SMNTCERR, Chapter 71: Yellow #13.

   “Today, hyung you look very strange.”

   “Why?”

   “I’ve never seen you dress like this before. And I’ve never smelled this scent before.”

   “And don’t you like it?”

   “…No.”

   “Then it doesn’t matter.”

   “And… What happened at the funeral?”

   Jaeyoung thought that now Sangwoo could imitate humans without any problems. As soon as he hugged him tightly, Sangwoo lightly patted his shoulder.

   “When you said someone did something, who was it?”

   “Aunt, uncle in laws, uncle, and the aunt in laws. And older siblings and younger siblings, someone went to scold them.”

   “Stupid man, this, are you sulking because you were bothered by your relatives a little?”

   “You have to comfort me, do you think I came here to be bullied or something?”

   “Do you mean to comfort you physically with my body?”

   “You’re overthinking it. It’s not like that. Be careful with your words.”  Jaeyoung was frustrated with Sangwoo, knowing that the other had no function for “warmth and comfort.” The truth didn’t matter anymore, as Sangwoo had just dumped his weight onto Jaeyoung and was now fully inhaling his scent. Jaeyoung didn’t want any more comfort.

   Sangwoo was silent for a long moment, which was unbearable for Jaeyoung.

   He felt like his body was weak and exhausted to the point of almost collapsing.

   The other finally spoke up.

   “In nature, strong creatures live alone. For example, black mambas can produce venom from the moment they hatch and therefore don’t need a pack to protect themselves.”

   “…”

   “As for the animals that can’t do that, there’s a reason they have to live together in large groups. Herbivores have low individual strength and need to be in a group to protect themselves from predators, while carnivores form packs to hunt.”

   Jaeyoung listened to the lecture on zoology that had suddenly started with a speechless feeling. Sangwoo gave detailed descriptions of animals such as lemurs, monkeys, and hyenas before asking.

   “What type are you?”

   “I don’t know.”

   He couldn’t answer seriously because it wasn’t logical to compare animals and humans. Moreover, it was impossible for Sangwoo, who grew up in a normal family, to understand the situation of a broken family that was commonly seen in dramas.

   “If it’s a child of a mammal that feeds its young with milk from its pouch, it’s a different story. When they reach adulthood, they have to separate and live their own lives. If they’re weak, they’ll have to rely on a group, but if living with a group harms them…”

   Sangwoo spoke in a flat tone for a moment.

   “Just avoid them? Are you sure if you can survive without a family?”

   That was a way of thinking that said to find the root of the problem and eliminate it when there was a problem. What the other said wasn’t wrong, but it was just that he didn’t know his situation. Normally, people tend to think that this kind of thinking is cold.

   “Do your parents know that you think like this?”

   “Of course. I left home five years ago.”

   “Are your parents disappointed?”

   “I try to maintain my connection with my family by calling them every month and visiting them every six months. And I plan to return the money that they all spent on me for the next nine years.”

   “…You hyung, sounds like a grateful kid.”

   Although he spoke like that, it was clear that Sangwoo grew up in a loving family. His father insisted on adding a heart at the end of his name on a phone list. His mother was afraid that her son, who had no mouth filter, would have trouble fitting in and taught him etiquette in drinking on his own. His older sister often quarreled with her younger brother like any other siblings.

   Sometimes, that might be the reason why the other party was emotionally stable. Ignoring other people’s opinions and having high self-respect. Jaeyoung felt envious and jealous of the two men who were embracing each other at the same time.

   “Hyung, you are contradictory. Even though you skipped important classes all the time. And why won’t you miss the funeral, which is nothing but a headache.”

   “If I don’t go, it’ll be a problem.”

   “Let it be. Those relatives are just like any other people. No one can force you.”

   “You’re right about everything.”

   Jaeyoung smiled unconsciously, it was strange that such a ridiculous problem-solving method made him calm, and the conclusion helped him brush away the stress and feel refreshed like carbonated water.

   “It’s over, I’ve never seen a red demon wearing a hat before.”

   Hearing the other party murmuring, Jaeyoung hugged Sangwoo tightly.

   “Am I stupid?”

   “A little bit. I understand because we all have weaknesses. Even Superman has kryptonite.”

   “That’s right. A perfect man like me must have weaknesses too.”

   Jaeyoung thought that was not a bad comparison. One weakness, ‘family’, which his grandfather had been giving him for a long time, made Jaeyoung vulnerable. No different from Superman who lost his power when he encountered kryptonite. At that time, he was suspicious.

   “Then what is your kryptonite?”

   “I don’t have anything like that.” Sangwoo answered without hesitation.

   Jaeyoung accepted it without any doubt.

   “That’s good. A Superman without weaknesses.”

   Lack of social skills, senses, empathy, but that might not be a disadvantage for a black mamba that is strong, because even if they cannot get along with others, they can still live on their own.

   “You’ve probably been living like that all your life.”

   Sangwoo patted Jaeyoung’s back twice and said. “Okay then.

   It’s done.”

   The technician was a gentle comforter.

   “Do you want a kiss now?”

   “Oh.”

   Jaeyoung’s fingers held onto both sides of Sangwoo’s cheeks. Jaeyoung closed his eyes and closed his eyes, but Sangwoo tilted his face up to his own level. Then he just lingered there for a moment without doing anything, his finger traced Jaeyoung’s forehead and then came to rest on his brow. Then he slowly trailed down his nose, across his cheeks, and then over the ridge above his lips before finally coming to rest on his mouth.

   “Why did those people come causing problems for a good-looking relative like this?”

   As he let out a smile, something else touched the corner of Jaeyoung’s lips instead of his finger. It was something that sucked and pulled the lower lip of Jaeyoung into his mouth, and sent a soft, gentle tongue to caress it. Sangwoo licked Jaeyoung’s lips and alternated with sucking. When he opened his mouth wide, the other side sent his tongue in.

   ‘I feel really good now.’

   After practicing a lot, he became a full-fledged player. Jaeyoung forgot about his fatigue and was pulled along by Sangwoo’s seduction. He felt like he had turned into a melting chocolate in the warm mouth, and let the other side explore the depths of his mouth gently. While their tongues were entwined, his consciousness drifted away, and his lips and tongue were stimulated by Sangwoo’s touch, causing his thoughts to pause.

   After their lips naturally separated, Jaeyoung pulled Sangwoo back into his arms and whispered in his ear.

   “Can I stay here tonight and leave in the morning?”

   “Yes.”

   ‘Aren’t you answering too quickly?’

   “Then bring me some pajamas, I’ll go take a shower.”

   “No, there is no time for you to change clothes.”

   Sangwoo quickly replied and grabbed Jaeyoung’s arm, pulling him towards the bed. The other side’s face turned red with anticipation. There was a fire in his eyes. Although he fell onto the bed due to the force, Jaeyoung still didn’t feel like doing anything. He grabbed Sangwoo as he climbed up onto his stomach and pulled him down to hug him, flipping over to lie on his side.

   “Sangwooya.”

   “Yes?”

   “Let’s just sleep and hug each other like parents do with their children.” With that said, he remembered something and added.

   “We are both men, so we can’t get married, but it’s just a metaphor. If you don’t feel good, I’ll be the mother and you can be the father.”

   Sangwoo just stared at him without saying anything. Jaeyoung pushed his body closer and inserted his leg between Sangwoo’s, their chests touching and the warmth inviting a good feeling. The intense feeling that almost made their hearts explode began to subside, replaced by a warm and soothing feeling that made the corners of their mouths lift and small waves that helped eliminate hatred and anxiety, making their hearts calm down. Jaeyoung thought it was good that he came to find Sangwoo.

   Suddenly, Sangwoo, who was lying still, asked him.

   “Are you not going to do anything?”

   When he didn’t answer, Sangwoo began to move and pushed his head forward to meet his gaze.

   “If you were a parent, you would have to take care of the baby, wouldn’t you?”

   Jaeyoung pressed his head against the other side again and hugged his body tighter.

   “I want to stay like this more.”

   ‘Please. Chu Sangwoo, I didn’t come here to have sex with you, but to see your face differently.’

   No matter how much he begged in his heart, Sangwoo couldn’t acknowledge the command that wasn’t given to him. Sangwoo pushed Jaeyoung’s chest out to create some distance, then looked down. Jaeyoung used his other hand to cover his eyes before turning over and facing the other way, but the moment had passed.

   “A sexual desire is beyond the control of reason. I understand that feeling well.”

   “…”

   At that moment, he hated himself for being born a man. Jaeyoung didn’t really think about having sex, but as soon as he saw Sangwoo’s face, his body responded on its own. Sangwoo moved closer and hugged his back. Then he whispered in his ear as if he understood everything.

   “I just saw you wear a suit for the first time, so I wanted to do this too, but if you don’t want to lose your humanity, I respect that decision.”

   Giving in became the ultimate temptation and spark for his desire. Jaeyoung could feel the blood flowing throughout his body.

   “Chu Sangwoo.”

   “What is it?”

   “Where are the condoms?”

   “Who said he wouldn’t do it?”

   “I said I wouldn’t do it, but you won’t stay still enough for me to calm down.”

   “I don’t want to force someone who’s not willing…”

   “Hurry up and get it before I can’t take it anymore and put my cock inside you myself, please.”

   Jaeyoung’s body, which had been pressed against Sangwoo’s back, slid away as the light went out, followed by Sangwoo who returned with a condom from the same brand as before. As Jaeyoung reached out to pull the other side in for a hug, Sangwoo pushed him down on his back.

   “Hyung, you looked tired today, I’ll take care of it myself.”

   “What?”

   “Just be still.”

   He finished speaking. Sangwoo sat down at the end of the bed and quickly unbuttoned his pajamas. Jaeyoung looked at the other side in a half-sitting, halflying position before slowly lying down. He looked at the thin pajamas slipping down to reveal Sangwoo’s body, and he swallowed hard. Although he imagined himself tearing the clothes into pieces and rushing inside Sangwoo, he still remembered the order to stay calm.

   Sangwoo took off his pajamas and neatly folded them into a rectangle before facing Jaeyoung. At that moment, the person in front did something unexpected. Sangwoo pulled down his pants a little and put a condom on his own cock without waiting for permission.

   “Sangwoo?”

   ‘Does “be still” mean this?’

   Jaeyoung was startled to the point of stiffness. Although he had thought that this might happen someday, he didn’t expect it to be today. He intended to talk to Sangwoo about this and agree to everything if the other side wanted, but he hadn’t prepared himself yet.

   ‘I should not have inferred to myself as the mother.’’

   Sangwoo moved closer and placed his hand above Jaeyoung’s pants button.

   Jaeyoung grabbed the other hand tightly and looked into his eyes.

   “Wait, I’m not ready yet…”

   “You’re acting strange today, hyung.”

   Sangwoo smiled and surprised Jaeyoung. He took advantage of the moment when he relaxed his grip on his pants and underwear at the same time. Jaeyoung decided to lie still and see what the other side would do, but he couldn’t help but worry in his heart.

   “Are we just going to lie here like this?”

   “Just wait a bit, it’ll calm down on its own.”

   “Look at yourself first before you speak.”

   Sangwoo complained that it was too slippery and grabbed a tissue to wipe himself off. He only lightly touched Jaeyoung with the tissue, but Jaeyoung felt like he was being licked and the desire in him grew stronger, causing his cock to continuously release fluids. However, Sangwoo persisted in wiping until he was done and then put on the condom for Jaeyoung.

   “Why put it on both of us?”

   “I thought since we had to throw away the shirt last time, we might as well wear condoms together. The shirt must be expensive, right?”

   Sangwoo spoke as if it wasn’t important and took off Jaeyoung’s coat. Jaeyoung’s anxiety and suspicion suddenly turned into excitement, causing his mind to go blank, but he was determined to wait and see something good if he waited a little longer.

   Sangwoo squeezed some lubricant onto the condom and spread it around with his fingers. Then he took a deep breath, lifted his hips, held on Jaeyoung’s shoulders with both hands, and placed his buttocks right on top of Jaeyung’s red stiff shaft. The small touch made Jaeyoung so excited that he almost lost control and grabbed onto Sangwoo’s arm. He held onto the white-hot arm tightly and relaxed it, and repeated it, but the desired reaction he was waiting for never came.

   “It’s not working.”

   Sangwoo frowned and, after trying a few more times, gave up and sat down on Jaeyoung’s thigh, looking pitiful.

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