SMNTCERR, Chapter 56 <1000> #3.
Sangwoo didn’t know how to stop this steeply rising graph. While his heart was pounding in his chest, they walked to the car. The distance that used to take ten minutes to run to the cinema took over thirty-five minutes to return.
Jaeyoung spoke with an unaffected expression.
“Finally here, huh?”
Now, in Sangwoo’s mind, he was constantly thinking about something else, so he didn’t bother about those words having any issues.
“Hyungnim.”
“Oh, come on.”
But it’s not easy at all, you know, it’s a complicated matter. Sangwoo startled himself and blurted out what had been lingering in his mouth, like uprooted weeds.
“How does it feel to sleep with a man?”
“Do you think it’s similar to being with a woman?”
“…”
“It’s just a matter of attraction between two people, nothing more.”
“Hyungnim.”
“Why again?”
“Nothing.”
Jaeyoung didn’t hesitate like before. He took out the car keys and unlocked the door quietly.
The atmosphere inside the car on the way back home was filled with tension. Jaeyoung kept looking straight ahead and drove without saying a word or making any meaningless remarks. Sangwoo didn’t dare to look at the other side and therefore didn’t know what expression the other person had on their face.
The car was running smoothly on an empty road, but deep inside, Sangwoo felt suffocated as if he couldn’t breathe. He couldn’t understand himself, whether he wanted to reach home quickly or wished for the walk to be slow so that he wouldn’t have to arrive home for sure.
However, no matter what Sangwoo desired, the car continued to run at a constant speed until it finally reached Sangwoo’s apartment complex. Jaeyoung parked the car neatly before turning off the engine. Then, silence prevailed, stretching out in an enduring feeling.
“Are you going to sleep here?”
Jaeyoung made a silent joke, but the atmosphere wasn’t suitable for laughter.
Even Sangwoo’s own face was tense.
“I still can’t get out.”
“Why not?”
“There’s something I need to do.”
Sangwoo knew well that if he didn’t appease him, he wouldn’t be calm. When he turned to look to the left, his eyes met with a pair of eyes that seemed to have been looking at him first. Jaeyoung leaned over and rested his elbow on the armrest.
“Just do it.”
While staring at the other side, Sangwoo assumed a nonchalant posture, but his heart raced like a drumbeat. Sangwoo did what he had never done before; he knelt on the console and swung his leg over to the driver’s seat before settling himself on Jaeyoung’s lap and using both hands to hold onto the other party’s shoulders. In an instant, Jaeyoung’s eyes widened and collided with his forehead with a pillow.
“Why are you so surprised when you told me to do it?”
Sangwoo raised his right hand and gently caressed the face of the person in front of him before closing his eyelids and moving closer.
‘Stay calm.’
He pressed his lips softly against Jaeyoung’s lips, contrary to the tumultuous heartbeats and the sound of their breathing.
‘Take it slow.’
He kissed the other party’s lips as he had practiced before, touching the soft skin inside their lips and lightly running his hand along their neck.
‘Gentle.’
Jaeyoung remained still for a moment before responding. Sangwoo sucked on the other party’s lips and then let go. Then, he took Jaeyoung’s tongue into his mouth.
‘Breathe through your nose.’
Sangwoo tilted his head to facilitate the kiss and stimulated the root of
Jaeyoung’s tongue, causing the other party to moan in their throat and their tongues to entwine. The person below reached their hand into the T-shirt, and the direct contact with the warm skin heightened the graph of sensations.
Jaeyoung traced his fingers along Sangwoo’s waist and back for a moment. Then he removed his cap and tossed it aside. He held onto Sangwoo’s hair and used his fingertips to explore the spots he had previously seen but only glanced, such as the ears, eyelids, and nose, which seemed strangely stiff. Sangwoo suddenly used his hand to mess up the hairstyle that Jaeyoung had neatly arranged, as it was not easy to have an opportunity to touch each other like this.
The intensity of the kiss grew stronger and showed no signs of diminishing. Sangwoo felt both joy and excitement. He didn’t know how many times they changed the angle of their kisses before he finally pulled his face away from Jaeyoung’s face. Sangwoo thought that if it was about this, they could continue doing it all the time, so he felt a tinge of regret, but he also looked deep into
Jaeyoung’s eyes. This was the first time he saw Jaeyoung with such a flushed face.
“Hubaenim… Did you practice?”
“Yes.”
He discreetly glanced at the watch and realized that they had been kissing for more than nine minutes, which proved that the practice paid off. Jaeyoung gasped for breath and blushed.
“How was it? With… someone?”
“I won’t tell.”
“Did you not practice having sex with anyone else, right?”
“Yes.”
“Then let’s go.”
Jaeyoung looked at Sangwoo in his disheveled state. Sangwoo could feel a certain driving force in his eyes that resembled his own. From the beginning, Jang Jaeyoung never thought of suppressing his desires.
“I… I’ll go first.”
Sangwoo reached out to grab the car door, hoping to escape from the cramped situation he was sitting in on someone else’s lap. At that moment, Jaeyoung hugged Sangwoo tightly, followed by planting a kiss on his forehead.
“Stay like this for a while. I’m too excited to calm down.”
Jaeyoung held Sangwoo in a tight embrace, almost suffocating him. Sangwoo closed his eyes and faced the intense desire that was trapped inside. It had always been like this, where he was often overwhelmed by overwhelming desires, and he had only managed to deal with it properly once.
“Hyung.”
Sangwoo didn’t intend to say anything, and it wasn’t a carefully chosen word.
What drove him was an unspoken desire that never reached its destination.
Jaeyoung didn’t reply, just took deep breaths. And exhaled. Sangwoo spoke again.
“I want to do it. Having sex with you.”
Silence filled the air. At this moment, Sangwoo was strangely calm. Although his heart was pounding, it had been like this since he saw Jaeyoung leaning against the car. He had a clear goal and knew that the most effective way to alleviate the tension was.
“Will you consent?”
The voice that came out was steady. And his mind was clear. The hand resting on Sangwoo’s shoulder exerted more force, waiting for a moment.
Jaeyoung responded with a trembling voice.
“Shall we go inside together?”
“I need time to prepare first.”
“How long?”
“One hour.”
Jaeyoung raised his left arm to look at his watch.
“I will come up to see you at 3.32 am.”
“Okay. See you then.”
Sangwoo said that before getting out of the car.
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Knock, knock!
Jang Jaeyoung knocked on the door as the minute hand moved from 32 to 33.
Just at that moment. Not even a second late or early, surprising even Sangwoo.
Sangwoo stared at the door for a moment before taking a deep breath and walking closer. He stopped a short distance from the door and reached out to unlock it. As the lock mechanism disaged, the sound ceased, and as soon as the door opened, he came face to face with Jaeyoung standing in the hallway, his posture intimidating enough to catch Sangwoo off guard.
The door hadn’t closed completely, and Jaeyoung’s shoes were nowhere to be seen. The birth control devices he held in his hands slipped and scattered on the floor like shooting stars, and his tall figure placed a wine bottle forcefully on a shelf, luckily without breaking it. After that, he lunged forward to find Sangwoo immediately.
For one hour, Sangwoo tried to control his emotions and help himself suppress desire, instead of getting too excited, even though he had prepared himself mentally. But when Jaeyoung approached closely and wrapped his arms around his waist, it made him excited. Only now did he realize that Jaeyoung had a much larger body than his own.
Jaeyoung pressed his lips against Sangwoo’s lower lip, then slowly moved across his upper lip, cheek, nose, forehead, and chin. Jaeyoung’s condition seems unstable, causing Sangwoo to worry, but the refreshing scent of toothpaste made him feel somewhat relaxed.
The edge of Jaeyoung’s lips nibbled on Sangwoo’s lower lip, then slid down his neck, leaving a moist trail, before flicking his tongue, creating a faint sound that made Sangwoo involuntarily stretch his neck. His hand, without realizing it, slipped into his shirt and had been caressing his back since who knows when, before finally reaching for his waist and pressing their lower bodies together. As soon as he realized something hard was in the middle of the other’s body, Sangwoo’s body stiffened. had practiced various scenarios and studied countless theories, but when it came down to it, he became excited and scared to the point where he couldn’t move a finger.
“You mean…”
“…”
“Have you… done this with a man before… for real?”
Jaeyoung licked Sangwoo’s throat without answering, just as the other party withdrew from his lips for a moment. The shirt, which he didn’t know when it had piled up above his chest, was easily taken off. While Sangwoo was surprised, now Jaeyoung became the one to close his mouth. Even though they had been kissing for nine minutes, it seemed like it wasn’t enough. Although he should have been accustomed to the kisses of the other party by now, in this situation, he didn’t know where to put his hands.
While they were kissing, Sangwoo felt that Jaeyoung was gradually pushing him back, step by step, one step, two steps, and suddenly there was a bed behind him. Even though he was lying down with closed eyes, Jaeyoung made it natural for Sangwoo to fall onto the bed, as if using judo techniques. His firm body leaned back, his head resting on the pillow. Then, a white ceiling appeared before his eyes.
‘Whatever happens, let it happen.’
The intense excitement made his body tense up completely. Sangwoo wanted to end whatever intimacy there was. As he lay naked on top, under the bright white light bulb, he felt a sense of embarrassment arise, but he couldn’t withdraw.
‘Just endure for another ten minutes, and it will probably be over.’
Sangwoo tightly closed his eyes and immersed himself in his thoughts. The hands that had touched his body disappeared. When he slightly opened his eyes and glanced at Jaeyoung, their eyes met, and those eyes looked intoxicated, as if they had been drinking together.
“Why are you still? You don’t seem like you did before.”
“…Because I’m excited.”
“Are you ready?”
“Don’t ask about tomorrow.”
“There’s no need to be nervous.”
“I’m ready. I’ve taken a bath and cleaned myself… Don’t worry. I’ve trimmed my nails. And I’ve douc-…”
Jaeyoung covered Sangwoo’s mouth with his hand.
“Shh. I didn’t ask for an explanation that big.”
“Uh, um,.”
“I understand… You don’t have to say anything.”
The other party removed his hand and replaced it with his lips. Sangwoo couldn’t think of anything except fear. The sound of the soft kisses disrupted the silence, Jaeyoung’s face hidden behind closed eyelids looked troubled, the touch of the hand sliding along his neck and waist, the weight pressing down on his legs, everything made Sangwoo tense up completely.
“What are you thinking?”
Jaeyoung withdrew his lips for a moment and asked. Sangwoo swallowed, unable to produce a sound. He didn’t know what to answer. In his mind, there were now steps for sexual intercourse, mechanisms of pleasure, tips he had read on the internet, safety guidelines and disease prevention, everything mixed together.
“Well, several things… .”
“Forget the theories, this here, it’s practical now.”
Jaeyoung finished speaking and kissed again, his fingers that had once grazed the earlobe slid down the neck, past the collarbone, down to the chest, the fingertips of the upper hand pressed lightly on an insignificant nodule on the man’s body before starting a gentle touch, rotating as if twisting. Then he gently squeezed again. On the other side, Sangwoo released from the edge of Jaeyoung’s lips and swallowed the other side of the chest, using his mouth to suck forcefully and using his teeth lightly.
“Ah…”
A strange moan escaped from the throat. Sangwoo quickly used his hand to cover his mouth, but Jaeyoung grabbed his arm and pulled it down again. The other side used the tip of his tongue to press against his chest for a long time until he had to lift his hips, his toes tensed. Sangwoo pressed the tip of Jaeyoung’s chin against his body, allowing the other side to bite the top of his earlobe as if given permission. Sangwoo clenched his teeth to suppress the moan.
‘Suffocating.’
While consciousness blurred, he could feel the release. The higher the sexual arousal and the more intense the sensation, the more the suffocation expanded. ‘Hurry… do something.’
Kissing and touching each other’s bodies is something they had done before. The reason he called Jaeyoung today was to make this overwhelming feeling reach its climax.
“That’s enough.”
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