Tum practically lunged to sit beside him, reaching for the mouse almost at the same time as Tutor, who was still holding it.

    It was infuriating to see, but at least Tutor pulled his hand away. That awkward expression—couldn’t anyone tell how uncomfortable Tutor was?

    Whatever. Fighter knew Tutor was a guy who could protect himself in his own way.

    He also knew he was too jealous. So, all he could do was stand up and walk out to wait for Tutor outside.

    “Hey, Fai, wait for me!” a voice called out, prompting the librarian to shush the two hurrying out. One of them was Fighter, his face clearly showing his displeasure with Tutor. Part of that irritation likely stemmed from Phii Tum.

    It’s not like Tutor didn’t notice. He wasn’t clueless enough to miss Phii Tum’s unusual behavior toward him.

    He’d let things slide a bit, thinking it was just guys being guys.

    But lately, it had gotten worse. Even though he hadn’t given Phii Tum his Line ID, the guy still called him sometimes. If it wasn’t work-related, Tutor often chose not to answer.

    But what Phii Tum did just now was too much. Tutor was annoyed too—Phii Tum had sat down without warning and even pretended to casually grab his hand while he was clicking the mouse.

    That was so not okay.

    “Thanks, Tor. I’ve already transferred the payment to you,” Phii Tum said.

    “Thank you, Phii Tum,” Tutor replied.

    Brrt, brrt.

    Tutor glanced at his phone, seeing a message from someone— Phii Fai, saying he’d wait in the car parked in front of the library.

    “By the way… are you free this evening, Tor? Wanna grab dinner together?”

    “Sorry, Phii Tum, I’ve already got plans,” Tutor said, turning to pack his things and laptop into his bag. The laptop was a gift from Phii Tongtaa last year. She’d said it couldn’t handle modern design or programming software, but Tutor knew deep down she just wanted him to have a laptop so he wouldn’t have to use the computers at the shop.

    “Where’re you headed? Want me to drop you off?”

    “No need, Phii Tum. I can go myself,” Tutor said with a smile, slinging his bag over his shoulder.

    “But you’re heading downstairs, right?”

    “Yeah.”

    “Then let’s go together. I’m heading down too.” Tutor nodded reluctantly. They walked and talked until they reached the front of the library building. Phii Tum asked a lot of questions. Though none were overtly uncomfortable, it wasn’t hard to tell he was prying too much into Tutor’s personal life.

    “Thanks again for hiring me, Phii Tum. Please thank your friends too.”

    “No problem at all. If there’s more translation work, I’ll contact you again, Tor.”

    “Alright, I’m heading out then,” Tutor raised his hand, signaling to the person in front of him that he was leaving.

    “Wait, Tor,” one of Tutor’s hands was grabbed before he could go. “I’m sorry…”

    Tum hurriedly apologized, catching the displeased look in Tutor’s eyes.

    “I just… I have something to ask you, Tor.”

    “Go ahead, ask…”

    “Well… you probably know that I, uh…”

    “…”

    “I…”

    “You’re hitting on me.”

    “Tor!” Phii Tum’s voice was laced with shock at his bluntness, his face flushing with embarrassment as he scratched the back of his neck.

    “But I already have a boyfriend, Phii Tum,” Tutor stated plainly. “And he’s the jealous type.”

    “…”

    “I want you to stop doing this.”

    “I just…”

    “I know you’re someone who understands things easily, Phii Tum. So please don’t make this harder for me. My boyfriend’s already frustrated as it is, and in the future, he might not let me take translation jobs anymore.”

    “Why does being in a relationship mean controlling each other like that? I think—”

    “Because I love him,” Tutor cut in. “In the end, if he asks me to do something, I’ll do it the way he wants.”

    “…”

    “So, Phii Tum, it’d be great if you could keep your distance— a lot of distance. I don’t want us to end up unable to look each other in the eye.” Tutor was always straightforward, and Fighter knew that, but he hadn’t expected him to be this blunt.

    In Fighter’s hand was a video call clip that Dew had sent him, stirring a mix of emotions he couldn’t quite name. He’d left the library just minutes ago, parting ways with Dew, who must’ve still been nearby and caught this perfect moment, filming it and sending it to him right on time.

    And of course, seeing the clip, the smile already on Fighter’s lips stretched so wide it nearly reached his ears. He didn’t know what to say except—    The kid’s so damn cute! How does he keep making me fall for him more every day?

     

    Deww: What’s up, Fai? Dead yet? Your boyfriend’s freaking awesome.

       If I were you, I’d be so smitten I wouldn’t know which way is up.

       

       Deawdry: Shut up, Dew.

       

       TOMON: Normally, you’re already a lost cause,     but with that video you sent this time, I swear you’re done for—see you in the next life, bro!

       

       TOMON: But seriously, Dew, 

       I love how you chose to call in the group chat like that. 

       Thanks for being so kind to nosy people like us! 

       Keep being this awesome, and maybe you will treat us to a few drinks.

       

       Deawdry: Why the hell do I have to treat anyone? 

       When you’re grinning like an idiot because your lover’s head over heels, shouldn’t you be the one treating us?

       

    Fighter: You guys talk too much. 

       Can I skip the party tonight? 

       Let’s meet up another day, and I’ll treat you all to make up for it.

       

       Deawdry: Chill, we’re not that serious about it. 

       I was even wondering if you’d really treat us today. 

       A lovesick guy like you probably wants to spend time with your boyfriend more.

       

       Fighter: I was planning to bring him to hang out with you guys, you know. 

       But now I’m thinking otherwise. I just wanna celebrate with him, just the two of us.

       

       TOMON: Lovestruck as hell, huh?! 

       So damn lovestruck!

       

       Fighter: Yeah, I admit it.

       

       Deawdry: That’s the spirit, my man! 

    Alright, let’s do it like this. Just let us know in the group chat when you’re ready to treat us.

      

    After that, his friends flooded the chat with annoying stickers, teasing him relentlessly. He grinned at his phone like a fool, regretting that he forgot to record the video call Dew had sent earlier. It would’ve been perfect to tease Tutor with it and make him blush.

    Knock, knock, knock.

    A soft tap on the car window pulled him from his thoughts. Fighter looked up at the person waiting outside and pressed the button to unlock the door.

    “Done?”

    “Done,” Tutor said, sliding into the car. He placed his things on the back seat before turning to fasten his seatbelt.

    “Does you want to eat anything special today?”

    “No,” Tutor replied, turning to frown at the driver starting the car in front of the library. “Why’re you suddenly being so sweet?”

    “I always talk like this,” Fighter said.

    “No way, this isn’t normal. What’s up?” Fighter didn’t answer, just gave a sly grin that left the person beside him guessing. “Phii Fai, didn’t you say you had something to tell me?”

    “I’ll tell you when we get to the dorm.”

    “Can’t you tell me now?”

    “Nope.”

    “What’s that about?” Tutor grumbled, his voice tinged with frustration.

    “Oh, Tor, I’m not going to the hangout with the guys tonight,” Fighter said.

    “Huh? Why not?”

    “They had other plans, so I canceled.” He didn’t want to tell Tutor it was because he wanted to spend this special day just the two of them. Fighter wasn’t even sure if Tutor knew it was his birthday, but he’d tell him once they got to the dorm. At this point, he wasn’t hung up on birthday gifts or whether Tutor knew about his birthday.

    Because hearing Tutor clearly tell that Tum guy about having a boyfriend today was more than enough for someone like him.

    “Oh,” Tutor nodded lightly. “That’s good then.”

    “What’d you say, Tor?”

    “Nothing, just saying I’m sleepy.”

    “Well, you stayed up so late last night, how could you not be? From now on, can you cut back on the translation work if it’s too much, Tor?” Fighter’s voice was laced with concern.

    “Yeah, I probably won’t take on translation work for a while. As for the side gigs, I already talked to the boss and said I’d cut down to just two days a week.”

    “Really? That’s awesome!” Fighter grinned widely, genuinely happy. Tutor had cut back on side work before, but during their rough patch, he went back to working every day. When things settled, Fighter brought it up again, asking him to reduce his hours. He even got Phii Tongtaa to call and talk to him, worried that Tutor’s body was being pushed too hard. He wasn’t doing it for anyone but Tutor himself.

    “Look at that smug face,” Tutor teased.

    “Of course! Now we’ll have more time to spend together.”

    “You don’t get tired of me?”

    “No way…”

    “…”

    “Who’d ever get bored of their own boyfriend?” Tutor looked at the mischievous smile Fighter sent his way, unable to deny that he loved him more every day. He loved how Fighter teased him until he blushed, scolded him, or taught him things he didn’t know.

    “Exactly. You think like me. Who could ever get bored of their boyfriend, right… babe?”

    “Uh… yeah, right,” Tutor stammered.

    And he loved how, when he teased Fighter back like this, the older guy got adorably shy.

       He loved every single moment that was Fighter.

       Truly loved him.

           WHYARU : Fighter-Tutor CHAPTERS HOME

  • WHYARU, Chapter 26: END

    WHYARU, Chapter 26: END

       WHYARU, Chapter 26: END

       The deep blue sky contrasted with the vibrant sea. The weather in Krabi today was so perfect it reminded him of the person who bought him the ticket.

    The person who didn’t come along this time.

       “This place is insanely beautiful, man. The hotel’s awesome, right by the sea too. I bet the rooms here cost way more than a couple thousand baht,” Zon rambled on, clearly thrilled about the hotel. “If I came here on my own, no way I could afford a fancy place like this. I’d probably be at that budget resort over there.”

    “You talk too much. Shouldn’t we check in first? Maybe Fai booked us the most basic room in this hotel,” Saifah said.

    “Even if it’s basic, I still think it’s gotta cost more than a couple thousand.”

    Tutor shook his head at his two friends before heading to check in with the hotel staff. It took less than ten minutes for them to get to their rooms.

    “Saifah!!! This room is gorgeous, so luxurious! No way you and I could afford something like this!” Zon’s voice echoed into the room as Tutor opened the balcony door. He was clearly beyond excited about staying in such a fancy place. “Look at this, Saifah! Our room’s right by the sea. A short walk and we’re at the hotel pool. This place has to be crazy expensive. We’re damn lucky to know someone like Phii Fai.”

    Tutor couldn’t stop laughing at his friend’s antics. He sat on the balcony chair, gazing out at the deserted beach. Maybe it was the scorching sun, but most people chose to stay in the shade of their rooms.

    The scene before him stirred a flood of nostalgic thoughts. He saw overlapping images of himself and Phii Fai from their previous beach trip.

    They flashed through his mind like an old projector on repeat.

    The image of his senior walking with him along the shore.

    The moment when his senior carried him on his back after he got scratched by a seashell.

    And the memory of their first kiss, when they said “I love you” to each other for the first time.

    Every thought made him miss it all.

    Miss it so much.

    “Hey, Tor!” Zon’s shout snapped him out of his reverie. He looked at the smaller figure on the beach and nodded back. “Wanna go swim?”

    “It’s hot, Zon. The sun’s blazing.”

    “I’m going to the hotel pool. There’s a shaded area. You coming?”

    “Nah, I’ll pass. You go ahead.”

    “Suit yourself,” Zon said, turning to someone trailing behind.

    “Yo, Saifah, hurry up, man! Always so slow!”

    “You’re the one rushing too much. Honestly, wouldn’t it be better to wait till evening? It’s so hot, it’s giving me a headache.”

    “Hot? I’m going to the shaded pool.”

    “It’s still hot, Zon.”

    “Fine, if you don’t wanna swim, don’t come. I’ll go by myself,” Zon said, his tone serious.

    “You mad?” Saifah hurried to catch up, trying to appease the smaller guy.

    “Not mad, just saying,” Tutor watched the scene and let out a faint smile. He knew Zon wasn’t really angry, but Saifah was the type to panic at the thought of his boyfriend being upset, rushing to make amends. It was funny, really—Saifah, who never used to care about stuff like this, would do anything for Zon without questioning whether it made sense.

    Tutor gave a faint smile at the sight before standing up and heading back into the room. The cool air from the AC easily washed away the heat from sitting outside.

    He flopped onto the soft bed, letting gravity take over, his large eyes slowly closing.

       He couldn’t deny that seeing Saifah and Zon so happy made him think of himself and Phii Fai. Did he envy them? Honestly, without hiding it—yes.

       He envied the love between those two, unhindered by any obstacles.

       He envied why, when it came to matters like this, he was the only one left hurting.

       Why did it always have to be him?

       Tutor raised one hand to cover his eyes, exhausted. All this time, he’d been fighting to endure the pain, but no matter how hard he tried, he was always the one who lost.

    Tutor didn’t cry. He was too tired to let tears spill out for no reason anymore.

    All he could do now was keep fighting, even knowing the outcome would be the same defeat.

    “If everything really is like a novel, as Zon said, then why does the pain feel so real? Why… why does it have to be like this?”

     

    8:54 PM

       Tutor couldn’t remember how long he’d been asleep. When he woke, the once-bright sky had turned to night. He fumbled for his phone and turned on the bedside lamp to check messages from Zon, sent just a few hours ago.

    Almost nine already? Slept that long again?

     

       Zon: Yo, Tor, I was yelling for you forever. 

       You didn’t open the door, so I figured you were asleep. 

       

       Zon: Just letting you know we already ate. The kitchen here closes at 9. 

       If you wake up too late, grab the instant noodle cup I left at your door. 

       I hung it there for you. There’s hot water in the room already. 

       But if you sleep through, catch you in the morning, buddy. 

       

       Zon: Sweet dreams, man.

      

    Tutor read the long string of messages from Zon and couldn’t help but smile faintly. He wondered if those two were already asleep, since the messages were sent around 5 or 6 PM. In the end, Tutor got up to open his room’s door to grab the noodle cup Zon left for him. But when he opened the door, the sight before him made his steady heartbeat falter again.

    It wasn’t just Tutor who looked shocked. The person about to knock on the door was equally startled, clearly not expecting Tutor to open it right then.

    Their eyes met, gazing at each other with feelings that went beyond mere longing. Tutor didn’t know how to describe the emotions surging in his chest—full of pent-up feelings, joy, and, deep down, a lingering worry.

    “Hey,” came the simple greeting from the older man. That single word broke the dam holding back Tutor’s tears. The figure in front of him blurred as his vision clouded, and his trembling voice could barely manage to call out the name, beyond his control.

    “Phii… Fai.”

    “Yes,” Fighter barely had time to say more before the smaller figure threw himself into his arms. He hugged Fighter tightly, as if afraid this was just an afternoon dream, terrified that when he woke up, there’d be no one named Fighter there.

    “Phii Fai.”

    “It’s me,” Fighter replied. His large hand gently stroked Tutor’s head. The taller man held the other so close he sank into his chest. Neither spoke; only the long, lingering embrace conveyed the depth of their longing.

    “Why’s your body so warm? Are you sick?”

    “I don’t know.”

    “Did you stay out in the sun?”

    “Yeah, but just for a bit. I was on the balcony for less than an hour.”

    “You get sick so easily these days.”

    “Probably from lack of rest. My body’s just more prone to it,” Tutor said.

    “If you know that, no more staying up all night, got it?”

    “…”

    “Did you hear me?”

    “I can’t promise that, Phii Fai,” the younger one mumbled, reaching for the cup of instant noodles by the door. He led Fighter into the room, placed the noodle cup on the table, and sat on the bed, his eyes following Fighter as he dragged a bag inside.

    “Why can’t you promise?” Fighter asked again after setting the bag at the foot of the bed. He walked over to stand in front of Tutor, lifting a hand to gently caress his cheek in the way he liked.

    “Because I don’t know when I’ll have to work or do homework late into the night. So I can’t promise.”

    “Why so stubborn?”

    “I’m not stubborn,” the younger one said, looking up at Fighter, who was leaning down toward him. Cool lips pressed a tender kiss against his.

    “I missed you,” Fighter said first.

    “Me too.”

    “So much.”

    “So much, same,” Tutor replied. With that, the older one gave a fiery kiss, their lips clashing passionately after weeks apart. Beyond the longing poured into it, there was something more, something deeper. “Mmph, stop for a sec.”

    Tutor pushed against Fighter, who was trailing kisses along his pulse points, from his lips down to his neck. A sharp sting flared where Fighter lightly nipped the crook of his neck, but it didn’t stop him. He continued kissing across Tutor’s chest, up to his ear, a hoarse whisper echoing as if to emphasize he wanted more.

    “Phii Fai, uh, stop for a sec.”

    “Why?” Fighter asked, his lips still trailing messy kisses. His large hand, about to slip under the shirt, was rubbing gently as he pleased, but Tutor grabbed it first. He shot a stern look at the taller guy, as if to say, Enough already. Seeing this, Fighter could only pout cutely, like he was pleading. “I miss you.”

    “Miss me? Can you wait a bit? I want to talk first.”

    “Can’t we kiss first and talk later?”

    “No.”

    “So harsh.”

    “Phii Fai,” Tutor’s tone turned serious, making Fighter playfully nip at the younger’s lower lip in mock frustration.

    “Alright, fine, I give in,” Fighter said, running a hand through his dark hair and sitting up properly. He looked at the person in front of him, who also sat up.

    As Tutor sat there, his features reflected in Fighter’s eyes. Fighter couldn’t deny how perfectly everything about Tutor suited him—those eyes, that nose, those red lips, even the stubborn expression glaring at him now. It was all like chains binding Fighter’s wrists, keeping him from ever breaking free.

    “Do you have something to tell me, Phii?”

    “You’re the one hiding something and not telling me, aren’t you?” Tutor, scolded, could only press his lips into a tight line. “Some things, you can’t just decide on your own, you know that, right, Tor?”

    “…”

    “One of those things is about my Dad.”

    “I just didn’t want you to fight with him.”

    “But by not telling me, it made things worse between me and him.”

    “Sorry.” The remorseful tone softened Fighter’s heart instantly, but today he had to be firm, to make things clear. He wanted Tutor to understand that talking things out could solve problems better than deciding alone.

    And the decision Tutor made was the wrong one.

    That’s why Fighter was upset.

    He was upset, but it never lasted long. One look at Tutor’s face, and his heart was already half-melted.

    “I know, Tor, that when you promise something, you’ll do everything to keep it. And I’ve always known how important family is to you. But when it comes to things involving me, you have to talk to me first, no matter what. No deciding on your own, got it?”

    “Got it,” Tutor nodded, guilt evident in his expression. “But how did you find out, Phii Fai?”

    “Zon told me.”

    “…”

    “And don’t go getting mad at your friend either. If they hadn’t told me, I’d never have heard this from you,” Fighter said, his voice tinged with anger again. Tutor couldn’t help but reach out, grab his senior’s hand, and squeeze it tightly.

    “Sorry.” It was a mix of wanting to apologize and wanting Fighter to know how guilty he felt.

    “Forget it.”

    “So… what did your dad say?”

    “He didn’t say much. In the end, I’m the one who chooses. He can’t control who I am or how I feel, Tor. My happiness is my choice,” Fighter said, recalling the earlier conversation with his father.

    Honestly, after finding out, Fighter had tried to talk to his dad repeatedly. But his father kept brushing him off, and with midterm exams happening at the same time, plus a pile of company work his dad dumped on him, he was too busy to have a proper, serious talk.

    Fighter was always ready to tackle the work his father threw at him, but he also wanted to sort out personal matters with him.

    He wanted to tell his dad that he couldn’t keep doing this. But it took a whole week before he could finally have that conversation.

    “Dad!! Why did you have to do this to me and Tutor?”

       “I just want what’s best for you, Fai.”

    “Tutor is one of the best things in my life. He fills a void in me that no one else ever has.”

    “But it’s not right, Fai.”

    “Who decides what’s right or wrong, Dad? Society’s standards? Your opinions? Because what I know is that I love Tutor, and that’s what’s right for me.”

    “Fai…”

    “You know how much I’ve done for you. Like when I talked to Hwahwa, I saw you liked her. I tried to please you by bringing her around often, introducing her, even though I didn’t realize back then that doing so was indirectly hurting everyone—

    Hwahwa, you, and me. Because in the end, even if I wasn’t sure about my feelings for Tutor, Hwahwa and I were never going to work out.”

    “If not her, then someone else. What about Nong Fang, the one you met?”

    “No one else, Dad. Just Tutor. I’ll give in to you on everything else, but not on this.”

    “Fai…”

    “I don’t expect you to understand me right now, Dad. But I believe one day you will—understand both of us.”

    “Fai!!!”

    “Tutor is a good person, Dad. If you got to know the real him, you’d love him like I do. I can wait, wait until you open your heart to us.”

      

    Their love right now wasn’t the perfect ending his father would accept. It might just be the beginning, facing its first hurdle. But at least Fighter believed that if he and Tutor held on tightly to each other, no matter what obstacles or problems came their way, they could overcome them together.

    And even if they couldn’t make it through, the fact that they held on so tightly would show they’d given it their all. They’d never regret it.

    “Is this okay, Fai?” Tutor asked, his face full of worry.

    “It’s the best, Tor. Trust me, in the end, Dad will love you like

    I do. It just takes time.”

    “…”

    “Why so quiet? Embarrassed because I said I love you just now?”

    “Not at all.”

    “But your face is red.”

    “That’s because I have a fever.”

    “Is that so?” A teasing glint appeared in Fighter’s eyes, paired with an infuriating smirk. He raised his hand, placed it on Tutor’s head, and gently ruffled it. “Promise me, if something happens again, you’ll tell me. Don’t make decisions on your own like this.”

    “…”

    “Promise me, your Phii.”

    “Okay, Tor promises.”

    “Good boy,” Fighter said, pressing a kiss to Tutor’s eyelid as if sealing the promise there. “But now, this good boy’s about to get punished.”

    “Phii Fai!”

    “You’re only allowed to call me that when you’re moaning my name.”

    “Phii, ugh… mmph.” A longing kiss slipped into Tutor’s mouth. He lost count of how many times they kissed, but each one felt like a connection that never faded.

    It wasn’t the happiest moment, but Tutor believed they’d get through it in the end. For now, just the two of them was enough.    Thud!

    A loud crash jolted someone on the bed awake. Fighter looked toward the dark shadow at the foot of the bed, only to see another person turn to him with an apologetic expression.

    “Sorry for waking you, Phii. I’m just hungry.”

    “Haha!”

    “Not funny, man. I’m starving, Phii Fai.”

    “Alright, alright, not funny then,” Fighter said, getting up to put on his shirt and walking over to Tutor. “Wanna go grab something to eat outside? We could borrow the hotel’s motorbike. It’s probably not too far.”

    “It’s two in the morning, Phii Fai. I’m too lazy to walk or ride. Let’s just eat the cup noodles for now. Want some? I’ll heat up another one for you.”

    “Nah.”

    “Don’t steal mine, okay?”

    “Yeah, yeah, I won’t,” Fighter said, placing his heavy hand on Tutor’s head and giving it a light push. He turned on the room’s lights before sitting on the couch to watch TV. Tutor, after pouring hot water into the cup noodles, came over and sat beside him.

    Neither of them spoke. They just watched a movie in silence while Tutor finished his noodles.

    “Headache gone yet?”

    “It’s gone,” Tutor said, setting the empty noodle cup on the table in front of them.

    “Let me check.” Fighter turned to face Tutor, reaching out to feel his forehead as if checking for a fever. “Still a bit warm.”

    “Not warm anymore.”

    “Arguing again?”

    “It’s true, though.”

    “No playing in the water tomorrow, Tor.”

    “…”

    “Don’t give me that look. I said rest, so you rest. Got it?”

    “You should rest too, Phii.”

    “Rest from what?” Fighter’s brows furrowed when Tutor told him to rest.

    “You know what I mean. Take a break, man. It’s been two days already. No more of ‘that’ tomorrow, okay?”

    “No way.”

    “Yes way. I’m not feeling well.”

    “Now you’re quick to use that excuse, huh, you stubborn brat,” Fighter said, playfully shoving Tutor’s head.

    “I’m not stubborn. And that promise you made about letting me be the top—remember that?”

    “Yeah, yeah.”

    “When do I get to be the top?”

    “How confident are you that you even know how?”

    “You sure?”

    Wait till I teach you so well you can’t forget. Then I’ll let you have your way,” Tutor smirked, looking amused. Honestly, Fighter didn’t mind if the kid wanted to take charge—after all, it was still love. No matter the form, as long as love came first, that was enough.

    But somehow, Fighter was over a hundred percent sure that when the time came, the kid wouldn’t stand a chance. Not when he had him so enchanted by every touch.

    “Tor.”

    “What?” The kid turned from the TV to look at him.

    “I’m so damn happy.”

    “Me too.”

    “A lot?”

    “A lot… the most.” Fighter smiled, resting his chin on Tutor’s shoulder.

    “Tutor.”

    “What now?” Tutor glanced at the big puppy clinging to him, reaching out to ruffle his hair roughly in mock annoyance.

    “I love you, Tor.”

    “I love you too.”

    “Damn, Phii Fai!” The smallest in the group, Zon, let out a shocked exclamation, eyes wide before he turned to shake

    Saifah’s arm vigorously. “Look, Phii Fai’s here!”

    “Yeah, I see him.”

    “So Zol’s novel was bullshit, huh?”

    “Why don’t you get Zol’s stories out of your head for once, Zon? You’re giving me a damn headache,” Saifah shook his head lightly at his boyfriend before looking up at Tutor and Fighter walking toward them.

    “Hey, Phii Fai,” both Saifah and Zon raised their hands to greet the oldest.

    “Yo.”

    “You showed up without telling us, Phii,” Zon said.

    “Got here in a rush, didn’t have time to say,” Fighter replied to

    Zon. “Thanks a lot for that thing, Zon.”

    “No need to thank me, Phii Fai. I’d been thinking for a while that I should tell you, even though Tor told me not to.”

    “Yeah, next time something like this happens, let me know right away, Zon. I don’t know if the stubborn kid around here will keep his own promises.”

    “I’ll keep them,” Tutor muttered.

    “Hope you mean it,” Fighter teased, playfully tweaking Tutor’s nose, making Saifah and Zon, who were sitting nearby, blush on their behalf.

    “We’re gonna grab some food. You guys want anything else, Zon?”

    Nah, we’re almost full,” Tutor nodded lightly, nudging Fighter to go get breakfast together.

    “Were you just blushing?”

    “What? Shut up, Phii Fai.”

    “Wanna make you blush more often.”

    “Quiet, Fai. I’m hungry,” Tutor shook his head and went to scoop up the food he wanted. Fighter didn’t tease further and went off to get his own breakfast.

    They ate together for a while before heading back to the room. Soon after, Zon came to drag them out for an island trip. It was a happiness that was reigniting after months.

       Laughter, smiles—everything filled a once-withered heart to the brim.

       This was true happiness.

       The joy of reconnecting with friendship, love, and Fighter.

       LOVE NEVER ENDS

        WHYARU : Fighter-Tutor CHAPTERS HOME

  • WHYARU, Chapter 24:

    WHYARU, Chapter 24:

       WHYARU, Chapter 24:

       “Are you full already?” the room’s owner asked, looking up at the person sitting across from him.

    “But you’ve only eaten a few bites, Tor.”

    “It’s bitter, Fai. I don’t want to eat anymore.”

    “Ten more bites.”

    The younger one fell silent.

    “Tutor.”

    “Five?” Tutor bargained, dropping from ten to five.

    “No way.”

    “Seven then?” Tutor pouted, his tone teasingly pleading, leaving Fighter flustered. It wasn’t the first time Tutor had acted like this with him, but this was the first time in weeks—since they hadn’t seen each other at all.

    God, he missed him so much.

    “Phii Fai.”

    “Alright.”

    “So, what’s the deal?”

    “Umm, seven it is, but a big glass, okay?”

    “Got it,” Tutor grumbled softly and started scooping porridge into his mouth again. Meanwhile, Fighter propped his chin on one hand, quietly watching the kid eat. He didn’t say anything, and the kid didn’t ask anything either—just sat there eating while Fighter watched, soaking in the sight of his face, which he hadn’t seen clearly in a month.

    Honestly, if he was being real, Fighter missed the old days. The times when they were together, cramming for exams. Back then, they hadn’t admitted their feelings—whether it was liking or loving each other—but those were good times, moments of learning and understanding each other more. Even if it wasn’t years’ worth of time, the memories of those warm feelings still overflowed.

    Those feelings never faded.

    Not even once.

    After finishing the meal, Fighter sent the sick kid to bed. He went to turn off the room’s lights, drew the blackout curtains, and returned to the small Japanese-style table to clear the porridge bowl for washing. But with every move, a pair of eyes followed him. In the end, he turned to look at the kid again.

    “Why aren’t you sleeping?” The one about to clear the bowl raised an eyebrow at the figure lying in bed, as if questioning. But instead of an answer, the kid just stayed silent, staring at him quietly. In the end, all Fighter could do was pull the white blanket up to the kid’s chest. “Go to sleep.”

    “But I can’t sleep.”

    “Want me to tell you a bedtime story or what?”

    “Not funny, Phii Fai.”

    “I wasn’t trying to be funny.”

    “…”

    “Stop making that face and rest already. Do you know your eye bags are so dark you look like a panda?”

    “I don’t look like one.”

    “You do.”

    “…” Tutor didn’t respond, just looked at him with a sulky expression.

    “What’s wrong?”

    “Nothing’s wrong.”

    “Trying to get something out of me, huh?”

    “I’m not.”

    “Then get some rest,” Fighter said again, urging the person in front of him to lie down. He ruffled the sick boy’s hair and was about to go back to clean up the porridge bowl.

    “Phii Fai,” a voice called out, accompanied by a small hand reaching to grab his.

    “Yes?”

    “Phii…” Tutor swallowed hard, unsure if it was the illness or the nervous excitement stirring inside him. “Can you… lie here with me for a bit?”

    “…”

    “But if you’re not okay with it… it’s fine,” Tutor added.

    A soft sigh escaped Fighter. Tutor couldn’t tell if it was because his senior was annoyed at his plea to stay close.

    “Tor.”

    “…”

    “Why would you think I’m not okay with it? Every single thing about you—I’m okay with all of it.”

    “But I…”

    “With this, I’m more than okay,” Fighter said, slipping under the same blanket as the younger one. The heat radiating from Tutor’s body hit his skin, making him feel like he might catch a fever himself.

    Their faces were mere inches apart, close enough that he could feel the other’s breath. The looks they exchanged carried emotions that made their hearts race faster and faster.

    Tutor’s hand lightly gripped his senior’s shirt. He licked his dry lips before pressing them together tightly.

    “Phii Fai.”

    “Yes?”

    “I…” Tutor didn’t know how to stop his voice from trembling. Perhaps the overwhelming longing in his heart was too much to contain. “I mean, I; Tor… I want you to kiss me.”

    “…”

    “Is that okay… mmph—” His last words were swallowed by the soft touch of a kiss. Their warm tongues met with a desperate yearning, their eyes locking time and again, revealing just how much they craved each other.

    Yes… it was a longing mixed with a yearning stronger than any other feeling they’d ever known.

    “Ugh… Phii Fai,” Tutor flinched slightly as Fighter’s cool lips brushed against his skin. Both of his hands rose to wrap around his senior’s neck, as if inviting more than just a kiss. But Fighter didn’t rush.

    He didn’t even push the younger one to go further than a kiss. Right now, all he did was follow his instinct to cherish and care for him.

    …though clumsy, it was gentle, as if afraid of hurting the person in front of him. In the end, Fighter pressed kisses to Tutor’s eyelids, temple, and lips.

    A long, lingering kiss on the lips before Fighter pulled back, his thumb gently brushing over the swollen, reddened lips in front of him.

    “You’re definitely gonna catch my fever,” Tutor mumbled.

    “Let it happen. When have I ever been scared?” Fighter replied.

    They locked eyes again, the overwhelming emotions too much to put into words.

    “Phii Fai,” Tutor called softly.

    “Yes?”

    “Can you give me more than a kiss?”

    “H… huh?” Fighter’s voice faltered at the inviting tone, swallowing hard. “Tor…”

    “Phii Fai, Tor wants to do more than this.”

    “…”

    “More than a kiss… can you?” Those small eyes looked up at the larger man, thin lips bitten by white teeth as if pleading.

    Seeing Fighter hesitate, the sick man in front of him mustered his courage, leaning forward to press a kiss to the older man’s chin. His lips trailed down to Fighter’s neck, his ear, and back to his chin again.

    And in the end, it was Tutor who climbed onto Fighter’s lap.

    “Phii Fai,” he whispered.

    “…”

    “Make me yours.”

    The guilt of not wanting to take advantage of a sick person was cast aside as Tutor began moving his hips. Fighter shifted, guiding the man who had been on his lap to lie flat on the bed.

    “Phii…” A soft, breathless moan escaped, laced with sweat soaking their bodies. Small hands wrapped around Fighter’s neck, gripping tightly as they felt something building.

    Their eyes locked, as if afraid the other might vanish at any moment.

    Every moment, every second, was filled with longing, a tender sweetness they both craved. They gazed at each other as if silently confessing their love—a love they couldn’t voice.

    A love they couldn’t speak to keep the other from being trapped.

    Tutor couldn’t say it because of the promise he’d made to the father of the man before him, a promise that still echoed in his mind.

    This feeling was so painful, yet within that pain, there was still a trace of happiness.

    “Hic… Phii Fai.” The first time Fighter saw Tutor’s tears, he didn’t understand what they meant. Not until Tutor lifted his arms, wrapped them around his neck, and whispered something in his ear again.

    In that moment, as Tutor whispered, Fighter realized what it was.

    “I miss you, Phii …”

    “…”

    “I miss you… so much.”

    Fighter understood then that Tutor was hurting too.

    Tutor was in pain from the longing he felt for him, so much that his tears came with sobs. No matter how much Fighter tried to comfort him, in the end, he could only let Tutor’s tears flow until they ran dry.

    Even now, Fighter still didn’t understand why Tutor had asked him to let go back then. If Tutor was this heartbroken, what was the reason he walked away?

    What made Tutor decide to do that?

    The sunlight streaming into the room was bright enough to stir someone from their sleep, pulling them out of their dreams.

    Tutor squinted at the clock on the bedside table before closing his eyes again.

    Past noon already. This was the first time in weeks he’d slept so long, probably because his body, deprived of rest for so long, had finally given in without him realizing.

    Tutor dozed off for almost another hour before groggily sitting up. He rubbed his eyes lightly, then looked around the silent room. No one was there. Not even the shadow of yesterday’s guest remained. Fighter was gone, leaving only the crumpled bedsheets and a lingering warmth beside him. Tutor didn’t know where Phii Fai had gone—maybe he’d left for good, or maybe, a small part of him hoped, he’d just stepped out to grab something to eat.

    Deep down, Tutor still hoped Fighter would stay, even if just for one more day before letting go again.

    He admitted he was confused. Was it okay that things had turned out this way? In the end, he might have to rebuild those walls, no matter how cracked they already were.

    But another part of him didn’t want to build those walls again. His bloodied hands no longer had the strength to stack bricks or plaster cement. The pain was too much for both his hands and his heart to bear.

    Brrt, brrt.

    The phone on the bedside table vibrated softly. Tutor picked it up and saw a Line message from the person he’d been with last night. His heart raced again. He took a moment to brace himself before opening Fai’s message.

     

       Fighter: Tor 

     

          Fighter: I remember you wanted to go to the beach again. 

       Truth is, I’ve had tickets and a hotel booked for us for a while now.

       But I never got the chance to make it happen. This time, after the midterms, go with Zon and Saifah, okay?

       

       Fighter: I want you to have fun on this trip.

       Because it’s the gift I want to give you for my birthday.

       Even if I’m not there with you, I still want you to enjoy it.

       Have fun, alright?

       

       Fighter: And about what you asked of me, I promise I’ll stick to it, same as before. Don’t worry.

      

    Tutor finished reading Fighter’s message. He collapsed onto the bed, exhausted, setting his phone down beside him as if waiting for another LINE message to come through.

    But none came.

    Tutor closed his eyes. He let the tears flow freely, no longer holding them back, because in the end, he just had to accept it.

    Accept the choices he’d made from the start.

    Chose… to let Phii Fai let go.

    Chose… to let Phii Fai keep his promise.

    Even if it hurt in the end, he had to accept his own decisions and move forward… without that other person.

    The midterm exam season was almost over. Many faculties had finished, but some still had exams today, with tomorrow being the last day. During this exam season, many students pulled all-nighters just to keep up with their studies. Tutor was one of them, except he was also tutoring Day, Saifah, and other friends from his faculty.

    It was a tough time. Even though some things stirred up feelings and made him miss someone, he constantly reminded himself that studies came first. In the end, when he got through it, he felt glad every time he could set certain things aside and focus on others, even if not entirely.

    Since that day he was unwell, Tutor hadn’t seen Phii Fai at all. Maybe because most fourth-year students only had a few classes left, their schedules just didn’t align. As for Phii Fai, besides his other subjects, he had to take an extra fourth-year course. Tutor didn’t know how he was doing in this exam round or if the tutoring from before had sunk in at all.

    He felt both worried and missed him, wanting to see his face, but it seemed like nothing was going his way.

    In the end, he had to let it go. After all, it was Tutor himself who’d set the promise for Phii Fai. So it wasn’t wrong at all if he kept the promise he’d made.

    And the one hurting from their own actions just had to bear it and keep going.

    “Hey, Tor, where you headed after the exams?”

    “The library. I’m gonna print the journal I finished translating.”

    “So, you’re not doing your part-time job at the shop anymore?”

    “Yeah, it’s exam season, so I took a break from work.

    Planning to finish typing this up today to send to Phii Tum,” Day nodded in understanding. He looked at his friend and smiled.

    Honestly, Day felt a bit relieved seeing Tutor’s condition improve. It wasn’t a complete recovery, but Day could sense that Tutor was starting to accept certain things.

    Even though Tutor still had moments of sadness, it seemed like he was coming to terms with the consequences of his actions. Day didn’t know how much his friend blamed himself or how much it hurt him to be in this situation.

    But seeing Tutor act like someone trying to move forward, Day didn’t want to pry too much.

    “Alright, I’m off then. Got a date with Hwa to catch a movie. See ya, Tor, Saifah.”

    “Yeah, see you,” Tutor nodded lightly, waving goodbye to his friend as he left. “What about you, Saifah? Where you headed?”

    “I’ve got one more exam. After that, I’ll probably meet up with Zon.”

    “Oh, right. I actually have something to talk about with you and Zon.”

    “Can we talk this evening? I gotta rush to another building for the exam. I’ll let Zon know too.”

    “Okay, cool. Good luck with the exam!”

    “Thanks, man,” Saifah said before hurrying off to the other building. Meanwhile, Tutor strolled leisurely to the library. He sat down to work on translating documents for Phii Tum, taking a break halfway through to rest his eyes by looking into the distance.

    What he saw was Zon walking into the bathroom, looking flustered, as if something was bothering him. Tutor wasn’t sure what was wrong, but it seemed concerning, and he couldn’t help but wonder.

    In the end, he got up from his seat and followed Zon into the bathroom.

    “Zon.”

    “Whoa!” The smaller guy’s startled voice echoed. “You scared the hell out of me, sneaking up like that!”

    “Wasn’t my calling you just now loud enough?”

    “Yeah, yeah, fine, it was loud. So, what’s up? Why’d you follow me? Or are you just here to use the bathroom?”

    “I followed you, actually. Got something to talk about.”

    “What’s that?”

    “It’s a long story. Let’s talk this evening. By the way, are you free?”

    “Yeah, I’m free,” Zon nodded. “But, uh, you and Phii Fai…”

    “…”

    “Alright, whatever. Let’s meet up tonight instead,” Zon said, giving Tutor a light pat on the shoulder before walking out of the bathroom with an odd demeanor. Tutor watched, curious, but ultimately decided to let it go. If Zon wanted to talk, he’d probably open up on his own.

    Or so he thought.

        

       5:45 PM

       “Want to order anything else, Tor?” Zon asked.

    “Nah, I’ll just have the same as you,” Tutor replied.

    “Cool, we’ll go with this then,” Zon said, handing the menu back to the waiter before turning to Tutor again. “So, got anything to talk about?”

    “Well, Phii Fai sent me plane tickets and accommodation for Krabi. He wants us to go on a trip together.” Normally, Tutor would’ve turned down something like this, but this time he agreed—maybe because deep down, he still hoped to see Phii Fai there.

    “What’s the occasion?” Zon asked.

    “His birthday.”

    “So, he’s coming with us too, right?”

    “I don’t know,” Tutor admitted. After he spoke, Zon and Saifah exchanged glances, both sensing something off. Zon couldn’t help but think of what his younger sister, Zol, had said.

     

       It’s not like when I deleted my novel, your story disappeared too.

     

       Come on, Zol, this is real life, not some fantasy.

     

       I know, but honestly, I’m kinda bummed. Everyone loved the ending of my novel.

     

       How’d it end?

     

       Well, one couple got their happy ending, but the other didn’t.

     

       Which couple got the happy ending, and which one didn’t?

     

       You don’t wanna know, Phii Zon. Because if one couple gets their happy ending, the other has to lose out.

     

    Could it really be like Zol said?

    Zon looked at Tutor with concern, unsure if he was overthinking things. But with all the chaos in his life, too many parts of it lined up with Sol’s novel.

    “Why’re you looking at me like that, Zon?” Tutor asked.

    “Oh, nothing. I just remembered—when Phii Fai asked for my personal info, it must’ve been to buy these plane tickets.”

    “Did he call you too, Zon?”

    “Yeah,” Zon answered Tutor, then glanced at Saifah sitting beside him, as if asking whether he should share certain details. When Saifah shook his head, Zon let out a soft sigh. He understood that telling Tutor that Phii Fai already knew about that would only make him more anxious.

    From what Zon knew about Tutor, the guy valued family above all else. If Phii Fai could get Tutor’s father to accept him, that’d be great.

    But if not… they’d just have to let it go.

    “Did he say anything about me?” Tutor asked.

    “Not much,” Zon replied.

    “Is that so?” Tutor’s voice was so faint it made the person across from him feel guilty. “So, are you and Saifah going?”

    “We’re going. But the thing is, Phii Fai’s not gonna come after me and Saifah for the money later, right?”

    “Nah, if he’s giving it, it’s for real.”

    “Alright, we’re in then.”

    “Free stuff, and you’re quick to jump,” Saifah teased, giving Zon’s head a playful shove.

    “Free stuff, and you’re quick to jump,” Saifah teased, shoving Zon’s head lightly.

    “I’m not! I’m just worried about our friend. I want Tor to get some rest.”

    “Everyone’s here, right?”

    “Yeah,” Zon grinned at Saifah with a cute expression, prompting the taller guy to ruffle his hair. Tutor smiled at the scene before letting out a soft sigh, which made the two who were just teasing each other feel a pang of guilt.

    “But who knows, Tor, maybe Phii Fai will show up,” Saifah said.

    “How could that happen, Saifah? Zol said it already—if one couple gets their happy ending, the other one’s bound to be disappointed.”

    “Stop mixing novels with real life, Zon.”

    “It’s true, man! You and me, Tor and Phii Fai—it’s just like what Zol writes. Since we got our happy ending, the one that’s disappointed is probably…” Zon was about to continue, but Saifah shot him a stern look and nodded toward Tutor. In the end, Zon chose to stay quiet.

    “Your order’s here,” the waiter arrived just in time to break the awkward atmosphere. Zon handed Tutor his food before sorting out his own order. The laughter and playful teasing from Saifah and Zon brought a faint smile to Tutor’s face.

    Even if the sight of the two in front of him overlapped with the longing he felt for Phii Fai.

       If one couple gets their happy ending, does that mean the other has to be disappointed?

       Maybe, just maybe, what Zon said was true.

       Because he might really have fallen into one of Zol’s novels.

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