GODDESSBLESSYOUFROMDEATH, Case File 46: Forever… in the First Person

The investigation of the human sacrifice murder case took months, uncovering chilling stories the father and son duo had done. After returning from Sisaket, Singha had to work like crazy repairing the station, healing injured officers, and traveling back and forth for the case. From that day until now, Thup could count how few words they exchanged each day.

The young man stared at his phone screen for a while; his account balance dwindled each day since he hadn’t taken any new jobs since his arrest. Plus, today he had to pay for the room; he’d need to start accepting drawing jobs again soon.

The sound of the door opening pulled Thup’s attention away from his banking app. Today, the older man returned earlier than usual. Normally, Thup would see Singha at dawn and then again after sunset. But today, the older man returned in the afternoon, looking utterly exhausted.

“You’re back?”

“Yeah.” Singha collapsed onto the sofa, using Thup’s lap as a pillow as usual, “I’m dead tired.”

“Why are you back so early today?”

“Got tired of arguing with that King.”

“Arguing?” Thup looked at his older brother who turned to face his stomach before closing his eyes.

“He wants to reveal the name in court that you’re the son of… never mind, I won’t allow it.” Singha snuggled into Thup’s stomach, the clean scent significantly calming his heated temper.

“If it’s necessary for your case, it’s okay.”

“It’ll be public if announced; it will be on the court record. Even if you’re not involved, others won’t care.” Thup softly stroked the older man’s back while thinking. What Singha said was true; people have different opinions. Some might sympathize with him for facing such a situation, but others might just see him as the son of a murderer. “And what are you doing now?”

“I was about to pay the rent.”

“Pay the rent? Why?”

“Well…”

“Get up.” Singha suddenly got up, stretching slightly to relieve his stiffness.

“Where to?”

“Go pack your stuff from your room, and handle the move-out so you won’t have to pay rent anymore.”

“Move here?!”

“Choose: move out from the condo, or from the house?”

“You really want me to stay here, Phii?” Thup’s eyes sparkled with joy.

“If I wanted to kick you out, I would’ve done it long ago, wouldn’t I, Thup?” The young man was so happy he couldn’t suppress his smile. He ran to hug the older man, impulsively kissing both cheeks.

“Thank you.”

“Yeah, yeah, what’s the big deal?” Singha gently ruffled the soft hair before heading out to wait by the car.

Living with Thup wasn’t bad at all. Before, he was used to working late and just sleeping at the station, eating at nearby places, not returning home for weeks. Because even if he did, there was no one there. But now, whenever he finished work, he realized someone was waiting at home. When he drove back, the once dark house had lights on, always left on for him. Every morning there was breakfast waiting before work, and no matter how late he returned, there was always food prepared for him. He only recently realized he wasn’t used to living alone; he was used to having no one.

But now there was someone. Like a big loyal dog waiting for him to come home every time.

Both arrived at Thup’s condo in half an hour. Singha let Thup handle the move-out process with the property management while he himself went up to pack some things. His sharp eyes scanned the room, noting there wasn’t much here. Most of the furniture and appliances belonged to the condo. Although he had some income from painting and selling pictures, Singha guessed it wasn’t enough for lavish spending, especially since living alone meant relying solely on oneself.

“Phii, the management gave us some boxes too.” Thup entered the room with about ten cardboard boxes. “You can sit and wait; I’ll pack myself.”

“You go pack in the bedroom; I’ll handle this area.”

“Okay.” Thup gave a wide smile that closed his eyes, before setting up the boxes for Singha to pack conveniently.

In the small condo room, there was only the sound of moving items back and forth, with occasional conversations but no feeling of awkwardness. After several hours, all the boxes were wheeled outside, ready to be moved. Thup looked at the now-empty room, reminiscent of when he first moved in, and sighed.

“I’ll take these down first then.”

Thup grabbed the older man’s hand. He inhaled deeply to gather courage for what he was about to say next.

“I have saved some money. I don’t know if it’ll cover rent for how many months at your place, but I will work, won’t be a burden to you, I promise.” Thup spoke with a serious tone, his brown eyes showing determination and sincerity.

“Your job is to do whatever you want to do; I never said you’re a burden. I don’t want your money; I can take care of a single pup like you.” Singha gently pinched the tip of the nose of the young man in front of him. “Just don’t be stubborn.”

“I am never stubborn with you.” Thup hugged the older man’s waist, resting his head on the strong neck. “I won’t be stubborn, I promise.”

“Make it real.” Singha said, lightly tapping the thick waist before raising his hand to hug back.

There was no formal declaration, but they knew from now on, they wouldn’t be alone anymore. Because they would have each other.

After bringing stuff back home and storing them in the storage room to organize later, Thup volunteered to cook dinner as a thank you, even though he usually did the cooking anyway.

“What’s up, Lieutenant?” Singha’s voice made Thup turn to look at him, who was sitting on the sofa talking on the phone.

[Inspector, do I really need to find these documents for the ceremony?]

   “Yes, why?”

[Well… can I take them home to work on? The station is eerie.]

   Singha walked into the kitchen before leaning on the counter to watch Thup drop meat into the pot. Thup turned to look at his older brother when he heard the conversation, “The priest has already performed the ceremony in the pot. The place has been repaired. What are you afraid of?”

[It’s still scary, especially when I read the news. What if the ghosts are still there?]

   Singha paused for a while before sighing, “Do whatever you want, take it wherever, but I need that work by tomorrow evening.”

[Understood!]

   Singha shook his head slightly before ending the call.

“Try this, Phii.” Thup scooped up some sauce, cooled it with a blow, and offered it to the older man.

“Yeah, it’s delicious.” The young man smiled at the compliment, “Anything else?”

“Do you think those two ghosts are still around? After Aisuan died, you haven’t seen them again, right?”

“Yes, those two ghosts were lingering spirits that needed someone to feed them, offer sacrifices, and worship. The abbott was the one who was doing it and now that person is dead. I think they’ve probably gone. Right?”

“Gone where?”

“I don’t really know.” Thup shook his head lightly; he wasn’t an expert in these matters. He only knew there’s birth, aging, sickness, death, and then dissolution, as the old monk had taught. “Let’s eat,” he said. Dinner proceeded simply as usual. Nothing special, nothing extravagant, just an ordinary day for someone who used to be alone and now has company. At the dinner table, there was chatter, both meaningful and trivial. Lately, it had always been like this, and they both knew there was no need to eat alone on a wide table anymore.

After finishing dinner, Singha went up to take a shower to wash off the day’s stickiness from his body. When he came out of the bathroom, he saw Thup sitting at the end of the bed folding clothes.

“Go take a shower.”

“In a moment.”

Singha shrugged before sitting down next to him, rotating his shoulders to relieve the fatigue from running around all day.

“Hmm.”

“Shall I give you a massage?”

“Are you tired?”

“That would be nice.” Singha changed to lying face down on the mattress, with just a towel wrapped around his waist.

Thup swallowed hard in his dry throat. Ever since that night’s incident until today, he hadn’t…

“Are you done?”

“Al…most done.” Thup folded the last piece of clothing before putting them all away in the closet. The young man then sat down on the edge of the bed, his beautiful eyes gazing at the tanned back full of muscles, down to the waist, and the dimples behind the hips, the towel lifting to reveal firm thighs. Thup took a deep breath to calm his heart, which was beating like a drum, before placing his hands on the back and gently stroking along the lines of the muscles.

“Is that all the strength you’ve got?” The deep voice brought Thup back to his senses. He began to apply more pressure, massaging from the shoulders down to the back muscles, earnestly following the muscle lines until he heard a satisfied groan from his older brother’s throat.

“Have you heard any news about… Bom?” Thup tried to find something to talk about, to keep himself from staring too much at the older man’s backside.

“He’s already been detained at the court. Can’t walk, can’t move because the skin is deformed. I heard he’s been screaming about seeing ghosts.”

“Huh? Seeing ghosts?”

“Yeah, around 3 AM, he would scream in the room before going quiet around 5 AM, then he just zones out all day.” Singha felt a soft hand sliding down to his waist, “A bit harder.”

“Should I go check for you?”

“Not scared anymore?”

“Well, I am scared… but you’ll be with me, right?”

“You’ve got your sacred necklace now.” Singha chuckled in his throat before turning to look at the kid sitting beside him.

Thup made a pouty face before grabbing a blanket to cover the older man’s lower body because the towel had ridden up quite a bit, “With you here, it’s better, isn’t it?”

“Come here.”

Thup leaned in easily, his loose T-shirt collar was tugged by Singha until their noses touched.

“I’ve got to go to work at ten tomorrow.”

“Tha… that’s great, you’ll get to rest a lot.” Thup avoided the older man’s gaze, looking towards the headboard.

“Before you speak, maybe check where your hand is.”

Thup looked down, following his gaze, and saw his hand was on the older man’s lower abdomen, if it went a bit lower, it would touch something else.

Thup looked up into Singha’s eyes before moving to hug the older man’s waist. He was losing to Singha in every way.

“Can I kiss you?”

“Can’t.” As soon as he got the answer, his beautiful eyes dimmed, Thup pouted slightly before resting his head on the shoulder, his beautiful hand unknowingly moved from the waist down to the hip, “But I didn’t say you can’t.”

Thup lifted his head immediately, grinning at the older man, then lunged at Singha, pinning him down on the bed, his full lips pressed against Singha’s, sucking gently with care because the person beneath allowed him to slip his tongue in, seeking sweetness. The first time they kissed, Thup only remembered a bitter taste, but this time he tasted the cool mint at the tip of his tongue, Thup savored the older man’s lips unhurriedly, but then found himself flipped onto the bed with Singha now on top.

“Take off your shirt.” Thup complied easily by removing his t-shirt and tossing it beside the bed, “Looks better now.”

His fair face flushed at the compliment. Throughout the month, he spent time at home, apart from cleaning, drawing, and with all the muscle he had, he dedicated himself to a bit of exercise, which started to firm up until you could see a decent set of abs. His efforts were not in vain!

“You get excited quickly about this kind of thing, huh?” Singha teased, feeling something pressing against his backside.

“Phii.” Thup said in a pleading tone, gently stroking the older man’s waist.

“Begging like this, what do you want?” Singha leaned down to kiss his fragrant neck, like a newborn puppy, a scent he had grown most accustomed to over the past months. His thick lips nibbled and kissed until Thup inadvertently scratched lightly on his tanned back. “Let me see how far what you’ve been watching has developed.”

“You saw!?” Thup jolted when he heard the sentence from the person busy with his chest.

“You left it open.” His smooth cheeks turned red up to his ears when caught looking up things on the computer, “How to prepare, how to make your partner feel good, seems like there was how to put on a condom too.”

“Phii… don’t say it.” Thup raised his hands to cover his blushing face, feeling even more embarrassed hearing it from the older man like this.

Singha chuckled in his throat before leaning in to kiss Thup’s hand. He got up and walked toward the dressing room before returning to stand beside the bed again. The white skin of the boy sitting on the bed turned redder, making him even more teasing-worthy. It wasn’t strange for him to have intimate relations with someone, but with a young man who hadn’t even had his first kiss, it was no surprise he’d turn to the internet for information.

The young inspector removed his towel, leaving just his enticing bare body. Thup stared, wide-eyed, then moved to the edge of the bed and looked up at Singha.

“If I die, it’s your fault.” The young man lamented because it felt like his heart could stop any moment. Singha reached out to hold Thup’s chin, leaning his face down until their noses nearly touched the blushing cheeks.

“If you do it poorly…” Thup swallowed hard as he saw dozens of condoms thrown onto the bed, “Next time, I’ll do it myself.”

The fair-faced Thup scanned downwards to the thick chest, the rippled abs, beautiful, down to the perfectly sized manhood. He swallowed hard again before reaching out to gently stroke it. Every part of the person in front of him looked beautiful and worth exploring. He could barely keep his composure.

Singha watched the young man move his face to kiss his hip, tracing along, following the V-line until reaching the now erect manhood. As Thup enveloped it with his lips, Singha clenched his jaw. The warm, moist mouth, though not yet skilled, was not bad at all, “Mmm, good boy, watch your teeth.” Singha said, stroking the soft hair that had grown longer. He looked at the blushing cheeks and the lips that gently held his core with gleaming eyes.

Thup tried to take in as much as he could, his slender hands gripping the hips while kneading the buttocks, lost in the moment.

“Ah, use your tongue too.” The young man looked up before starting to use his tongue, swirling around the hot core. Hearing satisfied moans made him even happier, “Damn, so good.” Singha exclaimed.

The rising passion made raw instincts kick in; he pressed Thup’s head down, thrusting deep into the warm mouth, hips moving back and forth. Soon, thick white fluid burst into Thup’s mouth, almost choking him, “Cough, cough… bro. Cough, cough.”

“Sorry, sorry, I’ll get-” Thup grabbed his hand, pulling him back to lie on the bed, then straddled him, “I was going to get your water.”

“It’s okay.” Thup’s reddened nose made Singha reach out to playfully squeeze it, “Did you like it?”

“It was good.”

“Just good, huh…” The slightly pouting face with pleading eyes made Singha pull his white neck closer.

“Next time, we’ll do it again.”

“Yes.”

Both lips meet once again, tongues entwining endlessly in playful teasing. Singha spread his legs apart to allow the younger man to come closer. Now, there was hardly any part of them that wasn’t touching. Thup moved to kiss the older man’s cheek before sliding down to his sturdy neck.

“Can I kiss here?” Thup lightly pecked the neck to indicate the spot, his hand now caressing the firm buttocks of the older man.

“No, not there either.”

“How about here then?” Thup shifted to kiss the middle of the chest before dragging his tongue to a dark colored nipple. “And here, can I kiss here?”

“Ah, yes, but where are your hands going?” Singha felt fingers pressing against his rear entrance. “Grab the gel from the bedside table first.”

“I will have to move away from you then.” he replied.

Thup released the nipple from his attention, setting it free before replying.

“You can’t do it without it. Don’t be stubborn!” The young man immediately went to fetch the gel when scolded. “Yeah, open it and squeeze it onto your fingers.”

“And then what?” Thup returned to peppering kisses across the chest, his gel-covered fingers returning to explore the older man’s intimate pathway.

“Try inserting it.” Singha said, pulling Thup’s face up for another kiss. Although it wasn’t his first time, he had been celibate for so long that rushing would spoil the fun.

Thup had beautiful hands; his long, slender fingers were admired by many for a long time. He always thought they were only good for that much, but who knew they’d be beneficial in bedroom matters too? The first two fingers slowly entered the tight passage, every movement constricted tightly, allowing Thup to feel everything inside, accompanied by soft moans from the one he was kissing. This made Thup open his eyes to look. He saw the senior’s furrowed brows, unsure if he was doing it right.

“Am I doing it right, Phii?”

“Deeper, go deeper.” Singha panted, looking down at himself, feeling the fingers slowly push inside, making him moan softly in his throat until… “Ahhh! There, right there.”

“Here, right?” Thup pressed again at the same spot, seeing the older man’s body jerk, he started pressing repeatedly as he had read this was likely a sensitive spot that would bring immense pleasure to his partner. “Does it feel good, Phii? Does it feel good?”

Singha looked up and gave a challenging smile. He wrapped his arms around Thup’s neck and teasingly licked the tip of his chin.

“It would feel better if you took your fingers out… and replaced them with something else.”

“Will… will it hurt you, Phii?”

“Getting stabbed with steel didn’t kill me, you think you can do worse?” The double entendre made Thup blush and bury his face into the shoulder.

He’s really strong, just like Phii Say said.

Thup withdrew his fingers and sat up, looking at the older man with sparkling eyes. His small heart was beating wildly, especially when their eyes met, those beautiful night-colored eyes, he was falling, falling so hard for the person in front of him. “If it hurts, tell Thup, okay? I will stop, won’t do it anymore.”

“With how hard you are, you won’t do it?” Singha used his toes to stroke the firm, colored shaft, causing the young man to moan immediately.

“Ah, no… not if you’re in pain.”

“Heh, I doubt I’ll cry out from pain, more likely from something else.” The long legs spread apart, urging the young man in front of him to stop being hesitant.

Thup bit his lip to prevent a foolish smile from escaping. He stood up, grabbed a condom, carefully tore it open, and slid it onto his aching, almost exploding body. Thup positioned himself between the older man’s legs, his heart pounding loudly. If he did something wrong, he didn’t know if he’d be scolded or abandoned, and if he was abandoned, would he be left entirely?

“Phii Singha… you won’t leave me, will you?”

Singha looked at the boy above him, looking almost like he might cry out of pity, yet below, he was poised to enter him.

“Come down here.” Singha beckoned with his finger for the young man to come closer, his thick hands cradling the clear face before biting softly on the stubborn nose tip. “Why would I leave you?”

“If one day… if one day you get bored of me?”

“Do I seem like that kind of person?” Thup shook his head vigorously, his hair bouncing. “I wouldn’t leave you just because you’re not good at it, Thup. We haven’t even started yet.”

Thup affectionately nuzzled the older man’s cheek with a big kiss before enveloping him in a loving embrace. The young man seemed to gain confidence from this good energy. He rubbed his shaft against the back passage of the man beneath him, looking at it before slowly pushing inside, not in a rush. The tightness made him clench his jaw so hard that veins appeared on his jawline, sweat beading at his temples and down his back. He could barely restrain himself, wanting to thrust wildly but feared the older man might feel pain; it felt so good that…

Singha watched as Thup inserted himself, the tightness in his belly coming with a tingling pleasure, making him grip the bed sheet tightly. He bit his lip to keep from crying out, afraid of startling Thup.

The young man looked up at the older man, smiling when he was fully inside. Thup leaned down to hug Singha, their lower bodies still joined.

“Very good, pup.” Singha patted Thup’s head gently before taking a deep breath. “Now, you can move.”

“You’re everything to me, Phii Singha.” Thup said before kissing the sharp jawline. He straightened up, pulling Singha’s legs over his shoulders.

The pale hips began to move with a slow rhythm, thrusting his shaft fully in and out, creating friction inside. Thup held onto the legs firmly before letting his emotions guide him. His full lips kissed and sucked on Singha’s calf in devotion before starting to thrust with faster and stronger movements.

“Deeper, ah, deeper Thup.” It didn’t take long for any pain to vanish, leaving only the pleasure that made him smile as he watched his pup grow today. “Ugh, good boy, ah, harder.”

Thup was never used to the older man’s hot words. He always blushed when hearing them, yet he loved it so much. The young man increased the force of his thrusts as requested, leaning down to suck on Singha’s firm chest. The more the long legs were pushed back against the chest, the more the back passage was positioned perfectly for his shaft to hammer into.

Singha wraps his arms around the neck of the person on top, releasing his emotions onto the smooth white back. No need to think about how red the marks will be tomorrow morning. Each thrust hits the spot, making him bite down hard.

“I love your voice, please call my name again, Phii.” The young man pleads, even though his lower half shows no mercy. Soft lips kiss and nibble at Singha’s lips before moving all over his face.

“Thup, ah, good boy, ah, very good.” All the praise from Singha’s mouth seems to fuel the young man on top, growing from a pup into a full-grown dog. Thup thrusts upwards before leaning down to lick the chest of the person below.

“Phii, ah, I am close.”

“Faster, ah.” Singha barely hears anything now. His mind goes blank, white. He looks up at the young man on top, cups his face, and kisses the flushed pink cheeks before whispering in his ear, “Finish inside.”

“Ahh!!!” Thup climaxes immediately upon hearing this, as does Singha, feeling the warmth inside despite wearing protection. Not long after, he too reaches his peak, leaving love stains on both their stomachs.

Breaths heave throughout the room, the bed looking like it’s just been through a battlefield. Thup withdraws and collapses onto Singha’s chest, listening to the strong heartbeat. The young man looks up, resting on the chest, and smiles broadly at his elder.

“Did you like it, Phii?”

“Like what?”

“Like me.” Thup’s words make Singha lift his head to look before lying back down.

“Hmph. If I didn’t like it, would you be lying on my chest like this?” Thup buries his face into Singha’s chest, making puppy-like sounds of contentment, prompting Singha to gently stroke his head.

“Tomorrow, you said you have work at ten, right?”

“Mhm.”

“Must we use all of these?” Thup stood up, grabbing a bag of condoms that hadn’t yet fallen beside the bed.

“What do you think?” Singha got up too, looking at his body covered in love marks from the young pup in front of him, the young inspector squinted, his eyes gleaming with mischief before he chuckled in his throat. “I’ll be back, just need a smoke first.”

Singha got up to grab a cigarette from the table, but before he could leave the room, the young pup approached from behind, embracing him.

“Phii… it’s bitter.” Thup kissed the back of his neck before resting his face on his shoulder.

Singha pushed his tongue against his cheek, then roughly brushed back his messy hair. He took the cigarette out of his mouth and dropped it on the floor, then turned to face the kid behind him.

“Not smoking that damn cigarette anymore. I’ll smoke you instead.”

Thup laughed brightly, following Singha back to the bed. The young man was thrown onto it, with Singha straddling him once again, rubbing against his tanned buttocks until his arousal began to harden.

“Switching to smoking me… is good, healthier too.”

Singha lightly tapped his forehead with the back of his hand, followed by a deep kiss to distract from the cigarette he just tossed away. He’d remember that in bed… this kid wasn’t just a pup anymore.

 

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