Author: joell55

  • NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 2 part 2

    NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 2 part 2

     

    “You too, Skater, acting like you won’t have any issues.”

    (Less than the two of you, I know you’ll apologize, but you don’t have to. Just apologize to Kyu, me and Nao don’t need it. Especially Nao, no need, he seems totally fine, I’m confused.)

       “But Kyu doesn’t accept my apology, why? What’s wrong with everyone?”

    (It’s creepy, better to treat us to drinks instead.)

       “I’ve already said I’ve stopped, I’ve renounced the world.”

    (Alright, then I’ll go eat. Oh, and thank the person who broke up the fight for me.)

       “Yeah, I will do it.”

    (Kyu already told me. But can you tell me what happened?)

       “A senior I know.” (You answer like he’s a celebrity, come on, tell me, what’s his name or whatever?)

       “Why does it matter? Just someone I know.”

    (Okay, your senior is intense, huh? At the time, I was out of it, but I remember when he walked in, the whole bar went silent, like he was there to kill someone.)

       “You always exaggerate.”

    (Not exaggerating, but I think I’ve seen his face before. Is he a senior from our university?)

       “Yes, Phii Joe, second-year medical student.”

    (Oh, the famous one, Ter’s boyfriend’s friend.)

       “Yeah, you know him?” Skater, being someone who follows gossip, in simple terms, he’s nosy, knows about everyone. It wouldn’t be surprising if he knew Phii Joe as well.

    (He’s someone who keeps up with the news.)

       “He’s just nosy.”

    (Mouthy, but he really is famous. Well, I wish I got carried like that.)

       “Carried?”

    (Yeah, he carried you out of the pub, princess-style. Well, if not, why would I tease you like this?)

       “I hate you for that. And why carry me? He could’ve just dragged me, I wouldn’t have minded.”

    (Well, after he placed you on the table, you just sat there and fell asleep, so he had to carry you, I guess.) Why does it feel odd when he says ‘placed you’? Like I’m some object that was set down. Oh right, there’s also the issue of the debt. It’s not really something you’d want to talk about, but I thought it might be good to discuss it, though I wouldn’t ask them to help pay for it. After all, it’s all because of me.

    “Yeah, I have something to tell you guys too, but let’s wait until everyone’s here. Nao’s missing.”

    (Probably playing soccer.)

       “Soccer! I give up. What kind of person is he?”

    (The blood of a soccer player runs thick, you’ve got to understand. So let’s meet at the dorm. It’s been a while since I’ve seen Ter too.)

       “Miss him?”

    (A lot, he is my side chick, pfft! His boyfriend would have my blood for breakfast. Don’t tease me so much, I feel like I’m getting closer to death every day.)

       “We’re just joking, but I secretly want you to get caught too.” I like to tease Skater about Ter because, back when we didn’t know each other well, Skater said my roommate, meaning Ter, was quite cute. Not that he liked him, just that he found him cute. When I told him Ter was dating Phii Hill, he turned pale. So I like to tease him about it often.

    (Please, North, you’re getting it all wrong. If Phii Hill hears about this, you’re dead.)

       “Alright, I’m hanging up now, see you later.”

    (Sure, see you.)

       “How did it go?” asked Ter.

    “Phii Joe came to sort things out, just as expected. As soon as Phii Joe stepped in to calm things down, the fight really did end.” I replied. “That’s good then. I told you, if it wasn’t for Phii Joe, things wouldn’t have been settled so smoothly. And don’t forget to add him on Line and his Facebook, here, Phii Hill sent it.”

    “Got it.” I agreed easily, adding him as instructed. As a debtor, I shouldn’t make a fuss, right? T^T

    “Phii Joe is kind of strange.” Ter suddenly said.

    “Your boyfriend is even stranger.” I teased. From my perspective, Phii Hill really was strange. He seems hard to approach, yet approachable in some way, though I’m not sure how.

    “He’s strange, but in a different way.”

    “How so?”

    “Sometimes Phii Joe seems approachable. I’ve seen him joking around with Phii Hill, but there are moments when he looks scary. Phii Hill says Phii Joe gets angry easily, and he doesn’t want to mess with him when he’s mad. Look, this morning when they were in the room together, they hardly spoke at all.”

    “Yeah, he seems to talk little.”

    “He was probably angry.”

    “But Phii Hill talks little whether he’s angry or not.”

    “That’s normal.” Said Ter, slightly furrowing his brows. I made a face at him. How many times do I have to tell you that he only talks to you?

    “So, what’s he like then?” I asked.

    “Interested?”

    “Well, I should know my creditor, right? Might end up in debt for life. Not that I can’t pay him back, bastard.”

    “I don’t really know, he’s talkable, he talks normally, just don’t make him angry as Phii Hill says.”

    “And how am I supposed to know what not to do to make him angry?” “I don’t know. You ask like I know everything.” Ter exclaimed, “Like I said, he has aspects I don’t understand. Friends like Phii Hill, Phii Fah, Phii Arthit know when to mess with him and when not to. What do they call it again? Having depth, too deep to fathom.”

    “I still don’t get it, so basically, he’s someone who gets angry easily, right?”

    “Um, probably. I’ll ask Phii Hill for you, and have you added him on LINE yet?”

    “I’ve added him, but he hasn’t accepted it.” I said.

    “Let me see, wow, that’s cool, the black and white tone really suits Phii Joe.” Ter commented on the black and white profile picture where his face wasn’t too clear, “Send him a message.”

    “Shouldn’t we wait for him to accept my friend request first?”

    “Will he even accept you? And that profile picture is so childish.” Ter said. Childish? It’s cute. I use a picture of a silly duck as my profile picture because I really love that stuffed animal. It’s now sitting on my headboard.

    “You really don’t get the charm of the silly duck.” I said, deciding to wait for him to accept before messaging. Even though I don’t fully understand Phii Joe’s personality from what Ter has told me, I thought it wouldn’t be an issue.

    After a while, the notification sound from my phone went off.

    Johan has accepted your friend request.

    Ah, he accepted it.

    Ding!

    Johan: Who?

       Johan: That profile picture looks like a heel.

       I’m so sorry, T^T

    North: North here, T^T

       I quickly replied to the message and went to change my profile picture. Why does he have to be so harsh? No one has ever criticized my duck so harshly, T^T, this is my beloved duck!

    North: Thank you again, khrap. My friends also asked me to thank you.

       Johan: Um

       Johan: And here I am, suddenly out of hundreds of thousands.

       North: Yes. I might be a bit slow in paying you back, khrap. I don’t have much money.

       Johan: I’ll charge interest.

       North: Can it be 2 percent, please?

       Johan: …?

       North: …

       Johan: Ha, interest is calculated monthly.

       North: I don’t even have the means to pay the principal yet.

       Johan: That’s your problem.

       Oh…please, T^T

    North: Can it be 3 percent? Otherwise, the interest will be nearly ten thousand.

       Johan: That’s high.

       North: Please.

       Phii Joe read the message but didn’t reply. I guess negotiation is out of the question. With a debt of almost two hundred thousand, at 5 percent interest compounded monthly, my debt will increase by ten thousand every month…

    Wow, suddenly I feel like crying…T^T

    “Ter, comfort me, Phii Joe, he’s squeezing me dry, he’s so harsh, such a ruthless creditor.” I went over to complain to Ter who was playing games at his desk.

    “Why?” Ter took off his headphones and turned to me. “He’s charging 5 percent interest.”

    “That’s better than 20 percent. I thought he started with 20 percent.”

    “Bastard, am I dealing with loan sharks or what?”

    “Generally, it’s 6 or 8 percent, 5 percent is good enough.” Ter said, looking completely unbothered.

    “I asked for 2 percent at first.”

    “You’ve got some nerve.”

    “Hey, don’t be too harsh, I’m sensitive right now.”

    “Come on, you usually make quite a bit each month from work.”

    “It’s not even up to ten thousand, and I can’t afford the interest, let alone food, rent, and other expenses.”

    “Right, let’s try talking again later.”

    “He seems hard to talk to somehow, he should be kind like Phii Hill.”

    “Don’t connect them like that.”

    “Ha, you’re really jealous, aren’t you?” I teased a bit and got a sigh from Ter, “I’ll think of some good words to plead with him again later. Let’s go eat, I’ve got to go to work soon.” I said. I’ve been working part-time since high school, and even after getting into university, I’ve continued. Ter works too, at a Japanese restaurant, some evenings to late at night.

    Considering my studies, I do study hard, but I think I can manage if I take on more work, especially now with all this debt, T^T.

    “Can you really work in this condition?”

    “I’m fine, the injuries aren’t that bad.”

    “And you’re not dizzy or anything? You drank a lot.”

    “Yeah, my head hurts, I’m a bit dizzy, but I don’t want to miss work. Sister Ya would kill me.”

    “Okay.” Ter said as he got up from the table to put on his shoes, “Aren’t you taking your phone?” He asked after noticing I left it charging at the bedside.

    “Nah, it’s expensive, I’m not used to it yet, don’t want to lose it.”

    “Ugh, you’re such a worry. Alright, let’s go.”

    “By the way, I meant to tell you but forgot, when Phii Hill came to pick me up at the shop that day, after we talked, I whined about wanting to work, and Phii Hill sighed and called Phii Joe.” Ter shared.

    “Why would he do that?” I raised my eyebrows in curiosity.

    “Exactly, I was puzzled too. They talked about something for a while, and after that, Phii Hill didn’t really fuss about me working anymore, just said he was worried about this and that.”

    “Yeah, and after that, he’s been picking us up and dropping us off. If he could, he’d probably come every day.” I teased with a bit of sarcasm. Since then, Phii Hill often picks us up and drops us off at the shop, and when we finish, he comes to pick us up. I’ve really benefited from this. Some days, if he’s free, he almost stays to watch over us, “It’s good that Phii Hill comes, Sister Ya loves it, him staying over brings in more customers, but she says she feels bad so she doesn’t want to disturb us often.”

    “Don’t want that, people stare at Phii Hill a lot.”

    “Jealous?”

    “Yes.”

    “Alright, you used to say you didn’t like him, and now I feel like slapping you around the world.” I teased again, only to get a hard slap on the arm from Ter, “You blush so violently.”

    “Shut up, or I’ll wish you to fall down the stairs and break your neck.”

    “Look at you, getting all aggressive when embarrassed, what kind of person are you?” After dinner, we headed out for our part-time jobs. We got scolded by our boss, Phii Ya, for the fighting incident, but in the end, I was allowed to work as usual.

    21:32 PM

       ‘Johan: (New Notification (2))’

       Johan: I won’t charge interest.

       Johan: Will you do everything I say?

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  • NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 2 part 1

    NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 2 part 1

     

    Chapter 2: Duck’s Cuteness

       ‘Jaja: (New Notification (120))’

       I wasn’t too surprised that Jaja had messaged me. After all, just yesterday, I had an altercation with her boyfriend, but this flood of messages was unprecedented for me.

    I opened the messages without much thought. Even if she was scolding or lecturing me, it wouldn’t affect me as much as the debt amounting to hundreds of thousands, right?

    Jaja: North!!!

       Jaja: Why haven’t you replied to me at all? Last night you read my messages and then disappeared again.

       Jaja: Temp told me everything.

       Jaja: You’re still as hot-headed as ever, and you told me you could take care of yourself.

       Jaja: Temp said you suddenly picked a fight. I’m half believing, half doubting. I want to hear it from you. What really happened? You’re hotheaded, but I believe you have your reasons.

       Jaja: Please tell me your side of the story.

       Jaja: Oh, and who was the person that came for you last night? Temp said it was his senior from the faculty, and Temp didn’t continue the fight out of respect for his senior. Jaja: I’m waiting for you. I’m worried, we’re still friends, right? Jaja: Don’t ignore me, please reply. Jaja: I’m waiting for your response. Jaja: I’m waiting…

       Jaja: sends sticker

       Jaja’s messages were numerous. I skimmed through them; most were just a string of stickers. We haven’t really talked much since we broke up, and seeing those old pronouns we used to use, which she liked to refer to her in the cutest way and ‘you’, I didn’t like it. We’ve broken up, why talk like before? I’m not sure if she’s genuinely worried or what, but the constant emphasis on being friends just irritates me.

    North: …

       I typed out dots because I didn’t know what to say, sneaking my phone away from Ter, who would definitely be annoyed if he knew I was chatting with my ex.

    Jaja: Yay, you replied. How are you?

       North: Just fine, nothing special.

       Jaja: Good to hear. Can you tell me what happened…last night?

       North: What did Temp say? It’s just as he said.

       It’s not that I don’t want to explain, but I’m just too lazy to talk much. If I told her the real reason was because I saw Temp with someone else, she might not believe me anyway. Temp seems like such a good guy in front of others. Right now, I’m just too lazy, thinking about other things, including homework and what happened yesterday.

    Jaja: That can’t be true. You just saw Temp out with friends and went to start a fight?

       Jaja: That’s not like you. I know how you are, tell me.

       Jaja: Is Temp seeing someone else? North: You know? Jaja: No, I guessed. Was I right? North: Ask North, he’ll tell you the truth, believe me. Damn…I accidentally used my own name instead of just saying ‘I’.

    Jaja: I don’t know. I’m confused. I really don’t know, honestly, I’m a bit scared. I just agreed to date Temp. If what you’re saying is true, I don’t think I could handle it.

       North: Maybe I just misunderstood. I was really drunk at that time.

       Jaja: TT

       North: Don’t cry.

       Jaja: Ugh, sob sob

       North: So, what about Temp?

       Jaja: He’s pretty bruised up, and so are his friends. They said you hit really hard, haha. Everyone was scared of the guy who came to pick you up. Who was he, by the way?

       North: A senior I know.

       Well…Can I really say I know him?

    Jaja: Oh, a medical faculty senior, right?

       North: Yeah, yeah.

       Jaja: Temp said he probably won’t dare show up at the faculty for a while. That senior is quite famous, even among his friends. Do you have any connections these days? Haha.

    North: No, just a friend of my friend’s boyfriend, that’s how we know each other.

       Jaja: Oh, okay. I gotta go now, I need to check on Temp. Let’s talk again soon.

       North: Sure. Jaja: Can we talk? Just as friends, talking to you makes me feel a lot better. North: …I don’t know, I’ll reply when I’m free. Jaja: Okay, bye then. “North.”

    “Hey, you scared me!” I jumped at Ter’s voice who had somehow snuck up behind me. When I realized he had seen me chatting with Jaja, I quickly hid my phone.

    “I saw that.”

    “Saw what?”

    “Jealousy.”

    “Ter, that’s creepy.” I said, giving him an annoyed look.

    “Why are you talking to Jaja?”

    “Am I being interrogated here?”

    “Yeah, didn’t you say you weren’t going to talk to her anymore?” Ter said, looking at me with a slight hint of displeasure.

    “She texted me, we talked about me going after her boyfriend.”

    “And then what? Swear to me you won’t waver.”

    I didn’t respond.

    “Here you go, and you’ll drink again, I’ll smack you.”

    “I’m done with that.” I said before letting out a deep sigh, thinking about the problems I’m facing now made everything else seem trivial, “But I don’t get her. She acts like nothing happened, like leaving me was just a small thing.”

    “Well, she feels comfortable talking to you like friends.” Ter emphasized. Ter and I have often listened to each other’s problems. We always talk things out. Jaja keeps texting, trying to talk like we’re just friends, saying that talking to me makes her feel at ease. How can she not be troubled? We’ve been together for so long.

    The problem is, I’m still the one who’s emotionally weak and easily swayed.

    “But you promised me you wouldn’t go back to her, and one day, when you’re strong enough, you need to stop talking to her.” Ter said. “Yes, sir.” I nodded in agreement.

    “I don’t want to see you like this anymore. Do you want me to remind you how disastrous last night was?”

    “No need, sigh, it’s stressful just thinking about it.” I said, flopping back onto the bed again, “But at least it’s someone you know, your boyfriend’s friend, so we can talk. If I had debts with the mafia, yakuza, or a bank, it would be even more stressful.”

    “Yeah, I’ll ask Phii Hill to keep talking to him for now, at least you won’t be rushed to pay.” Ter said before lying down on the bed next to me.

    “Thanks, man.” The other guy looked slightly surprised when I suddenly said that.

    “For what?”

    “For worrying about me. What happened made me realize a lot of things.” I said softly, “At least I now know I’m not as strong as I thought, I’m not someone who can just take care of themselves. Still like a hot-headed, impulsive kid.”

    “You’re just realizing this now?”

    “I’m having a moment.”

    “Don’t thank me. Everyone has their rough patches in life, I’m no different. You’re actually stronger than you think, you know that? Don’t overthink it, things will get better, isn’t that what you told me?”

    “Damn you, I feel like crying now.” I said, making a face like I was about to cry at him.

    “Make that ugly crying face.”

    “Hey, you said you were going to cry, be gentle, will you?”

    “Don’t cry, you look terrible when you do. Call Kyu, you’ve been told to call him for ages. Don’t sneak off to chat with Jaja.” “Yes, Dad.” I said in a drawn-out, annoyed tone. Honestly, I had more to say to Ter, but I knew he wouldn’t want to listen. We’re both embarrassed, I guess. I immediately called Kyu without checking the messages he had sent earlier.

    (Hey, you good now? Recovered?)

       “You call me cutely, huh? Yeah, I’ve recovered. Got all thirty-two bruises, split lip, split eyebrow, a bit battered, it hurts but it’s bearable.” I preempted it because I knew Kyu would ask. “What about you, and the others?”

    (I’m bruised, and got a small cut on my lip.)

       “What do you mean by ‘small’?”

    (Just a small one, not much. Your punch wasn’t hard enough, sorry about that.)

       “Wow, not enough? Want another?”

    (No more. Good thing it’s the break, going to class like this would make all the girls run away.) It was the break after the first semester ended, but I’m not sure if you could even call it a break because it’s just a few days.

    (Skater’s pretty beaten up, Duennao was way too cool, barely got hit at all. At first, I thought we’d all get more hurt, but since both sides were drunk, it looked like a big fight, but there were more misses than hits.)

       “So, how did last night go? I can’t remember much, Ter said you called him.”

    (Yeah, you told me to call him, but he said he couldn’t come out because of the storm. He only has his motorbike, so Ter said he’d handle it. I thought his boyfriend would come, but…)

       “But?”

    (Someone else came, I was totally confused. Suddenly this person walks into the bar and drags you away from frolicking with Temp.)

       “Frolicking? That’s creepy, don’t use that word.” (Alright, alright, what word should I use then? Whatever, I can’t think of one. He just pulled you guys apart. Temp was yelling about some nonsense, and he was about to punch you again.)

       “…”

    (The guy grabbed Temp by the collar, with one hand too, it was such a cool scene, I tell you. Then he pushed Temp away, and Temp stumbled and fell to the ground.)

       “…”

    (It was really scary. Is he part of the mafia or something? By the way, who was he? Forgot to ask.)

       “Just a senior I know, go on.”

    (And then you were about to go after Temp again, right? I mean, Phii Joe, he held you back, told you that was enough. But you were still ranting, so he carried you over his shoulder. He then sets you down on another table.)

       “What? Carried over the shoulder?”

    (Yeah, because you were ranting. If it was me, I would’ve punched you in the gut.)

       “Harsh, huh? And then what?”

    (Once he managed to stop the main fight, the owner and others took that moment to stop the others from fighting. Our brawl ended naturally after that. Then he asked me if I could take the other two back, and I nodded. He told us to head back first.)

       “…”

    (I asked, ‘Oh, what about North?’ He said he’d take care of it. I figured it was probably Ter who asked him to take you.)

       “You…didn’t you worry about your friend? What if he was taking me to kill me?” (Yeah, I didn’t think of that at the moment. And then I saw him paying for the damages at the pub, plus the medical bills for Temp and his gang. They were demanding a lot, but they weren’t that hurt, yet he paid anyway. He even added more money for hush money, just to get it over with.)

       “How much is ‘just a little’?”

    I sighed inadvertently; it would’ve been great if Phii Joe could’ve negotiated a bit with them since ultimately, I’m the one paying, T^T.

    (Tens of thousands. Medical bills that high? I just found out. Did they stay in a special ward or what? Temp’s family is rich, so they probably wanted to get back at you. At first, he even said he’d report it and tell the university.)

       “Oh, the bastard. If he did that, he’d be in trouble too, right?”

    (But you started it. You’d be in more trouble. There’s CCTV footage too, and the cost to delete that footage was also quite a bit, I guess.)

       “Sigh, and then what? Was he going to tell?”

    (No, no, initially he said he wouldn’t take the hush money, but then Phii Joe said something to Temp, and Temp went pale and took the money quietly. From what I saw, I’d guess he won’t tell anyone now.)

       “Sigh, sorry, guys, for putting you through all this trouble and getting hurt because of me.”

    (Nah, we got involved on our own, you didn’t force us.)

       “But I was the one who started it.”

    (Yeah, but we got involved by choice. Nao was the first to jump in, saying they were going to gang up on you. Whether they actually would or not, I don’t know, but he just went and started punching, even quicker to get heated than you.)

       “Nao might have been confused, but anyway, sorry about that, and thanks. I won’t cause trouble again.”  (…)

       (Hey, Kyu, come listen to this)

       (What?) Kyu’s voice.

    (North says he won’t cause trouble anymore, be a witness.)

       “Bastard.” I said.

    (Really? Tell me something to cheer me up, North.)

       “Yeah, yeah, I’ll be cool-headed now. No more trouble. And I’ll cut down on the booze too, it’s not good, I won’t drink, I’ll try not to.”

    (I’m glad you’ve turned over a new leaf, but not completely happy though.) said Skater.

    “Why?”

    (Everyone else will still cause trouble. Look at Duennao, he said you were hot-headed, but he’s even worse. He hasn’t learned his lesson at all. You should remind your friends too.)

      

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  • NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 1 part 2

    NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 1 part 2

    “I’m really sorry. I didn’t mean to…um.”

    “Vomit?” Phii Joe said with a slight raise of his eyebrows.

    “Yes.” I bowed my head in genuine remorse.

    “It’s okay. Just pay for the damages.”

    “Pay?”

    “For the damages.” Phii Joe clarified, pointing to a piece of paper in my hand. I looked at it and then turned to Ter again, seeking a clearer explanation.

    “The list of things you broke. You have to pay for all of that.” Ter explained.

    “…”

    “Are you crazy? This is hundreds of thousands! What did I break to cause this much damage? It was just a little scuffle at the pub.” I exclaimed loudly. Normally, I wouldn’t make such a fuss, but the figures on the paper were way too much!

    “No, I was helping the housekeeper check the bill this morning. You really made a mess.” Ter said with a serious tone, looking grim, which made me feel grim too.

    “And what about this list of liquors? I don’t remember drinking that much.”

    “You didn’t drink them, but you broke the bottles, and they were expensive ones at that.”

    “How so?”

    “They were on someone else’s table, and I guess they were within your reach.” Phii Joe explained. That was all I needed to hear to understand how bad it was…

    “And what’s this ‘hush money’ for?”

    “To keep the staff and the people at the pub quiet. If the university finds out, you might not just get suspended, you could get expelled.” “And the medical expenses?”

    “Those guys are asking for a lot, plus there is this thing about the compensation for their shock.” Phii Joe answered, sounding exhausted, like he was scolding me, T^T.

    “And the clothes, why are they so expensive, in the tens of thousands?”

    “It’s for the shirt of Phii Joe that you threw up on.”

    “That’s insane. Wearing clothes worth tens of thousands.” I muttered to myself quietly so Phii Joe wouldn’t hear. And why does it have to be included in this? It’s just a shirt. I’ll buy him a new one, T^T.

    “For the fight you got into and the damage you caused at the pub, that’s under ‘other charges’.” Ter said, pointing to the last line. That ‘other charges’ part is pretty heavy too.

    “And why am I paying for it alone? They were fighting with me too!”

    “They’ve already paid.” Phii Joe said.

    Damn fate…Temp’s family must be rich…

       “And this, the vase, wine, and other stuff?”

    “You broke a lot of stuff in Phii Joe’s house. From vomiting on the floor, breaking expensive vases and various items, even the housekeeper couldn’t clean it all up. She said you probably got up looking for the bathroom at night, wandered around, and broke stuff along the way.”

    “…”

    “I even knocked over the wine display cabinet.”

    “Shit…”

    There was nothing else to say but ‘shit,’ really.

       I took a deep breath to regain my composure, wishing this was just a dream, but it was too real…Everything happened so fast. I wasn’t even prepared. Just went out to drink, got the drunkest I’ve ever been, had a small…no, quite a big scuffle, and now I wake up owing hundreds of thousands.

       I should’ve listened to Ter from the start not to drink too much.

       North, you idiot…

       Life’s gone to crap.

       When I glanced at the numbers on the paper again, I had to look away, almost too afraid to face the truth. Why were the numbers so large? Just thinking about having to pay that much sent chills down my spine.

       “Um…but you broke my phone too.” I said, remembering, thinking maybe I could knock a thousand or two off my debt…though, a thousand or two wouldn’t even make a dent in the number on the paper, T^T.

    Upon hearing that, Phii Joe tossed something in a bag towards me. I wasn’t quick enough to catch it, so I looked down at the bag that landed in my lap, confused.

    “That’s not included in the debt.” Phii Joe said. When I opened it, I found it was a new phone, still in its plastic wrapping.

    So, you bought a new one because you’re saying a phone isn’t a big deal, right?

    “You could just cover the repair costs.” I offered. Even if he did break it, buying a new one was too much; the cost to repair the old one would’ve been much less.

    “It’s cumbersome.” He said, showing a slight sign of annoyance.

    “Take it, it’s just this.” Phii Hill chimed in, probably because he noticed I was uncomfortable. His words made Ter and me exchange looks.

    Using the phrase, ‘just this’…

    You can’t call a phone worth tens of thousands ‘just this’…

    I fell silent for a moment, gathering my thoughts. I probably needed to tell Phii Joe straightforwardly that I really didn’t have that kind of money. Who would have that much? I’m just a student. No, even if I was working, that amount of money… Asking for the debt to be waived or reduced might not work; all this happened because of me, and Phii Joe is just covering the costs upfront. “Can I pay in installments, like a thousand a week…?”

    “You can, but with interest.”

    !!!

    “How…how much?”

    “It’s not that high…I guess.” Phii Joe said, pausing to think, “Twenty percent…?”

    “No way!” I interrupted before he could finish. That’s insane! Twenty percent interest! Are you some kind of loan shark?

       Phii Joe gave a slight smirk, seemingly pleased by my outburst. Is he in the mood for games at a time like this?

    “Then we’ll figure it out later.”

    “See ya.”

    “You are leaving already?” Phii Hill asked as the person sitting next to him stood up from the sofa.

    “Yeah, take care.” Phii Joe said as he left the room.

    What’s with him, leaving so suddenly…

    “You got homework, wanna head back?” Phii Hill asked.

    “Yes, let’s go back!” I nodded quickly, making Ter chuckle, “In such a hurry?”

    “I better hurry back. Who knows, maybe I’ll rack up more debt if I stay.”

    “Hahaha, poor guy, but it’s kind of funny, don’t make that sad face.”

    “Try waking up with debts in the hundreds of thousands like me.” I said with a pout, feeling rather annoyed before standing up with some effort. The hangover was still there, but not as bad as the body aches.

    “You’re still standing strong. When Kyu told me, I thought it would be worse.” Ter looked me over from head to toe, guessing I probably had a split lip, a bruised eyebrow, and some bruises. “Just a typical day, dude.” I said, raising an eyebrow at him, “By the way, whose clothes am I wearing?”

    I asked after checking myself out. Not asking about what happened to my old clothes, I was more concerned about whose new clothes I was wearing so I could return them properly.

    And I didn’t ask who helped me change clothes either.

    Ter mentioned that a housekeeper came to clean me up, which means it must have been her who changed my clothes…That’s embarrassing to think about; better not to dwell on it.

    “They are Phii Joe’s, so you can ask.”

    “Well, it might have been the butler’s clothes too, right? They’re expensive clothes, and he still lets me wear them.”

    “Good at being sarcastic, huh?”

    “Give me a break. I can’t do anything else anyway.” I said, and then the three of us left the room. This place isn’t just a house; it’s more like a mansion or a castle. I believe now that he’s very rich; those rumors weren’t exaggerated. I couldn’t look around for long before I had to focus on walking, or I’d risk falling over and damaging something else.

    Along the way, we encountered the house staff, and they all looked at me. I was so embarrassed I had to hide behind Ter, silently repeating to myself:

    “Just this.”

    “I’m sorry for causing trouble.” T^T.

    Phii Hill’s luxury car slowly drove us back to the dorm. After letting the couple say goodbye, Ter and I headed back to our room.

    “Oh, add Phii Joe on LINE too.” Said Ter after I flopped onto my bed, exhausted both physically and emotionally.

    “What?” “You’re his debtor now, don’t make a fuss.”

    “What’s that supposed to mean?” I grumbled slightly, picking up the new phone I had received, feeling out of my element with such an expensive device, not knowing what to do with it.

    “You don’t seem too stressed about it. I thought you’d cry, too bad.” Said Ter.

    “I’ve run out of tears, man, I’m empty now.” I said, “Sure, I’m stressed. Who wouldn’t be? But part of me still can’t believe it.”

    “I couldn’t believe it either. If I hadn’t seen the state of the living room downstairs at Phii Joe’s, oh, I’d think Godzilla had attacked.”

    “That bad?”

    “So bad. Do you usually go wild like this when you’re drunk?”

    “Not like this, maybe I was just really angry. Angrier than I’ve ever been.”

    “You get angry when you play games too.”

    “That’s different, Ter.” I sighed at him, “Seriously, I feel more guilty. He’s just fronting the money for me, it’s like I owe him…just a lot more than usual.”

    “So what are you going to do? It’s not a small amount.”

    “If your boyfriend’s friend decides not to charge interest, I’m thinking of paying a thousand a week.”

    “Bastard…”

    “Hey, I’m serious. My job could handle that.”

    “A thousand a week, until you graduate.” Ter shook his head slightly at my idea, “But if he just charges a little interest, it’s okay. You have to understand where he’s coming from, he works for his money, suddenly losing hundreds of thousands without getting anything back, it’s a big opportunity cost in business terms.”

    “Did Phii Hill tell you that?” I asked. No doubt about it. If Ter says something with such reasoning, Phii Hill must have taught him. “Yes. At first, he explained it at much greater length, but that’s what I remember. Otherwise, I’d have gone berserk about the interest on my friend’s debt.”

    “Yeah, yeah, I understand. Sigh, should I sell this phone? It’s worth tens of thousands at least, and these clothes too, they’re expensive.”

    “North, use the phone, he bought it for you. Just return the clothes.” Ter said.

    “Okay, okay, I know. Just kidding.” I was just joking anyway. Selling the phone he bought to pay him back would look bad, wouldn’t it? “But why did Phii Joe have to pick me up? This part is still unclear.”

    “I told you, I don’t know, but if I had to guess, it’s because Phii Joe is responsible, maybe?”

    I looked puzzled at Ter after he said ‘responsible’.

    “Like…I don’t know everything, ask Kyu. But if I had to guess, Phii Joe probably went to handle the brawl situation. Remember the medical and hush money? He probably sorted it all out. Don’t worry, if they had left you there, you’d have been expelled before you could even shift gears.”

    “Don’t curse me, but you’re right. Never had issues at university before, it’s more complicated than high school for sure.”

    “Have you learned your lesson?” Ter asked, his tone slightly mocking, or maybe I was just imagining it.

    “Absolutely, I’m not drinking again, damn it.” I said, lightly ruffling my hair.

    “Good. Call Nao and the others, they must be worried.” Ter suggested, reminding me I should check on them too. I quickly opened LINE, logged into my old ID.

    There were tons of new message notifications.

    But what’s most important is:

    ‘Jaja: (New Notification (120))’ When I opened it, Jaja sent even more messages. Or maybe this was the person Ter was talking about who was bombarding me with messages.

    Before Phii Joe threw my phone against the wall…

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  • NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 1 part 1

    NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 1 part 1

    Chapter 1: If I Didn’t Get Drunk

       I opened my eyes with great difficulty, swearing that I had never had such a terrible headache from drinking before. I clenched my teeth to suppress the pain shooting through, the first thing I saw was a blurry white ceiling.

    “Umm”

    Why do I feel so heavy?

    “North”

    Hmm?

    I turned towards the voice calling me.

    “Ter.” I called out to the owner of the voice. No matter how messed up I was, the first face I saw when I woke up was still Ter’s, “Ouch, fuck.”

    “Why would you try to get up? Don’t you see your own condition?” “I wasn’t trying to get up, just moving a bit, damn it, my whole body hurts.” Even though the wound at the corner of my mouth still hurt, I managed to grumble.

    “[Sigh]…looking at your state, I don’t even want to scold you, but just once. I don’t know where to start scolding you.” Ter furrowed his brows, looking stressed at me.

    “Save the scolding for later, thanks for picking up my corpse.” I said, not really remembering much, just that I was super drunk and got into it with Temp, then everything cut off.

    “I didn’t pick up your corpse, open your eyes properly.” Said Ter. I raised my eyebrows in surprise at his words, then scanned the room around me.

    This isn’t my room…

       “Confused, huh? I won’t tell you.” Said Ter before tossing a damp towel at my face, “I’m super annoyed with you, bastard.”

    “What are you annoyed about?”

    “Do I still need to tell you? I’ll kick you again then.” He said, pressing his thumb hard against the wound on the corner of my mouth, I mean, really hard!

    “Ouch, how can you do this, I’m already hurt, you know?” I protested, then turned to see Phii Hill sitting on the nearby sofa, looking as unconcerned as ever.

    “Hello, Phii Hill.” I greeted. Phii Hill gave a small smile in response.

    “But what’s going on here, is this Phii Hill’s room?” I asked, guessing it might be Phii Hill’s room since it was way too luxurious to be anything else.

    “No, it’s the room of the person who braved the storm to pick up your corpse last night.” Said Ter, letting out a small sigh as he placed another small towel back into the basin.

    His words made me even more curious.

    Someone braved the storm to come for me…?

       “What are you confused about now? Seeing your face ruins my mood, seeing your wounds makes it worse. I’ve never complained about you being drunk, but you went and picked a fight, North. I wanted you to get beaten up more so you’d learn your lesson. I’m worried about you, you know, damn it. Around 5 PM to midnight, Kyu called to say you were drunk and causing trouble at the bar. I couldn’t go because of the storm. You need to think a bit about what you’re doing. If something had happened to you…”

    “Ter…chill out.”

    I was at a loss when Ter suddenly scolded me fiercely. Plus, he looked like he was about to cry. I know Ter is very caring, he cares a lot about me. I remember, even if he’s busy, he never leaves me alone in the room because he knows I can’t manage on my own.

    “You…I hope Temp and his gang beat you up next time so you end up in the ICU. Maybe then your hot-headedness might cool down a bit.”

    “What do you hate about me, Ter?” I let out a deep sigh, “I’m sorry…I’ll be calmer next time.”

    “There won’t be a next time.” Ter said.

    “I’ll be calmer next time.” I argued back.

    “Yeah, you won’t dare drink so much again anyway, I’ve warned you.”

    “Why? And what’s the situation now, what happened, you can tell me, right?” I said, adjusting myself to lie more comfortably. The bed is really soft, by the way.

    “Last night, there was a storm coming, and it looked like it was going to rain since early evening, so I couldn’t pick you up.” Ter began to explain, “I went to stay with Phii Hill once it started raining. I called you, but you didn’t answer.”

    “Of course, if I’m not there, you go sleep with your boyfriend, huh?” I couldn’t help but tease, and the storyteller immediately looked annoyed.

    “Is this the time for that?” “Sorry, please continue.” “Kyu called me, told me to come get you, you passed out at the pub. He said you started the fight, suddenly went over and started punching. Both of you were drunk and hot-headed, only Kyu was somewhat sober but couldn’t carry you back.”

    “So how did I get back? Did I teleport like an animal?”

    “Phii Hill said he would handle it.” Ter said, glancing at Phii Hill, who said nothing in response, “In the morning, I asked Phii Hill to take me to you.”

    “In the morning? Is it still morning now?”

    “It’s almost four in the evening, man, you either slept or were knocked out, who knows.”

    “So, Phii Hill picked me up?” I furrowed my brows, asking again, not sure if Ter wasn’t clear or if I was still too drunk to understand.

    “No, it was Phii Hill’s friend.”

    “Oh?” I drew out the word, raising my eyebrows in complete surprise. How could it be Phii Hill’s friend? At first, I thought it was Phii Hill, which was strange enough.

    “Phii Jo, you remember him, right?” Said Ter, looking as surprised as I was.

    “Yeah, I remember that part, but why did he come to get me? And with my state…fuck, tell me I didn’t vomit on him.” Suddenly, a vague memory of last night came back, ohhh, thinking about it now makes me embarrassed, T^T

    “You emptied your stomach on him.”

    “Fuck…” I rubbed my face back and forth with my hands.

    “You don’t remember anything else?”

    “I remember a bit…but I thought I vomited so I didn’t think much of it.”

    “Bastard, what kind of mind would think like that?” Ter scolded me, raising his hand as if to press on my wound again, but I quickly stopped him. “Come on, I was just kidding.” I said, “But seriously, how did it go down? It must have been a hassle for him to bring me back. And I probably caused him more trouble.”

    “Yeah, he was pretty mad.” Said Ter, which made me feel even worse.

    “But why was it Phii Jo who came to get me?” I asked, but Ter probably didn’t know, so Phii Hill answered for him.

    “His condo is close to the bar.” Phii Hill explained.

    “But isn’t this Phii Jo’s house?” Ter countered, and then I realized, oh, we’re at Phii Joe’s house right now?

    “North was in pretty bad shape, so it was better to bring him here.” Phii Hill explained.

    “Yeah, this morning I saw the housekeeper wiping you down. If they had gone to the condo, Phii Jo would’ve had to look after you, so this was better.”

    That’s true…bringing me home was better than having him clean me up at his condo…

    Before I could ask more, Phii Hill’s phone rang. He excused himself to take the call and left the room, leaving me alone with Ter in a room that felt completely unfamiliar.

    “I don’t understand.” I said, because my head was full of questions. Besides the confusion, there was also the lingering effect of the alcohol. I could understand if it was just because his condo was close by, but if it were me, I wouldn’t go out in a storm to pick up someone I barely know who was drunk and causing trouble.

    “I was confused at first too when Phii Hill said he’d handle it. I didn’t expect him to call Phii Joe to pick you up. What confused me even more was that Phii Joe agreed. You know, last night, the storm was really bad.”

    “Um…so how did the night end exactly?”

    “That, I don’t know. You should ask Kyu.” “Where’s my phone?” I asked, silently praying that it was still intact. “Here you go.” Ter turned around to hand it to me.

    Yeah, it was still there…

    But not in a good state, huh…

    “Why…” I looked at my phone screen which was completely shattered. My heart sank; no money for a new one, and no funds for repairs either, “What happened?”

    “At first, it probably wasn’t this bad.”

    “Huh?”

    “Until Phii Joe threw it against the wall.”

    “Ha!?” I was left speechless for a moment, shocked by Ter’s response, “Phii Joe threw my phone!?”

    “Yeah, he said he did it because he was annoyed by someone spamming your phone with LINE texts. He was probably busy dealing with you throwing up at the time.”

    “Damn, is he that pissed at me? Why take it out on my phone? I don’t have money to fix this, man. This is too much, it won’t even turn on now.”

    “When Phii Hill found out about the phone, he didn’t say anything. At first, I thought he might have said something.”

    “You didn’t say anything either, did you?” I asked.

    “Well…I was kind of scared, you know. You too.” Ter replied with a sweet tone, giving me a pleading look.

    “Do you think that’s cute? I’m not Phii Hill, you don’t need to act cute.” I said with a slight jest, putting down the completely dead phone beside me. Honestly, I was really mad about someone throwing my phone like that. No matter how bad what I did was, couldn’t we just talk it out first?

    “By the way, where did Phii Joe go? Haven’t seen him yet.” I asked. “Heard he had some errands. Since the afternoon. He said he’d be back later. Oh…he asked me to keep an eye on you.”

    “Keep an eye on me?” I repeated.

    “Probably afraid you’d bolt.”

    “Bolt from what?” My question made Ter pause as if he’d just remembered something before he walked out of the room. He returned shortly, carrying a piece of paper.

    “Ah, remember when I said you wouldn’t dare drink so much again?” I took the paper to look at it, finding it was an incredibly long list that stretched all the way to the bottom of the page.

    I looked around the room, still puzzled, and just as I was about to speak, Ter…

    The room’s owner returned…

       Phii Joe opened the door, walked in without saying a word, and sat down on the sofa behind where Ter was, where Phii Hill had been sitting earlier. Soon after, Phii Hill also came back into the room and sat down in his previous spot.

    Phii Joe turned to meet my gaze, his eyes revealing no emotion. I had initially thought he’d be in a bad mood, but honestly, I don’t really know him well. I’ve only met him when he came to pick up Ter at the dorm.

    And then the room fell silent…

       It seemed like only Ter and I felt uncomfortable. Your boyfriend is sitting right behind you, so why are you uncomfortable? It’s the likes of me, who isn’t close and caused the trouble, that should be feeling this way.

       I looked at Ter with a gaze that was asking for help.

       Why isn’t anyone saying anything? Like, “Oh, you’re awake, how are you feeling?” Or even scold me about last night. Why the silence? Or should I be the one to speak first?

       “Um…I mean, I’m sorry.” I finally said in a low voice. “…” Phii Joe looked at me, as if waiting for me to continue. “Sorry for last night, and thank you.” I added.

    “Hmm.”

    Suddenly, he seemed to be in a worse mood…

     

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  • NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 0 part 2

    NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 0 part 2

    “Well, his partner is hot, anyone would want to be with them.” Skater sighed slightly. My friends had started to get close to Ter, so they also knew his partner.

    “Yeah, I don’t know if I’m jealous or just happy for him. Since Ter started dating Phii Hill, I’ve benefited a lot, he brings rice, snacks, and other stuff. Not only has Ter put on weight, but I’ve also gained some extra stuff in the room, even started paying for the electricity and water bills recently.”

    “Good-looking, good-hearted every year. I wish I could get some of that good karma. Even now, I’m still arguing with Kyu about splitting the electricity bill.” Skater said, since he’s roommates with Kyu.

    “Let’s split it then.” I suggested.

    “How can we split it when he uses more than me?”

    We were just chatting and clinking glasses, not really making much sense, our necks starting to droop, our eyes half-closed. “North, I think I remember, what was that Temp’s name again?” Skater said in a tipsy voice, “Doesn’t he look like the guy you showed us in a photo?” pointing in another direction. I turned to look.

    Oh…

    That’s right.

    “Damn, I was just praying we wouldn’t run into each other, and who’s that sitting next to him? That is not Ja!” Duennao said. I took another careful look.

    “Bastard! North, where are you going?”

    I stood up abruptly before my brain could process any further, ignoring any calls from my friends, and staggered slightly towards the person who had once promised to take the best care of my girlfriend.

    And now he was breaking that promise!

    “What the hell are you doing?” I asked, my voice harsh, which caused the people who were laughing at the table to fall silent and look at me in unison. Temp looked surprised to see me, before slowly releasing his embrace from the woman.

    “North?” Temp stood up and called my name.

    “I’m asking what the hell you’re doing!!” I didn’t need to wait for an answer. I clenched my fist tight and slammed it into his face with all my might; Temp fell with a scream and a murmur from the crowd around us.

    I admit I’m not really the calm type.

    And being this drunk doesn’t help either.

    No doubt about it, I couldn’t control myself now.

    I grabbed the shirt collar of the one who had fallen, the other party staring back at me without a hint of fear, a mocking smile playing at the corner of his bloody mouth.

    “You hate me that much, huh? Why? Because you lost and now you’re taking it out on me?” “Damn you, Mr-Temp!”

    “North!” A shout came from behind.

    “You don’t need to stop me, go home.” I said without looking back, recognizing the voice as Duennao’s. Temp took the chance to land a counter punch. Normally, I would have dodged, but not when I’m out of my mind like this; I staggered a bit before wiping the blood from the corner of my mouth.

    “Who said I’m stopping you?!”

    “Damn, Nao. Why did you punch him?!” Kyu’s voice.

    “He was about to gang up on my friend!”

    “You guys are all messed up, drunk like this. Hey, I’m not involved, don’t start trouble with me, okay? I don’t want to get hurt, you animals!”

    The small bar erupted into chaos. I didn’t stop hitting him, and he didn’t stop either. We didn’t care about the people trying to intervene or the situation around us, only knowing that Duennao stepped in to help against Temp’s friends who were about to jump me, along with Skater, and even Kyu, who didn’t like trouble but got caught in the crossfire.

    Then everything cuts to black, I don’t know when…

    “Umm.” I clenched my jaw tight, feeling a dull pain all over my body as I slowly regained consciousness, especially a severe headache, with a faint scent of perfume drifting into my nose.

    What the hell is this, am I awake or still dreaming?

    But I couldn’t even open my eyes.

    If I had to guess,

    I’m either not that drunk or I got punched until my eyes swelled up.

    “Headache.” I muttered because the pain was getting intense.

    “Who told you to drink that much?”

    …Huh?

       Who’s that?

       The voice is unfamiliar.

       And why does it feel like I’m being carried?

       Damn it. I feel nauseous…

       Even though I haven’t fully regained consciousness, I remember this feeling well.

    “Careful.” The voice said quietly.

    “Huh?”

    “Shit! My shirt!” The same person exclaimed because…everything in my stomach, fried chicken, snacks, and liquor, was coming out. Oh, what a waste, but there’s no way I could swallow it back.

    “Sorry.”

    “…This again.”

    “Hey!!”

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  • NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 0 part 1

    NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 0 part 1

    Prologue Chapter:

       Watch out!

    Soft music played, people were bustling, the faint smell of alcohol lingering. Although it was the night sky, it was clear that rain would soon fall. The air was slightly cool, the breeze was lazy as I was listening to a beautiful song, but if it’s liquor…no number of bottles would be enough.

    I let the bitter liquor flow down my throat in a big gulp, then slammed the small empty glass down on the table. Duennao picked up the glass before pouring more liquor.

    “Nao, take a break, you’re pouring it so eagerly.” Said Skater, who was sitting opposite.

    “North drinks fast, I can’t keep up with pouring.”

    “Then don’t pour.” I said before reaching for the bottle, but Nao snatched it back.

    “Stay sober, friend, you can’t handle more than this. Take a break after this glass.” Said the guy next to me before handing me another glass of liquor. I finished it in one go and put it down. “I hate stiff-necked people because they waste liquor.” Nao complained.

    “I’m not stiff-necked, seriously.” I said while strongly ruffling my hair. Dammit, I was so frustrated.

    “But right now, your neck is stiffer than your feelings.” Teased Skater. From his demeanor, it seemed like he was also losing control.

    “Right on point.” I said, giving him a thumbs up, “You’re drinking too little, Kyu. I’m paying, you know.” I turned to ask Kyu who was just eating something else. I had won the lottery and brought them here to celebrate my belated heartbreak.

    “Hey, North’s friend. You’re drunk, I’m drunk, Nao’s drunk. If I get drunk too, who’s going to clean up the corpses?” Said Kyu, slightly smirking.

    “Nao’s drunk too? Can’t tell.”

    “He’s the type that hides it well. Looks sober but if you ask him to stand, he’d fall.” Kyu said, trying to hold back laughter at Duennao’s displeased look.

    There are four of us in total: me, Duennao, Skater, and Kyu. We’re all engineering students, and today we decided to meet up for drinks…because honestly, I’ve had it.

       “[Sigh] why you guys? I’m just an engineering student, what can I compete with? Oh, I don’t even have a future, why? I can take care of myself too, give me another chance, will you?” I said, because being drunk makes you talk in circles. “Don’t say that, it affects the whole group, we’re all from the same faculty.”

    “Seriously, I can’t compete with anyone?” I repeated the same old question to my friends who had no answers, and I wasn’t really looking for one either.

    “I’ve got no answers for you, just pure shots.” Said Nao, handing me a shot glass.

    “Oh, didn’t you say you couldn’t handle pure stuff?”

    “Too lazy to mix.”

    “I’ve been strong all this time, until you handed me this pure alcohol.” I said, then smiled slightly, and quickly downed the shot. The heat ran down from my throat to my stomach.

    Honestly, I can’t fully say I’m heartbroken; we broke up some time ago. But when she announced their serious relationship…I thought I was over it, but it hit me hard. “Jaja” is the name of my ex-girlfriend. She just updated her status to say she’s dating ‘Temp, the doctor,’ who she’s been talking to since we broke up, or maybe even before. She broke up with me right before we graduated from high school, with the reason that she needed to choose someone with a better future.

       “North. We want you to understand, okay? We’re all grown up now. We have to choose people with a future. We can’t just date for fun like when we were kids, right?”

    Yeah…But wasn’t I serious too?

    But what can I do now? I’ve lost that right.

    “Hey, so your ex, Jaja, is she at the same university as us?” asked Kyu.

    “No, she’s at a nearby university, but Temp is at ours.”

    “Doctor Temp, huh? I hope we don’t run into him.” Said Nao, “Especially since North is quite hot-headed.”

    “Crazy, I’m not that kind of person. Just don’t make my girl sad, that’s enough, you animal.” I said before grabbing some snacks to eat. “Wow, bastard lover mode, I’m not used to this North. Spit out the old North, will you?”

    “Hey, North. Are you going back with me?” Kyu asked; he had brought his car today, intending to take us drunk guys home.

    “No, my dorm is in a different direction from you guys. If I start to stagger, just call the number I gave you labeled ‘Hell Roommate’ and tell him to come pick up my corpse.” I said. I had already told Ter that I was going to drink, left my motorcycle with him, asking him to pick me up.

    “Hell Roommate? That’s Ter, right? He’s not that bad, is he?” Skater asked, his eyebrows furrowed in disbelief.

    “Nah, he’s just got official with his boyfriend, and it pisses me off.”

    “…”

     

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  • SMNTCERR, Special Chapter 31: Syntax Error #17

    SMNTCERR, Special Chapter 31: Syntax Error #17 ‘END’ 

       “Hyung?”

       Jaeyoung ignored the other’s call, he kissed his forehead, cheeks, and ears lightly, every touch felt sweet and fragrant, he wanted to extend his hand to touch everything, both the hand exposed to the sun’s light and the cheek that had shadows passing by.

       ‘Yesterday you did that and you’re still not satisfied… You are too much.’ Jaeyoung reflected on himself and stopped halfway, this world is beautiful, but it is filled with things he cannot understand, and the most amazing mystery is how people live in uncertainty.

       “I know I’m being sensitive, but is it the right time?”

       Even though Sangwoo said something strange like that, it couldn’t help him. Even if he lived a comfortable life without thinking much, there were still times when his mood inexplicably became overwhelming because he was proud of the unextinguished flame he had kept for more than six years, because he knew well who led the innocent person to this point, and because he knew well how much the other party had tried to maintain this relationship. Even if the person never boasted about it, besides that, there are many reasons why Jaeyoung tends to become ‘sensitive’.

       “We have to leave now…”

       “It’s called love, you know.”

       Jaeyoung whispered in his ear, making sure that Sangwoo had no way of not hearing.

       “Even though you, with your broad heart, call this overflowing love, and can’t express it as ‘sensitive,’ well, its love, you know.”

       Those two tactics were Jaeyoung’s number one weapon, a magical spell that would instantly soften Sangwoo no matter what position he was in. Even the icy waters surrounding Sangwoo would melt. Then followed warm and profound kisses as natural as could be.

       Sangwoo cast aside the urgent quest ‘Packed belongings neatly and we can depart for the destination within 12 minutes!’ and pulled Jaeyoung close, wrapping his arms around his neck.

       Not everyone possesses the ability to possess a kiss like the ones in the movies, while being in attire that was rejected as unsuitable for the place they were visiting, that too in a crowded parking lot. Jaeyoung thought he was really lucky.

       Furthermore, Jaeyoung was also very greedy. Initially, he had thought of creating a warm and cozy atmosphere and setting off for the airport, but as soon as their lips touched, other thoughts emerged. Jaeyoung lifted his eyes slightly and saw Sangwoo’s tongue emerging between their intertwined lips, a rough desire to have a quickie surged up like pouring oil.

       ‘Think of what is good, think of what is right, think of what is pure…’ 

       Sangwoo, who was fully engrossed in the intense kiss and unaware of Jaeyoung’s feelings, caused him to lose consciousness. The other party pressed himself against Jaeyoung’s chest and licked his lips with care, as if licking something else. If this isn’t teasing, then what is it?

       Jaeyoung backed away inch by inch to prevent the lower part of his body from being caught, until his head collided with the wall with a thud. Sangwoo paid no attention and changed the angle of Jaeyoung’s head before sweeping his tongue into his mouth.

       ‘Think of what is pure, think of what is clean, think of…shit. I don’t know anymore.’ 

       Jaeyoung kissed Sangwoo’s cheek and swallowed the corner of his lip. He felt like he could swallow the other person whole. He grabbed Sangwoo’s waist and pulled him closer. Their lower bodies touched. Sangwoo pushed, but

       Jaeyoung held his head to prevent any complaints and deepened the kiss.

       “Oops, sorry!”

       Sangwoo sensed the unusual atmosphere alongside Jaeyoung’s hardening cock and tried to push Jaeyoung’s shoulder. When he saw it didn’t work, he used his elbow to hit him. If the other person hit back, he would be beaten. Jaeyoung pulled his lips away and quickly bent down, wrapping his arms around Sangwoo’s legs and lifting him up.

       “We have to leave now! Have you gone crazy, hyung?”  He held the struggling man on his shoulder and smiled.

       “Feels like I’ve kidnapped Chu Sangwoo from a noble family. I’m so excited.”

       “Let go. You crazy guy!”

       “Does this village only have such a handsome man? I want to keep this person in the mansion right now. Then all day and night I will…”

       Jaeyoung received a hit from Sangwoo’s knee and had to close his mouth. When he decided that it would be too much to walk home in this condition, he put Sangwoo down on a plastic box. No, he tried to make Sangwoo sit on the plastic box, but they both accidentally rolled off onto the cold floor. Sangwoo tried to crawl towards the exit, but Jaeyoung grabbed his ankle.

       “Hyung, there’s less than three hours left until the flight. We can’t do this.”  Even though his body was being dragged in, Sangwoo still tried to appease Jaeyoung with a tense face. But now, Jaeyoung didn’t want to go on a trip.  Instead he wanted to be with the person he loved, who he hadn’t spent much time with at the chaotic airport, he wanted to lie down together, have meaningless conversations, and eat a full meal. Jaeyoung just wanted to hug Sangwoo tightly. While Sangwoo tried to fight and escape with all his might, a fierce battle took a moment.

       “Hey, why does love have to be so tiring? We should do it once right now and then go on a trip.”

       “What are you talking about, hyung? Let’s talk about the average time we had sex before!”

       “No way, I’m sure it will be quick and easy, just like last Christmas.”

       “The conditions were different back then. I dressed differently.”

       “Right now, I feel the same way as back then.”

       “Shut up!”

       “Just think about it. If we go out like this, we’ll end up having sex on the plane just like last time.”

       Sangwoo sealed his mouth with a face dyed red. It was probably during their trip to Bogota. While they were fooling around at the airport security checkpoint, they sparked a spark. Then they boarded the plane without properly dealing with their desires. Sangwoo declared solemnly that he would maintain his social morality as a high-class animal with dignity, but when he encountered Jaeyoung’s irresistible charm, after seven hours of travel, he couldn’t resist any longer and had to secretly meet in the bathroom.

       “It was really great back then.”

       Sangwoo was so overwhelmed in that plane bathroom that tears kept streaming down. Jaeyoung had to cover his mouth from behind with his hand, but even so, it wasn’t difficult. However, the problem was that during that time, the plane shook, and the warning light for fastening seat belts lit up. Sangwoo tried to leave, of course, Jaeyoung had no intention of letting him go. That day, Sangwoo cried throughout their sexual encounter, but it seemed like it wasn’t because of unfastening the seat belt or turbulence.

       “That was a mistake. Happiness and safety cannot substitute for each other.”

       “You’re right, it’s better to be safe on the ground than in the air.”

       “…”

       Jaeyoung managed to pin down Sangwoo with a marvelous technique before pulling up his shirt eagerly. Sangwoo looked displeased, but he raised his arms obediently. After his shirt came off his head, Jaeyoung immediately took off his own clothes.

       They sat kissing each other for a long time on the cold floor until at one point Sangwoo pushed Jaeyoung away with a tense expression.

       “Wait. We should probably stop messing around now. What do you think we should do?”

       “Well, let’s just catch the next flight. We can leave tomorrow.”

       “It’s a holiday period. There’s a high chance the tickets will be sold out.”

       “Is that so? Then the schedule must be packed because of you.”

       “Why is it because of me?”

       “It’s because you’re too sexy. That’s why it turned out like this. In this situation, how can we go out without the neighbors noticing, they only see us as immoral people.”

       Jaeyoung took Sangwoo’s hand and placed it between his legs. Sangwoo, who was lost in his thoughts, let his body go limp, as if it was about to explode, without paying attention to what was happening.

       “We could also just drive there, even if it takes a long time.”

       “That could work. We could set up camp together after a long time.”

       “And then we can stargaze at night.”

       “And have wild sex outdoors as well.”

       “…I don’t want to be bitten by insects again like that other time.”

       “Let’s do what we need to do first, and then decide together, okay?”

       “Hmm.”

       Sangwoo closed his eyes and naturally turned his face towards Jaeyoung as if he didn’t try to escape just now.

       For more than six years, the other party had stepped into the world of emotions and desires countless times, a place where Jaeyoung resided. Although the plans made were often flawed, Sangwoo seemed to have learned not to care. Meanwhile, even if Jaeyoung escaped to the world of reason and calculations, it didn’t matter because at that moment, all Jaeyoung had to do was take a step towards where the other party was.

       “I should let you know that this is a sex will cost us 852 dollars.”

       “I don’t know, be quiet now.”

       He didn’t want to waste time on negotiations, there are hot vacation days every year, and he can buy new plane tickets anytime, but this day, when he looked up at the sky, he found it so beautiful that it captivated his heart. Then, when he looked aside without thinking, he realized that there was something even more beautiful, the time when he fell in love with someone for the first time, or the time when he saw them living together, it was even more enjoyable to watch. Jaeyoung thought that this kind of radiant time cannot be valued in money.

       Jaeyoung grabbed Sangwoo and sat him on his lap before lifting his lips to his hot neck, sucking the tender flesh under his chin and jawline before dragging his tongue down to the collarbone. When using his lips to clear the collarbone, Sangwoo twisted and pressed his upper body closer. Jaeyoung used his fingers to trace the curve of his waist to the buttocks.

       While he was melting and dissolving Sangwoo completely, an orange tail passed by in front. Sangwoo frowned with irritation. So Jaeyoung pointed to the exit to resolve this conflict.

       “VB, we humans are going to mate. Go into the house. Execute.” Meow.

       “This quickie will take a while. No need to wait.”

       Jaeyoung made sure that the cat had left the parking lot. Before pressing the remote control to close the door, the blue parking lot gate gradually moved down, slowly cutting them off from the outside world.

       Jaeyoung lifted Sangwoo in his arms before placing him on the car’s trunk, the favorite car of them both, his black hair tangled and not in place. At the same time, the wonderful sunlight that came through the narrow window shone down on the face of the other person, dust danced in the air, and the black eyes reflected the image of Jaeyoung like a mirror, glowing with infatuation.

       ‘This picture is awesome.’ 

       Jaeyoung closed off the many beautiful things in front of him with narrow eyes. In an instant, other senses rushed in, in a more exciting way.

       “Sangwooya…”

       Sometimes, when they hugged each other, Jaeyoung remembered the day he entered the apartment, about thirty square meters in size, for the first time, the day when Chu Sangwoo was still very young and locked him in the bathroom, making him angry.

       Once, he had struggled to try sleeping with the other person just once, but that stubborn thought had long disappeared. This black mamba snake was a dangerous animal that only knew how to dig into the depths of Jaeyoung’s heart and stay in the room called “emotions,” unwilling to leave. It often devoured only the truth and discarded everything else.

       “Sangwooya.”

       “Hmm.”

       The filtered vision called love made the whole body turn a fiery red. The white neck made Jaeyoung constantly want to kiss it, with the red marks of passion all over it. Both cheeks turned red, the warm tone of passion passed through the intertwined hands, and even the glass-like eyes flickered with a flame that never went out.

       “Chu Sangwoo.”

       Unbreakable trees even when the wind blows strong won’t fall, the dangerous second wheel of a single-wheeled bicycle. 

       The second he was sure that he had a deep spiritual connection with Sangwoo, Jaeyoung realized how deeply he loved the man in front of him. He became a better person because of this person, and he thought of good luck, happiness, life, moments, and even nirvana. However, he didn’t say anything, not even a word. He had explained these things many times before, but it was possible that Sangwoo only understood them at face value. 

       Originally, he and Sangwoo were two different types of people living in different colors and temperatures. Although they had many common points since they stepped into each other’s lives, they were still more different than they seemed. And that’s why Jaeyoung thought that this love was the only one in his world and could not be replaced by anything. 

       “Darling, it’s hot.”

       “Really? The maximum temperature today is set…oops!”

       The era in which the sharp-witted goddesses who possess the weapon of emotions held the position of Muse has been gone for a very long time [1]. If the Muse of artists in the 21st century were a dust-sucking robot that does not support functions like mind reading, what would be wrong? 

       Semantic Error, your logic is faulty. 

       Complete. 

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       [1] Muse, “Muses.” Inspirational goddesses for poets, singing enchanting songs, they are the daughters of Zeus and Mnemosyne. There are a total of 9 muses, namely Calliope, Urania, Melpomene, Thalia, Terpsichore, Erato, Polyhymnia, Euterpe, and Clio, each with their own distinct discipline. 

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       Hello. 

       Thank you to all readers who have journeyed with us until now, every comment and review is an important source of encouragement for the translator. 

       Although the novel has ended, I believe that Hyung Jaeyoung and Sangwoo must be happy together somewhere, because this error is a part of the operating system that has been fully integrated and will never be separated. 🙂 

       Thank you for making all five volumes meaningful every day. From now on, I will miss everyone a lot T__T. Anyway, if you like this novel translation, please leave a thoughtful comment.  Thank you. T/N Eunuch End. 

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  • SMNTCERR, Special Chapter 30: Syntax Error #16

    SMNTCERR, Special Chapter 30: Syntax Error #16. 

       Jang Jaeyoung had a nightmare.

       He and Sangwoo were in a city of wickedness, facing complexities like a detective movie. They both had laser guns, standing back to back, dealing with enemies as if in a film. Then they kissed passionately with explosions in the background, until the climax of this story. It remained an exciting blockbuster [1] that made one’s hair stand on end, but in the meantime, Sangwoo disappeared, turning it into a horror movie.

       In the dream, Jaeyoung kept looking for Sangwoo, who had gone missing, until his eyes swelled and his voice hoarse. Meanwhile, he felt a conflict in his heart when he saw a strange creature holding a bouquet, shouting, “I want to marry,” like a slogan without knowing why.

       Ding! Ding! Ding!

       Jaeyoung returned to the real world with a sound that made him feel upset.

       As he reached out to hit the loud alarm clock, the sharp noise stopped.

       “Well, it’s good that it is just a dream.”

       He placed his hand on his forehead and sighed. It must be because Jaehong kept talking about getting married and dreaming strange dreams. He turned to tell the dream to Sangwoo, but the empty space next to him was empty.

       “Well… I’ve told him many times to wake me up with a gentle kiss.”

       On his day off, Chu Sangwoo set an alarm urging Jaeyoung to wake up at the desired time. Then he went to do his own work, because the ‘gentle kiss’ didn’t wake up Jaeyoung, and even if he did wake up, it was highly likely that they would spend so much time making love that the morning would pass. Although Jaeyoung liked to sleep naked and be lazy, it seemed that dreams like this only happened every two or three months.

       Jaeyoung closed his eyes again and rolled over under the blankets, burying his face in Sangwoo’s pillow and breathing in his scent. But then the phone rang, and as expected, it was Sangwoo. Jaeyoung answered the call and put the communication device on his ear.

       “What’s up, my love….”

       [I’ll be down in a moment.] 

       After saying what needed to be said, Sangwoo hung up. Jaeyoung looked at the phone screen, which had turned black, feeling melancholy.

       “Are you angry?”

       Others often said that Sangwoo’s way of speaking was always the same, but they didn’t know anything. Although Sangwoo hardly raised his voice, his facial expressions and way of speaking showed when he was upset, and now he was dissatisfied.

       “Why?”

       Jaeyoung went into the bathroom to take a shower, reflecting on what had happened yesterday. He was disturbed by the sudden visit of Jaehong, who disrupted everything, and he thought he could destroy this relationship if he just focused on it. So he arranged for the two to meet by chance. Then he followed the two to see Sangwoo’s reaction, and after Sangwoo dealt with Jaehong, he went to pick up the pitiful younger brother at the hotel and brought him clothes from Jaehong’s house. Then he was made to be angry by Sangwoo until a glass was broken. When Sangwoo acted cute and charming, the anger gradually subsided, and it ended with great sex. After that, he couldn’t remember anything.

       “… I wonder if I’ll just have dinner alone tonight.”

       In addition to this, he still hadn’t tidied up his things. Yesterday was the day they were supposed to watch a movie together, but he fell asleep. And it is the day before the long weekend break. There must be many things that needed to be taken care of, but the other party probably did all the cleaning alone… There were a lot of things that made him angry. 

       Jaeyoung finished brushing his teeth and stood in front of the mirror, hoping to cool down Sangwoo’s mood even just a little. He went to a closet on one floor and put on a Hawaii shirt, board shorts, heart-shaped sunglasses, and clipped a surfboard keychain to his side, a perfect outfit for the lively tourist destination. 

       Sangwoo, who was locking his large travel bag, glanced at Jaeyoung. Then, he lowered his gaze and looked at the bag again with a blank face, ready to speak but turned his body to the side as if waiting. 

       “I guess there’s no confusion about where we’re going for a warm vacation, right?”

       “….”

       “Go change your clothes. While I’m still talking nicely.”

       “Give me a kiss first.”

       “No, let’s go eat breakfast.”

       A gust of wind quickly blew by. Jaeyoung sat down at the table to eat his breakfast with a heavy heart and looked at the food Sangwoo had prepared. The large bowl was filled with sugar-free cereal and plant-based products that

       Sangwoo said contained complete and balanced nutrients, and it looked and tasted like cat food.

       Jaeyoung took advantage of the moment when Sangwoo looked elsewhere and quickly scooped out half of the cereal before pouring milk into the bowl. Just as the cat jumped up on his lap and let out a satisfying meow, he swallowed the lump in his throat and began eating breakfast.

       Sangwoo was busy going in and out of this room and that, then he brought two travel bags and placed them in front of the door. Jaeyoung quickly finished eating his food and took the bowl to rinse it with tap water in the kitchen. He then followed Sangwoo, even though he was treated like a stray human.

       ‘There’s nothing else to do, huh?’ 

       Jaeyoung, who was flipping through the utility bill without any necessity, received a clue from the cat that was wandering around near his feet.

       “Oh! Our VB must be hungry….”

       “I’ve given it food.”

       “Before going on a trip, at least you have to clean the dust….”

       “I’ve done it.”

       “It’s my responsibility….”

       “I’ve collected it.”

       “….”

       “I choose clothes based on the frequency of wearing, while for other items I choose based on necessity.”

       Sangwoo spoke immediately and quickly walked past Jaeyoung’s side. Although he might be photographed in mismatched outfits between the upper and lower parts during the hot break, he wasn’t in a position to complain.

       Jaeyoung spoke loudly to the other side.

       “I’m sorry.”

       “….Um.”

       Sangwoo reminded him to pack a bag for the upcoming hot break before going to work abroad as if he already knew it. Jaeyoung felt uneasy when the line went off, thinking that he should have listened to those words.

       “Did you have dinner alone yesterday?”

       “Um.”

       “What did you eat?”

       “French fries and instant soup.”

       Hesitantly, he thought of grilling ribeye beef and fresh shoots together served with authentic baked potatoes alongside. Jaeyoung couldn’t say anything, feeling like karma was teasing him.

       Sangwoo took two snowboards and placed them at the front door, then picked up the phone.

       [Hello, Ted, Brown, this is Chu Sangwoo, your neighbor. Me and Jae will go on a weekend break today. Did you know? Okay, I am calling to remind you about the agreement you made last month. Thank you again for taking care of Jae’s cat. If you feed this pet and not abuse it, we will take care of your dog with care when you go on a hot break. The position of the house key is the same as the last vacation break. If you forget any requests, please read them in the manual on the shoe rack. And also….]

       The English language developed rapidly, but Sangwoo’s vocabulary and grammar were more extensive and accurate than those of the native speakers.

       However, there were limitations in terms of the naturalness of the conversation. Despite the peculiar way of speaking, Chu Sangwoo was wellliked by his neighbors.

       While Sangwoo was talking on the phone with his neighbor, Jaeyoung picked up the cat and rubbed its nose against his forehead as a goodbye gesture.

       “VB, from today onwards, your brother and I will go out together. You can stay at home, okay? Uncle Teddy will bring food for you and clean the bathroom. Play a lot and have fun. And don’t go outside, okay? If anyone comes to look for trouble, give them a scratch first. Understand?”

       VB was a smart and intimidating cat. Jaeyoung was confident that this little one understood human speech, even if Sangwoo disagreed.

       Jaeyoung tried to hold Sangwoo back to give him a kiss when he finished his phone call and walked by, but Sangwoo evaded him skillfully.

       “We will leave in twelve minutes, so go change into your nice clothes… and I will be mad if you mess my hair.”

       Sangwoo opened the front door and used both hands to pull out two travel bags. Jaeyoung picked up a backpack and held two snowboards.

       As they opened the door and stepped outside, the warm sun shone down. They forgot their original intention of going to the car garage and stood there with their hands covering their foreheads, admiring the beautiful and radiant summer day.

       While they stood there in awe, VB came out to see them. Two high-school students from the neighboring village cycled by and greeted them. Then Chu

       Sangwoo, who had gone into the house for a while, came out and joined them. Jaeyoung, with a smug smile, followed the other side to the car garage. Just like the game room that is tailored to Sangwoo’s taste, the garage is Jaeyoung’s kingdom. Jaeyoung, who is the king of this place, has the main responsibility for making decisions about interior design and cleaning. There is a graphic image with a black snake between the letters of the word “HOME”, which was just drawn last winter. It is overlaid with graffiti of a howling wolf that used to occupy the wall before.

       Underneath, there are sprays, cans of paint, and paintbrushes that have not been picked up for half a year, lying scattered and cluttered. In one corner, there are bicycles, electric scooters, roller skates, knee pads, and helmets, each with two sets. There are also several stacked skateboards in a disorderly manner. Two clear plastic boxes are filled with sports equipment such as basketballs, soccer balls, bowling balls, gloves and baseball bats, tennis rackets, and frisbees. But Sangwoo never seemed to care about the condition of the garage.

       Jaeyoung remembered parking a red sports car far away, a couple of blocks, “to trick Sangwoo.” But he realized that it had somehow returned to where it should be.

       Jaeyoung opened the rear of the SUV parked in the middle of the three spaces. As he loaded his belongings into the car, Sangwoo stood in front of the door with a waist bag for traveling and was looking at his phone. On the other hand, it was a habit to check the rice cooker before traveling, every ten minutes.

       Jaeyoung pretended to walk past Sangwoo to exit the garage before suddenly turning around and hugging the other person from behind.

       “…What?”

       He placed his chin on the other’s shoulder and tightened his arms to prevent the other from escaping. Sangwoo froze for a moment before lifting his phone back up to eye level. Jaeyoung read the first line out loud.

       “Passport.”

       “…It’s in the bag-A.”

       “Mine, too?”

       Sangwoo paused. Jaeyoung then kissed the other person’s cheek as a reward.

       “Canadian dollars.”

       “It’s in the bag-A.”

       This time, Jaeyoung kissed the other cheek. Sangwoo didn’t flinch.

       “International driver’s license.”

       “In the bag-A.”

       “Bring mine too.”

       “Okay.”

       As he pressed his lips against the familiar edge again, Sangwoo’s lips began to move slightly.

       “Winter jacket.”

       “In the bag-D.”

       The fourth kiss, Sangwoo’s voice softened a bit, he continued listing items: ski suit, goggles, snowboard, gloves, sleeping bag, binoculars, camera… until he checked the emergency medicine box as the final item. Then, Sangwoo spoke up.

       “Done.”

       When he finished what he had to do, Jaeyoung was about to tell him to step back, but he hugged his shoulders even tighter.

       “Travel itinerary.”

       He whispered in Sangwoo’s ear, so he raised his index finger and pointed to his temple.

       “In my mind.”

       Jaeyoung pressed his lips against the crook of the man’s neck, thinking that was an unexpected and sharp response.

       “Travel schedule.”

       “In my mind.”

       This time, he kissed the earlobe and nibbled it gently.

       “Expectations.”

       Sangwoo seemed to be pondering for a moment before pointing to his heart without saying anything. That was an excellent move, making Jaeyoung feel embraced by the man. Jaeyoung kissed the edge of the other’s lips before resting his chin on his shoulder and whispered.

       “You are missing the most important thing… Sangwoo-ya.”

       “Impossible.”

       “My love for you, and did you bring it?”

       “Of course it is, that, right there, it’s always here…”

       It seems that the confident finger Sangwoo extended would cause confusion, pointing to the space between the heart and the legs. Then the pointing finger stops somewhere between those two points.

       Jaeyoung grabbed Sangwoo, turned him around, and hugged him tightly, almost breaking him. It was an action done out of desire, like eating a meal, but it strangely made his heart warm. Even though he hugged someone in front of him countless times, his heart beat strongly as if a beautiful and graceful pet had jumped into the hug. Sangwoo was slightly surprised. “Hyung?”  ________________________________________. 

       [1] Bomber movie = market movie, money-making movie. 

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  • SMNTCERR, Special Chapter 29: Syntax Error #15

    SMNTCERR, Special Chapter 29: Syntax Error #15. 

       “Heh, heh…”

       Jaeyoung continued to hold Sangwoo tightly, which made Sangwoo’s body tremble. Suddenly, he raised his face and moved down to find Sangwoo’s lips, his finger snaking through his hair, followed by his hand cupping his cheek. They were both out of breath, and had to exhale every two to three seconds, but their lips immediately connected.

       Jaeyoung pressed his nose down until it touched and gently brushed his cheeks, nose, mouth, and other random spots. Sangwoo was able to express his feelings after the love making they had just experienced.

       “When I traveled for work somewhere, you must have been hungry for it?”

       His voice was hoarse for a moment, and the sound that came out lacked continuity.

       “My love, you shouldn’t be able to say that sentence. Even if you don’t see my face you will still cum.”

       Jaeyoung responded with a laugh, and the other’s hair stood up with sweat, his chest rising and falling heavily as if he had just run a long distance.  “Hot.”

       Jaeyoung slowly pulled his body away from Sangwoo’s. Then, he sat down and began to unbutton, but after a few attempts, he struggled to remove it, wet like a taut t-shirt with a lack of patience. It seemed difficult for a shirt that clung tightly to the sweat-soaked body, and ultimately, the tearing sound became louder.

       “I put on a fitted shirt, and this is how it turns out.”

       Jaeyoung threw away a piece of fabric that was once a shirt, which looked good on the wall before he took off the sweat-stained and stained boxer briefs and kicked them far away.

       ‘It’s best not to wear anything at all.’ 

       Sangwoo picked up a condom and put it on himself. As he sat on  Jaeyoung’s lap without hesitation and started kissing, the person being kissed tightly wrapped their arms around Sangwoo’s waist. Jaeyoung cock gently brushed against the inside of Sangwoo’s legs as he moved back and forth, if you didn’t see the whitish stains stuck under the condom you wouldn’t know if it has been released or not.

       “Darling, shall we gamble this time?”

       “Hmm? Gamble what?”

       “Whoever cum first has to give the other person a blowjob fifty million times.”

       “No, thanks.”

       While Sangwoo changed to a new condom and applied lube on it, Jaeyoung continued to talk aimlessly as if he were at ease, like a group of celebrities. But as Sangwoo pulled him closer and swallowed that part of him with his love hole, the expression on Jaeyoung’s face changed.

       “Hey… wait.”

       Jaeyoung used his other hand to stroke Sangwoo’s shoulder and let out a low moan before lifting him up to lie down again with a lustful expression.

       “It’s my turn now. Now you keep still.”

       Sangwoo pushed his shoulder aside, hearing that, Jaeyoung smiled devilishly like a drunk person.

       “What if I don’t?”

       “Then I’ll tie your hands together, eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth.”

       “You want me to beg for a real touch but only speak…”

       Jaeyoung used both hands to hold Sangwoo’s buttocks and smiled teasingly. Then, Sangwoo pushed the chest of the man he cherished, causing him to collapse back onto the pillow instead of giving an answer.

       ***

       “…until then, I still thought that he was just a planner, a bit straightforward, but on the last day when we were drinking together, he just couldn’t stop talking. I listened to him bragging about his daughter for two hours.”

       “Does he have a daughter? When I talked to him on the phone, it seemed like he said he was still single.”

       “Oh, well, he went back and forth and it seems that he has three daughters now. I also learned Danish with him, you know.”

       Jaeyoung raised his finger to write words in the air, silently reciting the words that Sangwoo couldn’t hear.

       “Offensive words.”

       “How do you know?”

       According to the resume, Jaeyoung can speak five languages, but if we count just the offensive words, he can curse in fourteen languages.

       “Oh. And he said he would invite us to his wedding, so I accepted.”

       “When can we meet to get the invitation?”

       “One day…maybe.”

       Sangwoo frowned, initially he was hesitant about the number of guests attending the wedding. It had already increased significantly from the number he initially planned. However, Jaeyoung insisted on adding two more guests before Choi Yoona, who had originally declined the invitation because it was too far, changed her mind and decided to come along. This caused the need to add one more person, creating a real headache.

       “So…183 people?”

       “I’m not satisfied with the number.”

       The number Sangwoo initially set was a specific number. He believed that the special number 1 and himself, who could be divisible by it, were fitting for the ceremony that claimed to love only the couple. Therefore, he disliked the number 183, which was a composite number.

       “It’s too many divisible numbers.”

       “Then let’s add four more people, making it 187 people, to match my height.”

       “Height is a number that changes with time. What does it even mean?”

       “What? Are you saying that I will shrink when I get old?”

       “…I didn’t mean it that way, the latest measurement of your height was 188, not 180 or something, the height is a variable number, that’s it.”

       It might be because of my thick socks, or maybe it’s because of the shoe inserts, but either way, Jaeyoung firmly believes that he grew one centimeter taller. 

       “I was just joking about that.”

       “…”

       “Well then, let’s go with 189 people, it’s a prime number, right?”

       “No, the numbers that can be divided evenly are 1, 3, 7, 9, 21, 27, 63, and

    1. I strongly disagree with choosing numbers that have too many divisors.”

       Hearing Sangwoo speak seriously, Jaeyoung burst into laughter as if he heard a joke.

       “In that case, let’s set the date for the 4th day, April at 4 o’clock and 44 minutes. Let’s invite 44 people.”

       “Are you still playing? Do you think that skepticism and the desire for everything to be perfect for me are the same?”

       “No, it’s not the same. I don’t believe in those superstitions.”

       Jaeyoung playfully leaned against Sangwoo’s back without hiding his laughter. Then he kissed his neck.

       “Then how about 191? Is it a prime number?”

       “Oh.”

       “Let’s go with that one then, it’s like rate 19+[1] perfect.”

       “Okay.”

       Sangwoo sighed, the starting rate of the wedding guests was around 53% of the current number, but now it has increased so much that it’s difficult to call it a “small wedding.”

       “It’s all because of you, 101 the guests would be all complete now.”

       “No, I don’t really like it, it reminds me of Dalmatians.”

       “…”

       “Sangwooya.”

       “What?”

       “How many guests will there be? the important matter between the two of us is getting married.”

       “It’s a joke. And not long ago, you were still saying that if the song Salut d’Amour played, you wouldn’t get married.”

       “Ah… that song doesn’t really matter, you know.”

       Sangwoo heard a loud yawn from behind, he pulled Jaeyoung’s arm and lightly tapped his head, while the hand that was hugging his waist tightened. At the same time, he felt something that he assumed to be Jaeyoung’s lips pressing against his neck before pulling away. 

       Although he enjoyed sleeping and talking like this, Sangwoo wondered how long he had to let himself stay in this state, because Jaeyoung, who was currently dozing off, had finished cummed but still seemed unwilling to let Sangwoo’s body rest. 

       “Darling, I want to take a shower.”

       “Let’s stay like this for a little longer.”

       “How long is ‘a little’?”

       “Ten minutes.”

       A large hand rested on his head and ruffled his hair. This conversation had happened three times before, but Jaeyoung still didn’t let go of Sangwoo’s waist. There was one time where he shifted his body and the disgusting and fearful thing almost slipped out, but he said, ‘Poor little child’, breathed, and shoved it back in.

       After Jaeyoung promised not to do anything and left the other party alone like that, Sangwoo thought that if the other party tried to do anything even a little, he would get up immediately. But Jaeyoung hugged Sangwoo from behind and remained calm, playing with the back of Sangwoo’s body with pleasure, by brushing his shoulders and sliding his fingers along the spine.

       Then he whispered sweet-nothings into his ear before blowing air into it.

       The hand that had previously been rubbing the back for a moment climbed up along the spinal bones and came up to the point where there was a tattoo.

       Jaeyoung kissed that spot gently.

       “But my dear, why did you lose weight so much during the time we didn’t see each other?”

       ‘No, not really.’ 

       After going through a period of growth, even though Sangwoo maintained the same weight, sometimes Jaeyoung would find him thin, weak, or sullen. During those times, when he brought up the topic of weight, the other party would often argue that their eyes and hands were more accurate, so it would be better to listen to what the other party wanted to understand.

       “I wasn’t with you for six days. I was stressed and burned more energy, I think.”

       “Really? Is that so?”

       “Um, yes.”

       “I thought I would find something delicious for you to eat since I went to the market.”

       “…we are going on a vacation already. Why are we going to the market?”

       “Don’t complain.”

       Jaeyoung hugged Sangwoo’s waist tighter than before.

       ‘You wanna go to the market today. Even though we’re going on a three-week vacation tomorrow. You’re really strange.’ 

       According to Jaeyoung’s style, he probably bought several things according to his desires. Not only food to eat today, but of course everything would be frozen. The smart choice for a day like this would be to order delivery or go to a nearby restaurant.

       ‘And we still haven’t packed anything yet.’ 

       He was worried since the other party had a work schedule outside before the vacation. So he scolded the other party to prepare in advance, but of course, Jaeyoung traveled to Denmark leaving his empty suitcase as before.

       ‘We will travel the day after tomorrow. Need to clean up.’ 

       Since Jaeyoung wasn’t at home for six days, the house was surprisingly well maintained, but they still had to dust because they wouldn’t be at home for a long time and left the cat alone. Even though the neighbors would come to check on it twice a day, they only came to take care of the cat.

       There were many things to do, but Jaeyoung still had an insatiable appetite and kept the parking card on the bed with the excuse that it was cold outside.

       Sangwoo finished thinking and opened his mouth to speak.

       “Now I should get up… There’s still a lot to do. First, let’s go take a shower and talk about dinner together, just showering. If you think about starting again, I will get really angry. Right now, I think ordering food is a better option than cooking, so let’s order food. And while we wait for the food to be delivered, I will dust off and tidy up.”

       “…”

       “Hey?”

       He started feeling uneasy when he saw the hand that used to tightly hold his waist comfortably lie down on the bed and heard the constant sound of breathing from behind when he tried to listen closely. When he turned his face to look, he realized that Jaeyoung was sleeping.

       “Hey, Jang Jaeyoung!”

       Sangwoo shook the other person’s shoulder before he fell into a deep sleep, but it was useless. Even though he called his name near his ear, there was no movement, but rather, it seemed more like a coma.

       Considering the time difference, the flight time, and Jaeyoung’s habit of watching movies on the plane without sleeping, it could be predicted that the other person had been awake for about twelve hours already, and if that was true, he wouldn’t wake up until tomorrow morning.

       “You’ve done too much. Damnit.”

       Sangwoo took a deep breath and got up from the bed. His legs were trembling, but he slowly crawled to collect the clothes that needed to be washed, including the scattered condoms, and made the bed. Then, he took a damp towel and wiped Jaeyoung’s body before dressing him in a fresh pair of underwear.

       Before leaving, he had something to do. Sangwoo climbed onto the bed and tightly hugged the sleeping Jaeyoung. Then he whispered clearly into the other person’s ear.

       “I want to marry Chu Sangwoo.”

       Even though Jaeyoung happily accepted Sangwoo’s proposal five years ago, he now had thoughts of whether to get married or not. Jaeyoung firmly believed that even if there were no legal documents, he was content with his current life, and his life right now wasn’t any different from being married, so he didn’t know how it would be different. Sangwoo failed to persuade the other person with logic, and after that, he tried to brainwash Jaeyoung whenever he had the chance and when Jaeyoung was not conscious.

       “I want to marry Chu Sangwoo.”

       After repeating the same sentence five times, Jaeyoung’s lips twitched, revealing a hint of a smile. This was a sign of receiving some kind of idea or suggestion. Sangwoo moved closer, observing his every move. Jaeyoung blushed slightly and muttered.

       “Chu Sangwoo…”

       “Marry.”

       “Me.”

       “I want to marry Chu Sangwoo.”

       “Sangwoo… cute…”

       “I want to marry.”

       “Have… sex.”

       Sangwoo thought about whether to fluff the pillow on his boyfriend’s face before taking out the cloth to wipe.

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       [1] Korean rating 19+ = Normal rating is 18+, the numbering discrepancy is due to the Korean age counting system including the years spent in the womb. 

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       Jaeyoung exhaled heavily, swept his gaze around like a madman, and took out a condom packet. He opened it and inserted the smooth and shiny layered cock forcefully into Sangwoo’s tight entrance, almost like a one hit wonder. The other party’s rough entrance was so tight that it seemed physically impossible for the cock to enter. Even though it seemed impossible, that thing had brought joy to Sangwoo countless times.

       Jaeyoung grabbed one of Sangwoo’s legs and pressed it against his own body, with a lost expression. He used both hands to spread the buttocks wide and inserted the gel into the entrance immediately.

       “Ah, it hurts!”

       Despite preparing himself mentally, the moan still slipped past, escaping from the firmly bitten lips, and Jaeyoung’s hands slid down to firmly grasp Sangwoo’s butt, his face looking terrible. At the same time, he squeezed the slippery gel more than necessary onto Sangwoo’s body. Then, he held Sangwoo’s arm tightly and rested his chin on his shoulder, pushing the heavy flesh that was harder than it appeared into the narrow and forcefully pushed it into his body.

       “Wait… it hurts, ah, slowly… gentle.”

       Jaeyoung covered Sangwoo’s mouth with the same organ and did what was left unfinished, the intense feeling of something foreign entering his body was so intense that tears welled up in his eyes, and his head bumped loudly against the headboard, creating a loud noise throughout. Although they had only done this twice, it may be because it hadn’t been done in a long time…

       Jaeyoung felt exceptionally more emotional and overindulgent.

       Jaeyoung pushed in until the very end with a force that almost broke Sangwoo’s body and then released his lips.

       “Hah, hah… Hey, if your ass grips me this hard I will be turned into an eunuch.”

       “…”

       “If my cock breaks, you will also lose.”

       Sangwoo forgot to blink his eyes tightly before they flickered weakly, feeling like they were just forcefully penetrated that his cock lost feeling and then deflated altogether. But when he heard Jaeyoung’s whispering, his cock surged up and hardened again.

       When looking up, the stimulus in his stomach became stronger. Between the brows that were furrowed under the dark brown hair, the eyes moved aimlessly like a drunk person. The chest moved up and down due to intense breathing, with sweat sticking, especially on the white shirt that was cut just enough to be moist with sweat and attached to the chest. Just by looking at that image, the lower part swelled up.

       ‘Wow, it feels like I legally cheated.’ 

       Sangwoo pondered the forbidden words in his mind. At that moment, Jaeyoung frowned as if reading his thoughts.

       “What were you thinking just now?”

       “… I wasn’t thinking about anything.”

       “Tell me quickly.”

       As Sangwoo turned his face away, Jaeyoung’s gaze became sharper. So Sangwoo had to speak without evasion.

       “I think it’s like I am doing something dishonest within the boundaries of the law.”

       “Are you going to say it feels exciting and thrilling like having sex with someone else?”

       Jaeyoung twisted the meaning of those words in the most sinister way possible. His mental state was not normal to begin with. And now, it seemed like he was fanning the flames even more. In times like this, comforting actions would not be effective. So Sangwoo put on the most pitiful expression.

       “I-I’m s-so-sorry, Se-Senior Jae-young.”

       “…”

       “Please-forgive-me.”

       Jaeyoung seemed completely unaffected by the sincere apology. The other party laughed lightly, teasingly sliding a finger between his neck and collarbone, and pulled, causing the tie he was wearing to loosen. Then he grabbed the long ends of the tie and placed them on the back of Sangwoo’s head, tying it up. His vision became completely dark.

       Sangwoon had experienced this before, but never had everything happen all at once before, no matter how much he could handle, this was just too unfair.  Sangwoo couldn’t see what was in front of him, so he assumed that Jaeyoung’s face was already there and he pushed him away.

       “This is too much. I think I also need freedom to enjoy sex now. Punishing me with all three things is unfair, release one… “

       Jaeyoung pulled his body back slightly before pushing his hips forward. Sangwoo, who wasn’t ready, accidentally gasped and let out a cry. As he spread his legs unintentionally, Jaeyoung grabbed the remaining leg and pressed it against Sangwoo, hands tied, body folded in half, and at the same time, the movement began.

       “Ah, wait…wait- … it hurts!”

       Jaeyoung barged in with determination. He went through the steps of covering his body with kisses until Sangwoo relaxed and responded back aggressively.

       Sangwoo bit his lips tightly to withstand the pain. The reason his tears welled up was not only because of the thoughtless action, but there was more to it. The other party seemed to fucking without mercy, but that cock kept brushing past his G point and made him close his eyes tightly.

       It had been seven years since they got together and they had been sleeping together often and sharing the same bed. Jaeyoung, who knew Sangwoo well, almost like his own skillful hands, never missed his target. Sangwoo didn’t want to show that his emotions were triggered so violently that his eyes were closed, his arms restrained, but the moans that came from deep within his stomach still slipped out. Sangwoo took a deep breath and moved his head, and at that moment, Jaeyoung’s lips brushed against the nape of his neck.

       “My love, who am I?”

       ‘Such a silly question. I guess I should answer.’ 

       When he closed his mouth and refused to respond, Jaeyoung, who had stopped his actions for a moment, became even harsher, thrusting forcefully until Sangwoo screamed out.

       “I asked who I was.”

       He gritted his teeth and clenched his fists. In an instant, Jaeyoung grabbed his neck and pressed down, creating a sound of flesh hitting on flesh.

       Sangwoo lost his coolness instantly.

       “Uh, uh, uh… ugh…”

       Even though Jaeyoung acted tough, his arms still held Sangwoo’s waist tightly, and his lips moved up to touch his cheek, breathing heavily like a roar in the ear.

       Not being able to see ahead, Sangwoo felt that his sense of touch became even more sensitive. The weight of Jaeyoung pressing down on him, his scent, the breath that felt like a threatening sound in his ear, the squelching sound of saliva, the sharp sound of bed frame, the wet feeling of his soaked shirt as if it had just come out of water, and the heavy pressure on his body that made him unable to hold back his groans.

       “Ah, ahh! Ah, oppa… Jae… Jaeyoung.”

       “Uh, ah, ah… right answer.”

       Sangwoo often forgot that his hands were tied and attempted to reach out to Jaeyoung. He wanted to embrace his neck and hold him, but he couldn’t. With regret, he tried to spread his legs as far apart as possible. In an instant,

       Jaeyoung’s upper body went deeper and rubbed against the inside wall.

       “Ah, ah!”

       After colliding and almost tearing their bodies apart for a moment, the pain quickly turned into unexpected pleasure, and that was the only pleasure in this world that he was given. Jaeyoung pushed himself in, roughly rubbing Sangwoo’s hair and pulling. Then, he forcefully stuck his stiff tongue into his mouth, as if it was his body. Sangwoo sucked on it without consciousness and began to match his movements waist with Jaeyoung’s rhythm.

       The sound of moaning grew louder, saliva dribbled from the edge of their mouths, and their chests touched closely. The overwhelming pleasure made his brain go blank, and the embarrassment disappeared. He even forgot the resentment that Jaeyoung had provoked unjustly. If there was something he didn’t like, there was only one thing, the fact that he couldn’t see the other person’s face at that moment.

       “Sang… Woo-ya.”

       Amidst the loud moaning, Jaeyoung muttered with a hoarse voice. It was uncertain whether he felt it himself or not, but it was clear to see that the other party’s cock was getting bigger and bigger. But the reproductive organ that had always been difficult to penetrate into the same old place remained stubborn and difficult to slide in, diligently pushing against the inner wall. “If…you.”

       “Uhum.”

    “Remember, if you switch your thinking off with other vermin, you will die for sure.”

    “Huh, huh, uh huh, uh, shut the fuck…up.”

    Sangwoo had no consciousness to reply in language, he flicked his face sideways to match the rhythm of Jaeyoung’s movements. The feeling of something encroaching on his limited spaced hole made his skin crawl, causing him to feel like crying. Every time the connecting parts came close, his hair stood on end, and his body trembled. He wanted to push Jang Jaeyoung away, want to swallow the other party, and want to embrace the other party, more than anything else. Above everything else, he wanted to see the face of that person and wanted to touch that body to the fullest.

    “Ah, huh. Don’t like it. Don’t…like it.”

    “Don’t like…anything. Even though I really like it.”

    “I…want, huh! I want to see you.”

    His difficult plea was stifled. Not only that, it only further stimulated Jaeyoung. Jaeyoung exhaled heavily, lingering beside his ear, affecting his body more intensely than before.

    “Ah, uh, huh! Please…I beg you…”

    Poke, poke, poke. The speed increased gradually, making Sangwoo unable to keep up with the movements of the person above even a little bit. His body, which relied on Jaeyoung softly, trembled violently, accompanied by the sharp sound of metal, so loud that it made his ears hurt. The sound of grinding teeth, no matter how hard he tried to suppress it, was replaced by cries in an instant.

    The impending feeling rushed in his balls faster than usual, coming up like rising water. Sangwoo tried to hold it back in every possible way, but since both of his hands were tied up, there was no way to resist. The dam of water endured the continuous onslaught a few times and finally exploded.

    Pure white delight poured over his body, trying to wash away every nerve sensation, tears, sweat, saliva, everything soaked in pleasure and writhing without order. Sangwoo both surprised and hated Jaeyoung for tying him so tightly and making him feel so miserable that he cried out in anguish.

    Jaeyoung pressed his body against Sangwoo’s and hesitated for a moment, then his lips touched the corner of the other’s mouth, his wet tongue licked the edge of his eyelids and slid down to his chin. After that, not long after, the front image brightened.

    Sangwoo locked eyes with Jaeyoung through teary eyes. Jaeyoung raised his hand to wipe the remaining tears on his cheeks and used his tongue to lick.

       “Afraid that I’ll be thirsty?”

       “I’ve told you before, I don’t like it!”

       “It’s alright. You are good at it.”

       Jaeyoung smiled and put his hands on both sides of Sangwoo’s waist and lifted slightly, causing the cock still lodged in his body to shift and press on the sensitive spot. Sangwoo’s eyes closed tightly and a moan escaped, the cock that had just released cum a while ago slowly hardened without any signs of fatigue.  “Wait, hyung…”

       “Why?”

       “Untie my hands…please. I’m uncomfortable.”

       “It’s a punishment for teasing me.”

       “Just untie my hands, you bad person.”

       Jaeyoung let out a breath that sounded like a laugh. Sangwoo couldn’t see the other party clearly because of teary lashes acting like curtains. As he blinked, the liquid at the corner of his eye flowed and wet his cheeks.

       “What should I do, huh? Do you think crying will solve it?”

       Jaeyoung softly grumbled and lowered his body. Then, he gently kissed the corner of Sangwoo’s eye as if he had never been rough before, his tongue licking away the tears. At the same time, his hand reached over to the headboard and unfastened the tightly tied buckle.

       The moment he was set free. Sangwoo wrapped his arms around the other’s neck. Once he held onto that shoulder, he didn’t want to let go anymore.

       Jaeyoung laughed, unable to speak immediately.

       “I forgive you because I see that you’re cute.”

       “Give me a kiss…foolish person.”

       “Yes.”

       Jaeyoung’s tongue slid through the corner of his mouth into Sangwoo’s mouth and lifted his body in one motion. He had just cried and expected the other party to be a little more gentle, but it turned out to be the opposite. Jaeyoung lifted Sangwoo’s body slightly and hugged him. Then, he lifted his lower body until there was a sound of flesh colliding, as if his moans turned into fueling desires. Sangwoo held onto that shoulder tightly and lowered his hips to let his body get penetrated faster.

       “Sang… Woo-ya, please control yourself a bit.”

       “Oh, huh! Can’t… Ugh!”

       “You… are teasing too much… I’ve almost cummed several times.”

       Jaeyoung whispered quietly, hugging Sangwoo, who was lost in thought. Despite Sangwoo holding Jaeyoung tightly by the neck, as the penetration grew deeper, his body began to shake uncontrollably.

       Jaeyoung smiled softly and sucked on the corners of Sangwoo’s lips, which were swollen and tender from countless kisses. Below, their bodies intertwined passionately. While it seemed like the angry animal had turned into a gentle lover, there was not much change. The rhythm of their lower bodies colliding became faster and more intense.

       “Oh, huh, huh! Ah… Hyung…”

       “Why, darling… Do you like it?”

       “Ah, uh… Mmm.”

       Jaeyoung firmly held onto Sangwoo’s trembling thighs, his face flushed like a person caught in the wind. Although he couldn’t fully open his eyes, his hips moved even faster, like a timid predator. Their hands entwined, lips pressed against each other, the two bodies melding together, and the synchronized breaths pushed Sangwoo towards ultimate pleasure once again.

       As soon as he closed his eyes with an overwhelming stimulation he couldn’t resist, the large hand cupped his cheek as if to strike. Jaeyoung wanted Sangwoo to always look at him. When he pouted and lifted his eyes, the other person smiled, causing the corners of his eyes to droop even more. It was an unbelievably joyful smile for such a passionate and intense love that made sweat drip down their temples.

       Sangwoo smiled foolishly, forgetting that he had just cried. Jaeyoung’s mouth hung open with a floating expression, and then he let Sangwoo lie down and held his body tightly. As their lower bodies continued to collide, the person on top pressed his lips onto his neck and sucked on his flesh until it hurt.

       “You… have to do this with me… alone, ah, forever.”

       “Ah, ah! Mmm, huh, mmm.”

       “Damn it, just try… cheating on me, and I… I will… fuck you till…”

       “Uh…ah…, stop…. fucking… talking nonsense!”

       They held hands tightly, while their bodies trembled. As Jaeyoung gently brushed his forehead against Sangwoo’s shoulder and closed his eyes, the other gently slipped a finger into his mouth. Sangwoo was reaching his limit, biting Jaeyoung’s finger and tightly embracing his neck, but he couldn’t withstand it any longer.

       The moment Jaeyoung whispered his name in his ear, the deep connection spread throughout Sangwoo’s body, causing pure happiness to cover him from head to toe. Sangwoo was burning, both physically and mentally, as he was overwhelmed by a single person, by the fullness, by Jang Jaeyoung.

       Sangwoo felt as if he couldn’t breathe anymore.

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