SMNTCERR, Chapter 44: Magenta #3.
Sangwoo continued to keep his eyes closed, allowing the silence to pass for a while.
“Do you want me to come inside?”
The other side of him became more sensitive.
“Don’t you want to?”
The other side’s symptoms seemed strange since earlier… Jaeyoung understood that there must be some resistance, but it didn’t seem so straightforward. However, what they both wanted was right in front of them now. The young man had no time to pay attention to Sangwoo, and even now, even though he had cummed once, the headless trunk of desire remained erect as before.
“First… Please back off first. I have something to say, but I can’t say it in this situation.”
The other side probably meant the disheveled state of clothing. The clothes were damp, his cheeks stained with milky white spots. Moreover, the cock was still standing there. Jaeyoung glanced down at Sangwoo, who suddenly showed a fluctuating mood, but then returned to the driver’s seat. He managed to put on pants, opened the console of the car and grabbed the prepared condom bag to put in his pants pocket. As for the clothes, he thought he would have to take them off before putting them on properly.
In the meantime, Sangwoo got out of the car and walked quickly towards the building. Why did he look like he was trying to escape? Jaeyoung quickly got out of the car and chased after him.
Yes, that’s right… The other party was fleeing because Sangwoo’s unbuttoned shirt fluttered as he ran up the stairs, two steps at a time. Jaeyoung followed him and managed to catch up with Sangwoo on the thirdfloor stairs. He wrapped his arms around his waist from behind, causing him to turn around.
“Why are you running away?”
The staircase in the apartment building was dark, so Sangwoo’s eyes reflected the light from the street that shone through the window. The eyes that were once emotionless upon first sight now contained hidden hatred and annoyance. When he looked beyond the bindings that covered him, he would encounter a certain intense heat. However, Jaeyoung also saw the trembling turmoil behind that intense heat.
Why? It wasn’t enough to have moments of happiness. Why was it so difficult to put on a calm expression on his face? It seemed like there was something to say. He wondered if he was being too indifferent, but Jaeyoung didn’t want to hear anything at that moment. He tightened his arm around Sangwoo’s waist.
‘There’s a better way. And why do we have to speak?’
He was ready to use his body to express the emotions that were tightly packed in his heart and inject them into his bloodstream. He leaned Sangwoo’s body against him and closed his eyes, pressing his lips against the base of his neck. His fingertips slid along his back and the edge of his lips moved upwards.
Sangwoo’s body was feverish, like someone with a fever, and Jaeyoung’s fingers moved from his back down to his waist, moving up slowly along the side, touching each rib. While feeling a shiver under his arm, the sleeve of the shirt was pushed off, and his fingers trailed down the muscles on his arm until they reached his hand and intertwined.
As soon as their eyes met, Jaeyoung’s chest was forcefully pushed back, retreating two steps until his back touched the cold wall, and he felt a menacing presence approaching him closely.
“But… it’s making it impossible for me to speak.”
The two pairs of lips were just inches apart. Apart from the smell of alcohol. It was clear that there were hormones spreading out, stirring them up. Otherwise, it would be impossible to explain this turbulent state of mind.
“Why… Do you enjoy tempting people and making them suffer?”
Sangwoo’s forehead touched Jaeyoung’s forehead. When the other party used his hand to cover his eyes, Jaeyoung’s vision became dark, his heart beating as if it would explode. In an instant, Sangwoo’s lips touched
Jaeyoung’s neck. Jaeyoung felt as if he was being forced to do the same
thing again, biting down on his neck bone, his tongue hotly caressing the skin. Even though his consciousness was blurred by the teasing, the stairs leading up to the quiet building were filled with the sound of footsteps.
Jaeyoung couldn’t bear it anymore and held Sangwoo tightly in his arms. Then he pushed the other party up the stairs until they reached a small area less than one pyong [1], pushing him against the wall. At that moment, Sangwoo grabbed Jaeyoung’s wrist and pushed him into the corner.
“Now it’s my turn.”
Sangwoo continued from where he had stopped a while ago, without saying anything, and held Jaeyoung’s hand tightly, afraid that Jaeyoung would escape. Jaeyoung let Sangwoo do as he pleased, but staying indifferent was too difficult. His body was not satisfied, he wanted to take off all of Sangwoo’s clothes, to hold him tight, and merge into one. How narrow would the space inside Sangwoo be? How aroused would the other side become? He kept thinking about these things until his head felt dizzy.
“Go into the room first.”
Jaeyoung grasped Sangwoo’s wrist that had slid into his waist and slowly stepped forward. He didn’t know why he felt like unlocking the door took too long. Jaeyoung thought that he couldn’t bear it any longer, but sometimes, if he touched Sangwoo’s chest and kissed him, it might make time stretch even further. Sangwoo entered the wrong code three times before the door finally opened.
As soon as they entered the dark room, Jaeyoung hugged Sangwoo’s body and pushed the other side to the back. He quickly found the position of the bed and pushed the other side down, immediately climbing on top. Just when he was about to kiss, Sangwoo turned his face and pushed Jaeyoung away.
“I need… some time to prepare.”
Jaeyoung ignored the words of the other side and held the chin of the person beneath him to make him turn back and looked at him, then pressed his lips down. Sangwoo used force to push Jaeyoung’s face away.
“I told you I need to prepare… Ah, hyung, please…”
Jaeyoung unbuttoned Sangwoo’s pants and pulled them down. At that moment, Sangwoo’s body stood up and tensed with an angry expression.
“Please wait! Just stop for a moment and give me some time to prepare.”
While being shocked by the unexpected turn of events, Jaeyoung heard a loud door closing. He turned to look at the bathroom door. Then he stood against the wall for a while before sitting on the floor feeling empty.
“What is it?”
“Please wait a moment. Just for a moment.”
Then came the sound of water, but it didn’t sound like the sound of a faucet. Jaeyoung thought the other side was probably washing his face in the bathroom sink. He stood leaning against the wall before finally sitting on the floor.
When the overwhelming emotions subsided a bit, he thought of drinking a glass of water, so he stood up and felt around for the light switch. When he turned on the light, he found a studio room separated from the kitchen area, clean and sparkling like new, with few pieces of furniture, giving a sense of spaciousness.
Apart from the bed, two desks, a bookshelf, a clothes rack, and a small cabinet, there is no other furniture in the room. In the kitchen, there is a gas stove, wall shelves, and a refrigerator. When I tried opening the refrigerator, there were seven cans of coffee, two or three eggs, one pack of milk, and two bottles of water.
He opened a bottle of water and walked back to the room. There was no chair in the room, so he leaned against the bed, on the white bedsheet.
There was a blue blanket neatly covering the corner.
‘He sleeps here every day.’
That organ that defied him to calm down felt like it had blood flowing through it again. Jaeyoung looked away.
The bookshelf only had big programming books; there were no regular novels at all. On the top of the hanging rack, there were hangers for shirts and jackets, while the bottom had trousers, six shirts, and two pairs of pants. They all looked familiar; there wasn’t a piece he hadn’t seen before. He secretly thought that the other party must have clothing criteria because it looked like they were arranged in order.
There are two tables in the room. One table only has a lamp, probably for reading. The other larger table is a work desk with a large desktop computer and a dual monitor, UHD, forty inches, which seems to be connected to a clear CPU case. Just by looking at it, you can tell it’s highend. In addition to this, there is also an expensive mechanical keyboard, gaming mouse, and speakers.
“It might cost around three million won [2[.”
The computer on the table looks more expensive than all the other items in the house combined, judging from the difference between the hanging rack and the computer… Jaeyoung thought that it suited Sangwoo well and couldn’t help but smile silently.
“Jaeyoung-hyung.”
When he heard that sound, he jumped up as if he was startled and ran to the bathroom.
“Oh, why? What’s wrong? Are you not feeling well somewhere?”
“I’m a bit sober.”
Sangwoo spoke calmly, feeling that it was strange and not good to reach this point, so he probably wouldn’t say that he didn’t like it. Jaeyoung’s heart was in turmoil, and while he was waiting, he heard a loud noise coming from behind the door.
“I’m trying to make it better… I’ve been trying… I’ve studied a lot, really… but I’m not confident.”
“…”
“Please go back.”
“Ha?”
Jaeyoung was speechless. If he felt uneasy about having a relationship with a man, he understood. Moreover, he knew that Chu Sangwoo’s personality was many times more severe than that, but until just now, the other party had still clung to him intimately and seemed happy. After hearing this, he was simply shocked, after thinking about what to say and deleting it several times. Jaeyoung finally opened his mouth.
“Did I force my way in? Were you not okay with this?”
He could sense the coldness in his voice. After a moment of hesitation, the other side finally replied.
“I know you, Sunbae will be angry, but still…”
“I’m not angry, I just don’t understand at all.”
“I couldn’t do what was in the video, just that.”
It was a polite way of saying that his expectations had turned into mere scraps of paper for Sangwoo, while Jaeyoung’s breathing became heavier and his heart was on the verge of exploding from happiness, now overwhelmed by anger.
“Does this mean we won’t meet again? Not even for games or anything?”
“I guess I’ve gone crazy myself, please help me by leaving.”
“Are you crazy or something?”
He exploded with anger, his voice cracking. Even though Sangwoo acted nice, there were times when he deliberately stirred up trouble, and this time it turned out to be the worst.
“Why are you so thoughtless?”
“I asked you to go back, how can I not ask for that?”
“Come out, stop hiding, you animal! If you’re going to talk like that, say it to my face.”
The other side remained silent. Chu Sangwoo must have some problems. Just when things were going well, he found a way to make everything chaotic again, and this time it was the worst.
Jaeyoung cursed and slammed the door, feeling like a frustrated person who couldn’t have sex and felt disgusted with himself, but he had no intention of apologizing anymore. Even though he cursed before, his feelings didn’t improve at all. Sangwoo remained silent for a while. Then there was the sound of the door closing, bang.
“It’s easy for you, isn’t it? Just stay indifferent, that’s enough!”
“Stop talking nonsense. I can’t go on like this. Come out and speak so I can understand. If not, then I won’t go anywhere.”
“If we go out, what then? We’ll kiss…touch each other…like there’s no tomorrow. Without holding back. Isn’t that what you want?”
“If you can’t hold back, let it be. And don’t pretend to be cautious!”
“How can you say something so easy like that? Because I can’t do anything at all!”
“Why are you saying things I don’t understand like that!”
Jaeyoung screamed and banged his head against the back of the door before slumping down to sit on the floor. Sometimes, just thinking about what to do with this guy would be foolish. This stubborn person who only looks ahead on the path he knows. Never taking a step towards suspicious paths, always doing what he’s used to.
“You’ve been living like that your whole life, doing what you used to do, wearing the clothes you used to wear, eating the things you used to eat. It’s not deviating from your grand life plan even a bit.”
“I’ve been living a good life all this time. Until you hyung interfered.”
Now it’s the same as before. He didn’t do anything wrong, everything is his fault. Jaeyoung felt a throbbing headache. Just when he thought that the matter that intruded and disrupted both their lives was a real thing, he felt even more of a headache.
But it’s not a one-sided relationship. If Jaeyoung is destroying Sangwoo’s daily life. Sangwoo himself wouldn’t be any different. Jaeyoung cared for Sangwoo, devoted time and effort to playing games with him, and both sides were affected by each other. But that brat never realized that it was a matter between two people. In Sangwoo’s thoughts, there are only perpetrators and victims, and he gets heated because he wants to protect his daily life.
Jaeyoung couldn’t tolerate that.
“Let’s talk first, you brat.”
“No.”
“Come out when I’m still talking nicely.”
“Just go away for now.”
“Don’t provoke me. If you don’t come out within ten seconds, I’ll do something you won’t know about.”
“You jerk. Just try…”
“I will try, what next? Do you think I can’t break this door?”
“Well, try it then. I’ll wait and see if you can make it to the police station without any doubts, big brother.”
Chu Sangwoo seemed like he was born to provoke Jaeyoung. Jaeyoung looked around the room with an annoyed face before speaking.
“The computer looks expensive.”
“Don’t look at the computer! Absolutely not!” Sangwoo replied in a mocking tone.
“Ten.”
“Oh…I already refused, didn’t I?”
“Eight, the wire is gone. You should have said something before I entered this room.”
“At that time, I wasn’t in a state to make decisions. I drank too much, and you hyung just kept serving me more…”
“Don’t listen, seven.”
“Hyung, you wouldn’t force anyone to have sex against their will.”
“Five… Get out. I’ll talk to the kid in your pants myself.”
“Now it’s calm.”
“Just three seconds remaining.”
“Oh, damn… damn it.”
Though he spoke like that, Sangwoo quickly opened the door before the time ran out. Jaeyoung evaded the preemptive attack and leaned against the wall, looking at Sangwoo who exhaled heavily with a flushed face. His shirt on top was neatly buttoned with three buttons, while the bottom had no buttons, making it slightly disheveled.
“I’m speaking from the bottom of my heart. I’m so stressed because of you, hyung. It might make me feel worse.”
‘What’s wrong with him?’
Jaeyoung blinked at the other side and remained silent for a moment. He was surprised by how straightforward Sangwoo was—how he suddenly came to find him at the restaurant and waited there, saying there were things to talk about after pushing him away coldly, including when he calmly said they should sleep together. Therefore, he thought this time they would really do it. Even though he was the type of person who would proceed firmly if he agreed, why did it turn out like this all of a sudden?
“Explain it properly, don’t forget that I’m a person. No, not an NPC.”
“…”
“It’s not something that can be easily spoken out like that?”
Sangwoo looked down at the floor with a sullen face, but when he heard those words, he raised his eyes to look.
“Easy… is that so?”
“And isn’t it true? You immediately cut off contact as if you were closing a website, thinking that human relationships are as easy as that.”
“Everything must be easy for you, hyung! You are so skillful and experienced… to the point of not feeling anything. I don’t even know what situation I’m in.”
“Then just say what you are worried about, because all I see is that you’re doing well and carefree.”
“I’ve been trying to speak since earlier. But in my mind, it’s all blank and confusing, and the feeling is strange…”
“So just forget about it. What’s the problem?”
“I told you not to send such provocative words!”
Sangwoo’s voice cracked. Jaeyoung slightly recoiled, while the other side’s posture seemed aggressive as if ready to strike. Both locked eyes for a while, and it seemed like Sangwoo was genuinely angry—his remaining eye gleaming sharply. If he were stabbed, it would hurt to watch.
After who knows how long, those pairs of black eyes turned watery, and Sangwoo’s face gradually twisted each time, making him flinch.
“Sangwoo?”
Jaeyoung shifted his legs automatically and stood up. When they were at eye level, he could clearly see the tears welling up in those eyes, the trembling muscles on the face, and the clenched lips. Jaeyoung reached out to touch the cheek of the person in front of him unintentionally, but of course, he was rejected.
“Sang… Are you crying?”
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[1] 1 pyeong = 3.3058 square meters.
[2] 3 million won, approximately 2250 USD.
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