NORTHHOWMUCHISYOURLOVE, Chapter 22 part 2
“I heard they went to secretly pick lemons from behind the agriculture faculty. It’s pathetic, why doesn’t our faculty have any funds?” I said, shaking my head slightly.
“Nao, watch your hands!” I shouted, feeling a shiver down my spine every time Nao raised the knife. Hey, Tiger, come help your wife before she chops her hand off! “Nao.” I turned around because I heard someone calling, only to see Tiger carrying a KFC bag full of food. He set the bag on the table, “Brought some food for you, how’s it going?”
“Thanks, it’s tough, my arms hurt like hell. What are you guys selling?”
“Meatballs.”
“It’d be nice if we sold something simple like that.” I said. Each department was selling various things because we needed lots of booths throughout the event. I heard that Tiger’s group was selling meatballs, which is great because you just buy them and steam them to sell, unless you have to make the meatballs yourself, which is hard.
“Are you guys selling cool drinks?” Tiger raised an eyebrow, “Do we have to make it ourselves?”
“The girls ordered it.” Duennao answered, “Good thing we don’t have to grow them ourselves.”
“The Agriculture Faculty grows them for us. Our job is just to go and steal them.” I said.
“Damn, that’s good, do you want me to help?”
“Come on then.”
“Isn’t it just you, North, who squeezes the lemons?”
“What do you mean by ‘just’? I’ve squeezed so many that my hands are all wrinkly. Look.” I said, showing my hands, which were indeed wrinkly. I’ve never squeezed so many lemons in my life that my hands got like this.
“Wow…” Tiger looked at my hands and then burst into laughter, “Your boyfriend will be upset when he finds out, how will you explain that?”
“Probably not.” I said. Suddenly, the faint smell of cigarette smoke wafted over; someone must be smoking nearby. Just like Phii Joe had told me, whenever I smell smoke, I should think of him. And I did miss him, truly. Phii Joe had tried to quit, and he was serious about it, but there were times he couldn’t resist and had to smoke. I never really minded because he was trying to cut down, and every time I smelled smoke, I would think of him.
Especially now when I was already missing him, it made me miss him even more.
And when I missed him, it was specifically when we…kissed, because that’s when I usually smelled the cigarette smoke from Phii Joe.
Sigh…
“North.”
“Huh!”
“Spacing out again.” Duennao said, “You do that a lot, missing him again?”
“It’s not ‘again’, I’m always missing him.” I said, letting out another sigh before standing up to wash my hands, dispose of the lemon peels, and place the lemon water cups on the table. I turned to see Tiger sitting there, peeling coconuts instead of Nao. It was quite a sight.
The cool engineering student from that day was the one peeling coconuts for his girlfriend today.
Tiger was really cool, especially during the Moon and Star. contest. I voted for him because I thought he was the best, whether it was during the Q&A, his performance, or the fashion show.
“What do you think?” Tiger asked.
“What do you mean by ‘think’?” I asked back.
“What are you talking about? Come sit here.” Tiger said. I then sat next to him as instructed, with Duennao on the other side. I hope Nao doesn’t misunderstand and think Tiger likes me again, especially after this conversation. “When you say you miss someone, how do you miss them?” “Well…” I paused for a moment to gather my thoughts, “I just miss him, want to see him, talk to him, see his face. Wondering what he’s doing right now, if he’s eating all his meals or just working. I’m really worried, I wish he was here right now. If we were together now, what would it be like?”
“Just like that?” Tiger asked.
“Yeah, something like that. Why?”
“So you really miss him a lot.”
“A lot, indeed. But why do you ask?” I repeated my question, what’s going on?
“Did you hear that?”
“Huh?” I looked at Tiger with confusion as he took off his earbuds and put the phone on speaker, allowing me to hear the voice from the other end.
(Yeah, I heard.)
Phii Joe!!
That jerk!!!
“Phii…” I called out instinctively, my heart pounding again upon hearing his voice, and feeling even more embarrassed realizing that Phii Joe had heard everything. What’s wrong with you, Tiger, T^T
(Miss me that much, huh?)
!!
“Phii…why are you…talking to Tiger?”
(Yeah, I had a little business with him.)
“Oh…I see.” What should I do now? What should I say? “Phii…are you free now?”
(Not free, I have to hang up now.)
“…”
“Man, you’re all droopy.” Tiger said, chuckling a bit at my demeanor. Do we have to hang up already? I wanted to talk more. Can’t we talk a bit more? (Let’s hang up for now.)
“Uh…okay.” And then the line was cut off. We only managed to exchange a few sentences. This just makes me miss him more. “Why didn’t you tell me you were talking to Phii Joe?”
“So you could say you missed him, of course, you went all out.”
“What are you talking about?” I said, trying to hide my embarrassment. I had told him I missed him before, but not to this extent, it’s super embarrassing, isn’t it? Plus, I said it without thinking. Damn it. What did I just say? “You’re terrible, you made it seem like I could talk, but we barely spoke before hanging up.”
“It’ll make you miss him even more, right?”
“Yeah, you devil.” I said with a frustrated look. You said if I heard his voice, it would make him want to come back to me, so does he feel like coming back to me now?
While I was lost in thought, the engineering faculty’s event started gearing up. People from both inside and outside the university began to stroll by, continuously buying various things. The coconut water sales went through the roof when girls found out that the engineering department was the one peeling the coconuts himself. Tiger’s arm muscles were about to pop.
As evening set in, the crowd grew even larger, mostly for the concert. The lights illuminated the entire gear yard, creating a really nice atmosphere. I love this warm-toned lighting.
“Tiger, someone asked for your LINE.” Duennao whispered, discreetly pointing at a group of girls standing near the booth, “The one in the white shirt.”
I glanced over, she’s really beautiful. Just like Nao said, Tiger is always surrounded by pretty and cute people…
Phii Joe is the same, isn’t he?
“No.” Tiger said, turning back to continue peeling coconuts. “Really not giving it? She’s cute, though.”
“Tell her I’m not giving it.”
“Okay.” Nao nodded before walking over to tell the girl. She looked disappointed before leaving with her group of friends. Tiger really does reject everyone for Duennao.
“Hey, Nao.” I called out, “How’s the game streaming going?”
“It’s going well, really well actually. More and more people are following and donating, so I’ll have some money saved to go see Dan.” Oh, Dan…that’s his brother, he always talks about wanting to visit him.
“And those two people who always donate to you, are they still around?” I asked. It was my turn to play crew member. If I couldn’t ask about Tiger, then I’d ask about his ‘Phii Kant’.
“Oh, yeah, they’re here almost every time. Why?”
“No reason, but those two seem to really like you, especially the one named Kant, he pays a lot.”
My words made Tiger look up at me immediately.
Tiger, you better watch out, quality crew member, strong brew without milk.
“Oh…” Duennao said hesitantly with a forced smile, “They just like watching the streams.”
“No, no, they really like you. Otherwise, why would they pay so much?” I insisted. From Duennao’s expression, it was clear that Nao wasn’t oblivious to others’ feelings, just like me. I can usually tell when someone is interested or approaching. If they show it, that is. Tiger doesn’t count because he never shows anything.
So that means…
Nao knows…but pretends not to, because he doesn’t feel the same way.
Just like how I act with Phii Tharn.
“Well…they just see me through the screen, but when they meet me in person, they might not like me.” Nao said casually, not seeming to care or be upset.
The situation with Tiger and Duennao isn’t just about Tiger being totally dense. He just doesn’t express anything. For Nao, his relationship with Tiger might be like mine, just normal friends. No one would suddenly think their friend has a crush on them, especially if they’re both guys, because it really seems like a regular friendship.
Nao isn’t feeling anything towards him. If I was Nao, I wouldn’t know either. Tiger is really good at hiding it, but he has his reasons. If you step out of the friend zone and can’t go back, who knows. If you try to move beyond friendship and can’t go back to being friends, and can’t be lovers either, you might just get ejected from all zones. Having a crush on a friend is genuinely tough, even if I don’t really understand it since I’ve never experienced it.
But I’ll continue to be this small crew member because no one loves Duennao like Tiger does. There must come a day when it’s our turn, Tiger!
“And why do you think they wouldn’t like you in person?” I asked.
“I don’t know, maybe I’m not that nice in real life.”
“Yeah, I agree with that.”
“North, you’re not comforting me at all, saying they won’t like me. You’re supposed to say nice things like ‘You’re a good person’.” Duennao said.
“Come on. I don’t want to lie. How can I say you’re good when you’re not?” I said, following my thoughts, “Maybe there are people who like your kind of shitty personality, you know, not necessarily being good.”
“Why does this hurt so much?” Nao said, touching his chest as if he was really hurt, “I don’t know. It would be nice if there were someone who could handle my shitty personality.” The “shitty personality” of Duennao here refers to his hot temper. Nao is easily irritated, which is the only flaw I see in him, and I’m the same way.
There’s Tiger, who deals with Nao’s crap every day, and he even says it feels like being tickled by a cat’s paw.
“And if there really is someone?”
“There isn’t, forget it, let’s work. Go and get the ice bucket.” Duennao said, before sending me to fetch the ice bucket. He uses me like he’s paying me thousands. Well, all the profit goes back to the department anyway, yet he still talks about sales targets. Hah, did I get even a single baht for squeezing lemons until my hands get wrinkly?
“Damn it.” I muttered with annoyance after placing the ice bucket down, “How much do we need to sell?”
“I saw in the group chat they said two thousand.” Kyu told us.
“Are you crazy? Water is twenty-five baht per glass, how many glasses do I have to sell?” Duennao complained, “The concert is about to start. I want to go watch, heard that the head hazer is performing, they’re the first band.”
“Really? That’d be cool to watch.” I said, wondering if the head hazer would need a microphone with his already powerful voice. Seeing that the concert was about to start, Duennao and I asked if we could go watch, and Kyu said it was fine, he and Skater would watch the booth.
“North.”
“Huh.” I turned towards Tiger’s whisper.
“I want to watch the concert with Nao, just the two of us.”
“…”
“Fine, Tiger, you treat me like this.” I said, feeling annoyed. Why do I feel like I’m the third wheel? At home, I have to deal with Ter talking to Phii Hill, and now here, I’m being excluded again, T^T “I’m so jealous of couples.” “When your boyfriend’s not here, you’re a bit sad, huh?” Tiger said with a raised eyebrow, annoyingly, “Just go mix with the crowd when we get there.”
“Man, you’re harsh to me.” I grumbled quietly, “Alright, alright, then buy me food.”
“I already bought you food.”
“Ugh, fine, okay, single people are like this, right?” I said, feeling down.
“Single? Still not dating?”
“Here we go again. You too.” Why do people keep asking? It must seem strange, and after being asked so often, it’s starting to feel bad. I’ll ask him when he’s back.
“Then follow this plan. When you get into the concert, quietly sneak out.”
“Alright, Tiger, since I’m the crew member here. I’ll help create a moment for you two at the concert.” I said, sacrificing myself to watch the concert alone. How much am I doing for you, Tiger, T^T?
The three of us entered the concert area, which was more like a performance on the Gear Lawn. The stage lights and surrounding lights made the atmosphere very beautiful. There were a lot of people, and the closer you got to the stage, the more crowded it became. Duennao, who wanted to see up close, squeezed through the crowd, followed by Tiger trying to keep up. And me…
I’m fine right here, TT.
I stayed in the middle, not too close or too far, so the crowd wasn’t pushing as much, allowing me to breathe easier. I could see the seniors performing on stage, but I was mostly just listening to the music.
I was so jealous of those two, getting to watch the concert together. Ter said he would come with Phii Hill and visit our booth. Everyone seems to be in pairs. If Phii Joe were here, it would be nice to invite him too. Would he like this noisy atmosphere? Maybe not, but being here together would still be good.
I shook off those thoughts. There are still five days until he comes back, and thinking about it just makes me feel lonely all the time.
While I was focused on the concert, or rather, just listening since I couldn’t see much, suddenly someone’s hand came down on my shoulder, turning me around.
Phii Johan!!
How…why…
“Ah!!” Suddenly, I was pulled close, one hand pushing my nape up, and his lips pressed against mine before I could react. My eyes widened in shock, seeing everyone around looking at us, all equally surprised. There was a collective gasp because there were so many people around, before his large hand covered my eyes, as if to say there was no need to look at anyone else, and his other arm pulled me even closer.
The familiar touch and scent that I missed made my heart swell as if something was about to burst out. The heat spread across my face as the kiss deepened, just a slight flick of his tongue, another heavy press of his lips before he pulled away.
I was so confused, not knowing what to do, with hundreds of eyes on us. My heart was beating so fast it felt like it might explode at any moment, my arms and legs numb.
“What’s wrong?” I heard the voice in front of me ask, but I didn’t dare make eye contact, even though the person I missed to the point of nearly crying every day was standing right in front of me, yet I couldn’t do anything.
“…”
“What’s wrong? You were missing me, weren’t you?”
!!
Phii Joe lifted my chin, making me look up. I stared at the face that often floated into my thoughts, but now it wasn’t just in my thoughts anymore. Phii Johan looked back at me without looking away, revealing… A faint smile.
“Phii…”
Before Phii Johan switched to holding my hand, pulling me along with him. As we walked away from the gear yard, people were watching us the whole way, but he paid them no mind. Meanwhile, all I could do was keep my head down and follow him.
After being in Boston for several days, now back, and…he kisses me right in the middle of the gear yard like this?
Good grief…
We arrived at a luxurious car I wasn’t familiar with. Not an Audi or a Jaguar like before. He released my hand and opened the passenger door for me.
“Where…are we going?”
“Just for a drive.” I didn’t respond before getting into the car. Phii Joe walked over to the driver’s side, and the luxurious car started moving away from the engineering faculty, driving along until we reached a hill that was quite dark but didn’t seem too dangerous. I thought he might be taking me to a viewpoint on the hill since it’s open late at night.
And I was right…
The car stopped at the viewpoint on the hill. After getting out, I felt the cool breeze. We walked a bit to where they had set up a fence, and I sat down on a bench with him sitting next to me.
Being higher up, the view of the city below was clear. I had never been here before; the sight of the city at night with all the lights was so beautiful that I stared at it without looking away. There were only a few dim lights at this viewpoint, making the city lights and the soft glow from the moon above even more prominent, along with the stars twinkling across the sky, clearly visible, different from when viewed from within the city. “Do you like it?” the voice from beside me asked.
“Yes, it’s very beautiful. Thank you for bringing me here.” I said, smiling at him, though I thought it was too dark for Phii Joe to see it.
“Didn’t you say you wanted to come see this?”
Oh…
Yes. I just mentioned it casually because I was scrolling through Instagram and saw friends posting pictures here at night, while he was working. I didn’t think he would remember.
“Thank you.” I said, “Why are you back so early? Weren’t there still five days left?”
“Well, someone said they missed me, wanted to see my face, wanted to talk. If we could be together, it would be nice…right?” Phii Johan asked, and I was grateful it was dark here because I was sure my face must be very red. My heart started beating heavily again, and I clasped my hands tightly together. I didn’t understand the feeling that was swelling up in my chest, and it seemed to be overflowing steadily.
“Yes. Being together would be nice.” I replied softly, feeling many things stuck inside, but not knowing what to say or how to continue.
Before we both let the silence envelop us, a cool breeze passed by, making it feel a bit cooler. I intended to keep both my hands clasped, but one was pulled away and held instead. I just noticed that Phii Johan still had the gear bracelet I once put on him on his left wrist.
He never took it off, huh.
That’s really nice…
It’s so warm, his hands are always warm.
“And how was Boston?” I finally decided to ask, “You didn’t just drink coffee instead of eating, did you?” “Ah, no, I didn’t. You told me to eat properly, didn’t you?” Phii Johan said in a calm tone. Yes…I had told him he needed to eat meals, not just drink coffee.
“Good. I was really worried.” I said, then broke into a broad smile for the person next to me. Saying this out loud somehow felt embarrassing, “I wanted to call and tell you to eat every meal, but I was afraid to disturb you. I kept thinking it would be nice to be with you, but I was also scared you might not feel the same.”
I really felt this way, wanting to be with him every day. No matter how good or bad that day might be, I didn’t know if he wanted to be with me too.
“Do you know…the work in Boston…”
“Yes…?”
“It wasn’t that hard, really, but when I turned around and didn’t see you next to me, everything seemed difficult. What I want to say is…having you by my side really makes things better.”
“…”
“So, can you stay with me forever?”
“…”
“Be my boyfriend.”
Before he gently kissed the back of my hand, the warm touch and the words I heard made my chest feel warm, then I felt the heat at the corners of my eyes as if all the feelings I had been holding back were pouring out.
“Okay.” I agreed with a soft, tearful voice, tears I didn’t know where they came from streaming down my cheeks. I bit my lip tightly, then lunged forward to hug him out of longing and yearning, letting the sobs come out, not caring about anything else.
“Okay, hic, I will be, I will be.” I repeated my agreement because saying it once didn’t feel like enough. Phii Johan pulled me into a tighter hug, gently stroking my head. “I know, I know.”
“Phii…why do you do this? I missed you so much I could die, you cheater.” I said, my voice barely coherent, hugging Phii Joe even tighter. I missed this warmth so much, I missed his scent.
“You said you were busy, asked to hang up again, did you know how much I wanted to talk? How much did I wanted to hear your voice?”
“I know. But at that time, I was already at the airport.”
“See, you’re a cheater.”
“Hmm?”
“A cheater, you made me addicted then disappeared, do you know Ter curses at me every night? Lately, he’s even made me sleep on the floor.”
“You’ve been burrowing into Ter again?”
“Yes. All because of you.”
“Then I’ll take responsibility, okay? I’ll hug you to sleep every night.”
“…”
“Yes, okay.”
I looked up at him with a slight pout. After a while of sobbing, Phii Johan released his embrace, wiping my tears away with a quick, clumsy motion. I didn’t understand myself, how I could be like this, but I missed him, really missed him. I tried not to cry, but in the end, I did, feeling like a little kid.
“Such a crybaby.”
“Don’t tease me.” I said, feeling sulky.
“We can go back now.” Phii Joe said before leading the way to the car. At first, I thought only a short time had passed, but when I checked the time, I realized we had been up there for quite a while. I think I really like this place. It’s where Phii Johan asked me to be his boyfriend. Plus, it’s incredibly beautiful.
Boyfriend…
We’re boyfriends now.
Really?
Oh my, why does thinking about it make me feel so embarrassed?
I got into the car, and Phii Johan sat there for a moment, fiddling with his phone before putting it away and starting the engine. I didn’t dare say anything on the way back, and neither did he. Then suddenly, my phone notification sounded, and I saw that it was from Ter on LINE.
Easter: Hey, this is not just anything, ><
Easter: Congratulations, by the way.
North♣: What?
Easter: Oh. You’re dating now, right?
North♣: How do you know?
Easter: Phii Joe posted a picture.
Easter: Wait.
Easter: sends image
Easter: Here you go.
I opened the picture Ter sent. It was a screenshot from Phii Johan’s Instagram. The latest post was the view from where we were just now, just the beautiful cityscape. It wasn’t in black and white either, probably the only colored photo on Phii Joe’s Instagram.
The caption read, “He said, ‘YES’“
I couldn’t help but smile at the picture. Should I post a picture too? Because I also took a photo of the same view.
I went ahead and posted the view I had taken, it was a similar shot from the same angle.
And I captioned it, “A million times, YES’ :)”
“And how was the work in Boston?” I asked as we were walking up to the condo. In the end, I had to stay here again because I couldn’t refuse, and Phii Joe said that I would have to move here anyway.
“It was good.” Phii Joe answered simply before tapping the keycard to open the door.
“Did you come back early because the work finished quickly?” I asked. There were so many things I wanted to ask, really. The person in front of me opened the door and walked in, so I followed. Before I knew it, I was pulled towards the sofa, ending up straddling his lap. Without much time to think, his lips were on mine again.
“Ah!” I gasped in surprise, Phii Joe kissed me more intensely, his hot tongue exploring and tangling with mine, his hands gripping my waist tightly and pulling me closer. I responded to the touch with a mix of boldness and fear, closing my eyes tightly, my heart beating fast like it was about to explode again.
His warm hands began to roam, lifting my shirt. My stomach fluttered instantly, his touch alone making my body react, our warm breaths mingling. Phii Joe used one hand to pull my shirt off without warning, and with the other, he slipped into my pants.
“Ah, uh!” I let out a muffled cry because Phii Joe hadn’t moved his lips away, I placed both hands on his chest, gripping his shirt tightly. His hand that had taken off my shirt now moved between my waist and stomach, slowly moving up to my chest, gently pinching and circling my nipple, making me moan again.
“Phii…ah.”
Phii Johan slowly pulled his lips away, his eyes fixed on mine, the feeling of emptiness in my stomach and the flush of heat on my chest intensified as he squeezed my hips. My heart felt like it was about to burst…
He leaned in to whisper softly in my ear. “The time for patience is over.”
!!!
“Uh.” Before my mind could process anything more, he nuzzled my neck, biting down hard enough to leave another red mark. I winced in pain before he dragged his touch down to my chest.
“Ah, Phii…Phii Joe, ah.” when his hot tongue licked over my nipple. I clenched my fists, arching into the sensation without realizing, he bit down a little harder, making my whole body jerk, before the hand that was gripping my hip slowly began to pull down my pants.
As for the belt, I don’t know when it got taken off…
Phii Johan pulled me into another kiss, our tongues intertwining, creating embarrassing sounds. He pressed his lips down heavily, turning into a familiar rhythm of kisses. I jolted when his hands roamed my thighs, because I was sitting on his lap, and this position was…too close, too intimate.
My pants’ zipper was slowly undone by Phii Joe, who hooked his fingers into the waistband before pulling them down. I wanted to close my legs out of embarrassment, but the position I was in wouldn’t allow it. Phii Johan lifted me slightly with both hands to make it easier to take off my pants, and the throbbing ache intensified to the point of being almost torturous.
“Ah, uh, Phii…ah…”
While he hadn’t yet broken the kiss, his hot tongue still flicked all over, causing my heart to beat so hard it felt like it might burst. No matter how fast I breathed, it wasn’t enough, feeling like I was drowning as usual. He was also breathing harder, indicating his growing arousal.
Our warm breaths mingled. I jolted when his warm hand suddenly touched my now awake manly part, his fingers pressing softly at the tip, another finger touching the base and moving back and forth. “Oh, oh, ah…” I could hardly form words, Phii Johan didn’t give me a moment to catch my breath, biting down hard on both my upper and lower lips before moving his kisses down to my neck, sending shivers through me, and even more when the hand on my core started to touch more, gripping and moving slowly.
“Uh, ah, oh, Phii…” His other hand held my waist, caressing my back as that hand quickened its pace little by little, driving me almost insane. I’d never felt like this before. I was panting so hard my chest was heaving, feeling like all the energy was being sucked out of me. I slumped forward, resting my face on his shoulder, unable to help it.
“Ah, ah, Phii, uh, please…”
“…”
“Uh…I can’t…ah…”
“Hmm?”
“No…no, ah…” When his hand moved faster, I was practically losing my mind, trying to clench my fists but had no strength. My legs move involuntarily, my hips twisting with the sensations from the person in front of me. A warm flush spread from my stomach down. My breathing got even heavier as I was about to reach my peak.
“Phii…oh, ah…”
“Why call for me, hmm?”
“Oh. I…I’m going to ah…” I couldn’t breathe fast enough with my heart beating too wildly, my whole body feeling hot. Phii Johan seemed even more pleased seeing I was about to reach my limit, his warm breath caressing my neck, his deep voice whispering by my ear as if teasing.
And when I couldn’t hold back anymore, I, already drained of energy, gave out completely, leaving a white smear on his hand. I leaned against the person in front of me, unable to move. Given just a few moments to catch my breath, I felt something growing against me, and was shocked again when slender fingers used that white smear to rub along my back entrance.
“Ah! again!” I bit my lip tightly when his slender fingers slowly entered from behind, his other hand gripping my hip firmly. I closed my eyes tightly out of fear.
It hurts…it hurts so much.
“Does it hurt?” The deep voice whispered softly. I didn’t dare let him see my face, as I was feeling too flushed and embarrassed.
“Ahh! ah, uh!” I quickly bit my lip when my voice came out too loud, as his long fingers moved in and out. The pain gradually turned into a tingling sensation. Seeing that I was trying to hold back my moans, he pushed his fingers in deeper, “Uh!”
“Show me what you want to do.” After the whisper, the movement of his fingers became faster, adding a second finger, which made me cry out louder despite myself. I winced at the mix of pain and an unfamiliar sensation, and because of his deep voice by my ear, my mind scattered once again.
Yes…I was defeated.
Completely defeated.
I slowly reached out with my trembling hand, touching the fly of his pants, hesitating on what to do next. I kept my face buried in his shoulder and neck, not even daring to look up.
Go in.
“Hurry up.” the deep, low voice urged again, the feeling of emptiness and churning in my stomach intensified with each movement of his fingers. As my body started to get used to two fingers, he gradually added a third.
“Ugh…it hurts! It hurts. It hurts.” I cried out immediately feeling a sharp pain, but he kept pushing three fingers in, “Hic, it hurts, it really hurts.” “Just bear with it a little longer.”
“Otherwise, you won’t be able to handle it later.”
“Uhmm, uh, uh.” I bit my lip tightly, but sounds still escaped from my throat. When I unzipped his pants, my mind was too overwhelmed to process much else. I reached out and gently touched his manhood.
I was surprised by its size; my hand couldn’t even wrap around it fully, and it seemed to grow even more with my touch. Then I began to move my hand slowly, with a mix of fear and boldness.
The other warm, heavy breathing quickened as my hand moved faster. Not long after, all three fingers were withdrawn, and I instinctively moved my hips following.
Phii Johan positioned me to lean back slightly, then took off his shirt, revealing his broad chest and beautiful muscles, his abs defined with a tattoo at his waist.
He roughly pushed my hair back and licked my lips, which made me feel as if both my body and heart were being scorched by the sun.
Oh, my…
Why is he so…
“Ah!” I cried out in surprise as he suddenly made me sit up higher until I was kneeling between his legs. Phii Joe pushed my hips down, my back entrance touching his large core, and as Phii Johan pressed my hips down more, his large thing entered me further and further.
“Ah! more, Phii, it hurts, it hurts, oh…” I said when the pain was at its peak, even more than when he used three fingers earlier. Phii Joe himself grimaced slightly while trying to thrust into me.
“Uh, it’s so tight.” “Oh!” I gasped again, closing my eyes tightly due to the pain from behind until he was all the way in. I felt uncomfortable because of its size, feeling him truly inside me.
“Umm, relax a bit.” Phii Johan said in a lower voice, groaning slightly as he began to move my hips up and down slowly.
“Phii…ah, ahh…” As my back entrance started to get used to it, Phii Joe began moving my hips faster, the pain turning into a tingling sensation. I looked at him with blurred vision.
Why is this man so formidable…
I must go mad because of him someday.
“Ah, ah, Phii…Phii Joe, uh…” I called out incoherently, instinctively moving my hips to match his rhythm, it began to get more intense until I could hear the sounds of flesh meeting. When he hit a certain spot inside me, I couldn’t help but cry out louder. It seemed like Phii Johan knew which spot felt better for me, so he thrust into that point repeatedly.
“Ugh, ah! I…I can’t…can’t take it…oh…”
When the pleasure reached its peak, I released again, then felt something warm and hot being shot into my back passage, overflowing.
“Oh…” I breathed heavily through both my mouth and nose. Phii Johan wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted me without letting me rest for long, carelessly discarding his pants and walking towards the bed.
Wait…ugh?
I sat on the bed with white fluid still dripping from my back hole, staining everything. When I looked up, I could see Phii Johan clearly.
His body is really good, those abs and that tattoo at his waist…
Phii Joe gave a slight smirk as if teasing me, before he moved closer and kissed me gently then more intensely. Before I could react further, Phii Johan pressed my body down onto the bed, straddling me and slowly spreading my legs. His slender fingers didn’t go in deep, just moved back and forth, making white fluid spill out.
“Uhmm, ugh.” the large manhood entered once more. This time, it wasn’t me moving my hips; it was him taking control. I could feel it thrusting inside, moving in and out slowly then picking up speed.
“Ah, ah, ah, Phii…ah.”
“Umm.” Phii Johan bit his lip slightly before glancing at me, his eyes narrowed in a way that always seemed to mesmerize me. His thrusts were relentless and strong, the sound of our bodies meeting echoed, repeatedly hitting my sensitive spot, driving me nearly insane with each hit, my heart pounding so hard I feared it might burst.
I twisted under him.
The mix of pain and pleasure overwhelmed me. I raised a hand to cover my face when he looked at me, but Phii Joe moved both my hands away and kissed me passionately again.
My whole body trembled with each thrust, my hands gripping his arms tightly to manage the overwhelming sensations. I couldn’t take it anymore; why did I feel like I was going mad?
Before I knew it, he had me turn over, entering me again from behind. After just a few movements, I reached my climax, while he showed no signs of finishing yet.
This position allowed him to go even deeper, Phii Johan focused on my sensitive spots repeatedly. I tried to hold back my moans, but I couldn’t, letting out loud cries almost every time, then flinching slightly as he kissed my back, marking his ownership.
My entire body felt drained, my mind fading bit by bit. I tried to hold onto the last remnants of my consciousness, my hands gripping the bed sheets tightly. When I finally let go, reaching my peak, my mind almost slipped away, then I felt his body tense, warm fluid entered me again, and he withdrew. His tall frame then pulled me into an embrace.
“…”
I was still breathing heavily, my eyes blurry, ready to close at any moment. The warmth from the person next to me made me want to burrow even closer.
Phii Johan pulled the blanket over us, his thick hand holding mine tightly, kissing away my tears while whispering softly in my ear, until my consciousness slowly faded, and I fell asleep.
“Sorry for being a bit too rough.”
“…”
“I really couldn’t hold back.”
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